As I stood up on all fours, approaching the abnormally huge wolf with the eyes of my imprint, I realised why he was my imprint. He was made for me even in wolf form, its obvious...his height was the perfect match for my petite lioness height. His muzzle would fit perfectly in the crook of my neck and my muzzle for him. But this realisation doesn't mean I'm going to accept the imprint any quicker, I still refuse to believe that he's my imprint...I mean if we're perfect for each other then why are our tribes mortal enemies? It really doesn't make sense to met; at all. But then again nothing has made sense to me since the change from mortal to immortal.

She is so gorgeous even when she's a lioness, her fur is the purest white it's absolutely beautiful. I heard Sam's voice in my head and looked at him panicked, why could he get inside my head without my permission? This isn't right something about this is wrong. But wait, he said my fur is white? No it's not it was deep brown. Ok something definitely isn't right now. Maybe if I think something towards him he could hear it? But do I really want to risk letting him have permission to access my thoughts? I guess I do but then again I really don't.

Next thing I knew Sam was moving towards me cautiously, so I quickly moved behind my favourite tree and phased back into a human. I didn't feel comfortable him being in my head, I felt like he was intruding on my inner thoughts. Normally I didn't mind people being in my head, I got it everyday with my pack but Sam being in my head...it didn't really feel right. It felt wrong somehow like he wasn't meant to know my thoughts yet. Just because we're imprints doing mean he needs to know every thought in my head right?

With that last thought, I put on my clothes again and walked out from behind the tree to see Sam just putting on his shorts. He noticed me and smiled slightly, I guess he realised that I felt uncomfortable with him being in my head...I like being human because I got privacy but I also love being a lioness because of the freedom I get with natural that normally people don't get to experience. I honestly believe if every human could have that feeling then we'd stop destroying the environment. If only.

"I'm sorry" Was the first words out of his mouth. But somehow I felt like they had many more reasons than the fact that he's sorry for being in my thoughts. I even doubt that he was saying sorry for that, he didn't really do it purposely it's a shape shifter thing.

"Don't be, you didn't do anything wrong." I answered him whilst climbing my favourite tree to get the best view of the reserves you can. Once I'd perched on my favourite branch I dangled my head down slightly, enough not to fall off of the branch all together but enough for him to see me and know where I am and that I'm alright. "Come up here, you have to see this." I shouted down to him giving him no choice really since if he didn't come up quick enough I'll drag him up myself and I really don't doubt that he knows that himself.

Once again, I was right as the next thing I know he's sat next to me, looking out at the reserves in astonishment. No one has really seen this before but me, I found this tree when I first changed. I was having a really tough day and I wanted nothing more then to just die like any other human being could do. But I couldn't so instead I grabbed my ipod and ran, in human form, throughout the forests with Good Charlotte banging through my brain and found this tree so I scaled it effortlessly; it was then I figured out I could make sure all of the guys were okay on a daily basis. It has kept me sane all of this time, so I thought I'd show it Sam to keep him sane too.

"How did you find...this?" He asked, still in shock I guess. Well I can't really blame him, the view is absolutely breath taking but I've gotten so used to it that I don't go in shock every time I scale this tree. Occasionally I've scaled it in lioness form; it was those times that I was so tempted to growl at the moon to make stereotypes real. But then again, I wasn't a stereotype, the La Push pack are.

"I was going into a state of depression after my change; it took me everything not to reject the change and be human...so I could kill myself. What I really needed was my family, but when I lost you guys, I lost all family completely. When I found this place, I was possibly at rock bottom and you know what the rumours say...when you reach rock bottom the only way you can go is up right? Well it took me a lot to get the feeling back into my body. I was quite literally numb. Took even longer to feel like myself again, feel like I was Isabella Marie Swan and not just some monster off of a really cheesy romance novel." I sighed, I didn't feel comfortable at all sat here with Sam…especially since I was his imprint and I didn't particularly want him to try and make a move on me. Or to think that everything could be back to normal again because in my eyes it couldn't be.

"Why didn't you call us?" He asked, reaching out to me. Great. Just what I wanted him to think, Bella wants the imprint, Bella isn't rejecting the imprint…Wrong! I don't know what I'm doing right now. All I know is my worst enemy is my imprint.

"You made it very clear you didn't want anything to do with me anymore Samuel Uley. Don't even try to make me sound like the bad guy." I growled, jumping off of the branch and running straight back home. I hated him, he wasn't sorry…he doesn't even know the meaning of sorry!

SAMPOV

Why am I so stupid? The most beautiful girl in the world is running away from me right now because I upset her…yet all I manage to do is sit and watch her. Smart one Sam. But I knew I needed to do something, I need her for some strange reason and I think I know why. She's my imprint and I'd be damned if she doesn't except that.

Suddenly, I felt a vibration in my pocket…Fiona, Shit. I am dead. But if I don't answer it I am definitely dead.

"Hello?" I asked, my voice breaking a little. Yes I know what you're thinking the big bad alpha wolf is afraid of a girl that is barely 5ft 2"…yes I am especially when that little girl is skilled and taught to kill a wolf in 10 seconds flat.

"Hey, have you seen Bella? She's disappeared from school and since you're her imprint we thought she might be with you or you could find her?" Fiona asked suspiciously noticing the fact that my voice broke. Damn it. What the hell do I say? Yeah I was with Bella but then I remembered her how I practically made her commit suicide, which caused her to get really upset, then I just watched her run away from me without even making a move to stop her. Weirdly enough I don't think that will go down well at all with Fiona.

"Erm…She was with me for a bit then she ran away." I missed out the whole story, practically, but they're the only bits they really need to know and it stops me from getting into trouble. "She could've went back home, I'll meet you at the school to help you look if you want?" I added, feeling bad that I was the reason Bella had practically went missing and using it as another excuse to see her. Because frankly it hurts not being around her, I don't know how she's ignoring it.

"Yeah that would be good but you will explain why Bella ran away on the way there." She growled down the phone, she really was scary as hell.

Pulling my phone from my ear I ran back towards the school as quickly as possible and found the two packs in their cars; Fiona was waiting for me in my car. Yay, she hasn't forgot. "Your home first?" I asked, as soon as she nodded I zoomed out of the school. Hoping no teachers or students have noticed the group of teenagers not in lessons or the sound of cars speeding out of the exit.

"Sam please explain what happened?" She asked as politely as she could without ripping my car apart. I knew this was killing her, I mean I was the cause for so much of her best friends heartache and pain that I was surprised she hadn't ripped me apart and burned me at the stake yet. But then again Fiona has always believed in giving me the benefit of the doubt and when we were twelve she had a crush on me but this is really not the best of times to start teasing her about her feelings from the past.

So I started to explain to Fiona exactly what happened in the tree, what was said and my theory to why Bella ran away. She nodded, she growled and she laughed…obviously my theory was completely wrong but at least I've managed to cheer somebody up today. "Ok, what's so funny?" I asked as we pulled up in the driveway of their house. We couldn't hear Bella's heartbeat but then we realised that they had had their house soundproofed so that a shape shifter or vampire couldn't hear in. Which was clever.

But we all walked into the house and the minute we did I wish we didn't.

BELLA POV

As soon as I got into the house, I knew I needed to do one thing. Play music and let out my emotions. Ever since I went through the suicidal phase I tried to find something that I loved to do that would calm me down when I was sad. First I tried running around as a wolf, it didn't work…that only seems to work when you're angry or stressed. So then I decided maybe drawing or writing would help, nope I would just get frustrated that I had nothing to draw or write about; which would lead into a run and would end up in me wasting more time each day on silly little things. Then I started listening to music and taught myself to play loads of instruments…found out it is the one thing that works for me. I have my own little music room in our attic: with a blue acoustic guitar in it, my beautiful piano, a banjo for when I'm in a folk music mood and any other instrument you can think of.

But me being me, I went to my absolute favourite instrument to play when I was sad, my piano, then started to sing about how I felt.

All this time I was wasting,Hoping you would come aroundI've been giving out chances every timeAnd all you do is let me downAnd it's taking me this longBaby but I figured you outAnd you're thinking we'll be fine again,But not this time aroundYou don't have to call anymoreI won't pick up the phoneThis is the last strawDon't wanna hurt anymoreAnd you can tell me that you're sorryBut I don't believe you babyLike I did - beforeYou're not sorry, no no ohLooking so innocent,I might believe you if I didn't knowCould've loved you all my lifeIf you hadn't left me waiting in the coldAnd you got your share of secretsAnd I'm tired of being last to knowAnd now you're asking me to listenCause it's worked each time beforeBut you don't have to call anymoreI won't pick up the phoneThis is the last strawDon't wanna hurt anymoreAnd you can tell me that you're sorryBut I don't believe you babyLike I did - beforeYou're not sorry, no no, ohYou're not sorry no no ohYou had me crawling for you honeyAnd it never would've gone away, noYou used to shine so brightBut I watched all of it fadeSo you don't have to call anymoreI won't pick up the phoneThis is the last strawThere's nothing left to beg forAnd you can tell me that you're sorryBut I don't believe you babyLike I did - beforeYou're not sorry, no no ohYou're not sorry, no no oh

Weirdly, I felt so much better letting out my tears through that song. I also knew that the two packs were downstairs listening as I heard loads of gasps when I'd finished but I really couldn't be bothered with them. Especially Sam. So I just got my favourite giraffe teddy that my dad brought me when I was five and I cuddled into the sofa bed, we have in the attic, and cried.

But it was a surprise to me when I felt someone stroking my hair off of my face, so I sat up straight and looked at who it was. Surprisingly it was….

Hey sorry for the really late updates I just am swamped in school work but I promise I'll update as soon as I can each week.

I hope you like it but yes it is a filler chapter so you might not.

All reviews welcome, night all (:

-Titch