I noticed I didn't make a disclaimer well here it is….
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own twilight or any of the amazing god-sent characters.
I know it shocked me when I found out too. Everyone said I should be in all white in a special house… have no fear I explained the concept of not wearing white after labor-day. I don't think they got it though…..hum , anyway here is the chapter.
BPOV
Mike stayed quite the whole ride while I prepared myself for the worst. There wasn't much that I could do and I knew that. All I could do was hope that I didn't die before I got out of forks. I would put up with anything else if it meant my survival.
He parked off to the side of the road , while he was walking around I wanted nothing more than to flee like a little rabbit but as I fumbled with the seat belt I knew I was like a deer caught it in the headlights.
He jerked the door open and ripped the seat belt off of me. Grabbing me by my ponytail he yanked me out of the cab and was dragging me off into the woods. All I could think of was how much my heart was pounding in my ears and if he could hear it too. He was babbling off about me being lucky he was even wasting his time with me.
How he should just kill me now and put everyone out of their misery. All I could think about was what my mother would do if she found out this was what she was leaving me to.
She would probably have a heart attack and die right then and there. I saw the trees and felt the leaves and the mud but I couldn't at the same time. I went numb , my whole body and I wondered if this was what happened to other people when something like this happened to them. If they just froze and felt nothing , was this my bodies way of protecting me?
I felt myself being thrown down and I fell onto some rocks. The dirt flew into my eyes and filled my nostrils. My palms and legs , knees especially where stinging. My guess from being thrown onto them. my eyes stung and I internally scolded my-self for what was about to come.
None could see me vulnerable. no one had beside my mom and that was only once. my scalp was now throbbing from where he grabbed my hair. I kept coughing from the dirt in my lungs. I was still on my hands and knees when I felt his boot hit me straight in the gut. I tried to hold my tears and the scream that threatened to escape my lungs. I felt the air being knocked out of me.
I doubled over while he grabbed another fist-full of my hair which had fallen out of the pony tail for some time now , he slapped me so hard that my body went flying to the other side of him. My face hit the dirt and he let go ,only to flip me over so he was straddling me with my back against the ground.
'I'm tired of your back mouthing and excuses. Ive waited long enough! You've lied to me , all the times you said you loved me. Well guess what I don't care…. I'm going to get5 what I want whether you like it or not. I told you it would be better if you just loved me didn't I ?didn't I ? And now look what's happening , hum? What nothing to say now? no sarcasm to go along perfectly with that beautiful bruise on your face?'
His words stung as hard as any , he was right. When we first stared going out he told me he was going to get what he wanted and that I should just give in now…that it would hurt ;less that way. Even though I knew I caused my own pain I couldn't bring myself to regret it. I'm glad I didn't because that would have just hurt me more.
His knees where digging into my side and his hot breath blew into my face and I felt like I was going to puke. He yanked down my pant nearly ripping the button on them and I felt him against me. I was scared to death I felt cold air cling to my lower half as he shoved my panties aside. Then it all went into slow motion from there.
I could smell the musky wet dog smell of the trees and leaves wet from the rain. The dirt particles and moisture that filled my nose and throat going into my lungs. My heart beat beating erratically his breath mingling with mine in the air between us the rustling of the trees and its leaves in the distance.
Then all of a sudden a smidgen of hope as I hear what sounded like a car and then a door slamming. But as I thought on it , I couldn't breath enough to scream and I knew if I got enough breathe mike would just knock it out of me all together. Maybe kill me like he mentioned. They probably wouldn't be able to hear me anyway.
It was ironic civilization was so close that I could touch it yet so far that it was just out of my reach. I heard what sounded like foot steppes , the scream that had built in my throat was about to escape me when I felt it.
He forcefully pushed into me. As he grunted I felt like someone had shoved a white-hot poker into me. A blood curtailing scream filled my ears making me wince and I realized it was mine when mike's hand covered over my mouth.
I felt him push harder making a silent scream linger on my lips and trap into his hand. I felt the tears at the back of my neck and cheeks making my hair tangle and glue to the back of my neck.
My vision was staring to blur and I was seeing black and white dots in front my eyes. As the cold air hit my tear stained cheeks I felt a draft that had once been covered by mike's body. Next thing I know it feels like he's being ripped off of me.. there was a cold but it felt familiar and comforting…like a pair of strong arms holding me safe , no kidding. I don't know why , it must be my brain getting to me.
Mike must have just finished and gone. All I know is that my body is drained. emotionally and physically , I closed my eyes and I vaguely heard voices. I turned my head and let the forbidden sleep consume me into the darkness.
EPOVI couldn't stay way form her. she was captiviating.every breath she took lit like a little spark inside of me , telling me she would be okay. she mumbled under her breath as I drove to her house. Alice was taking mike so that way I wouldn't kill him. I held Bella in my hands while pulling up to her house in the driveway. I just wanted to stay there and watch her sleep in my arms forever.
She blushed but just barley that I almost didn't notice , like she subconsciously felt my gaze over her. If not for the fact that I was better than ever at resisting , had i been a year or so younger then she would have been dead by now. But instead it just brought me closer to her , making me want to know about her more and what she's like . I wanted to shield her from life's horrors forever.
She stared tossing and turning in my arms , I knew as much as she would have appreciated me saving rescuing her maybe if even a little late she wouldn't appreciate the position she was in. me holding her in my arms watching her while she slept. I could tell what room was hers by the delicious scent wafting away form it.
Positioning her carefully I lept up the tree and into her window unlocking it all in one swift movement. landing on the ground without even as much as a sound. Walking to the small bed I set her down carefully . she was holding her arms around her middle like she was trying to hold herself together.
Silent tears streaming down her face made my long stopped heart beat with anger at that disgusting bastard mike Newton. I couldn't blame her for the protective stance she was in she had just been raped by someone who was supposed to have cared for her….or maybe she knew he didn't think of her as anything.
Maybe that's what she meant ,those words in the note. She didn't seem to really like him anyway. And on top of that she was too skinny for her own good. sitting there she looked like an animal that hadn't been fed and had been beat to the bone.
I pinched the bridge of my nose , and felt something sticky on my fingers that I hadn't noticed before. I looked down at my hands and saw a sticky substance that looked rather a lot like …make-up. immediately I thought the worst and went to check bella's body for the substance.
Answering the dreaded question there was stickiness all over bella's arms , legs, and face. I knew that girls now-a-days packed it on like it was water foom the fountain of youth. But Bella isnt seem like the type to use so much they certainly didn't use this much unless they where hiding something.
I tried getting it off with my sleeve and when that didn't work I was going to find some kind of wash cloth with water when my cell phone vibrated and I heard someone in the house staring to wake up.
'Edward you need to get out of there now, mike is back home unconscious but a man is going to check on Bella in a few seconds…don't worry though she'll be fine for tonight though so don't worry about it. just get out of there now!'
I sighed I really didn't want to leave Bella but I trusted Alice. If she said Bella was going to be okay then Bella was going to be okay. physically at least. And she could always have a vision if something was to happen to her.
I just didn't ant to leave her there ,all curled up into a tiny ball. she looked like a little kid despite the size of the bed. She was so beautiful when she was sleeping there was no war raging on inside of her to live. She had her dreams and hopefully lived peacefully in that world.
She really did look like an angel the way the moon light hit her soft skin. she was as much an angel as much as I was a monster. an angel form heaven stuck in hell on earth. I was actually excited and nervous about tomorrow. I wanted to know more about her and I was hoping maybe we could talk.
Reluctantly I got out of her room just as a man who I assumed to be her father. Charlie , he was involved in this some how as well. And I planned to get to the bottom of it. if my angel couldn't be in heaven yet then she should at least get purgatory.
All night I stayed up on the piano, notes just flew through my hands to the keys. emotions id never felt were pouring out of me. All this came from thinking about Bella. It was a mixture of emotions and tempos. I wrote it down when it was all finished and ran upstairs to get dressed for that day at school.
I wanted to make sure Bella was okay. As i got into the car with all my siblings I folded up the papers I had been so freely working on since I got home , looking at the title I saw it appropriate….forbidden love , my bella's lullaby. Maybe , just maybe one day I could play it for her. Maybe just maybe she could take me for me. Because I would take her for her.
And love her for all eternity. I knew I was in love the moment I saw her, and my feeling tonight just amplified it and told me exactly what was going on…..I just hoped she could feel the same way.
Well there you have it… if your lucky you'll get one late tonight. yummy…the catch is , I won't be posting again until school starts after July 6th.sorry folks but I have my reasons…for those of you that talk to me know why. pain in my ass reasons but hey. What can you do? Live. Learn. Love.
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