Chapter 5
Warnings: Angst, Attempted Suicide
Rating: T
Cam slept for hours the next day. She never wanted to see the light of day again. After several days she got up and made her way to the kitchen. Finland was out, all the better. Cam went over the days before events in her head again...
"Cam..." He said when they stopped for breath. "What were you saying? What do I need to know?" He kissed her again. Cam froze and pulled away. "I..." She stopped and tried to move past. "I need to leave..." She whispered and Sweden grabbed her hand causing her to fall and he toppled onto her. Before Cam knew what was happening she was on the floor with Swedens head on her chest and small breasts. She held her breath as he looked at her in confusion. He slowly undid her shirt to show the cloth she had wrapped around her chest. "Cam?" He asked looking at her. Cam pushed him off and fixed her clothes. "You should know better than to undress a woman like that." She hissed not caring that she just toldher big secret.
"Cam? Your a woman?" Sweden asked in disbelief. Cam nodded and held her breath. "Get out." Cam looked at him in shock. "Get out." He said an angered look on his face. "You...lied to me...decieved me...get out, I was wrong to think I could even be with you...Get Out!" Get out...
Get out...such a horrible pair of words. They stabbed into her heart, she wanted him to leave her mind. She sniffled from all the crying she had done and looked around for some food. Her stomach was growling and for once in her life she could breath properly, she had removed the cloth freeing her chest. Cam sighed, it felt nice to be able to see the slight mound of her chest.
Why didnt Sweden see the beauty of women...well not of Cam. She knew she wasnt that beautiful...she should of known better than to of thought he would love her as a woman not a man. Cam scoffed then saw the knife. She wondered what it would feel like...she picked it up and brought it across her skin ever so lightly.
It left a thin streak of red on Cams skin and she sighed. It was almost as if it made her feel better...she looked around and ran upstairs with the knife. She had to make sure no one stopped her. Cam took out a pen and paper and began to write.
Dear Tino,
I am sorry that I am writing these things down on my deathbed...but I need to tell you and Berwald some things.
First, Tino I have always considered you a younger brother. I will miss hearing you laugh and all those Christmases with you. I hope you dont forget me...
Second, I dont own much, but I want you to take over my country and take care of it.
Last...Berwald, I love you. I will always love you, but I know that you will never love a woman. I want to be the one you love and hold onto to. Please...dont hate me for not telling you I was a woman...I hope that you find a man who you can love.
Love, Cam
Cam licked the envolope closed and put it on the desk before laying down on the bed. She closed her eyes and thought of Sweden. His eyes...his hair...his strong personality...he seemed so cold and scary on the outside...but if people would just get to know him...Cam realized that was her downfall...she got to know him and love him.
Cam took the knife and cut her wrists letting the blood spill on the white comforter. She sighed and thought of all the times they had spent together before she let the darkness take her.
Finland hollered for Cam. He had gone to see Sweden, the man was a wreck. He walked in beside Finland and looked around. His hair was unkept, his eyes were bloodshot from crying and he was in wrinkled clothing that he had slept in for days. "Where is she?" He asked Finland who shook his head.
Finland and Sweden made their way to Cams room and opened it. Finland screamed. Sweden ran forward and took his shirt off and placed it on her wrists. "Please Cam...dont...leave me..." Sweden whispered in her ear. "It doesnt matter if your a man or woman...your still Cam...I love you." He said.
Oh! A few more chapters till the end! Sorry that this is a short story! Thank you for reading! See you next time! Please rate and review! I might make a second story for after the ending of this one, but thats later down the road ^^
