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Title: Unforeseeable Forces

Author: Jerseygirl7756

Disclaimer: Don't own anything SoN.

Chapter 4

Spencer's POV

"Welcome to my humble abode" Ashley exclaimed with a sweep of her arm once we walked into her apartment.

"Wow Ash, this is pretty nice" I said, taking in all my surroundings. When you walked in, the hallway with which I'm guessing the rooms and bathrooms were, was straight ahead, the kitchen was to the right and to the left was a spacious living room with a couch, a love seat and a coffee table, an entertainment center with a pretty good size flat screen T.V. and a pretty nice stereo with extra speakers hooked up around the room. I noticed some art and black and white photographs hung around the living room. She had class. I liked that.

"Do you live alone?" I asked.

"Yeah, I like it, I have my privacy" she said smiling widely at me. I wish I knew what it felt like to have privacy.

"Would you like something to eat or drink or anything? I'm pretty sure you're hungry since you didn't really get to eat your food earlier…" trailing off, looking at me sadly.

"I am kind of hungry but I can wait. For now, I just kinda wanna hang out you know? Forget about what's going on outside that door" I said pointing to her door, smiling a little.

"Okay that's cool with me, you wanna watch a movie or something? Maybe talk if you want?" she asked. I tilted my head to the side a little as I studied her. I was just about to answer her when her cell phone went off, making her close her eyes and sigh before apologizing to me.

"Hello?…wait, now?…well yeah, I have company…it would have just been nice if you guys called first…hold on for a second…" she said, putting her hand over the phone to address me. "Hey Spence, that guy Aiden I told you about earlier, you remember him?" she asked and continued once I nodded, "Well he's on the phone, and he's actually in my apartment building with Madison and Kyla bearing pizza and drinks. Do you think it's okay if we all hang out together?" she asked nervously.

"Of course, Ash. They're your friends, I don't mind at all" I said smiling at her to ease her nervousness. I thought it was sweet that she asked me if it was okay. I stood there quietly as she finished her phone conversation and as soon as she hung up she looked at me, once again looking apologetic.

"I'm really sorry Spence, I didn't know they were gonna come over and I know you wanted to hang out and stuff" she said, looking to the floor.

"Ash…" I said softly, stepping closer to her which made her look up at me. "Seriously, it's really okay. We can always talk another time. And thank you for including me in your plans" I said softly, never once looking away from her. "I just really…really don't want to go home right now…or ever" I laughed. She smiled at me and I knew she knew what I meant. She knew I didn't wanna go home and face a pissed off Carmen. She knew I didn't want to go home because even thought she didn't know what was coming, she somehow understood on some level.

"Well, you're welcome to stay as long as you want. I'm pretty sure we're all gonna be up all night anyways, watching movies and messing around. It's what usually happens when we all get together. And now I get to share it with you" she said smiling as she made her way to the door to let her friends in. I turned around and watched as the tall guy from earlier walked in, Aiden obviously, holding pizzas and then two girls walked in behind him, holding grocery bags.

"Guys, this is Spencer, the girl I met earlier at the beach. Spence, this is my sister Kyla and Madison" she introduced. Madison was a tall Latina girl, beautiful, but not my type. Kyla was shorter and had curly brown hair like Ashley. I could kind of see the resemblance. "

"And this is Aiden the guy that has the worst timing ever obviously" she said winking at me.

"Hey! How am I supposed to know not to interrupt?" he asked, before turning to me with a wide smile.

"It's nice to meet you Spencer" they all said, coming up to shake my hand.

As the night wore on, we all shared good memories and funny stories and I couldn't help but feel so carefree. I didn't have to worry about my cell going off because I left it in my car. And I didn't have to worry about Carmen right now, I just…let myself push her to the back of my mind and focus on the now.

I studied Ashley next to me as she threw her head back and laughed as Kyla said something funny and I couldn't help but stare openly at her. I didn't care if the others noticed. I didn't care about anything right now. She made me feel things. Things I shouldn't be feeling when I have a girlfriend. But after I go home and talk with Carmen, I will no longer have a girlfriend. And as of right now, I don't care what I do. I should act like I don't have a girlfriend right? Go with what I'm feeling. I wanted to kiss her. So badly. And right now, I don't have a care in the world. But it still doesn't make it right.

She looked at me, throwing me a wink and rubbing my thigh briefly before stood up to get more drinks. My heart rate sped up a little with that simple touch. Carmen can't even make me feel like that and I've been with her for over three years. I watched her until she disappeared in the kitchen before turning back to the rest of them, my eyes falling on Kyla as she watched me.

Busted. But I didn't care. Nor did I look away. She smiled at me and raised an eyebrow, nodding her head towards Ashley. I grinned at her and got up to meet Ashley in the kitchen. I watched her for a second, her back towards me as she prepared the drinks. I quietly walked towards her, stopping just a step behind her.

"You know, I feel things with you Ash…things I'm not supposed to be feeling" I said softly, making her jump and turn in surprise. I didn't even try to apologize, I just stared into her eyes and continued talking. Saying things I'm not supposed to be saying.

"You have treated me better in the last few hours than Carmen has in about two years…that says a lot doesn't it?" I said, sighing. Breaking eye contact with her, rubbing my forehead. Suddenly I felt her hands on each side of my face, tilting my head up to meet her eyes, pulling me forward a little bit, my hands coming to rest on her hip. She didn't say anything at first, just simply…stared at me with a look I couldn't quiet figure out.

"That says she has no idea what she has. No idea what she's losing. Spencer, I know I've only known you for a few hours, but it's been the best few hours I've had in a really long time" she whispered, her eyes darting down to my lips briefly.

"I can't even think about the things you have been going through, and something tells me it's worse than I think. And I know you'll tell me when you're ready. But you need to know, I will never treat you bad, ever. You of all people don't deserve that. In the last few hours hanging out with my friends, God Spencer…you've made my heart swell because I see you. I see the real you. And that makes me want you more" she said breathlessly. I stared at her in disbelief for a few seconds, before leaning in. My lips centimeters from hers and I felt her breath catch.

"I know I shouldn't be doing this since I have a girlfriend and all. But I can't help myself anymore, Ash. This moment is just too right to pass up" I whispered before closing the gap between us.

She gasped into my mouth, pulling my face closer to hers as I gripped her sides gently. I opened my mouth slightly to take her bottom lip in between mine, softly sucking and gently biting. She moaned into my mouth and I knew that's when I had to pull back. Otherwise everything else would get too complicated, and fast.

I gently pulled away from her, out breaths coming out as one. I slowly opened my eyes and was met with beautiful brown orbs smiling back at me.

"We need to talk later" I whispered, pecking her once more before stepping away from her completely and grabbing some drinks. Both of us making our way back into the living room. My head was still a mess. Everything going on all at once, I was having a brain overload. But I pushed it aside. Right now I just needed to live.

She made me feel happy, and at she gave me tingles everywhere. My lips were still burning from that kiss. My heart still beating rapidly. My hands were shaking. And it was all because of that one kiss with Ashley. And I've only known her for a matter of hours.

I can see myself fitting in perfectly with her and her friends. They made me feel welcome, not like some outsider, and I was grateful for that. I was looking forward to spending time with Ashley and her friends more often. I was looking forward to getting to know her better and maybe start something more than a friendship. I was looking forward to a lot of things, but I think I was mostly looking forward to being able to let go and live my life. The way I want to live it.

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I would

Like to say to you, but I don't know how

Cause maybe You're gonna be the one who saves me And after all

You're my Wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day

But they'll never throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you're not to doI don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do About you now

Wonderwall by Oasis