DISCLAIMER: I don't own Harry Potter, which is lame! I don't own the lyrics either! My life is lame! It's Muse and the song is called Supermassive Black Hole.
XoXo
Oh baby don't you know I suffer?
Oh baby can't you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?
I was sitting in the common room, a book placed on my lap and the words swimming in front of me. I wasn't crying, or at least, if I was I had no idea of it yet. I was bouncing my leg up and down, my frustration threatening to burst out of me. I felt as though I was going to explode from the anger that was coursing through me. James was talking to Raine and Chloe. The James that I knew would never betray my trust like that! But James had changed, in barely twenty-four hours he had changed from the truth-seeking, kind and compassionate boy I had known to a jealous, angry and harsh boy that I knew now. What did I do?
I ran through everything that I could have done within the past twenty-four hours and wondered if anyone of those things were what had brought his wrath upon me. I had talked to Tristan last night and on the train, he was angry at me for that, maybe because he was a Slytherin and not just because he was older than the both of us. I had talked to Dalton a lot today and maybe that was another reason. But no, he couldn't be jealous of Dalton and Tristan. He knew that I was loyal to him, didn't he?
"Acacia?" Aspen's sweet voice came from the entrance to the common room. I looked up at her and smiled, feeling my lips strain at the effort of that simple move. "James wanted me to tell you that Quidditch tryouts are today at four. If you still want to try out for them."
"He can tell me himself," I snapped, watching her flinch and feeling an odd satisfaction at that simple move. I went back to sulking, crossing my arms over my chest and glaring at the floor.
She moved her tiny, quick feet over to where I was sitting. She took a seat next to me, not even asking me permission if she could sit there or not. "I don't think you understand how much effort it takes to still be friends with you after all that you have put us through! You yell at us, you cry on us and you laugh with us! You don't get it do you?"
"Get what?" I snapped, glaring at her now. Her usually warm, pretty eyes were now harsh and ice-cold. I could feel heat rising up into my cheeks, a red flush covering the normally pale skin. "Am I really like her, Aspen? That much?" She nodded, anger leaving her face pale and tired out. She wasn't used to being angry, and for some reason I felt jealous of that.
"I'm going down to Herbology. Do you want me to tell Longbottom that you aren't going to be there, or are you coming down?" she asked coldly, not quite forgiving me. I wasn't worried, she'd come around sooner or later.
"I'm coming. Just let me get my things." She nodded and tapped her foot impatiently as I made my way up the stairs two at a time.
XoXo
oooh...You set my soul alight
oooh...You set my soul alight
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
I made my way down the grounds, watching Aspen as her small frame lead the way a few feet in front of me. I knew she was right, somewhere deep in my mind I knew she was right. She didn't need to deal with me every day, every week for twenty-four hours a day. She and Fred and James had been grateful, but did that really matter? They only became friends with me out of pity, only because no one else felt like dealing with me. They could leave me alone in the dust any time they wanted! I would survive; I could survive anything if I really wanted to! Only, I wouldn't. I wouldn't be able to live without Aspen, James or Fred by my side.
"Welcome back, ladies," Longbottom said as we entered his classroom. There was one table left in the back, the seat next to James. Of course it would be directly next to James and of course it was the only seat left. I felt anger burn through my being and then sorrow. Why couldn't we be friends again?
"Acacia," he said coldly. I smiled and sat down, laying my bag on the table and preparing for one of Longbottom's long-winded classes.
"James," I said coolly, trying to match his tone and succeeding over and beyond. I was the Queen of Cool if anything else would be said about me.
"Look. I'm sorry," he apologized, catching me off guard. I blinked rapidly and just stared at him. "I'm sorry for being such a prat. You can talk to whoever you like; I guess I just want you to be happy. I saw how you watched me when I was talking to Raine and Chloe and I guess I realized that you are really unhappy without me around." He didn't say that proudly, just matter-of-factly. "Am I right?"
"Yes," I admitted unwillingly. "I didn't know what to do without you laughing and carrying on by my side." He smiled and then looked up at Longbottom, trying to make it seem as though he was paying attention. Longbottom cocked an eyebrow knowingly, but carried on anyway. I laughed and didn't pay attention for the rest of the class period.
XoXo
I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth
James, Aspen, Fred and I made our way up to the castle. We were heading to the Quidditch pitch for Gryffindor tryouts. I was excited as was James, whose excitement resounded away from him. Fred was just nonchalant about the whole thing and Aspen was resenting agreeing to this. We finally reached it and watched as the captain flew high up into the air and showed us a few tricks. James was bouncing on his heels and I had to admit that I was looking forward to this also.
"Now, I want you all to pay careful attention! You all need to show me how your keeping, beating, passing or seeking skills are. Those of you trying out for keeper make your way to the middle of the pitch." I made my way to the middle, leaving the comfort and safety of my friends. "Those of you trying out for beating make your way to left of the pitch!" Fred and James made their way to the left of the pitch, leaving Aspen alone by herself. She was pale, trembling and all over terrified of being alone. "Those of you trying out for passing, right side!" She made her way to the right side of the pitch, barely able to walk because of how hard she was shaking. I smiled at her and she smiled back, more like a grimace actually.
"All right, now. We will start out with Lestrange! Lestrange, mount your broom and make your way to the goal posts!" I did. And I was suddenly met by an onslaught of playing Quidditch. It was a wicked fast game, full of cheating, passing and quick flying and wits. Suddenly the Quaffle was on top of me and I managed to block it with my fingertips. Aspen was cheering from below, suddenly excited at being here. Another pass to the right side of the goal and the Quaffle was on my chest, beating it black and blue. Another few passes and I only missed one. Pretty good for an ickle second-year.
The captain put me into the changing room, making me wait with the others that had gone. I waited, shaking and wondering crazily for my results.
XoXo
oooh...You set my soul alight
oooh...You set my soul alight
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(sucked into the supermassive)
I was bouncing my legs up and down in the common room the next night, awaiting my results along with Fred, James and Aspen. Then all of a sudden Dagan Laud, the Gryffindor captain, walked into the room carrying the list. I jumped up simultaneously with James, Fred and Aspen. We were one of the first ones there. I ran my finger up and down the list, looking for my name and then I found it. I made keeper!
"I made it!" I yelled, hugging James and Fred and Aspen simultaneously. I was finally excited; I had made it on the team! James screamed also and hugged me along with Fred, they had both made Beaters. We looked at Aspen, who looked perfectly impassive. "So? Did you make it?"
"Nope!" she said happily. We all laughed and hugged and screamed. The three of us had made it onto the Gryffindor Quidditch team! We were Beaters and Keepers and everything in between! We were so excited I hardly believed that we would be able to sleep.
And then I saw the schedule. We had to wake up at six in the morning on a Saturday and practice until ten. I was not excited about that, but James and Fred shrugged. I sighed and walked to the sofas, talking and laughing with my three best friends all night.
XoXo
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
ohhhhhhhhh ohhhhhhhh
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(oooh...You set my soul)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
