Disclaimer: I don't own CCS, Clamp does. But I do own this story.

Pairings: Syaoran x Sakura, Eriol x Tomoyo, Mei Lin x OC, Rika x OC, Naoko x OC, Chiharu x Yamazaki

Hey everyone! I had a hard time writing this chapter, and when you read the last parts of the chapter, you'll know why.

Anyway, please read on and review later!


Chapter Twenty

"I Refuse to Believe"


Sakura was still silent.

"B-But h-? What?" Syaoran stammered, not knowing what exactly he was feeling at that moment.

Then, she giggled.

Syaoran stopped as Sakura looked up at him and giggled some more.

"J-Joking Syaoran" she said through giggles.

"Sakura!" Syaoran said a bit irritated at her for getting him excited.

Sakura giggled some more and would have for a longer time if Syaoran didn't stop her through a kiss. She was shocked that he was willing to kiss her and she was also shocked that she was willing to kiss him. She urged herself to push him away but her hands wouldn't obey her. Talk about heart over mind. She sighed and relaxed against him and started to kiss him back.


"What do you think they're doing?" Mei Lin asked the group but was only met by equal shrugs.

"I hope they're not getting into another fight" Naoko said. "Right Tomoyo?"

They all turned to Tomoyo but couldn't see her face since Eriol's back covered her.

They were kissing…at the very wrong time.

"Oi!" Jay shouted, making the couple turn to them, a very dazed look on Tomoyo's face.

The girls giggled as the guys smirked.

"What?" asked Tomoyo.

"What do you mean what?" said Aki. "You're both relaxing there while we're worrying about those two"

"Don't get so worried, I know Syaoran the best and Tomoyo knows Sakura the most…we both think they'll end up getting back together. If we're lucky they could even end up having sex" Eriol said with a smirk.


"What am I gonna do?" Sakura asked as they broke away from their kiss and rested her head on his chest. She felt dazed but willed herself to think straight.

"Hmm?" was all that came from him as he made her tilt her head up so he continued kissing and sucking on her neck.

"The Kins…I gotta go back. Even if we're together again, I don't wanna give up what I worked for" she said seriously. 'Especially since I can't give it up, not now' she added in thought.

"If you want, just go on as you usually do with them. You could work as a spy for us…hey, where's the necklace I gave you? I thought you never take it off" he said as he stood up straight again.

"Hey, I hated your guts at the time, I had the right to take it off"

"Point taken" he said with a sigh. "Anyway, if you really are determined to do this, you can go back to them, but stay safe. I know you can't communicate with us while you're there, so…I'll figure something out while you're there"

Sakura smiled at him and gave him one last passionate kiss before pulling him from their place and back to the group.


"Guys, here they come" Rika said as he pulled back from her kiss with Aki.

Everyone turned to look at the couple as they neared them.

"Hey" Sakura said with a smile as she let go of Syaoran.

Syaoran merely nodded as he saw them.

"So, anything new you wanna tell us?" asked Takashi, hoping either of the two would tell them what they were doing hidden from the rest for so long.

"Nothing much" Sakura said as she walked towards the car Tomoyo was leaning on and leaned on it as well. She watched Syaoran from her position as he raised an eyebrow at her.

"Syaoran, where did you go for so long?" a female voice asked as arms wrapped around Syaoran's torso. He turned around to see Jen looking at him seductively.

"No where" was all he replied as he looked back at Sakura and gave her a certain look.

The rest of the group was looking at Syaoran, and then at Sakura back and forth, wondering why they were sending each other those looks. It was clear the two weren't fighting anymore, so what were they both now?

Sakura sighed and walked over to Syaoran, just beside Jen.

"Hi" Sakura said in a soft voice with a smile.

"Hmm?" she said as she pulled away from Syaoran's back and turned to look at Sakura. "Oh hello, what can I do for you?"

"Well, no offense, I have nothing against you but…would you kindly get your hands off him?" she said, still with a smile and in a soft tone which started to sound deadly in the same time.

The group was shocked at this, why would she ask that? But most of all it shocked Jen.

"Why would I wanna do that?" she asked as if unfazed by the sudden threatening look Sakura was sending her.

"Unless you wanna get into my bad side, I suggest you do as I say" she said, now getting tired of talking to her. She may be older than Sakura but boy, she didn't get it. And she thought all Wolves were smart.

"You don't have a say in what I do"

"Yes I do if it has something to do with my boyfriend"

The crowd which formed around them all had shocked faces, but their own group of friends had smirks and knowing looks on their faces. Syaoran still looked emotionless.

"As if!" Jen said, unconvinced. "If that's true, then Syaoran should prove it" she said, looking at Syaoran, expecting him not to do anything.

Sakura also turned to him, waiting for him to do something about it.

Syaoran stood there looking at Jen, and then looked at Sakura before grabbing her by the waist and kissing her full on the lips. He could hear gasps of shock from those who didn't know Sakura and giggles and howls, surely coming from Eriol, Tomoyo and the rest of their own close group.

Sakura smiled in the kiss and pulled him deeper into her. She knew few people were watching but she wanted them to watch, she wanted them to know that Syaoran was off limits to anyone else. She didn't know that, that was what Syaoran was aiming for as well, to show the rest of the guys that Sakura was his.

Sakura raised both her legs and enclosed them around his waist in a jump and he supported her by holding onto her ass. She wrapped her hands fully around his neck without breaking the kiss, unknowns to them the even larger crowd they now attracted.


"What is she doing?" a man asked his companion as he straightened his headphones, wanting to hear everything more clearly.


"Where is Sakura?" Sairi asked herself, trying hard to find her within all the people gathered on the grounds. There were a lot of people down there and it was nearing 11 o'clock. She wanted to go down there herself but didn't want to risk it.


"Are you sure you wanna go back?" Tomoyo asked through smiles as Sakura started her bike. "It's still early you know"

Sakura gave her a reassuring smile.

"I have to go. Besides, it's almost 11 o'clock and I need to go…don't worry, everything will be fine" Sakura never told them that she brought Sairi, a Kin, with her.

"I pray it would"

Sakura smiled at her one last time and her gaze fell on Mei Lin who was currently grinning madly at Syaoran and back at her. She gave her a weird look before she looked at Syaoran for herself and smiled at him.

"Take care" he said simply.

"You too"

Syaoran stepped forward and gave her a final kiss before she wore her helmet and rode on towards the ramp leading up the short cliff by the mansion.

'I hope all of this will still go right' she thought to herself as she started to drive up to where Sairi last parked and still did.

She hadn't expected for her to actually get back together with Syaoran and she prayed that none of the Kins would notice. She worked hard to gain at least a bit of their trust and she didn't want her whole plan to go to waste, not now since a lot of people are involved.


"Syaoran, I can't believe your just gonna allow her to go back" Mei Lin told him as they all resumed to talk with the rest of the people there.

"You think I feel lax with the idea that she's going back?" he said rather worriedly yet angrily. "I clipped a device which works as a microphone and a tracking device on the collar of her jacket so we'll know where the Kins are currently hiding out and in case we need to help her"


Next morning, Sakura woke up late, lazily and sighed, squeezing the pillow in a hug. She didn't get to talk to Tsuyoshi when she arrived since he wasn't there. She also never got the chance to tell Saori that she was wrong, there were no other Kins who checked on her…and she was glad.

If Kins found out what she had done the last night and still find her there in their territory, she would be killed.

Sakura went over to her mirror and looked at her reflection, smiling at the necklace Syaoran gave her from before. She wore it again and now never plans on taking it off. Hearing her stomach gave a deep grumbling sound, she walked over to her door, wanting to head down to the kitchens for some food. She never really ate anything since last night before she left for the Wolves.

Opening the door, she was greeted with a huge surprise.


"Damn it" a guy hissed as a scream erupted from the headphones he was wearing. He instantly took it off and tried to refocus his hearing.

"What happened?" his companion asked.

"We gotta get there now!"


"Shit" Sakura hissed as she fell on the floor, slowly backing up from the men who were advancing on her, guns pointed straight at her head.

Looking around, she immediately jumped over to the other side of the bed for cover which triggered the men to shoot at her. She gave off an agonizing scream of pain as blood started to ooze out from the left side of her waist where a bullet found its way in.

"Damn" she cursed as she looked up to find the men looking down at her. 'This is going way too fast, what the hell happened?' she asked herself.

"Come with us" said one of the men, still holding up his gun at her as he pulled her up roughly, pulling…almost dragging her out the room.


"Hey Li" said Tsuyoshi as his face appeared over at the laptop Tomoyo was currently trying to figure out.

The tracking device Syaoran placed on Sakura was different from what Sakura placed on their necklaces. To add to their current problem, the screen on the laptop kept on crashing since another frequency was trying to jam their own. Looks like they just figured out who it was who tried to get through to them.

All the guys were driving their own car with their partners except for Syaoran who was driving with Eriol beside him and Tomoyo at the backseat, handling the laptop to get to Sakura faster. Aside from their own group, Ren, Keichii, Mike and Jiyuu were also coming with them in two other cars. Other ranking members also joined in while Emi and the rest of the girls stayed back at the mansion because of Syaoran's orders.

Tomoyo looked at Tsuyoshi's face, she figured he couldn't see her, considering he called her Li and that she didn't have a camera to connect to their system to let them see her side.

"S-Syaoran" Tomoyo said as she held the laptop in the space in between Syaoran and Eriol to let them see.

Tsuyoshi looked devious and he was playing with a pendulum.

"Well," he spoke again as he looked back up to the camera pointed at him. "I would've thought you were smart, I mean…didn't you ever consider that I had something planned for your precious girlfriend too?" he smirked. "I had a small microphone clipped at the back lock on that top she wore the night she went to your little gathering. Even she didn't notice, good thing too. Or else, I wouldn't have heard your little conversation" the camera zoomed out and the screen now showed Tsuyoshi standing with a girl on the ground with blood surrounding her, her body rising up and down as she breathed.

"Shit! That mother fucker!" Syaoran hissed, trying to keep his eyes on the road while focusing on Sakura's form.

"What do you think Li? This is what happens to Wolves who try to make a fool out of me…just be glad that this isn't you right here" he smirked at the camera before making his face seem all serious again. "By the way Li, when I heard your conversation about Sakura's mother here, I have to admit, it gave me quite a shock. I never knew this Sakura was a Kinomoto. The Kinomoto family which I tried to ruin years ago"

When he said this, Syaoran saw Sakura turn her head to look at Tsuyoshi with a pained expression on her face. Tsuyoshi then faced her with a smirk before returning to the camera.

"Well, your girlfriend seems to be alive and listening, so I guess I'll tell you the story. You see Li, the Kinomoto family as you might now, is really rich…maybe not as rich as your own clan but close to it. What irritates me is that her family is just like yours…very much like yours. Both of you own companies which has great influence over the public…hers, here in Japan while yours back at China. Well, I hated you and your family years before I hated hers. Seeing as I couldn't destroy the top of China when I tried to, I instead transferred to the one here in Japan. You know why I'm doing this Li, except now, I'm doing this to the Kinomoto family, not the Li clan…but still, you come here and still try to stop me. Either way, a few years back, I attacked their family and set fire to their mansion"

When Tsuyoshi said this, Sakura's head snapped and positioned to look straight at him. It was him. He wasn't the only person who had killed her mother but also made her family, but most of all her, in the first place, by attacking them, making the rest of her family move into hiding in China.

Sakura wanted nothing more than strangle the man above her. If she weren't in such pain, she would. But considering her position right now, she would rather not.

"Turns out, the 4 members of the family didn't die as I had hoped for. When I found out they all fled to China, I declared myself winner. As you may have noticed, my family's company was next top to the Kinomoto family in Japan. How did you think I got a lot of my family's money back? Right after the Kinomotos left, I did all I can to bring up the family name again. When I made progress and gained part of the lost money of our company, you came here in Japan, with the Wolves. You just had to spoil my plans even if we aren't in China anymore. Of course, even if I was here, I still kept up to date with the things happening in China in case of any important news regarding the Li clan or any sightings of the Kinomotos. Luckily, we found Sakura's mother and your mother and we were able to take down her mother. We had hoped the killing would bring out her father, brother and herself, but it didn't. So I had to make my spies keep an open eye until this is all over. Well, now…it seems I have another member of the family. If I kill her now, all I have to kill are two more and I own Japan"

After his statement, Syaoran's cell phone rung.

"Why are you doing this?" Syaoran yelled, even though he wasn't sure it was Tsuyoshi.

"Revenge of course, I will never forget what happened to my parents Li, not ever" he replied. Now Syaoran knew it was him.

"Then why the Kinomotos? Why can't you leave them be and come straight to us!" he screamed again.

Tsuyoshi smirked with a shake of the head. "It's all about influence Li. I get the Kinomotos, I get influence over Japan. Sooner or later, I may be able to equal you and even beat you and your family. The Li clan may have ruined the Shikou image before but I swore I'd take revenge and somehow find a way to gain the top"

Sakura and Tomoyo didn't understand him as he said this and they were now really wondering why and how the feud between the two started in the first place.

"Well, that's about it" Tsuyoshi said finally, now looking at Sakura as he talked.

"Where are you taking me?" Sakura interrupted in a demanding but shaky tone.

"Outside, to the grounds…a room is prepared especially for you" he smirked at her.

Syaoran was cursing inside his head. He had hoped to let Tsuyoshi keep on talking so they can arrive there before he does anything to Sakura.

"I planned on ruining this girl privately but seeing as you're seeing us right now; I'll give you the privilege and let you see her one last time Li"

"Don't you dare touch her!"

"Why not?" he asked as he pulled Sakura's hair to raise her head and look straight at the camera. Now Syaoran, Eriol and Tomoyo saw how badly hurt Sakura was, and blood still continued to spill from her side.

Tsuyoshi called out an order and two men came, carrying Sakura by the arms and out the room with Tsuyoshi ahead of them and the camera, following from behind.

"S-Sakura" Tomoyo said in a whisper, now in tears.

"Take a left" Eriol said in a low voice.

Syaoran did a sharp turn then shifted gears and went on faster, still glancing once in a while at the screen until it came to a stop in front of a small cement made shack, separate from the mansion.

What Tomoyo saw made her feel faint. There were bombs planted on the ground, surrounding the shack as well as a few stuck on the walls.


"Ready yourselves!" a guy shouted to his companions, making them all nod.


Tsuyoshi laughed and the camera focused on Sakura.

"I-I'm sorry everyone" Sakura said while looking at the camera, trying to smile but couldn't because of the pain. She was ready to pass out from seeing all the blood trail from her wound and because of the amount of it that she lost already. "I love you Syaoran, Tomoyo…e-everyone"


"No" Tomoyo said in a whisper now really feeling like she was going to faint.


"Shit" Eriol said menacingly as the camera pointed over at the men as they carried Sakura into the shack and locked her in from the outside.


"Damn it Tsuyoshi!" Syaoran yelled through his cell phone then threw it on the car floor.


After a few minutes with the camera moving around, it stopped and focused back on the shack…this time it was far away but still in view. Then Tsuyoshi stepped up in front of the camera, still making sure the shack was still in view behind him. He raised his head, showing the detonator which had a single red button and a high antenna.

"Say goodbye Li" Tsuyoshi smirked as he pressed the button, making the shack explode with a huge boom with parts of the shack and the ground flying in the air.


Tomoyo's eyes widened seeing the shack explode from the screen, willing herself it was just some sort of a movie. But when she really did hear the explosion, not coming from the screen but from her ears, and saw the sparks and smoke in the air by the area not too far from them, she couldn't pretend anymore. It was real…now she really did lose Sakura.

"Tomoyo!" Eriol shouted as she fell over to the space between his seat and Syaoran's, landing on the laptop making it shut off and close together.

Syaoran came to a stop by hitting the breaks of the car hard, stopping by a short bridge that was over a river.

"Syaoran?" Eriol asked, looking at him while supporting his girlfriend.

Syaoran looked down with a dark look on his face.

Eriol turned and saw the many cars they left with from the mansion, stop behind them.

"Hey! Why you guys stopping?" shouted Mei Lin from her car which was the one right behind theirs.


"That takes care of everything" Tsuyoshi said as he threw the control to one of his men. "Check on the shack…I don't expect you to see her body, that explosion would have broken it to pieces, just go clean up"


"B-But I…no, it c-…" Mei Lin said unbelievingly, not knowing what to say.

Eriol had told them the news. The girls were crying, the guys were cursing and he was still trying to revive Tomoyo. Syaoran was alone by the ledge of the bridge looking over at the water; he couldn't see his face since his back was turned to them.


"You are gonna pay Tsuyoshi" Syaoran said in a very deadly voice, glaring hard at everything his eyes set on.


"Sir?" the man in front of Tsuyoshi asked, really thinking twice before willingly following what he was just told to do.

"You heard me"

"B-But sir"

"Look" Tsuyoshi started firmly. "Unless you want to be killed, I suggest you do what I had ordered quickly. Knowing Li, he's probably plotting the same thing right now. I want you to do what you are told, right now"

"H-Hai" the man stuttered as he immediately exited the room.


"There has to be some way that she could've survived from that" Syaoran growled, clenching his fists tightly.

"Syaoran, we've been scanning that area through every angle, there isn't any way anyone could've escaped that…at a very short time no less" Mika reasoned.

After the video showing that Sakura was blown inside a shack, they still went over to the area where the smoke from the explosion still erupted…secretly of course. They used remote controls to bring over cameras to scan around the area…but to no success, no one could have ever survived something like that.

Of all people who were in denial of Sakura's death, Syaoran was the most stubborn of them all. Of course, Tomoyo would have been equally stubborn if only she was conscious, which she wasn't. She had fainted normally but the shock of Sakura dieing seemed to avoid her from waking up, she didn't want to wake up anytime soon at all.

It was night time, the girls had cried themselves to sleep and guys…well…the guys were still up trying to convince Syaoran that the best thing to do was to get back at Tsuyoshi for what he had done other than trying to find some possible way that Sakura could live through the explosion.

"Fine…tomorrow we'll discuss how to make Tsuyoshi pay for ever crossing me…but remember this," he said in a deadly silent tone as he glared outside the window "I refuse to believe that Sakura is dead"


Author's Note:

See what I mean when I said that I had a hard time writing this chapter? I hope you guys will forgive me for what had happened in this chapter but it must be done!

Anyways, I promise to update faster than I did for this one.

Ja ne!

Raeny