Chapter Eleven: Watch Me

I lied there for hours I knew I had to get home soon. My eyes were dry from crying. I sat up and changed into my clothes ( I was in human form). I checked the time on my phone, it was six forty five. What felt like hours was only three hours! "Bella!" I heard someone was calling, it sounded like Margarita. I couldn't find my voice to call back. I saw her walking towards me and started running at me. "Bella!" called again. She knelled next to me. "Are you okay?" she asked. I shook my head and she hugged me tightly. I hugged her back, she was the only person who actually cared that I was heartbroken. "Seth told me . . ." she started, she sounded so worried. I barely knew her and she's helping me. I always knew she was nice. Not even Jake came to see if I was alright- he was probably with Sam still. "You have to get home," she whispered. I nodded and she helped me up. I didn't need any help though. We started walking out of the forest, we didn't talk the whole way to the sidewalk.

"Bella!" Jin called. I looked at him as he "jogged" his way over to me. "Jakey told me everything," he said in between breathes and stopped next to Margarita. Wow, this guy is really needs to get in shape. "He even told Sam about me and him," he announced. Wow, the one good thing that came out of me and Edward breaking up. I winced at the thought. Tears threatened to come - I tried my hardest not to break down again. I didn't want to do it in front of Margarita and Jin . . . I didn't respond to Jin. He looked at Margarita. "Is she alright?" he asked. What do you like? Do I look alright? I wanted to scream at him. I bite my lip and sighed deeply. Margarita shook her head.

"Sam is an asshole," she stated. I nodded my head and leaned it on her shoulder.

"Oh, thanks," Sam said and started walking over towards me. I narrowed my eyes at him and started walking away. It was the only way that I wouldn't kill Sam. "Bella, stop, " he ordered. I didn't listen to him and continued walking. He ran and stopped right in front of me. I got really anger.

"What!" I yelled at him and stopped walking. I hated him telling me what to do and I end up getting hurt because of it.

"I need to talk to you - I know it isn't right to keep you anyway from that thing . . ." he started.

"His name is Edward," I hissed back. He continued making me more and more angry . . .

"Whatever . . . it was the right thing to do," he explained. Dispite all my efforts - a tear went down my cheek. I couldn't talk to him anymore. I pushed him out of the way and started walking away again. Before I got too far, Sam grabbed my arm and I stopped walking.

"Get off me," I growled. He looked angry.

"No, you listen to me. If you go near that bloodsucker again - I'll kill you both," he threatened. He was definitely angry now. I wasn't scared of him at all.

"Watch me," I said. I wanted to make him more mad. He pushed me into a tree and started choking. I put my hands around his wrists, trying to make him stop. I wanted to said stop, but I couldn't breathe. I looked at Margarita, she terrified and so did Jin. My eye sight started fading slowly.

"Sam stop!" I heard a familiar voice. It was Mishal, she started running over towards Sam. She seemed just as scared, I couldn't tell (I could barely see her). "Please, stop," she pleaded. Sam sighed angrily and let go of me. I fell on the floor and inhaled deeply. "I'm sorry," she said, I didn't respond (I still couldn't breathe barely). I closed my eyes and leaned my head back against the tree, breathing heavily. "Let's go," Mishal said. Sam's scent started fading, apparently they were leaving, thank god. The black and blues around my neck, started disappearing. Tears started pouring down my face, I covered my face with my hands. I never knew that Sam was so violent- he seemed more controlling. This is the worst day ever.

I remembered Jake saying something when he became a werewolf. "Life sucks and then you die," I never thought that it was true - it is. I heard someone walking towards me. "Bella- you have to get home," Margarita said softly. She was right, Charlie would be coming home soon. I wiped away my tears and put my hands to the side. My eyes were hurting from crying so much. I bite my lip, stood up and nodded. Margarita started walking towards her car and I followed her. Jin came over to me and hugged me.

"Feel better, Belly," Jin said he pulled away. You would think that because I was sad, he would stop calling me Belly. Ugh, I hate that name. I just nodded, trying not to show how angry and sad I really was. He gave me what I can tell was a fake smile and walked away. I started following Margarita to her car, she had the soul car (the one from the hamster commercial). We both got inside the car and started driving to my house. We didn't say anything the whole ride there, there was nothing to say. We were just listening to "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey. Just what I needed to hear.

Luckily, we weren't far from my house and Charlie wasn't home. It was the only good thing about today. Margarita parked in front of my house. "Do you want me to come inside with you?" she asked politely. Charlie told me not to bring anyone in or out of the house. Even though I already broke that rule, he was coming home soon. I didn't want to hide Margarita in my house while Charlie was talking to me. So, I shook my head and opened the door. I paused - I forgot to do something.

"Margarita . . ." I said in a small voice.

"Yeah?" I looked at her and hugged her.

"Thank you," I whispered as I pulled away. It would be rude of me not to say thank you.

"Of course," she said and rolled her eyes. I nodded and gave her a fake smile. I waved and got out of the car. "Bye," she said as I closed the door. She started driving off as I walked towards my house. I got into my house and closed the door. My stomach growled, great. I felt too much like crap to cook dinner to Charlie. So, I decided an apple was the perfect way to go. I walked over to the counter and grabbed an apple. I sat down on a chair in the dining room. He's gone . . . that's all I could think. I shook my head and bite the apple. I heard Charlie's car drive into the driveway. Great, now I'm going to have the sex talk. Ugh. Charlie got out of the car, he was on the phone. He started walking towards the house.

"Billy, I know that you're her father- but you have to let me handle this," Charlie said and stopped walking. What? Billy is . . . is my father? Charlie saw me sitting near the window and his eyes widened. "Billy - I got to go," he said and hung up. He walked into the house and closed the door. "You heard me . . . didn't you?" he asked. I nodded, as he walked over towards the chair across from me and sat down. We sat silent, I was waiting for him to explain what he was talking about outside. I was hoping that he was thinking of a way to explain to me. Charlie put his hands on the hands and sighed deeply. Seems like everyone is discovering the truth today . . .

"Billy got married to a woman named Kayla, about the same age as me and your mother got married," he started. I never met Kayla before . . . "Kayla got pregnant with twins, you and . . . Jacob. A couple of months after you two were born, Billy and Kayla started having financial problems. They did everything they could to pay their bills . . . however . . . Kayla died," he continued in a softer, more quiet voice. I bite my lip, trying not to cry - again. "Billy couldn't afford the both of you alone- so Renee and I decided to adopt one of you. Renee always wanted a girl. Also, so that Billy can visit you," he smiled, probably because of the memory. Then, he frowned. "Then, your mother left me and took you with her," he said looking down and sighed. Apparently, he was done explaining.

I was shocked and confused. My real mother is dead, my real father is Billy and my brother is Jake? "Why didn't you tell me this before?" I been here for months! He ran a hand through his hair. He was very nervous- he never did that before.

"Billy wanted me to tell you at the right time," he said and looked up. I nodded, got out of my seat and started walking towards the stairs. "Bells . . . ," Charlie called. I stopped at the bottom of the stairs for a moment.

"I'm going to bed," I said softly. I was still too shocked to continue talking. He nodded and I continued walking up the stairs. I went into my room and went straight for the bed. I needed to sleep . . . this has been the worst day ever! I hugged my knees and closed my eyes tightly. I needed to get my mind off of everything about today- Billy, Kayla, Jake . . . and Edward. Even though I didn't want to. I couldn't imagine the rest of my life without him. . . I'm not even aging yet! Crap. Maybe some music will help . . . I turned on the radio.

"How do I breathe?

without you here by my side,

how do I sleep. . ."

I turned off the radio. Ugh! Stupid music. I rolled on my stomach and started drifting asleep. . . I thought that it would help- of course I was wrong. I started dreaming that I was in a forest with Edward there, holding out his hand. I was about to run towards him- but then almost everone I knew that was in Forks was in a circle, around me. I stopped running.

"Bella, don't do it," Jake warned me. I knew I should listen to Jake, but . . . I loved Edward too much to let him go. I started running towards Edward - but Seth was in my way.

"Seth . . . move," I growled. He shook his head and I looked at Edward. Sam came up behind him and bite his head off. "No!" I screamed and sat up on my bed. Tears started running down my face- the dream felt so real . . . I could actually smell Edward. He was there . . . in the corner of my room.


"Edward wait!" I heard my angel cry. I couldn't stop running, as much as I wanted to. As soon as Sam said he was going to kill her - I knew I couldn't be with her anymore. It was the right thing to do. Luckily, it takes about two minutes to get to my house. I needed to relax, get my mind off things (mainly Bella). I couldn't think about her, it would be too tempting for me. Every second being away from her killed me- thinking about her would make it worse. I stopped in the front of my house, there was no one home. I went into the house and into my room. I needed something to claim me down, so I went to my radio and pressed play. Clair De Lune started playing. I lied down on my couch and closed my eyes.

How could I ever allow myself to be with Bella? I should have known that it was going to end up this way . . . her alpha had to find out sooner or later. I can't believe that I put Bella's life at risk! The woman that I love most in the world . . . I covered my face with my hands. Then, I ditch her, while she's in the forest with Sam. She must hate me - that should be a good thing (since I have to stay away from her). I can't go to school until she graduates either.

Now I have to be miserable for the rest of eternity! I'm doing this for Bella. . . I had to stop thinking about her. I sighed deeply, just listening to the music. I tried my hardest not to think about Bella- but I failed. I started thinking about eveything about Bella. Her voice, her face, even her smell. I loved thinking about her. . . but it saddened me that I couldn't be near her again. I opened my eyes and ran a hand threw my hair. I had to stop, I felt like going to her house and apologizing to her, begging to take me back . . . stop! Maybe, tonight I could go into her room while she is sleeping. I did it before without her noticing- even though I know it's risky. But I never got caught before.

I heard the front door of the house close. "Eddie! You're home!" Emmett said and walked into my room. "Wow, you stink," he thought. I rolled my eyes and sat up on the couch.

"I swear - if that mutt is here again . . ." Rosalie started and walked into the room. I covered my face with my hands again, I hated when she called Bella a mutt.

"Her name is Bella," I said frustrated.

"Either way, she's a mutt," Rosalie thought. I growled and got off the couch, putting my hands to my sides. Rosalie was starting to get really annoying.

"Whoa, Eddie. Calm down," Emmett said, putting his hands in front of me. Like that was going to stop me . . .

"Don't call me Eddie," I said, angrily. It seemed like everyone was getting on my nerves so far.

"Dude, what the hell happened to you?" he asked, shocked. I sighed deeply and shook my head. I shouldn't be mad at Rosalie and Emmett for me breaking up with Bella.

"Did she break up with you?" Rosalie said, in a teasing voice. I wanted to growl at her, but I didn't. Instead I looked down and sighed. I decided to tell them the truth.

"No . . . I broke up with her," I whispered. I was hoping that Rosalie wouldn't comment on the fact.

"Finally," Rosalie sighed, quietly. I narrowed my eyes at her and growled. She's being very annoying.

"Why?" Emmett thought. Great, he needed details.

"Her alpha found out about us and threatened to kill her," I said slowly. I ran a hand through my hair again. Emmett nodded, not thinking anything (thank god). I decided not to listen to Rosalie's thoughts, it was the only way for me not to kill her. Esme, Carlisle, Jasper, and Alice walked into the room. Esme hugged me immediately.

"I'm sorry," she said as she pulled away. I nodded, Alice looked sad. I had to leave, I couldn't be near anyone right now. I knew I was going to snap at one of them. I sighed, everyone was silent.

"I have to leave," I whispered softly. Esme looked worried.

"Will you be coming back?" she thought. I have her a small smile and nodded. "Be careful." I nodded again and left the room.