Thank you for the reviews, I finished this chapter as soon as I can. Some of your questions will be answered in the chapter 3. Come on people! Have a little patience. The best is saved for later!

As always, warning for all those that have a weak heart. Oh, and sorry if I confuse you in any way.

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Dark Hearts

Chapter 2: Sanctuary? Or more pain?

Kira woke up, he saw light. Am I in heaven?

"Oh, you're awake!" Ah, the voice of a goddess, I must be in heaven. He thought as he took a look around, spotting a pink-haired girl sitting on a chair next to him. Hmm? Lacus? Does that mean I'm still alive? Wait, what happened before? The memory suddenly came back to him in a rush, hitting him like a battering ram. Right, I was fighting Athrun, he tried to blow me up, but apparently he failed, huh? He felt smug, then his emotion took a turn, but he still killed Tolle… I promised them that I would protect them… DAMN… After all, I only asked him not to hurt anyone else, he couldn't even do that. Killed Tolle, he killed Tolle, he killed Tolle. Memories of Tolle came rushing back to him. He felt the battering ram hit him again. Times when they laughed and teased each other, the time when he defended him even though he's a coordinator……

He started crying, so this is what it feels like to lose a friend, huh? He thought, how ironic, that Nicol person came to get himself killed by me when Tolle went to get him killed by Athrun, while the two of us aren't dead. Is this some sort of sick joke? More tears fell as he cried… Kira absolutely loathed Athrun now, not only does he want to kill him, he wanted REVENGE. His amethyst-colored eyes were beginning to turn red as the hatred welled up within him. However, the sudden outburst was calmed almost immediately when the pink-haired girl took his hand and placed it in her laps. Her warmth seeping through him like a drug, he stopped crying. He wanted more of this drug, the feeling a single touch of a single touch from her made him go to paradise. I need this. He told himself, as he pulled her hand and dragged her onto the bed, hugging her close to him. Lacus let out a small gasp of shock, but soon forgot all about it as she returned the embrace, glad to be near him again. Kira's never felt so relieved and content in his life before… He fell asleep inhaling her strong sweet scent, intoxicated.

When they woke up again, it was noon. The two woke at the same time, looking into each other's eyes, their hearts content with the way things are and wanted them to stay the way they are. Until, a growl was heard from Kira's stomach, indicating he was hungry. He slightly blushed from embarrassment and let out a small sigh, he didn't want to let her go. He didn't want to part with the little piece of peace he was finally able to find. Whereas a giggle came from Lacus' mouth, the sound amazed him to no end. He finds himself staring at her lips, mesmerized by the way they move. Instinctively, he pulled her closer and let his lips wander on hers. Lacus instantly withdrew, and then stared into Kira's eyes. What she saw was astonishing, the amethyst eyes kept turning red and back, mirroring Kira's emotions. "I'm sorry." She heard him say, his tone absolutely cold to the core, as he loosened his arms around her and turned away. His face was filled with hatred, pain, guilt and sadness at the same time. Drops of tears began to fall out of his closed eyes, wetting the pillow as he tried to stop the flow by burying his head into the pillow. A strange pain suddenly crossed Lacus' heart. It had hurt her to see him like this, he looked so broken.

Damn it! What am I doing? Kira pondered within himself. But her lips were so… inviting… Damn this. Damn everything. And I forgot that she's Athrun's fiancée. Damn you Athrun. What did you ever do to deserve this? I should just forget her. She probably thinks I'm a freak now anyways. He thought as he climbed out of the bed. "Where are you going?" Lacus asked, getting out of the bed as well. "I'm sorry for ever disturbing you, Mrs. Zala. But I'm going to kill your husband now. So if you'll excuse me." He replied and gave a small bow, tears still flowing out of his eyes like a waterfall. "And sorry for ever treating you in any way that made you uncomfortable, it's understandable. Hate me if you wish. I've never deserved this anyways. A sad smile found its way onto his cheek as he turned around to leave his once-sanctuary. He didn't belong anywhere now, the only reason of his existence had just disappeared, the one that he had once given him hope and comforted him is engaged to his once-best friend, who betrayed him because an accident.

Why does the world have to be so unfair? He thought, unaware that Lacus was running towards him from behind. I lost everything I wanted, is it because I broke the promises I made? In that case, Athrun shouldn't be allowed to live so happily as well. He broke a promise too. Oh, who cares? I've got nothing to lose anymore anyways. I finally let her reach my kinder side, and look where it got me? No one deserves my trust anymore. Trusting in other people will only bring me more pain. He thought to himself. This will be the last time I ever cry.

He walked out the door of the room, seeming as if he's half asleep. He wandered down the hall until he reached the kitchen. There was no one there. Lucky me. He thought as he walked towards the sink, pulling out a knife from one of the containers on the side. He smiled to himself and proceeds to cutting his wrist, watching the blood seep away into the sink, he felt relief, still unaware of a pair of eyes staring at his actions. Ah, this feels so good. He thought, finding joy in watching the blood flow. His vision started to get a little fuzzy, the wound on his hand already healing itself at impossible speed.

"What are you doing?"

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To say Lacus was stunned was a far understatement, how did he manage to keep so much emotion away from her? The expression on his face changes as he continues to apologize. There were two emotions that stood out above the rest: betrayal and hopelessness. He had looked so demanding and kind when he hugged her in his sleep, sometimes even murmuring her name. What made him suddenly turn this way? Was it because I didn't kiss him back? But how can I when I'm engaged to Athrun? I told him as well, was that why he kept on apologizing? It's true that I've never really loved Athrun as a lover, but more like an elder brother. And then there was the change of his eye color and his voice, it sounded so… devoid of life… And why did I feel pain when he looked at me? I know that I like him, but does he like me back? He was the first one to ever refer me as Mrs. Zala and why did he want to kill Athrun? OMFG, there's so many questions in my head, I've gotta get some answers. She thought and ran down the hall chasing him. She found him in the kitchen, clutching a knife in one hand and smiling as he looked down at his other hand. She immediately felt pain and even a little bit of relief. What? What's going on? These emotions aren't mine. She thought as she walked up to him and looked at the hand he was looking at. It was a cut on the wrist, blood flowed out of the wound like water down the stream.

"What are you going?" She shouted at him, feeling her inside burning with pain and seeping with relief at the same time.

"Oh, hello again, Mrs. Zala, I'm sorry about what I did earlier, it won't happen again. And I'm cutting myself by the way. It feels really good, you know. I kinda feel sorry for you for marrying Athrun. It's a shame that you're going to feel some pain after I kill him. I don't like seeing you getting hurt in anyway. But it can't be helped, I guess. He broke a promise that he swore he would keep and blamed me for that fucking accident. As I said, I'm sorry about earlier, will you leave me alone now?" Kira asked, a little delusional as he tried to force a smile on his face. No matter what she thought of him, he couldn't be cold to her. Then he looked at his wrist, the bleeding already stopped as the wound is closing at unimaginable speed. "Damn…" he muttered as he reached for the knife again with his other hand.

As she tried to take in and analyze all the information he gave out. She found herself staring wide-eyed as the deep gash on Kira's left wrist healed itself quickly. Then she saw him grabbing the knife again, she immediately ran forward and whacked the knife out of his weakening arms.

"What are you doing? Mrs. Zala?" Kira asked again, eyes focusing and defocusing on the image of Lacus.

"My name isn't Mrs. Zala." Lacus replied to him.

"Oh, sure, it will be soon enough. Ah, how lucky Athrun is to have you. He took everyone away from me and still has a home and a wife to return to, lucky him. I wonder why god didn't punish him." Kira countered, expressionless, but the sadness in his eyes were definitely still there and then another emotion entered his eye: hatred. "Oh well, if god doesn't, I will. Now don't look at me like that. I know you think I'm a freak, I know. I am, alright? Now go back to your room and get your beauty sleep. It would be such a waste to have someone as beautiful as you looking bad because of me."

Lacus was out of words again. Does he like me? I think he's delirious. How did his wound heal so fast? "I never thought of you as a freak." She finally bit out.

Kira raised an eyebrow: "Oh, come on. Of course you do, I forced you into bed and tried to kiss you. What kind of person does that?" the sad expression returning to face. "Don't worry though, it was a mistake for me to open up to anyone, I suffer because my own problems. On second thought, why am I telling you this? It's not like you care anyways." He said, turning to walk out the door, it was raining heavily outside, but was stopped before he stepped out the door by a pair of hands around his waist. His body instantly relaxed, he tried to force himself away from the touch but couldn't, his will crumbling to rubble in seconds as his tears flowed again. Why, he didn't know. Damn, I told myself not to cry anymore, why now?

"Kira, you are scaring me…" Lacus' voice came from behind him, tightening her arms around his waist and holding him against her. She felt him relax and teardrops falling down onto her hand. She began to drag him back towards the living room, her hands still held tight around his waist, afraid he'll escape again. Kira, I know you're in there. Hang on. I'll get you out of there somehow. She thought.

But she didn't know

He'll never be the same again.

Not in a bad way, nor in a good way…

Back on Earth:

In an ORB ship:

Athrun sat on the bed, tears overflowing from his eyes. The door closed as Cagalli walked out, the pendant she gave him hangs around his neck. He finally realized the mistakes he made, his rash decisions made him lose two friends, instead of the alternative: one. He cursed himself for being so stupid and hopes he will forgive him in heaven. Ironically, Kira was far from heaven, he was in hell, a living hell…

Chapter 2 END

I rewrote this chapter from the original draft since it was too cheesy.

How did Lacus feel Kira's emotions? What will Athrun do? How's Kira going to turn out in the end?

In the next chapter, I changed Freedom for a new Gundam. It's going to be named ZGMF-GN01-SERADOM GAZER, you'll know the reason soon enough. For all you guys that have watched Gundam 00 2nd season and Gundam Seed Stargazer, you should be able to guess what's coming up!

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Some of your questions will be answered in the next chapter. Feel free to ask anything, I'll do the best to answer them. Bye for now, until the next time I update!