This chapter would be named "Kraft Dinner" if I named these chapters. I think there's a reference to KD in every paragraph for a while, haha.
Enjoy.
Edward just held me for a few more minutes. I've never felt so...wanted. I couldn't remember James or Mike ever holding me like this. This felt right. It calmed me and comforted me.
I finally pulled away with a sigh. "Let's go back in the house. Jacob will be back soon with his charger."
Edward nodded and as I led him back into the house he kept an arm around my shoulders. I had to suppress the smile I wanted to flash.
This was all so damn confusing. I felt a mixture of relaxation, bashfulness, lust, and pure happiness, a feeling I hadn't experienced in a while.
What this bunch of feelings meant, I had no idea. It was actually very annoying not knowing what my feelings were. I usually know everything about myself.
I sat down on the couch and Edward sat beside me. He didn't have his hands all over me, he was just close, and that had a soothing affect on me. I didn't feel that urge anymore. The urge to kill all foreigners. Maybe I really was going to be Bella instead of Redbird after this.
"You must be hungry," I murmured. "Do you want anything? You probably would never assume that I'm a decent cook."
Edward raised his eyebrows at me. "Should I trust you on this one?"
I smiled and shoved him playfully. "Come on, when have I ever lied to you? I mean, after you found out who I really am."
Edward shrugged and pondered that. I shook my head and stood up, heading to the kitchen, I hadn't eaten a full meal since before I killed Tompkins and Yorkie.
"So, how often do you eat?" Edward asked as he entered the kitchen.
I started sifting through Jacob's pantry. "I don't really have a timeline for it. The last time I had a full meal was just over a week ago, but I ate a little with you."
"And you don't feel extremely hungry after all of your meals?" Edward continued.
I found some Kraft Dinner to make.
"Yeah, I get really intense pains in my abdomen, but pain makes me stronger, remember?" I murmured, going to find a pot. "Even small dosages of pain make me a lot stronger than regular people."
I grabbed a big pot, milk, and butter, and started making the Kraft Dinner.
"I can't remember the last time I had KD," Edward admitted amusedly. "Probably after a frat party or something in university."
I laughed quietly. "This was all I ate while I was living in Qu–hiding." I wasn't sure if I trusted Edward enough to give away the name of my hiding place.
Edward rolled his eyes. "I'm on your side now, Bella. I'm not going to give you away."
I bit my lip as I let the macaroni cook. "I don't know..."
"Please, Bella?" he pleaded. "I want to know. It could help me to understand all of this better."
I sighed. "Fine, I have a place in Quebec. I ran there after training camp."
I stirred the contents of the pot in silence. I hate talking about my secrets. I was scared that they could be used against me.
"Bella–" Edward began before Jacob banged through the front door.
Jacob was wearing a goofy grin as he walked to his laptop. He didn't even notice that Edward was walking around freely.
"Jake, why are you so happy?" I teased. "You couldn't have finished that quickly, could you?"
Jacob chuckled. "Oh, sweet, naive, Bella. You have no idea."
"Ick," I murmured, draining the water out of the pot. I started mixing the milk, butter, and cheese powder into the cooked noodles.
Edward chuckled lowly at our interaction with each other. We did act like brother and sister, I guess. That's what Charlie, my dad, and Billy, Jacob's dad, always used to say. They always starting saying stuff about how they swapped partners for the weekend once and Jacob and I were the result. Gross.
I froze. Had I really just thought about my dad fondly? All of my thoughts had always been bad when it came to my parents. I hated them for ditching out on me. I probably wouldn't be in this situation if they would have let me stay at home.
I cleared my throat and grabbed a bowl.
"Dinner is served," I announced after my bowl was full of Kraft Dinner.
I handed Edward a bowl and said, "Help yourself."
He smiled and dished out a helping of Kraft Dinner. I opened the fridge and grabbed the bottle of ketchup, squirting it all over my macaroni.
Edward looked at me with a disgusted face. "Ketchup? With KD? Bella, that is so gross."
"No way," I disagreed, taking a forkful. "It's the only way to eat it." I put the fork in my mouth with a smile.
Edward shook his head and stirred his Kraft Dinner.
"Bella, do you wanna bring me a bowl of KD?" Jacob asked distractedly.
"Do you want ketchup on it?" I asked as I dished him up a serving.
"Yeah, sure," Jacob murmured, still not paying attention. For being so smart with technology, the boy was pretty oblivious. He still hadn't realized that Edward wasn't in chains anymore.
I poured plenty of ketchup on his Kraft Dinner with a smirk. I glanced at Edward, who was still disgusted. I took Jacob his bowl. He shoved some in his mouth and chewed, looking at something on the computer.
"Told you that ketchup was good on KD, Edward," I informed him with a smirk.
Jacob looked at me with a confused scowl. I rolled my eyes and gestured to Edward, who was eating his bowl of Kraft Dinner quietly in the kitchen.
"What the...," Jacob murmured. He looked at me, still scowling.
"He's on our side," I whispered. "He's going to help."
"Bella, are you sure?" he asked nervously. "I mean, he's an FBI agent, it's his job to deceive people."
"That's what my job entails, too, Jacob," I reminded him. "And anyway, I still have the upper hand. We were fighting in the backyard, and it was obvious that I was stronger."
"But, Bella–" Jacob paused. "You were fighting Cullen in my backyard?"
"Yeah," I answered nonchalantly, scooping up some more Kraft Dinner. "I would have won, too, if he hadn't had an epiphany in the middle of the fight."
"So, he realized that what you're doing is right while you were kicking his ass?" Jacob summarized.
I nodded. "Yes, I guess you could put it like that."
Jacob turned back to the computer with wide eyes. "Whatever you say, Bella, if you think you can handle it."
"I can handle it," I retorted stubbornly. "No luck with James yet?"
Jacob shook his head. "They disclose his locations better than the others. It'll take me a while to hack into their server and find James. You might as well get comfortable, chill for a while." Jacob looked at me cautiously. "Maybe talk to your mom."
A growl formed in my throat. "No, I'm never talking to her."
Jacob sighed. "When are you going to grow up and realize that she was just trying to protect you, Bella? She thought you'd stop fighting for your family, but you're just too damn stubborn, aren't you? You had to run away with psychopathic James and end like this. She still misses you, Bella. Every time I go over there, she asks about you."
I crossed my arms and pursed my lips, looking at the ceiling. I got this lecture every time I came back to Phoenix.
"He's right, you know, Bella," Edward murmured, breaking the tense silence. "Your mom was probably trying to save you from being hurt, and if you have accepted that, you'd have a normal life now."
I stared at Edward in shock. How dare he stroll in on this, of all conversations, and tell me, of all people what to do.
"You don't know what you're talking about," I growled.
"Actually, I think I do," Edward answered confidently. "My parents have always been overprotective of me. I'm the youngest and Emmett was a screw-up, while I was 'perfect'. I dropped out of med school because I wanted to piss my dad off, and I joined the army to get my mom worried sick about me. I would be a doctor by now if I hadn't been so stupidly rebellious."
"Your file says failed med school," I stated with a scowl.
Edward chuckled humourlessly. "I should have known you'd have looked at my profile. That's the only way I could drop out. Dad wouldn't let me just give up, so I had to get kicked out by the university."
"That sucks," I muttered bluntly.
"It did suck," Edward admitted. "But I talked to my parents after. I have my family behind my back every step of the way, no matter what. It's nice to know that you can always have someone to fall back on, Bella, even if you have been fighting."
I sighed. "How could he make going back to my mom so appealing?
Edward must have seen my mind wavering because he quickly added, "I'll go with you, if that would help."
I snorted and looked at him like he was stupid. "How would that help at all?" I started to mimic what would happen. "'Hey there, Renee! How's life? Good, good. Oh, hey! This is Edward Cullen, an FBI agent. And, by the way, we're just stopping in Phoenix before I go kill a few people in hopes of having a normal life. Nice talking to you, Ma. You might wanna grab a paper bag in case you start hyperventilating. Alright, well, see you later.'" I glared at Edward.
Jacob and Edward both started laughing at my rant. I crossed my arms and looked at the ground. Stupid men laughing at me...
"Jesus, Bella," Jacob panted. "I don't think I've ever laughed this hard with you before."
"You were laughing at me, Jacob," I mumbled.
Edward grinned, still chuckling. "Are you always this illogical, Bella?"
"What do you mean?" I murmured, scowling.
"Well, frick, do you think I'm stupid?" I raised my eyebrow with a smirk. "Well, I'm not. I could pretend to be your boyfriend or something."
I nearly choked on the air I was breathing. Edward pretending to be my boyfriend? Talk about doing a one-eighty in an hour or so.
"You don't have to do that," I mumbled, embarrassed. "If I'm going to see her, I better do it alone."
Jacob rolled his eyes. "Bella, if we left it up to you, it would never get done. Let Edward go with you, just visit Renee for a while. Let her know that you're still alive."
I nodded stupidly. I couldn't believe I was about to do this.
So, this isn't really Seducing Revenge material, as you can see. It's completely different from last chapter, and I don't know why. Everything was so tame. I think it's because Bella has to be humane while she's with Renee. Oh, well, hopefully things will go back to normal.
So, Twilight is out on DVD today. My DVD was actually here over a week ago, but I wasn't allowed to look at it or anything because of legal reasons, so I just ran down to the movie rental place and grabbed it today. My youngest sister, Kat, who is nine, is reading Twilight right now, so she's cooped up in her bed, because she's sick with laringitis, poor baby, reading and watching the movie. I'm watching it tonight with a friend or two, I think. I'm not too worried about watching it, haha.
Hmm. I was in a play all week, so that was why this didn't get posted as quickly. It was Rumpelstiltskin, and it was a blast. I love drama. It's so much fun.
Well, I guess that's it? Review!
