I'm done! Finally! Sorry this took awhile, but now it's finally summer! And I made a whole new story I'll be publishing. Please read it, I've officaly named it When the Dead is actually alive. Its a new vocaloid story. :) Thank you all my loyal readers and reviewers, please read the note at the end. Thanks for reading.
I will sing from the bottom of this deep shallow heart. I cried all day, but the rain has dried once again, it's clear. Please forgive me for everything. The sky is now clear again. I spread open my wings and fly away. I'll leave this world knowing its a better place. This is the grand finale.
Len's POV
When I woke, I felt someone looking at me. As I looked up I saw teary eyed Rin looking me straight in the face. With a small smile, she hugged me tightly.
"I'm glad to see you're awake." She set the flowers down on the counter and sat beside me. She looked shallow and heartless, just looking deeply on the ground.
"Listen, Len, how did you get into this car accident?" She asked. I hesitated to answer.
"I...I was speeding." I wasn't actually lying, I wasn't fully speaking the truth though.
"Why? And the police said you were speeding toward the hospital...Why?" It fell silent, as she raised her head and tears began to flow down her face.
"Len, you weren't going to see Miku, were you?" I couldn't answer her. Both of us knew the answer.
"You were, weren't you?" She began to lose her voice. She shook her head violently as she stepped out of her chair.
"Why? I thought...I thought you loved me!" She yelled as she ran for the door.
"Wait! I..." The door slammed. I couldn't hide this painful feeling in my chest. I knew I should have listened to her. No, It was correct to do what I did. Still, tears flew down my face as my face roasted a bright red.
"I'm a monster..."
RIN's POV
I knew it, I couldn't stop this love, even if I tried. My Len, the same orange loving kind guy I had fallen in love with, was perhaps gone forever. His heart probably already claimed. The wind whistled around as my hair vigorously whipped around. I wanted to stay by his side longer, but I guess that Isn't what god wants. I step closer to the edge of the roof. The sunset dips slowly back into it's horizon and starts to fade. I slowly prepare to jump off.
I remember when Len and I first kissed each other. It was on a bright clear day like this during the sunset.
"This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen." I whispered to Len.
"Not for me." He replied back.
"Well then, what is?" I said rather sadly.
"You." He leaned in and kissed my right on the lips. I accepted it and closed my eyes tightly until I needed to stop for air. His smiled softly at the sky as it began to turn dark.
"Len?" I said.
"Yes?"
"Do you love me?" I asked him.
"Yes. I love you with all my heart. I promise, I love nobody more in the world than you."
"You..promise?"
"I promise. Even if the world depended on me leaving you, I would let the world explode if I have to." He said this in such a serious tone, but I curled up next to him and hugged his arm. It was time like that were I wish it would just last forever. Where we both loved each other and nothing would change. However, things did change. It stabbed me in the heart to think that this amazing feeling would vanish. I thought at first it would be perfect, but now I'm not sure. The more I think about it, the more I am in pain. A single tear flowed down my cold cheek.
"I thought...I thought you love me..." I hissed."You broke your promise..." Spilling from my eyes, tears burned on my skin like acid. Trying to whip my tears, I began to shake. Removing my hands from my eyes, I knew I had no place here anymore.
"Goodbye..Perhaps I'll see the horizon in the next lifetime." Stepping toward the edge of the roof, I felt my chest leap when I felt something warm and tender grasp my arm before I could jump.
"Rin, Len didn't break his promise." An inviting voice whispered into my ear.
Forgetting all of the hardships, I hugged Miku tightly, letting her silky hair slip through my fingers. I shook my head and held her close. I couldn't let all of it slip away from me again.
"Miku, I'm sorry, I should burn in hell for all I've done. I've discovered how important you are in my life." I whispered as tears streamed down my face. Crying like a baby, I couldn't let go of Miku. She hugged me back, but pushed me away again.
"It's fine, Rin. It will be all right." For once, her words comforted me, assuring me everything was alright, which it wasn't.
Miku's POV
Pain shot through my body as I struggled to get up. My first thought was Len, then came the dreadful night that I had just lived. I shouldn't have been in Len's room in the first place. What a life in living here.
In an instant, I got up once again. Knowing that the doctors won't be happy about this, it pushed me harder to try to get to Len's room. This time holding on to my rack with my liquid, I opened the door to the outside. Each step made my feet have an arousing feeling shoot into them. As I reached Len's room, I smelled a smell that reminded me of my past. I remember at this time of day during this season, I would smell this kind of aroma. Something about it wasn't right though. It brought back more than just a smell, it brought back memories I tried to forget. I thought I had forgotten pain, forgotten what it really was like to be in agony. And that was when I had felt something deep down inside of me that was probably asleep for half of the year. Was is excitement? I will never know what exactly escaped out of the door when I opened it to Len's room. The same Len I knew was laying on the same unchanged sheets as yesterday. He looked unhappy and unsatisfied with himself.
"Miku! What are you doing out?" He said stunned.
"I wanted to see how you were, you know, all awake and everything..." I managed to blush and look away quickly.
"Thanks Miku. But I need you to do something very important for me. Rin, you see, thinks you and me are..." He didn't need to finish his sentence in order for me to understand.
"No. Len, I don't feel THAT way about you..."
"Neither do I. But Rin doesn't believe me...I think she might have gone up to the roof. No, I know she's there. She wouldn't just leave me, would she...?" Could Len really care that much for Rin? What a silly question to ask, I know he loves her with all his heart. But maybe I've been around Len so much I think he only cares about me and just me. What is this feeling in my stomach right now though? It is settling at the bottom of my stomach. Panic maybe? It's very unsettling.
"I'll go find her for you. I'll be back." I limp outside and begin making my way upstairs. Being careful not to trip, I padded up the stairs.
"It would be smart to take the elevator..." I whispered to myself. I eventually made it up the stairs, trying to catch my breath. I opened the door to the roof and light blinded me. As I adjusted me vision, I saw a figure close to the edge of the roof.
"Rin..." I tried to say her name, but failed on the first attempt. I walked slowly toward her as I knew what she was about to do. If I didn't stop her, I knew I would lose her too.
"You broke your promise..."I heard her whisper. It wasn't long before she whispered something I couldn't hear, which probably was important, but of course, my ears didn't get it. I grabbed her arm with all my strength and whispered in a hushed voice.
"Rin...Len didn't break his promise." Rin turned around and hugged me. Under each sob, I understood her words.
We ventured back into the elevator, and even though a huge weight has been lifted from our breaking friendship, I still feel like something isn't right.
"Listen, Rin.." I began."I'm sorry for what ever pain I cause you. It's not Len's fault, it's mine. Please forgive him, he would die without you."
Nodding her head she smiled quietly to herself as we reached the third floor. Waving goodbye to her in a moarnful eye, I enter my room once again. The same dusty room I had finally decided to call home.
That small voice continued to echo in my head. Like it did when I first opened my eyes to the world I thought had changed so much after I tried to suicide and destroy Luka's home. I felt as if I again had no place in this world I could fit into, like a puzzle piece that couldn't find a place to fit into. I should feel happy, rather jubilant, but I end up feeling more depressed than happy. After the encounter with Rin, I recognized that we aren't so different after all. She tried to suicide because she believed that she could just throw everything all away because she had nothing left to life for. She was in so much pain because of me, she thought she deserved to die. That's exactly how I was, but now, I see exactly how it was with Luka, Kaito, and I. I over reacted and screwed up everything. Nobody was there to stop me, I didn't listen. I was the one who pushed Kaito closer to Luka. I pushed all that I loved away from me, closed myself off from the world, trying to keep everything I still had, but I ended up losing more than I wanted to lose. I couldn't stay friends with Kaito. Or Luka. And almost Rin and Len. But now, I know what I must do. I know I have caused all of this pain upon myself, no one else but me is responsible for that. I must keep the promise I made with the dragon.
"I, shall disappear." I whispered. I didn't want to die yet. The show wasn't over, I couldn't die just yet. I had unfinished business. As I began to fall into sleep, I heard footsteps in my room.
"Hatsune Miku, you're free to go."
Rin's POV
I just stood behind Len's door. Like a idiot. I knew that behind that door was still broken hearted Len, breathing softly under the tears I made him shed. I whipped my eyes as I noticed I began to tear up.
"No, don't cry Rin, you're strong." Wiggling the cold door handle, I opened his door. What I saw was completely unexpected. Len was standing up, struggling to balance himself. His face was red and his skin was pale, it was terrible to watch him suffer.
"Len! What are you doing?" He looked up and his face dampened into a smile.
"Rin...You're all right."
"Of course I'm all right, idiot! What are you doing trying to stand up like that?" I Blurted out. His face became cold and he sat down on his bed.
"I'm sorry I called you an idiot, I just don't want to loose you Len..." He smiled at me as I padded to him and hugged him tight.
"I'm sorry for everything...I wish we could spend sometime together like the old times..."
"Maybe we can..." Len pointed to a wheelchair on the side of the room. I managed to crack a smile.
Together, holding hands, we stepped in the elevator. He grabbed his cart with his container of liquid with him that was attached to his wrist. Making sure not to let go, I vividly smiled, embracing this warm feeling. As we reached the roof, I carefully moved Len to the soft blanket I had layed out for him. He sat down slowly, and I sat too. I had thought I would never see the sunset again, but I was wrong. I was wrong about many things. Tears formed in my eyes and spilled onto my face. Len looked away from the sunset and turned to me and whipped my tears.
"Why are you crying?" He asked.
"I'm..I'm sorry. I just haven't felt this happy in a while, like a huge weight has been lifted off me, you know? Like there's no one here but us." I replied back, staring at the sky.
"You know, I'm glad I got in that car accident." He said. I frowned.
"Why? You could have died!" I busted out.
"But I didn't. If I wouldn't have gotten in that car accident, then we wouldn't be spending this time together. I'm glad I got to spend it just with you. Not with my co-workers, not on the road. This moment is pure happiness for me, Rin." This remark made me smile. He's right, If he wouldn't have gotten in that car accident, we wouldn't be spending this time with each other. For once, I'm grateful for this.
I felt his warm hand meet mine. Nothing can ruin this moment. Nothing. Our eyes met. He smirked sarcastically, and as blushed and looked away from him, but he pulled my chin toward him. Without resisting, I starred into his azure eyes as he starred into mine. He let go on my chin and came closer until our lips met. This is our first real kiss in a long time. Gasping for air, we broke the kiss, now clinging onto each other tightly. I didn't want the sun to go down. If the sun would go down, then this day would end, and reality would break us apart once again. Before I could whisper a word, Len spoke.
"Hey Rinny, can you promise me something?" He asked.
"Sure. What is it?"
"I know this is childish...but can you stay by my side? I don't want to be alone again." I smiled.
"Don't worry. I promise. I'll never break that promise. If I break it, then you have the right to kill me." I said.
"Why would I want to kill you? I would die without you." I just nodded at him, as the sky grew dim.
"Hey, Len? There's something I've been wanting to talk to you about. I didn't have time to talk to you much about it..."
"Yes? What is it?" He asked.
"Well, I'm just asking, did anything ever go on with you and Miku?" I asked. He grew silent. He shook his head.
"No. Nothing. I swear."
"Then why were you always hanging out with her at the hospital?"
"She was broken, Rin. She had just been scarred by the loss of Kaito and her friend Luka. She had told me that she set the house and fire because she wanted to Suicide. If She would have not talked to me, she surely would have suicided eventually." He replied back. I couldn't even think of her suiciding. Her trying to kill herself off.
"Len, I'm sorry. I didn't know that it was that serious. Please forgive me for misjudging this." I looked at him.
"It's fine. I'm glad you realize it. But what you really should do is spend more time with Miku. Now that you're friends with her again, you should reconnected." The thought clicked to me. I haven't spent much time with her. The sun was now fully swallowed by the dark blue sky, and it grew cold. I carried Len back to his room and kissed him farewell until tomorrow. I closed the door tightly as I left, and began to walk towards Miku's Room. With each step, I felt my curiousness grow deeper as I reach her room. My sweaty hands opened the door wide, hoping to see Miku, but was astonished to she the room was empty.
"Are you looking for Hatsune Miku?" A doctor said.
"Yes, where is she?"
"They determined she was well enough to go home."
Miku's POV
About three months have past since my release from the hospital. Len had just been released as well, now being able to walk again. I'm happy to see that everything is all right, but I still feel something inside of me be uneasy.
The breeze whistles through my pores as I remember my sweet childhood memories.
"Isn't this fun? Spending some nice old friend time with us?" Gakupo said.
"Ah, I haven't felt this free in ages!" Gumi stretched her body out.
We had finally had some free time to invite some of our friends, Rin, Len, Gakupo, Gumi, and Meiko. Our first time seeing each other in a while.
"It's time, Miku..." I heard a voice say.
"Hey, I'm not feeling to well, I'll be right back." I said.
"But Miku-" Rin started. I walked away slowly.
"Goodbye..." I whispered. When I found a tree that was far enough, sat down and began to feel a heavy weight for in my stomach.
"It's time, Miku. All is right for you're time to pass."
"I know, but I don't want to leave yet. I'm finally in a place that is happy."
"You made a deal with me Hatsune Miku."
"But..."
"Miku! Miku where are you?" I heard Len's voice.
"Hatsune Miku," The voice said."You are no longer under the deal. You've gained something I cannot fend off. It's, love. You've finally accepted your life."
"Miku? There you are Miku. Are you ok?" Len asked.
A huge weight lifted from my stomach, I was finally free.
"Yeah, I'm ok." I stood up straight, and for the first time, I was actually ok. At that moment, I felt like nothing in the world could make sad. I gave a big huge to Len.
"Ah..What are you doing?" Len asked.
"I'm hugging you, silly! Now, let's go back to the picnic!" And that's when I knew my life would be different.
"Kaito?"
"Yes Luka." Kaito replied in his wheelchair.
"Do you love me?" Luka asked as she pushed Kaito down the street.
"Yes..." He whispered.
"Then why don't you kiss me anymore? I'm tired of just pushing you around and getting no love."
"Well sorry," He said sarcastically."Do you think I can kiss you if I'm in a wheelchair?"
"Stop being so cold Kaito-kun."
"I'm not cold...I'm just tired of you!"
"Kaito-kun...Stop it! I hate when we fight like this..." Luka pushed him faster.
"Stop pushing me so faster...you'll kill me!"
"Oh Kaito-kun. Don't worry. We'll be together forever." She whispered evilly.
Perhaps Karma does get back to those who don't desire happiness. And not all triangle are ACUTE.
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