Ch 11: The Pain of Leaving
Lorcan POV
"Lily!" I yelled though the flat. "Lily, where are you?" I was happy.
"What." Lily came out of the kitchen with a wet plate in her hand. "Why are you so happy?"
I took the plate out of her hand and set it down on the table. I grabbed her in hug. "Today I got an owl from an old friend. She needs me in America." I couldn't hold in my pleasure.
She smiled a small tiny small. "That great. When do you leave? How long will you be gone for?"
"Tomorrow. I don't know for how long." I let her go and kissed her on the mouth. She grabbed the plate and went back into the kitchen.
She walked back out. "You need to start packing." She walks over to the fireplace. "I'll be back later." Lily walked into the fire.
I don't know what happen there. We have been doing well for the last couple of months. I thought that she would be happy for me. I went to my room to start packing. I was putting some clothes in the bag when I found the ring that my dad gave me a few weeks ago.
"Lorcan, it is nice for you to come here today." Dad smiled. He took me in his study. "I have something for you." He went over and took something out of the drawer. He handed me the small black box. "I thought you would like this."
"Thank you." I open the box and saw a simple diamond ring but it screams Lily.
"It was your grandmother's." Dad said from behind me. I nodded and put the ring in my pocket.
I took the ring out and looked at it. I was going to ask Lily to marry me soon. I set the ring on the table next to my bed. It will have to wait until I get back from America. I finish packing.
Lily POV
I walked in Rose's house and found it quiet. I took a look in the sitting to find Rose and Skylar sleep on the love seat. I quietly walked in the sitting room. "Rose," I said quietly "I need to talk to you."
Rose opens one eye and saw me standing over her. "What are you doing here? I thought you had something plan for Lorcan today." She sat up while trying not to wake up Skylar.
"Well he came home and told me he was leaving for America tomorrow." I said.
"What." Rose silently screamed. I nodded. "He didn't."
"He did." I took a seat on the loveseat next to Rose. Rose shook her head. She got up and put Skylar in his basket.
"Come I need some tea and so do you." She did some wand work to let her know when Skylar would wake up. We went into the kitchen.
We made some tea and I told her what happen from the time he came in to the time I left. "I don't know what I'm going to do?"
"You tell him… I don't know. I'm lost." Rose was lost for words. "We need the big guns."
"The big guns. Rose you are watching to much American TV." I said. "And who are the big guns?" I had to ask.
"Our mothers." Rose got up and owl our mothers.
We sat there waiting for our mothers, who arrive five minutes later. They came in the kitchen with Skylar, who woke up from his nap. Aunt Hermione handed him over to Rose.
"What did you need that you couldn't tell us by owl?" Mum took a seat next to me.
"Your daughter has a problem with her love life and we don't know what to do." I got up and grabbed two cups for them. They thanked me.
"What is this problem." Aunt Hermione asked as she fills her cup with tea.
"Lorcan is leaving for America tomorrow." I said.
"What is the problem with that." Mum asked with a curious look. "It won't be for long. I waited for your father for about a year."
"You might want to tell them everything." Rose started to rock Skylar when he started to whine.
I told what happen nine years ago. It was hard to tell them about it because I could see the concern on their faces. How I confess my love to Lorcan and how he said it was crush. That I have loved him forever. When we got together and how he is breaking my heart now.
"He was so happy about going. I didn't know how to tell him that I didn't want him to go. I asked him how long he was going for. He didn't know. I would not have minded if he was gone for a month or two." I started to feel the tears in my eyes.
"What you need to do is talk to him how you feel about it. You need to decide if you want to wait for him or not." Aunt Hermione reasoned.
I nodded. "Yeah. I need to talk him and decide if I want to wait for him. Thank you." I got up. "I have to go talk to Lorcan." I left the house.
I open the door to our flat to find boxes all over the place. "Lorcan, why are there boxes all over the place?" I yelled towards the back.
Lorcan came out of the back. "Hi, Lily. I need to pack something that I'm going to need in America." He came over and gave me a kiss. "Where did you go?"
"I went to see the baby." I lied. "We need to talk, Lorcan." I smiled and walked over to the couch.
"About what." Lorcan came and sat down next to me.
"You leaving." I didn't look at him.
"What about me leaving." He turns my face to look at me.
"I don't want you to leave." The tears started again.
"This will be great for my career." He faked a smile; I could see it in his eyes that he was sorry about my feeling.
"Lorcan, do you remember nine years ago," He nodded. "You remember how I told you I loved you. You told me it was just a crush." He nodded again. "I feel that you are leaving me again and I won't see you again for the next nine years." The tears started to fall. "I still love you, but I can't wait for you again. So, if you leave I don't know if I'm going to be here when you return." I let the tears fall freely. I got up and went to cry in my room.
Lorcan POV
I sat there for about five minutes before I got up and went to finish packing. I thought about what Lily had said. She said that she loved me. I knew she cared for me, but I didn't think that she loved me. It dawns on me that she still loved me. She has loved for the last nine years. I finish packing, every time I passed Lily's room I could hear the tears she was crying for me. I went to bed in the cold bed that I haven't slept in since we first made love.
The next morning, I shower, made me some coffee for my trip. Five minutes before I had to leave Lily came out. The sun came though the window. The light fell on her head that made her hair shine. I wanted to go over and kiss her goodbye, but I didn't. I stood in the doorway looking Lily up and down. I took in the tears running down her face, her wearing my shirt and my old sweatpants, to her bare feet with red chip nail polish.
I make my way up to her face again to see her freckles over her nose. Her green eyes with gold flecks in them. I could get lost in them. I knew what her eyes were telling, 'Don't leave.' I pick up my bag up from the floor, because I know if I didn't I would have fell on my knees in front of her and told her I'm not leaving. I turned my back to her so I couldn't see those eyes. I open the door and walk away from the life I could have with her.
I throw my bag on my shoulder when I walked into the sunlight. I see people walking to get where they need to go. No one knows what happen in the flat over his or her heads. I step on the sidewalk to join the crowd that was going places.
I slip my hand in my pocket to start walking when I felt the ring that my dad gave just weeks before. I pull out the small black box and stop right there in the middle of the sidewalk and open the box to look at the ring that was Lily.
When I looked at the ring I saw my future with Lily. I saw little babies with red and black hair. I can see myself growing old with her. What was I doing? I should be in there asking Lily to marry me and have a family. I realize having the woman you love is better then having a great career. I close the box and run back to our flat.
I ran into the flat to see Lily walking into the kitchen. I walk over to stand in the doorway, along the way I drop my bag. She had her back turn towards me. I wait for her to turn to see me. She wipes a tear from her eye. She turns around to see me standing there. She drops the cup she was holding.
"Lorcan, what are you doing here." Lily asked with a shaking voice. "Don't you have a portkey to catch."
I slowly walk over to her and wave my wand to fix the cup. "No." I say when I reach her. I put her head in between my hands. "I'm right where I belong. Here with you." I lean in to kiss her. "I love you, Lily Potter." I say before my lips touch hers. She wraps her arms around me.
She broke the kiss. "Don't you ever leave me again."
"Never." I break out of her arms and get down on one knee. I pull out the little black box. "Lily Potter, will you marry me?" I said while opening the box. I look up at her eyes to see tears in them.
She nodded her head. "Yes." As she wipes her eyes. I take out the ring and put it on her finger. I lean up and kiss her.
