A/N: Thanks to my beta Kikithebookworm. You basically made this story come to life- thanks for being real with me :)

Chapter Five: Indaco as performed by Ludovico Einaudi

I jerked back quickly, searching Eleazar's eyes for the truth. How could he possibly know who I was? I had never met him before, so how could he know? I was worried that he would tell everyone the truth; that I was Bella- Edward's Bella. Again and again in my head, I secretly pleaded to him, begging him not to tell the others.

Yet, when I looked into his eyes, he just smiled warmly and nodded his head. "I would love to sit down and talk with you later, Izzy. Is that okay?" he asked.

"Of course Eleazar," I answered. "I would like to see my room first and possibly shower."

"That's fine Izzy, I will see you shortly. Again, welcome. I look forward to getting to know you." He smiled and reached for his mate's arm and they walked down the stairs together. I could hear their whispers. She asked him about our exchange and he answered simply with a "nothing darling."

Tanya linked her arm with mine and led the way up the stairs. As she walked, she pointed out rooms down the hallway. "This room on the left is Irina's. The one next to that with the double doors would be Carmen's and Eleazar's. This one here on the right is my room, and down the hall a bit further is Kate's room. Your room however, is right here, directly across from mine." She opened the door and we were greeted by an immense amount of sunlight. She gracefully walked across the room and pulled the blinds closed. "This is probably the sunniest room of all, as it faces the east. Edward typically stays here when he visits. Something about the sun just makes him feel human again. I hope you don't mind."

"No, not at all," I answered quickly, "as long as he doesn't mind me lounging in 'his' bed." I laughed, still mesmerized by the angelic sound that came from my body.

Tanya noticed this saying, "Don't worry dear," grasping my arms, "you eventually get used to how much more alluring you sound and look. It's part of who we are."

I smiled back at her and nodded my head. "Thank you again Tanya. You have been nothing but kind to me." I felt guilty about the lies I was feeding her, but I knew it was the only way at the time. I kissed her cheek and moved across the room to the large panel window. I opened the blind slightly and took in the view. It was absolutely breath taking. The sun was reflected off the lake just outside my room, allowing it to illuminate my entire room. Trees surrounded the lake, and there was even a small boat tied up to a dock. Forest surrounded the house for miles. We were secluded from humans.

"We like being away from civilization. It helps us with our" she paused, swallowing, "cravings. When Carlisle came to us, informing us of our ability to feed off animals instead of humans, we realized we did not have to make human's our prey. However, the temptation is still there, no matter how small." She smiled ever so slightly, and turned towards the door. "I'll leave you be to relax. Don't forget that Eleazar wanted to speak with you." She left, closing the door behind her.

The minute the door closed, I crumbled to the floor. I began replaying what had just happened in my mind. Again, I found myself in a situation at which I didn't know how to react. I began sobbing once more, wanting nothing more than to be able to cry. After some time and realizing how incredibly pathetic I was acting, I picked myself up off the floor and made my way to the bathroom. It was adjoined to my room, as well as Carmen's and Eleazar's. The bathroom itself was beautiful. Again, the outside wall was nothing but a window, allowing sunlight to flow in and make my skin sparkle. There was a large shower with several showerheads on each wall, and a claw-footed bathtub in the center. The marble floors were white and cold- much like my own skin. Being rather self-conscious about my body, I closed the curtains and turned the shower on and stepped in. The hot water streamed down my body, rinsing away the dirt and grime from the run. It warmed my body up slowly, almost making me feel human again. After standing under the shower heads for what seemed like an hour, I turned the water off, and stepped out, wrapping myself up in a big, fluffy towel. I walked over to the sink area, taking note of all the different facial creams and lotions. I wondered if vampires even needed to wear those things or not, unscrewing the caps and smelling each one. As a human, I probably would have thought they all smelled beautiful. As a vampire, I could smell the various chemicals in many of the lotions. I found one lotion that I liked, and was happy to see that the bottle boasted being "au natural" and spread it on my body. Mmmm, lilacs. I loved lilacs. They smelled so full of life and yet so clean at the same time. It reminded me of my mother, too. Mom. Feelings of homesickness rushed over my body, and I wanted nothing more than to go home. How was I supposed to go decades, centuries even? I made my way back into my room and walked over to my backpack, which was lying on my bed. I realized that all I had with me was one change of clothes and wondered how I could get new ones. Should I ask Tanya? Should I spend some money and buy new ones? How does a vampire shop? As I pulled on the old jeans and t-shirt, I inhaled a smell of wet dog and a memory flashed.

I was in a garage, wearing the same jeans and t-shirt. Across from me was a very, well built boy with long black hair, shirtless, half his body leaned under the hood of a Volkswagon Beetle. He pulled his head out of the car and smiled at me, causing my heart to quicken. I smiled back at him, finding that being in his presence was so incredibly easy.

"Bells?" he called to me.

"I'm still here Jacob."

I shook my head, causing the memory to blur. I closed my eyes tightly and inhaled deeply. Opening my eyes, I stood up and walked over to the vanity and pulled out a brush. I looked in the mirror, taking in my new features. Although I know I once looked plain, the way I looked now was striking. My brown hair seemed to sparkle and although still wet, sat perfectly on my head, framing my face. Why couldn't my hair do this when I was human? My face was as clear and white as porcelain. My eyes were wide and frighteningly red. I hated the color of my eyes and wondered when they would begin to look normal lips were also red, but they seemed fuller, more succulent, and my teeth! Oh, my teeth, they were perfect, so white and sparkly! Why does everything seem to sparkle as a vampire? I stood up and walked over to the full-length mirror, taking in my new body. I watched myself in the mirror as I walked over, noticing how I moved much more graceful and poised. Even my walk was attractive, seemingly lithe and agile. As I stared at myself in the mirror I couldn't help but think that I was anything but plain. I heard a chuckle from behind me and my head whipped around to see my audience.

"Taking in your new looks for the first time, I see." Eleazar smiled warmly. "Sorry to intrude dear Isabella, but I was beginning to wonder if you were ever coming down."

"Sorry Eleazar. I didn't mean to keep you waiting." I turned to face the mirror again. "I lost track of time up here." I kept looking at myself, taking it all in.

"Come now dear, there is no need to be so narcissistic." He put his hand out for me to take hold.

"Humph!" I scoffed, "I was not being narcissistic. Was I?" I couldn't tell anymore.

"If I had never seen it before, I'd say you were trying to dazzle yourself," he said chuckling. "Let's go for a walk. Your eyes tell me you need to feed." He led me down the corridor, and down the stairs. He paused at the doorway saying, "That t-shirt of yours really must go, dear. It smells like wet dog."

I pulled the shirt up to my nose and inhaled. It did smell of dog, but it also smelled of my Jake. My Jake- how those words seemed so natural. But why? My mind drifted and I found myself again swamped in a memory.

I was at a movie theater with Jacob, and he was sitting on a bench. He patted the empty seat next to him and I joined him. Moments later his arm was around my shoulders, and as much as I was uncomfortable with this "blurring of the lines", I allowed it. I needed him close to me. I knew at this point that there was nothing left in my life that was more important than Jacob Black. I couldn't imagine my life not with him. He was mine- he was my Jacob.

I pressed my fingers to my temple and shook the dream away. I wouldn't be able to just throw it away.

"Sorry Eleazar, I know it stinks, but my best friend gave it to me and I can't just toss it. I'll be sure to wash it this evening."

He snorted saying, "There is not enough soap in the world that could get that smell off it. You do know what that smell is, don't you?"

I pictured Sam and the others in my head: giant wolves. Jacob is a wolf? No! I refused to believe it. I wouldn't bring myself to believe it by saying it out loud. "No." I tried to sound innocent. "I really don't. That's why I'm here; I want to learn more about myself and our world." We began walking towards the forest and Eleazar dropped his hand from mine. He turned to face me.

"Breathe in deeply, Bella. What do you smell?"

I did as he asked and inhaled. I was assaulted with different smells, one seemingly better than the other. "To the north there is a herd of deer. South of us is a family of grizzly bears, a mother and two cubs. I hear 3 hearts beating. To the west," I sniffed the air again, "I believe we will find caribou." Turning towards the east, I inhaled once more. "Mountain lion." I smiled at myself, impressed by my abilities.

"Very good Bella. For a newborn, you do truly have control of yours senses. Now tell me, which would you like to feed on? Will it be deer, bear, caribou, or lion?"

"Could we hunt the caribou? I've already hunted lion and bear, and I think I would like a bit of a change." I smirked, thinking to myself that a caribou would be an easy kill for me.

"Let's go." He said, loping off into the forest. I chased after him, taking in the smells and sounds of my new home. Before I knew it, I was drowning in my own thoughts, wondering about my new home and again, how Eleazar knew the truth, and why he was keeping this secret. I was so lost in my train of thought that I almost didn't notice that Eleazar had stopped. I slowed down and came to a halt next to him, and looked down at my prey. My animalistic urges took over and I was in attack mode. I crouched down on my haunches at the same time as Eleazar. Directly in front of us were two unsuspecting caribou, munching on some grass. They had no idea that we were about to devour them. We pounced on the caribou and I sank my teeth into my kill, the blood flowing down my throat and into my stomach, again pacifying the burning sensation there. I drank until I was full, wiping my mouth with the back of my hand.

"Your eyes are already starting to change color, Bella." Eleazar said. Again, I was hit by a bout of questions.

"How do you know I'm Bella?" I asked. I noticed that Eleazar had too, finished his kill and was leaning against a tree, arms crossed on his chest. His eyes were a golden topaz color and I wondered how long he had been feeding off animals.

"I knew the minute you walked in the door you were not this Izzy character you claimed to be. As you know, Edward was here, vacationing you might say," he said slowly. He started walking and I followed him. "He mentioned his beloved Bella, with her plain jane looks: soft, chestnut brown hair, big brown eyes, and ability to turn bright red when embarrassed. When I saw you, I knew you had to be her. Your reaction to Tanya asking where Edward had gone only solidified my assumptions. You were about to run out the door if he came walking down the steps, were you not?"

"Was I that obvious? I've always been an awful liar. When she mentioned Edward's name, this feeling just rushed over me and my instincts kicked in, telling me to run." I couldn't help but tell him the truth. I knew he was safe to talk to, and so my story came out.

"Who turned you, Bella?" He had stopped walking and turned around to face me. He eyes were full of concern and compassion.

"Laurent," I said, and Eleazar seemed taken aback.

"Surely not! Laurent has been here with us since James and Victoria had gone. He promised he would stop feeding on humans." His shoulders slumped and a wave of sadness passed over him.

"It wasn't just Laurent though. I knew he was going to kill me, so I asked him to turn me instead," Eleazar's eyes found mine, wordlessly asking why I would want such a thing, "I had lost Edward, thinking I would never be with him again, as a human at least. I knew that if I didn't ask Laurent to turn me, he would just kill me. I wasn't ready for my life to be completely over yet, Eleazar! I wanted to continue on, even if it meant like this. I told him," I started this part slowly, not exactly knowing how to approach the fact that I, a mere human at the time, seduced a vampire, "I told him that I could be his mate, that I would do anything for him." Eleazar again looked taken aback.

"He wanted you for his mate? But he had Irina, they were to be together." Grief seemed to take hold of him as he began to say, "Apparently Laurent was too much of an animal to be honest in life. What happened to him?"

I was actually quite frightened to tell him the truth, but I knew I must. "After he turned me, we went hunting." I thought back on the few days I spent with Laurent. He wasn't all that bad. "I actually enjoyed the short amount of time we were together. He helped me get through some things, to say goodbye to my father. We were on our way out of Forks when it happened." I said gloomily, "Eleazar. Laurent is dead."

He shook his head, as if not quite understanding what I had just said. "How?"

"Wolves." I said matter-of-factly. "The Quileute wolves."

Alarmingly, Eleazar asked, "But how? Then why are you alive?"

I smirked slightly, "You could say that I'm friends with them… Or I used to be, at least."

"Unbelievable! You're friends with a pack of wolves! I just can't even begin to fathom the control on both of your parts. You should have been tearing each other to bits!" He grabbed a hold of my arm. "How do you have so much control Bella?"

I looked at him, scared. "I don't know Eleazar. Laurent asked me the same question when I was able to resist human blood."

Eleazar's eyes widened further, "You resisted? That's… incredible! We must tell Carlisle! Come!" He began dragging me back to the house, but I pulled back.

"No Eleazar! I know you have good intentions, but I'm not ready for the Cullen's to know what I am yet. I need them to think that I am truly gone. Please, we will figure this out on our own, or we can call Carlisle and ask him questions about "Izzy", but please, please don't bring him here." I pleaded with him, hoping it would change his mind. He looked at me and considered my request. He breathed deeply and exhaled.

"I think I can understand why you feel this way. I will allow you this one request, but it comes with a price. You must tell Tanya and the others who you really are. Lying is not respected well amongst us vampires, especially amongst a family."

I turned away from him, considering his own request. If I agree, I get to keep my secret from the Cullen's. If I disagree, Edward will be here in a matter of minutes. Then again, if I agree, I may very well be torn apart by Irina. I decided that facing a house full of angry vampires was better than facing Edward any day.

I nodded to Eleazar, agreeing to his terms. We slowly made our way back to the house, where I awaited my fate.

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