Not mine. The only thing I own is the band name and Logan.


~Edward's POV~

I start the engine of my car before speeding away not bothering with anyone. All I know is I've hurt the woman I love more than ever now...and I hate myself for it. I drive to the closest liquor store and go inside grabbing a bottle of Jack Daniels and slamming a hundred on the counter telling the clerk to keep the change. I drive to the nearest park, sitting on a bench and staring at the bottle of whiskey in my hand. Am I really going to drink to mellow out my depression? To forget what I've done? Bottoms up. I unscrew the cap and swallow a long swig, the brown liquid burning my throat as it slides down quickly. Tastes awful but I don't give a damn.

"Edward what do you think your doing?" I turn and see Emmett standing there casually with his hands in his pockets. He stares at me with a disappointed look and I sigh looking down at my hands.

"Wallowing in self pity. I'm a horrible person. A total fuckup. I don't deserve the amazing family and friends I have. I should have been the one that died that night." I feel my tears well up quickly and my lip quivers. Emmett sighs sitting next to me and rubbing his forehead before enveloping me into a comforting hug. I wrap my arms tightly around him and cry into my best friends shoulder. I don't deserve to be alive, all I do is fuck up everything I have. I hurt people and then hurt myself. It's a never ending cycle.

"Edward don't do this to yourself. You do deserve to be here. You're a great person, sure you fuck up but hey everyone does it only makes us that much more human. Don't second guess yourself. Do you know how many lives you've saved when you sing or write a new song. You inspire people to follow their dreams. You're a great friend. You're an amazing dad...and the love of Bella's life. You may hurt her constantly but she'll always love you." Emmett explains. My back shakes when I hear Emmett admit all those things.

"Don't lie to make me feel better please...it hurts too much." I plead. Emmett rubs my back and shakes his head softly.

"Don't do this Edward...if you ended up hurt or worse, none of us would be able to forgive ourselves. None of us would be able to go on. You need to be a part of Bella's life. You need to be a part of Logan's life. You're a part of my life and all our friends. Imagine what the fans would think if they say you like this or worse? Edward life is a gift you only get to live it once. You've been blessed with amazing friends, a great successful career, a loving home, a beautiful girlfriend and a perfect son. Don't throw it all away, don't throw your blessings down the drain. Sure we all come to points in our lives when things get rough and we feel like we're nothing but you'll always be wanted. Trust me." He says. I bite my bottom lip looking at my best friend. His eyes held sadness, pain, truth, love, adoration, I couldn't help but wonder where all the emotions were coming from.

"But you also need to understand something Edward...you've really hurt Bella. She's given you chances left and right because she knows she can't live without you, but you cannot treat her to a life of miserable fighting and back stabbing. You need to learn to be more faithful, you need to learn that she's the one for you and she's all that should matter to you. Bella is a fucking amazing person, there's no one else like her and you're fortunate to have found her. Please stop hurting her..." Emmett begs. That's the pain. That's the love and adoration. There's the sorrow that flickers in his big brown eyes.

"You really do love her...that's why you deserve her and I don't..." I cry and take another swig of Jack Daniels and Emmett pushes it away from me.

"I do love her...it hurts that I love her so much and know I can't be with her. You and her are meant to be and I'll just have to learn to live with that. You're my best friend as is she and I care about you both and I love you both so much and I'm willing to do anything to make you both happy. I know that means I'll have to push my feelings to the side and just be ok with being friends. Ok?" He argues back. I sigh pushing my bangs away from my face.

"I need her back. Will you help me?" I ask softly. Emmett smiles before taking our hands together in a shake.

"Of course I will."