Not mine. The only thing I own is the band name and Logan.


~Bella's POV~

"It's ok Bella I'm here now..." Alice whispers as she hugs me tightly and I cry into her shoulder. She rubs my back and my whole body continues to shake as wrack after wrack of sobs cracks up my ribs.

"W-W-Why would h-h-he d-d-d-d-do this a-a-again?" I cry. Alice frowns and runs her fingers through my hair and she shushes me.

"Honey Edward is a big retard sometimes ok? We both know it we've always known that. You knew that when you got together with him. But you also love him a lot and he loves you. Without each other you two would be incomplete and think about Logan? This is hurting him too." I wipe my eyes.

"Maybe I should have just dumped Edward when I was pregnant and stuck with Emmett at least I know Emmett wouldn't ever hurt me like Edward has, I know Emmett loves me too. He gets along with Logan and he knows how to be a dad, maybe I should just walk away from Edward...for real this time." I suggest and wipe my eyes. Alice shakes her head quickly.

"No Bella you cannot do that, yes Emmett is a great guy and yes he is in love with you and yes we all hate seeing you and Edward so torn up about each other but you two love each other so much. You two are soul mates, all the fighting just proves it because no matter what you guys always make up in the end. Emmett is wonderful but Edward is who you need." Alice explains. I sniffle and rub my temples.

"Sometimes I wish I didn't." I mutter.

"I know but that's what true love is all about." We both smile and laugh slightly.

~

"...I see the moon and the moon sees me God bless the moon and God bless me." I rock in the rocking chair placed in Logan's room as he sits on my lap and I read him nursery rhymes to help him get sleepy.

"Momma ish daddy gonna wead to me?" He asks sleepily. I frown slightly and run my fingers through his soft curls and kiss his head.

"Not tonight sweetheart, he's going to be home late." I reply softly. He nods and I close the book and pick him up and walk to his crib. I pull the blankets over him and he smiles up and me and I push his bangs back and kiss his forehead.

"I love you Logan, never forget that ok?" I ask him.

"I wuv you too momma. Will you tell daddy I wuv him too?" I smile nodding and he hugs me before I turn his mobile on and turn the rest of his lights off before quietly shutting the door. I walk downstairs pulling the hood of Edward's navy blue hoodie over my head and sit down on the couch. Sebastian and Elmo lay down on the couch with me and I check the clock, nine thirty. Where is Edward?

~Edward's POV~

Flowers and candy are no good in this situation, it has to be all me. I grab my acoustic guitar from my car and sit down on our front lawn and start strumming away, well here goes nothing.

"He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs"

I keep my eyes on the door and see a light flicker on in the living room. She's awake good.

"Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me"

I see the front door open and smile seeing a sleepy yet shocked looking Bella. Clad in her PJ pants and some uggs and I notice she's wearing my hoodie. There's still a chance, she's wearing it because she misses me.

"Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be"

Come on Bella I know you can do it. You know the words, you can sing. Please baby...please just for me. I give her a look to urge her on.

"I'm not coming back (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just (You're driving me crazy, I'm)
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head"

She walked towards me the whole time she was singing until she was right in front of me.

"Well I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home"

Bella attacks me in a tight hug and I hug her back feeling her face hide in my neck. It was wet and I feel my own eyes water knowing she's crying again because of me.

"I'm so sorry I hit you Edward! I'm so sorry we freaked out on each other I miss you so much just please come home! Please! I couldn't stand you being away all day!" She begs. I unwrap my arms from her and set the guitar down before pulling her back into me and kissing her head repeatedly.

"Baby I'm the sorry one you have nothing to be sorry for. I deserved to be hit and I'm so sorry I'm a fuck up. I'm no good for you! Emmett really does deserve you! I don't he could treat you a lot fucking better and show you how to raise a family better that I ever could." I tell her and she grabs my face and I flinch as she touches my bruised cheek.

"No baby I don't want to be with Emmett! I want to be with you! Please let's just forget this happened let's just-"

"Bella we can't just forget it happened! I fucking cheated on you! I betrayed your trust after doing it before I don't deserve all the chances. Why do you continue to have so much hope in me when I have so little hope in myself?" I was full on crying now, tears falling freely and dripping down my nose. She smiles before bringing my face closer to hers.

"I've realized that I'll need you for the rest of my life. I want you there no matter how much you fuck up. It just makes me love you that much more." She whispers and presses her lips to mine. Oh God it feels so good to be kissing her again. I don't waste any time and pick her up wrapping her legs around my waist holding her ass as I move my lips with hers and my tongues massages against hers. Her hands buried in my hair and we kissed with all the passion within us. After several moments I pull away slowly still pecking her lips in the process.

"Baby I love you so much." I whisper breathless against her lips.

"I love you too Edward, always will." I hug her to me again, she's not going anywhere.