Not mine. The only thing I own is the band name and Logan.
~Bella's POV~
I was cuddled into Riley's chest with Alice hugging me from behind. Edward was sitting on the couch motionless and staring at the wall with his chin resting on his fists. Emmett was on the phone with someone, I don't know who and Jasper had just come back from dropping Logan off at Ben's place. None of us wanted Logan to see us all like this. It would hurt him too much.
"You ok? I fixed up the cuts and scratches the best I could." Alice asks softly while rubbing my back. I nod against Riley's chest and he kisses my head. His strong arms keeping me safe but all I wanted to do was be held by Edward. After we stopped crying I called Emmett asking for them all to come over and we had to tell them the whole story. Needless to say they were all angry and ready to call the cops but I told them I wasn't going to press charges. Edward hasn't talked since, he's just been staring at the wall. I think he thinks I'm mad at him and he feels really ashamed of himself for letting this happen.
"Can you guys give Edward and I a minute please? We need to talk." I whisper softly. They all nod understanding where I'm coming from and they go in the backyard. I could tell they were worried but I needed to do this. I walk over to Edward and stand in front of him but hands on my hips leaning on one leg. Edward didn't divert his eyes, he just rubbed his face.
"Edward?" I ask, my voice barely above a whisper. He didn't look up I saw his back shake and his hands quiver and he was blinking rapidly trying to disperse of his tears.
"Baby please talk to me, I need to know your ok." I plead getting down on my knees in front of him and holding his knees in my hands. He had changed into a pair of black basketball shorts and his teal sleeved baseball tee shirt that hugs his muscles well. He may be skinny but Edward is tone and has some muscle definition.
"I-I can't. I've failed you." I barely heard him but because I was leaning close to him I managed to hear.
"What? Why do you think that?" I question curious. His hands touch my bruised knuckles, his thumbs rubbing over the black and blue blotches gently.
"I let this happen to you. Logan could have gotten hurt too. I'm a failure as a boyfriend and a failure as a father." His voice broke and he looked away ashamed. I stood up sighing softly grabbing his face turning him to face me.
"Edward this wasn't your fault. It wasn't anybody's fault. Please don't blame yourself. Please don't do this again. It happened so what I'm fine. I'm a bit cut up but that's it, I'm alright I'm still here." I reply. Edward pushes my hand away and turns to face me.
"But what if you weren't? What if Logan hadn't woken me up and I wouldn't have come downstairs? I obviously didn't hear you screaming, she could have really hurt you both and I would have been responsible for your deaths." Why is he so morbid? I know he's scared of losing people, especially when they're close to him, his brother is the proven point, but I wouldn't have died. I know how to fight.
"Edward that wouldn't have happened, I know how to defend myself just fine. She wouldn't have hurt me that bad." I say softly. He shakes his head his lip quivering and his tears falling and he sniffles wiping it all away angrily.
"No! It was my fucking fault! God dammit Bells I let that bitch hurt you. I let her come into our house and mess you up! I...I'm so sorry, I fucked up so bad this time." Edward hides his face crying gripping his messy hair angrily and pulling and rocking back and forth. I grab his hands taking them away from his face and straddling his lap and he instantly wraps his arms around my waist and buries his face into my shoulder and neck.
"Edward please don't do this, I'm ok. I promise I'm still here I will be alright. I love you so much I'm not mad at you. Why would you think that?" I reply. Edward grabs my face in his shaking hands and I grip his wrists.
"Because I let that monster attack you! Look at what she's done to you!" Edward yells, he was crying harder now but he had anger in his voice.
"Edward quit it now! These will heal I'll be alright. Please just...just don't do this." I feel myself crying now and Edward closes his eyes sobbing and he stood up pushing me off slightly. He grips my neck in his hands running his calloused hands over the bruises and he presses his forehead to mine.
"I can't help but do this now...I'm sorry, I love you." He presses his lips to mine before walking out the front door barefoot. Where is he going? Did he just leave me? Are we over? Questions swirled in my head but all I could do was fall to my knees and sob. My heart's breaking...and Edward isn't around to fix it this time...
~Edward's POV~
I couldn't stay there. I couldn't be around her seeing all the cuts and bruises knowing I caused them. I wasn't there to protect her. I wasn't there to be around for her until it was almost too late. I walk to the local park, the spot I always go to when I'm upset. I sit on the bench bringing my knees up to my chest wrapping my arms around my legs and resting my chin on my knees. My eyes water thinking about what would have happened if Logan hadn't woken me up. If I hadn't seen his screaming face and teary eyes. He was so upset. I've never seen my son so upset, seeing his mom hurt like that really freaked him out. He loves her so much.
"Edward Anthony Cullen what is your problem?" I look up and see Emmett giving me a disappointed head shake before sitting next to me on the bench wrapping me up in his long skinny arms. I cry into his shoulder gripping my best friend tightly.
"Emmett w-what if I h-h-hadn't gotten up and s-s-s-saw her? She could h-h-have gotten s-s-seriously h-hurt." I stutter through hiccups and tears. Emmett shakes his head running his fingers through my hair like Bella does. Wasn't as comforting as her but it worked.
"Edward you know she's stronger that that Bella doesn't let anyone fuck with her and her family and get away with it. She would have pulled through alright I promise. She's fine now, and you need to march back to that house right now and tell her you're sorry for walking out on her. She's sobbing and thinks you broke up with her." Emmett explains. I look up at him and shake my head.
"I-I didn't m-m-mean to walk o-out I just got so u-u-upset seeing her like that." I whisper.
"I know, it hurt me to see her like that too. It hurt all of us because she's the baby and we all love her so much. But she needs you now more than ever Edward. Weren't you going to propose?" He asks. I feel my pocket and feel the ring box inside. I always keep it with me because I know if I don't Bella we'll find it eventually. I bought last week, I planned on giving it to her soon but now that this happened I don't know if she'll except it.
"I was gonna...but she probably won't accept it." I say softly. Emmett laughs kissing the top of my head and ruffled my hair.
"That's where your wrong Ed, she loves you so fucking much I know she'll accept it. You'll never know until you try though..." He teases. I wipe my eyes and clench my fists shaking my head and clearing my thoughts. He's right...it's now or never...
