Я люблю тебе

When Katyusha woke up, eight o'clock at night, it took her a total of thirty eight seconds to be able to recall everything that had happened earlier. She almost burst out into tears, but she was cried-out from earlier. So she got up, grabbed blankets and tucked her siblings in on the couch, and left the house.

It crossed her mind that she should have called to see if he was even up for company, but Kat did not want to talk about this over the phone. Angus would understand it was important. Would Angus understand the rest of it?

I should have told him. I should have been honest in the first place.

Katyusha sniffled in front of the door, pressing the doorbell. It was cold for some reason. Probably because she was just wearing a sleeveless shirt on her top. Rubbing at her arms, she nearly reached out to ring the doorbell once more when the door finally opened.

"Kat?"

"Angus." She took a deep breath to try and stay calm, but it did not seem to be helping. "Oh, Angus. I'm so sorry. I should have said earlier. I should have told you..."

"Don't stand out there in the cold," Angus diverted the conversation, motioning her inside. Sniffling, Kat stepped inside. "Come 'ere... sit down. Um... You still cold? I could git you a blanket, or somethin'." She shook her head, simply sitting down in a chair. Angus stood there for a few moments before leaning back against the wall. "...what's this all about, m'gal?"

Would he forgive her? Kat stared at the floor, hands clasped in front of her. She was still tired and probably would not be able to think of the best thing to say. This could not wait though, it could not wait. "I'm an impulsive borderline."

Angus blinked. "Im... impulsive... what?"

"Borderline personality disorder," she continued on, quietly. "I take some mood stabilizers for it... they work wonders. Usually– I mean– I forgot to take them today, for some reason. It usually does not slip my mind, I guess I was just really worried about Anastasia." Wiping the tears out of her eyes, she continued. "I should have told you. I should have mentioned it, I should never have kept that from you... I'm sorry, so sorry. Sorry..."

"Kat, Kat!" Angus exclaimed softly, walking over to her and lifting her head up so that she found herself looking into his eyes. "I'm not gonna lie. A lot would be different if you told me this in the first place. A lot."

Oh no. Here it was. She shut her eyes and braced herself.

"I would've understood, I might have known what to do earlier. I probably would've still left Ivan to dealin' with it, but I would've stayed."

...what? Opening her eyes, she stared at him. "You... you would have stayed?"

"Of course!" Angus responded, slightly surprised at either the question or something else. "But I know why you'd want to keep it to yourself. Don't beat yourself up over this, Kat. It's okay. I don't blame you for any of this."

"Oh Angus." The tears overflowed once more. "Я люблю тебе. Я так тебе люблю."

She kissed him and simply stopped worrying about it.


Notes:

"Я люблю тебе. Я так тебе люблю" = "I love you. I so love you." Ukrainian just looks awesome.

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