At my doorstep

Nik really thought he had the whole pain thing figured out. I mean he had been through more than your average Joe in his life. His father not being his real father, the distance from his mother and the embarrassed shipment abroad and than there was Tatia … So pain was no stranger to him; it was more as a friend. A horrible friend, but still a friend he couldn't shake. But then he met her, he fell for her … And the pain thing just shot up to a whole new level. A level that even constant boozing couldn't fix. Smashing things didn't fix it … Getting into ridiculous fights didn't fix it … Other women … Well, let's just say he still couldn't even look at another woman without her perfect face popping out. How he wished he could say he hated her. But the only person he hated was himself. For falling for her in the first place, for thinking she would leave everything behind for him(that's just not what good, rich girl do) and mostly he hated himself for not being able to force himself into hating her. He just couldn't. Every time he tried to think of her as that little, conniving bitch that played him for a fool he remembered her eyes, or the way she smiled, the way her hand was always warm in his, or the way she returned his first kiss, shyly at first but he could feel the passion burning up inside of her. How could all of it be just an act? How could she even be worse than Tatia? But although his heart, his stupid, ridiculous, pathetic heart, still didn't want to believe in that and wanted to hold on to the memory of her as an angel that brought light to his dark life, his mind knew better … Because all the evidence was there … She was marrying Tyler Lockwood tomorrow and that would be that. The last woman that played him for a fool would make her match. He hated the thought of that, but maybe finally then he would stop thinking about her, and he'll start doing something with his life …

Doing something with his life … For that reason Nik was still in his office although that ridiculous rehearsal dinner, which he was obviously not attending, was taking place. He shivered to the thought of her being there, so close to him, but yet so far, but what had to be done … What Tyler didn't know was, after his little wedding he would be in for a little shock … For the last month Nik was doing all the arrangements to by a property very near Chicago and start his own business. After Monday he will have nothing to do with the fucking Lockwood's, no more Tyler's little servant and no more seeing Caroline, which would probably be too much for him to bear. He didn't want to socialize with the new Mrs. Lockwood, not a chance in hell. In would tore him apart every day he would have to call her that. From Monday he would be his own man. He might have lost Caroline, but Nik was determined to make it, and make it big. He'd do anything, die trying if necessary, but he thoroughly decided not to be the Mikaelson bastard anymore. He had the brains, now he had the capital, all the needed was the right people at the right places and he was good to go. "You'll regret it one day Caroline." he said to himself. "You'll regret leaving me for him. I'll show you, all of you, what I'm capable of creating."

A knock on the door interrupted his inner turmoil of greatness and yes, of revenge in some way. Who the hell would be knocking at his door while there was a party going on downstairs? If it was Tyler trying to convince him to join the party … Nik's eyes went black, he'd tear his stupid heart out. But the knocking didn't stop. Whoever it was was apparently rather sure he was upstairs and wouldn't back down. A little part of him hoped it was Caroline. Not that he would ever admit this but maybe a part of him, that little part just to be clear, was still hoping … For what exactly? I don't know … That she would come and tell him that all of this was just some crazy nightmare and that actually it was him she wanted to be with. "Silly boy." he could almost hear Mikael's voice again so he pushed those thoughts aside and finally spoke out loud saying come in to whom ever decided to pester him tonight of all nights.

"Nik … "a beautiful blonde in red said in a gentle voice.

" Rebakah, what are you doing here?"

" Oh Nik, I've missed you so much." she came to him and tried to hug him but he moved away from her. He could see the hurt in her eyes but he never knew how to act around any of his siblings anymore. I mean they weren't children anymore, and all of the years of his absence couldn't be erased. He knew it wasn't Rebekah's fault they shipped him away, but he still resented them all. They had a family, he thought, and I was all alone.

"How are you Nik?"

" Fine Rebakah. And you?" he said trying to be polite but end this conversation as soon as possible.

"Great actually. I just got back from Rome a week ago. I wanted to see you ever since. I missed you. You're the only reason I let Elijah drag me to this party. But when I got here you were nowhere to be found. Luckily some nice guy told me you were probably still in your office so I …"

"Maybe I don't want to be found Rebakah." he said and turned his back an her staring out the window into a cold Chicago night.

" Oh Nik …" he felt her starting to cry but still couldn't turn around. It hurt him too much too.

" Do you hate me? Is that it? I am your sister Nik …"

"Half- sister …" Nik replied.

Rebakah came up to him and looked him with her big baby eyes; they haven't changed a bit he thought. And remembered how they use to play in the backyard of their house before he left for London. But this was a long time ago … Too long ago …

" I am your sister. You are my family. Always and forever. I know you've been through a lot Nik but don't push me away. Mikael is gone, our mother …" her voice trembled again.

"She's dead too. But we could have each other. We all want that … Me, Kol, Finn, and especially Elijah …"

" You want what? To take pity on me? To pity the poor little bastard son that could never catch a break so you'll kindly give him one?"

" Oh Nik, why must you speak like that about yourself? And about us? We just want you to take your rightful place in our family. What I want is … I want my brother."

" I don't think I can give you that Rebekah." for the first time he spoke to her with gentleness and not in anger. But no, he wasn't ready to give her that. He wasn't ready to forgive and forget. Maybe one day … But not yet … The wounds were still too fresh …

"You can, you just don't want to." she said disappointedly.

And then she held her head high and said in a determined tone: "I won't give up on you Nik. I'm sorry, but you can push me away all you want but I'll still be your sister and you can push it away from you as much as you want but you'll still be Niklaus Mikaelson. My brother, whom I love …Even if you hate me, remember that … Because I won't forget … Nor will Kol or Finn and nor will Elijah …"

Nik really didn't know what to say to that so he remained silent. Somewhere deep inside he knew she was right but … It was all so hard …

Before she turned around to leave she looked at him one more time and said: " Oh yes, I almost forgot why I came up here … I actually wanted to share something with you, something very dear to my heart. You see, I'm getting married. I'm engaged to this really nice guy. He's name is Matt Donovan and well, I won't bother your with the details, but let's just say I'm very happy. And I'd be even happier if you'll do me the honour when the day comes and stand by my side brother. Don't … Don't say anything now Nik. But please … Just think about everything I said … I love you Nik." was the last thing the beautiful blonde said before leaving his office and heading back to the party.

Nik's head was pounding. What was it with blondes? Apparently they where determined to mess up his life. All he ever wanted after being forced to leave so many years ago was to put a distance between that family and him. And now she was here, his sister. His half- sister but still … She was here, looking at him with her big baby blue eyes and asking him to forget everything he had gone thorough … "I want my brother." she told him. She wanted their family reunited but was he ever really a part of that family? Could he be? Did he even want to be? His heart almost said yes when another woman appeared at the doorstep of his office and ruined it all. Not a blonde one but also a deadly one, the deadliest snake there was.

"Knock, knock stranger."

"Not you again …" he said in a irritated voice when he saw Tatia standing there devouring him with her big dark eyes. She had a yellow dress that showed of every curve of her perfect body, her weapon of pleasure and choice. He wondered if Elijah minded … When they were together he hated what she did to him, how she would make him angry by purposely flirting with every guy around them just to get a reaction out of him. But he knew better now, it was never love between them, it was pure animalistic lust. Something he luckily got over, but Tatia apparently didn't want to let go that easily.

"I just came to have some fun Nik. Have a drink with me. The party is such a bore."

"Won't your husband be waiting for you?"

"Elijah will find his amusement, and I shall find mine." she said and licked her lips.

" Nik, my sweet Nik. You've never been as good as a liar as you thought you were. I could always read anything on your handsome face. You still want me."

"Get it through that pretty little head of yours I don't want to have anything to do with you."

But Tatia wouldn't take no for an answer. Maybe because there was never a man that could tell her no. Until now …

" Nik, don't be so mean to me. You know you want it just as much as I do. Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't remember how I used to touch you, how we use to make love for hours and hours? How I knew how to please you?"

And for a second he stopped at stared at her. Could this be it? The thing he needed to forget Caroline? Could Tatia help him in that? I mean she was right in one thing; they did always get along really well in the bedroom department. And she was here … And she was willing … So why would he give a damn about Elijah or anything? He was nothing to him, if his wife was a cheating skank why was that his problem?

Tatia saw the hesitation in his demeanour and she right away took the change. She started to approach him and went for a kiss. And at that moment it happened again. He saw Caroline's face, her beautiful face lit up by thousand of stars that shone that night. And he knew he couldn't do it … He knew it wouldn't be right. No Tatia could never help him forget Caroline.

So he just smiled coyly and said: "You know what Tatia? I think it's time for me to head out. It's been a long day. Time for me to turn in, go to bed, and in case you where wondering … You're not invited … Say hi to Elijah for me."


It felt sooo good he thought while taking a shower. To tell her off like that. At least he managed to shake off one ghost of his past. But the other one … Caroline … She will marry another man tomorrow … He wanted her to be miserable, but not really … There was still a decent part of him left, and that part actually wanted her to be happy. Regardless if she ever felt one bit of something for him or if she really was just playing a game all along. Regardless if she deserved it or not. He wanted her happy. Maybe by wanting good things for her, maybe he'll manage to let her go more easily. He took a cigar and lit it while getting dresses. He was just about to put his shirt on when he heard someone at the door. What the hell was this? Everyone turning at his doorstep tonight? It better not be that nutty neighbour of his again trying to make him beat up her also nutty boyfriend. Man, he really needed to find a better place to stay. But the knock didn't stop so he decided to open it. Just for the hell of it. And hell he got …

She was standing at his doorstep, soaking wet, since it started to rain a few minutes ago. Her black dress was almost see-through at this point and he had to try really hard to keep his mind on the bloody fact that she was for some bloody reason here, not on the fact she looked gorgeous.

"Caroline?" he said almost in a whisper.

" Hi." was the only thing she managed to say before she threw herself into his arms. And he caught her and wrapped his arms around her although it would be putting it mildly to say he was completely awestruck. She being here, she throwing herself into his arms. But he had to admit … For a second, just for a second, he turned all of his thought off and just relished in having her in his arms again. She was so tiny and so delicate, her hair was a wet mess and her make-up was a bit smudged but she was still the most beautiful girl in the world to him. A girl who was marrying another man tomorrow … So he finally released her and just stared at her in surprise.

" What are you doing here Caroline?"

" Can I, can I just please come in?" she asked shyly still shaking from the rain, or maybe for some other reason as well.

He showed her it was ok and closed the door behind her. Big mistake? A huge mistake? Well, I guess he'll soon find out …


First of all,PLEASE DON'T HATE ME! I love you soooo much for all your lovely REVIEWS and I know you have probably expected a full on Klaroline chapter, so I promise don't hate me, the next one will be just that, just the two of them again ... It just didn't feel fair to jump to that before giving Nik some chance to explain what he'd been doing/feeling over that month ... And I had to add Rebekah(I love that part actually), since here's a little spoiler, his family will be very important for him in chapters to come ... But at least I hope I'd made you happy by him dissing Tatia and being alone in the apartment ;) ... And Caroline is here now and they have a lot of things to discuss, how will that look? Please keep on reading and you'll see ... And please REVIEW because your REVIEWS TRULY ARE WHAT KEEPS ME WRITING ... XOXO :)