A/N: Hi everyone! Let's drabble for a bit shall we? *laughs*

Anyway, my style might have darkened up a bit because we got a brand new X-box Kinect! And I've been playing call of duty and blood, gore, action, bombing, betraying etc… I cannot just shut up about it! *squeals* I'm also really happy all the favorites and PM's! god, I feel loved even when I think I don't deserve it *laughs* anyway, please enjoy!

Note: here's a long one for ya! Cliffy though xDD
Disclaimer: No, vampire knight is not mine. But I've got the Xbox! Mwhahahah…. OwO'' Am I crazy?

Warning: This chapter is rated M for bloody flashbacks and bloodly story telling. URGH, where is my innocence?

~ Chapter 8: Odd Gestures and Second thoughts ~

"W-who are you? What do you want from me!"Lilian hid in the corner of the burned out room, sunlight dripped and peeked from the numerous bullet holes that could equally count the amount of bodies lying on the floor, she didn't know what was happening, she only wanted to ask her parents and her relatives to play doll with her and her cousins, she was most likely to be denied but she just wanted to see the smiles on their faces as she asked, everyone in her family had the best smiles, she only wanted to play doll, what kind of hell did she open the doors to? Was it a hell she deserved for not praying to god before going to bed last night?

"Oh, there's one left, what do ya' suppose I do to er?", a tall scary looking man strapped in a metal backpack connected to a hose-like contraption that spat out the cursed flames said as he came down a rope from the huge gaping hole in the ceiling, where the fire that burned the room came from, a loud booming voice followed to answer his question.

"Kill her"

The voice stung her ears and the tips of her fingers with an imaginary acid, it left her eardrums screeching as if a grenade had exploded right in front of her, as if the words themselves could kill if only the person who said them made his voice louder, louder could've blown the fragile child away.

"yes sirrie lord Rido!", the man responded as he aimed his flamethrower at Lilian, she cowered backwards, melding her back with the wall, hoping she could melt into it and surprisingly in the eyes of the human, she did.

"What the devil? Where is that runt?", the man said as he looked around the black study, chucks of flaming debris fell around him in sizes too small to be any harm like a rain of death that was surprisingly harmless, Lilian noticed this and reached out of the nearby shard of broken glass from the windows, stabbing the man did not automatically occur to her seeing that she was a child who did not know what to do, she only knew that she can get away if he got hurt.

A red fluid flowed from the leg of the man as he yelped in indescribable pain, Lilian's hate and adrenaline fused with the glass, her anger clothed in fear shown itself in the form of the blood forming in her hand as she tightened her grip of the cool piece of glass, she had to get out and even the statement in her child mind registered itself.

Killed or be killed.

As lilian's will lifted her feet, she ran and ran, low murmurs and distant screams of her family echoed in her ears as they yearned for her help "Lilian! Lilian!"-

-"Lilian?Lilian, are you alright? Wake up please!", Lilian opened her tired eyes as the sweat in her brows told her it was just a dream, a nightmare that resurrected itself on warm nights.

Warm nights that reminded her of those eyes, one that was calm, lonely knowing the secret wereabouts of sharingla as if it had gazed upon it to understand why it was only opened to the ones who weren't damned and one that burned into your soul, claimed it and sent it into the gates of hell, crimson, deceiving, lying. The eyes of a pure….murderer and yet the only person Lilian had left.

Rido Kuran, her….adoptive father.

Every time Lilian thought that she felt like it derailed her train of thought so she shook it off to smile at the woman practically imploding from worry, she was like a pale ghost, it must be because Lilian was shaking like a leaf which was a habit of hers when she had the usual nightmare, her bunkmate back home, the blonde who called herself Ethyl always said that, Rido had a lot of adopted children and he would make them run for errands sometimes like what Lilian was on now. An errand.

It was Lilian's first errand, to scare Rido-sama's sister.

"I'm alright Yuuki-sama, no need to worry!",Lilian chirped much to the brunnette's dismay.

Lilian had been here for a week already yet she had been doing that ever since she came here , a shaking mess when she woke up.

"but Lilian-", Yuuki started only to be interrupted by a very loud conversation going on from downstairs.

"GYAH! WHAT IN GOD'S NAME?—"Shut up, Hanabusa"—ARE YOU WEARING?"

"Aidou-kun will you stop teasing Zero?"

"Ichijou is right, Kiriyu can do whatever he wants…even if it doesn't suit him"

"BUT KAIN, LOOK AT IT! IT'S MOVING! THAT—THOSE THINGS ARE A CRIME ON A GROWN MAN!"

"WE SEE IT, WE SEE IT, Aidou! Shut up!"

"NO YOU SHUT UP RUKA!"
"OH YEAH? MAKE ME!"
"SHUT UP!"

"GURAHYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! TAKE THIS AND SHUT UP!"

"Ruka's battle cry is a little off"

"Stop throwing the chairs! This isn't our house guys!"

"Ruka! Stop it! It's not good for the baby!"

And suddenly silence followed after a loud gunshot that blasted a hole through the nightstand behind Yuuki, Zero obviously didn't hit anyone, well, Yuuki hoped not.

"—you've been sleep deprived since you got here", the brunette continued to ignore the ruckus from downstairs and went back to the matter at hand, the shaking puddle which seemed not noticed that she looked terrible, that smile of hers made her condition look worse as if Lilian was used to being scared.

To the point of madness.

Zero sat on the sofa as he impatiently waited for Yuuki to come downstairs and tame the wild beasts she called her friends. After hearing Lilian scream from upstairs, Yuuki bolted up and said she would be down in a minute. Zero didn't know why Ruka, Kain, Shiki, Rima and Takuma were present, they seemed to flood in after they heard the incident in the warehouse and Yuuki's sudden decision to take in the girl who probably planned in all but one look in those girl's lilac eyes convinced Zero that Yuuki had seen something in the girl that reminded him of himself in the past who he was, crazy for revenge, crazy for the blood of the person he loathe yet the only person that convinced him he was still alive.

"GYAH! WHAT IN GOD'S NAME?—"Shut up, Hanabusa"—ARE YOU WEARING?"

His kitty ears twitched in annoyance.

"BUT KAIN, LOOK AT IT!IT'S MOVING! THAT—THOSE THINGS ARE A CRIME ON A GROWN MAN!"

His ears might of looked cute when he was in his child form but when Yuuki kissed him last night, he suddenly felt like a man again, like himself and the need to be with Yuuki in his old form took over and poof! He was! But alas, stupid ears and tail decided to stay so Hanabusa was right as it pained him to admit—it was a crime on a grown man.

"Ruka! Stop it! It's not good for the baby!"

Zero fired some shots, noise wasn't his best friend and he sure couldn't think with all the smack Ruka and Aidou were going about.

Oh, Ruka is pregnant? Wasn't that witch always pregnant? Well about time they had children. Zero almost felt bad for Kain as he had to wait so long for her to decide to build the Kaname bridge and get over it. Zero felt lucky to have Yuuki and not Ruka, Ruka even talked to Yuuki about marrying Zero being one of her greatest downfalls but Yuuki just laughed it off because not many people understood what Yuuki saw in Zero, a ball of sunshine like her could get any guy she wanted, why this guy who was more emotional than a titanic movie in 3D- and watched Oprah for some reason because he could relate—was the one she wanted was fairly questionable.

Don't get me started on when she got pregnant with Ichiru, Ruka practically thought it was just wrong,

"Ruka, I'm pregnant!", Yuuki smiled as she announced it in the entrance way of Ruka's house, too excited to even wait to tell the news in the living room.

Ruka stayed silent, trying to register what her best friend had just said, it was like she was close to discovering the secrets of how to work the television set then she came back down to earth,"W-what? That's just wrong! ", Ruka grimaced, trying to get an image out of her head.

"it's not wrong", Yuuki pouted,"what kind of wrong do you mean?".

Ruka frowned, "it's the when-you-play-a-Barney-video-tape-backwards-and-discover-a-satanic-message-was-actually-recorded kind of wrong ", she shook Yuuki with earthshaking force, "ARE YOU OUTTA YOUR MIND WOMAN? ZERO KIRIYU CANNOT TAKE CARE OF A KID, HE CAN TAKE CARE OF HORSES BUT NOT A KID!".

and now she's spoiling Ichiru to the point of really pissing Zero off, good thing his son was smart and denied her presents.

Rima had her legs crossed on Shiki's lap, the two models were living the life, out of everyone else in the social circle, they had the most kids, Four. The oldest was Kawaii, second was their son, Ren and third were Prisilla and Prin who were three year old twins, nobody questioned the amount of children, everyone knew that Rima was controlling and wanted to leave as much fruits of her love for Shiki as possible and of course, Shiki being the family man he is just couldn't deny.

The thought of babies left Zero with sleepless nights and full diapers, Ichiru was a handful and very high maintenance compared to other babies, Yuuki was also half dead by the time in was three in the afternoon. Yeah, in your face ,Ruka, I'm proud of how my son turned out.

~.~.~.~.~

Yuuki watched as Lilian skidded into the bathroom, forcing a smile over her shoulder.

"it's alright, Yuuki-san! I just need some time alone.."

As Lilian shut the door behind Yuuki, she swore she could hear hearts breaking, now that she was alone, the darkness of her shadow seemed to shed light to another force, the shadow of a little girl morphed into that of a man, hushed whisper was required of this conversation.

The little steps Lilian took around the bathroom echoed as she walked alongside her shadowy counterpart, a small frown picked at her lips as she heard the hushed instructions from the shadow, repeated words ringing in her ears.

Disappointing.

Detestable.

Sad.

Words too familiar to invoke pain or anger inside herself, it instead gave her a sort of reassurance that as dirty a soul as hers was, it would still be accepted by Rido-sama, that's all Lillian needed. Things like love and people caring for another without an ulterior motive scared her, the way she was raised in the horrible perspective of humanity, thinking of the outdoors as the extended version of the jail cell Rido had made known to her mentally, the number of steps she took, the number of breaths she could take, the number of times she thought Yuuki-sama was nice, Rido knew all of it, down to the very last "What if".

"B-but Rido-sama, I-", Lilian tried to disagree to his wishes but she only got reprimanded, her heart was telling her "no", she couldn't hurt Yuuki-sama or her family but the rational part of her brain said that people, no matter how kind they may be will one day abandon you for someone else.

It was obvious that if Yuuki-sama had to choose between her family and Lilian, she would choose her family, nobody would ever choose Lilian, only her father, only Rido-sama and that was why she had to do it, she had to help Rido-sama destroy the hunter association, she had to and deep down inside that dirty heart of hers infected by Rido's twisted teachings, she wanted to.

~.~.~.~.~

Ichiru watched as Lilian played outside, a book was tucked under his arm as he sat crossed leg on the bench beside the sliding door of his house, the little girl stood near the pond, creating ripples in it with her fingers as if sending messages through the vibrations, talking and whispering as if the fishes were listening, the brunette knew it was only paranoia, she was a kid after all, innocent and stupid in a sensible way, she couldn't have been the horrible things he had heard from Yuuki's hushed explanations, by hushed, Ichiru meant really loud.

He looked inside and watched as the adults discussed things he could only make out as either playful conversation of serious matters about what had recently happened to his too calm mother, he wanted to tap in to the conversation by using his telepathy, a gift that had came with his mother's pureblood but he knew that his parents would find out as soon as he used it. He tried anyway.

"Are you sure about keeping her here? What if she has contacts?"
, Aidou said in a low cross between worry and fear tone.

"How about you let her stay in the academy? Go to school? That was I can keep watch while you and Zero are not at home?",Takuma suggested, crossing his arms as if waiting for Ruka to counter his seemingly stupid idea, bringing Lilian to school might just cause more trouble if she actually has more contacts, meaning she knew how to get in and got to knew Ichiru more, using Ichiru as a hostage would be a disadvantage.

"Ichiru, you're grounded, turn off your telepathy young man", Ichiru's back straightened up as Yuuki's statement caused everyone to look at him including the ever so dead to the world uncle Shiki, he turned off his telepathy and turned around to watch Lilian again.

Lilian wasn't there.

Ichiru stood up and looked around, small panic surged through him, he wasn't going to overreact just yet, she might have just wandered off somewhere within the garden, "Lilian? Hey where are you?", Ichiru wandered deeper into the gardens Zero kept, the land the kiriyu's owned was actually bigger than the house, it was all gardening space which would at least take about 3 hours to explore all of it, it was a good thing Zero put up sections and signs where the flowers, shrubs and root crops would be since Yuuki had no sense of direction, it was very easy to navigate around the gardens except for the small enclosure of hedges which lead to the lovely gazebo at the far end of the estate, Ichiru guessed Lilian would be there.

The white gazebo held this haunting aura though it was plain, a small space with only a old mahogany swing in the middle, the four thin white pillars would barely be seen by the vines of flowers which would only bloom towards the end of fall and die in the start of winter which was odd, the flowers seemed to hold an unnatural feel, they looked like white roses and when bloomed had an inviting dark violet in it's center, it gave off a smell that seemed utterly aggravating yet addicting at the same time, it smelled like …something..Ichiru couldn't describe it in scent..it seemed like a woman crying and a child rejoicing at the same time but he didn't know what to call that kind of smell, it attracted certain people like the innocent or the lonely, he knew because when his parents held parties, people went here, Ichiru knew who like Uncle Aidou when his wife, Fuka, died giving birth to Aoi, Auntie Rima when she ran away from Shiki and stayed here a couple of night because she thought he had another woman or even uncle Kaname, he visited this spot a lot and knowing uncle Kaname, Ichiru had to ask what this place was to him or to anybody else, why this place was so….weird?

"these flowers are quite special, Ichiru", Kaname said as he leaned on the railings of the gazebo, his tuxedo unbuttoned and his hair messed up, his posture told Ichiru that he was relaxed.

"These flowers?", the 6 year old Ichiru repeated wearing a small version of kaname's tux, both boys were skipping the party of Ruka's and Kain's engagement, both boys were equally feeling awkward about their presence in the party, both felt unwelcome.

"I call them Hunter flowers", Kaname's lonely smile made Ichiru pity the pureblood king a little bit.

"Why? Isn't it what they are called?", Ichiru said a little too smart a comment for his age.

Kaname chuckled "No not really, the sad part is, they don't have a name", Ichiru frowned, "Why not?".

Kaname then sat down and told Ichiru a story: Once upon a time, a loving couple of the hunter heritage had twins, everyone rejoiced for the prophecy had come true, the wise men said that those twins will bring peace to the world and rid it of filth

together.—"filth meaning us right?"—"Yes, Ichiru, we didn't like the hunters that time too"—One of the brothers excelled in all aspects and the other brother was the opposite, evil, ugly and, stupid, when the hunters said to the wise men they did not want such a student in the halls of their school, his brother protected him, saying, "we will stay together and cleanse the world together", respecting the elder's wishes, the people scowled and left. the handsome brother always protected the younger even if he wasn't worth protecting. The younger brother asked why and the older only answered with words of family love—"Then what happened? I know something will break them apart right?"—"patience, Ichiru, but you are right"—then a woman walked into their life, a beautiful woman, an immortal, the older brother instantly fell in love with her not knowing what she was but the training had paid off for the younger and the reality of his appearance automatically told him that falling for this woman would not end well so he told his brother that she was the filth they had to get rid of together as he had believed because together they could do anything, refusing to believe his younger sibling, he eloped with the woman and the younger was forced to hunt them down, it was an order from the higher ups. He found them but then he found out his brother had become one of the filth. The woman spoke of empty words of love to her plaything, to consume his younger brother to have an eternity with her, she told the older brother that the real filth was the weak and ugly, without thinking, the older consumed his brother and though the younger could've killed him first, he did not. So while the older ate his brother alive, the younger whispered stories of when they were children, playing with the other hunter kids and when they rode a bicycle together and when he fell off that bicycle, laughing softly, the younger brother died from blood loss as the older realized what he had done, it was too late. He cried tears that would not stop until he too died of grieving beside his brother, in between them, a flower of lone beauty grew with intentions of pity to the next hunter twins that would eventually end in a tragedy.
Ichiru couldn't help but cry.

He knew what was going to happen yet he cried.

It was so scary.

Kaname picked his nephew who had fallen asleep from crying up and carried him back to the house, fresh tears still staining his chubby cheeks, the boy was growing in such a happy house hold and now that he caught a glimpse of the horrible world, he cried more tears of fear than that of pity.

Just like Yuuki.

Innocent people were Kaname's weakness and he feared that he would love this child more than he thought he would, Ichiru was after all, the son of Zero Kiriyu too.

Ichiru looked down as he counted the steps toward the gazebo, the grass was still even as the wind tousled his hair around, he looked up and saw the all too familiar gazebo but the only change was Lilian who was standing in the middle, talking to herself and smiling as she nodded down as if someone was patting her head then Ichiru saw him, a man who looked like uncle Kaname, smelled like him even but he knew it wasn't him, the stance of the man was like dignified yet he looked like a fugitive, a whirlwind of darkness rose from his feet and turned into a full on tornado surrounding him and Lilian ripping through the gazebo and sending chucks of white through the air, Ichiru was brought to his knees at the sheer brute force then he realized that Lilian was inside that death trap and probably being skewered as we speak, the tornado started to tear it's way around the garden, swerving past him in a drunken like fashion as if it was human then he looked back at the direction it was heading.

It was headed for the house.

Where his family was, unknown of the danger fast approaching.

"MOTHER! FATHER!", Ichiru let out a strangled cry as the wind sucked the oxygen right out of him, sending him flying as it blew harder, falling to the ground, the last thing Ichiru saw was his house being shredded into nothing before he impacted on the hard ground then he blacked out.

~end~

Haru: I am so sorry for not updating since this chapter was a hair ripping one to write! I promise the next one will come sooner and there will be more happy stuff and plus it's school time here but I might have the next chap up by next week! REVIEWS ARE LOVED! and so I can know if I should update earlier or not.
I am so so so so sorry! Forgive me dear readers!

Aidou: DON'T FORGIVE HER! LASH HER OUT ON HER SLOW UPDAAAAAAAATES! *battle cry*