I knew,just knew,I was having an outer body experience. How? Well when your watching people trying to break into the door your behind,and passed out,then,yea,something is wrong. The only thing that got to me,was that I could see myself bleeding. See the pain it was causing everyone. "GOD DANG IT!"Emmett shouted,unable to break the door down. I floated...is that what they would call it?Eh,anyway,I floated downstairs to find Alice laying on the couch,sobbing tearless. "Its not your fault.."Jasper kept repeating,trying,uselessly,to comfort her. Next I floated..er..stumbled?..across Rosalie. And she looked sad. Sad. Rosalie sad?Where was I?The Twilight Zone? Next I found my way to Carlisles office. My heart sank. He was blaming himself!"I should've told her...Should've admitted I loved her!"He shouted,flinging something across the room,and it hit a picture,shattering it in a thousand tiny pieces. Everything went all weird. Things repeated themselves,like a c.d. stuck on "instant replay".But it was slow. Like the world was being controlled by a remote. Honestly that wouldn't surprise me,I mean I was in a house with vampires!Nothing can really shock you after that. I mean,not much. I suddenly was looking at Victoria. She inhaled deeply,and smiled. "Shes dead!"She hissed,eyes lighting up. She licked her lips,and trotted on,following the scent of my blood. I wanted to shout. Scream. Warn the Cullens. Warn someone! I felt utterly useless. "I hate this!"I screamed,of course no one heard. No one flinched. I floated my way to the ground,and picked up a rock,flinging it into the distance. Picked up. I gawked at the rock,now a few feet away. "I CAN TOUCH STUFF!"I gasped,and floated,which makes me sound like a ghost,to Carlisle.I placed my hand on his shoulder,praying it works. It did. He straightened up."Bella?"He exhaled,and slowly turned around."Oh Carlisle."I frowned,and held his face between my hands. He shook his head,placing his hands over his ears."I'm going insane. Hearing,feeling,but not seeing!"He laughed hysterically. He could hear me!"Carlisle. You..Hear me?"I asked,causing him to flinch. "Bella..your..there?"Carlisle said,sounding as happy as I was feeling. As if I wasn't all ghost-like,and not there,I kissed him. And,gladly,he responded the same way. The door opened up with a loud "bang",and Alice walked in."Carlisle?"She asked,speaking softly. "Carlisle...shes not there.."Alice said,walking straight through me,and waved a hand in front of Carlisles face."Alice?"I asked,hopping she could hear me."Carlisle,I know you miss her."Alice sighed,"We all do."She hugged him,and he just stared in the general direction that I was in."I felt her and on my shoulder Alice..And..I..Your right."He finally said,giving into the sad fact."Im here!"I shouted,as they left the room,walking,once again,through me. I crossed my arms,and pouted. I floated behind them,as they entered Alices room,where my body lay,in the corner of her closet,blood still running from my wrist,up my arm. Carlisle whimpered slightly,and dropped to his knees. Alice sank gracefully to hers,and hugged him."Im so sorry."She whispered,to both of us."Should've seen this coming."She blamed herself."Should've told her I loved her."Carlisle whispered,as the blood stretched itself to where they were. Soon they were surrounded in a puddle of scarlet. Alice silently rose,and retreated to the bathroom,I assumed to grab something to clean up with,until I heard the shower turn on. "Bella.."Carlisle exhaled,taking my lifeless hand in his."I'm sorry..."He said,and stared up at the ceiling. I knew if he could,he would be crying. "Carlisle!Please!You heard me before!"I cried,kneeling beside him,and holding his shoulders. He ignored me."Carlisle!"I cried,and felt the tears finally spill over. "But,you heard me.."I whispered,and gave up. Why was I trying?I was a useless human. A useless,foolish,idiotic human. I didn't deserve to live,and now I had my punishment."Carlisle!"I screamed."You heard me!" I saw his eyes slowly open."Your not..real.."He said,as his eyes went wide."Don't cry..please..."He said,and reached a hand out to wipe away my tears. And it worked. I smiled,and hugged him."I'm scared...why do you see me?"I asked,as his arms locked around me. "I..I don't know."He admitted,and petted my hair. "Why did you..kill yourself?"He forced out,holding me at arms length."Please..Don't .."I begged,looking down sheepishly."No!"He shouted suddenly,and held onto my tighter."Wha-?"I cut off,as everything shimmered around the sides."Carlisle!"I gasped,as pain shot through my body."Bella!"I cried out,and dropped his arms. The pain was immense,like someone had set my whole body on fire,and was now blowing it out slowly,section by section. First was my head,next my right arm,then my stomach,legs,feet,chest. Everything by my right arm. "Bella.."I heard Carlisles voice sobbing,but it didn't sound I was all weird ghost thing anymore. I felt..Human! I groaned,and my eyes fluttered open,to a bunch of clothes hanging above me."Bella?"Carlisle asked,looking up."My heart beats not that loud"I croaked out,as he smiled at me. Alice darted out of the bathroom,hair dripping wet,and laughed."Your alive!"She sang,and hugged me. "Ow..er...Doctor?"I asked,glancing down at my wrist that had glass now stuck in it. In a flash he was gone and back,and fixing my wrist. "Alice,is Jasper..er..okay?"I asked,remembering what they had told me about his..control."He left once Emmett got the door opened."She explained."All done."Carlisle smiled,and put everything back into its case,and the case itself vanished."Ill leave you two alone."Alice said,and before leaving,winked at me. I dropped my eyes to the ground."Carlisle I'm so-"I began to explain,but he just put a finger to my lips."I understand your pain Bella. You don't need to explain."He told me,and kissed me. I eagerly returned the kiss."Thats technically our first kiss."I smiled,and was quickly shut up by his continued kiss. His hand traveled from my shoulder,to my lower back,and he pushed my against him,causing a slight pain in the slow healing wounds."Carlisle!"I tried to push him away. Then I realized why he was being rough. The taste of rust and salt filled my mouth. I used all my force to push against him,and tried to pull away."Carlisle!Stop!"I demanded,and he listened. Kind of listened,as his kisses slowly made their way to my neck. He reached my shoulder,and was going to make their way down my right arm,when Alice burst into the room."CARLISLE!"She yelled. A frightening,growl built from him,as he almost reached my wrist. I felt his lips wrap around the patched up cut in my wrist,and him unwrapping it with his teeth,as his growl grew louder."Carlisle"I gasped,as I felt the stitches being torn,and my blood being drained. "Carlisle.. I..I love you."I whispered,as my eyes fluttered shut. I'm not sure if out of happiness,or pain.
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