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I had been resting for a bout a week when we decided to go on another hunt. We'd reached a little motel and the guys splashed out and gave me my own room. I knew why, the looks Sam had been giving me, the sad puppy dog looks. He was so damn annoying when he did them I felt so guilty for not telling them about my family. But after all it was my business, mine alone.

I walked into Sam and Dean's room and found Sam reading alone, he jumped slightly when I walked in.

"What's wrong?" I asked sitting at the table opposite him.

"Last night, Dean followed me. I was with Ruby saving an innocent. He's found out." Sam said looking down at the table.

"About the blood too?" I asked and Sam's head shot up.

"No." He said softly and we heard the Impala's engine roar up. Dean walked through the door looking like thunder. Sam turned to him to speak. Dean started to pack his duffel bag.

"Dean what are you doing?" Sam asked looking stressed out. "Are, are you leaving?"

"You don't need me, you and Ruby go fight demons." Dean said packing his bag. I stood up and watched. Dean was mad, more angry than I had ever seen him.

"Hold on, dean come on man." Sam said as he walked past his brother for the door. I caught Dean's eye and he looked at me hard, searching for something. Dean turned and punched his brother full on in the mouth.

"Hey!" I shouted pulling on Dean's arm. "What are you thinking?!" Sam took a deep breath and turned to face his brother, his lip was bust.

"You satisfied?" Sam asked as Dean punched him again. I grabbed Dean and pulled him back a few steps.

"Stop it!" I shouted putting my hand on his chest. Sam turned back round and pressed his hand against his lip.

"I guess not." Sam said looking at his brother.

"Do you even know how far off the reservation you've gone?! How far from normal, from human?!" Dean said, he was so pissed and I didn't even need my Wolfy powers to see it.

"I'm just exercising demons." Sam said avoiding looking at his brother.

"With your mind!" Dean shouted at Sam. "Did you know?" Dean asked me.

"I..." I trailed off and looked to the floor. I wasn't going to lie to Dean. Dean shook his head. "What else can you do?" He said turning his attention to Sam.

"I can send them back to hell. It only works with demons and then its it." Sam explained. Dean exploded he grabbed Sam by the collar of his shirt and pushed him backwards.

"What else can you do?!" Dean growled letting go of Sam.

"I told you." Sam answered. I walked up to them in case any more fighting broke out. Dean backed Sam up to the wall.

"And I have every reason in the world to believe that." He said walking away from Sam.

"Look I should of said something, I'm sorry Dean, I am" Sam said trying to get his brother to calm down. "But try to see the other side here"

"The other side?!" Dean shouted turning back to face his brother.

"I'm pulling demons out of innocent people." Sam replied sounding so honest. He's fooling himself, he has to be. I thought as I watch the brothers go at it.

"Then use the knife!" Dean replied looking like he was ready to beat down on Sam again.

"The knife kills the victim, what I do most of them survive." Sam pleaded with Dean to understand. "Look I've saved more people in the last five months than we save in a year."

"That what Ruby wants you to think?" Dean asked sounding bitter. I looked away because I was thinking the same thing. "The way she tricked you into using your powers, slipper slope brother, just wait and see cause its going to get darker and darker and god knows where it ends." Dean's voice had changed, he sounded less angry and more upset. I looked back and saw Sam see the same expression I herd his voice have.

"I am not going to let it go too far." Sam said and Dean shook his head. He walked over to the lamp and smashed it against the wall.

"It's already gone too far Sam." Dean said turning back to Sam. The lamp just missed me but I just stood there watching the pair. Dean walked up to Sam's face. "If I didn't know you, I would want to hunt you." Dean almost whispered. Sam's eyes began to well up and he nodded. "And so would other hunters."

"You were gone... I was here... I had to keep on fighting without you. And what I'm doing...it works." Sam said nearly crying. Dean looked away and I could tell his heart was breaking.

"Well tell me, if its so terrific, why'd you lie about it to me?" Dean asked the hurt and anger was in his voice. Sam looked away. "Why did an angel tell me to stop you?" Dean asked and Sam looked up to his brother. I looked at Dean and shook my head in shock. They had told Dean to stop Sam? They told me to protect Dean from Sam, what do they think Sam will become?! I thought to myself staring at Sam.

"What?" Sam asked.

"Cass said that if I don't stop you, he will. See what that means Sam, it means that god doesn't want you doing this. So your just going to stand there and tell me that everything's all good?" Dean asked and the brothers looked at each other. Sam's phone rang and broke the tension that was building.

"Hello?" Sam asked as he answered the phone. Dean turned to me and looked at me. I didn't know what to do so I simply looked back. He walked up to me and whispered.

"You knew. How long?" Dean asked sounding angry at me.

"A while." I replied looking into his eyes.

"How long?" Dean asked again through grit teeth.

"About six months I guess. I knew when I first met him." I said softly.

"Why didn't you tell me?!" Dean said raising his voice to me. I stared at him a few seconds fighting the urge to punch him and took a deep breath.

"He's your brother...not mine." I said and pushed past Dean.

"Hey Travis, yeah hey. It's good to hear your voice too yeah. Look its not a really good time right now, yeah ok. Just give me the details and, Carthage Missouri, 4 Jack Montgomery." Sam hung up and turned to Dean who was now watching his baby brother again. The pair traded looks and then stopped talking to each other.

The car ride to Carthage Missouri was painful, Sam sat in the front and the pair continued to glance at each. Finally they started talking and it was about their mother which I came to understand died when they were little. I pretended to be asleep so they could talk freely.

"I cant believe it, mom a hunter?" Sam said shaking his head.

"I wouldn't of believed it either if I hadn't seen it myself." Dean said sounding proud and surprised as he drove. He let out a laugh. "That woman could kick some ass, she nearly took me down."

"How'd she look? I mean was she happy?" Sam asked sounding inquizative.

"She was awesome, funny and smart, so hopeful. Dad too, till of course..." Dean trailed off and Sam sighed. "What?" Dean asked.

"Nothing. It's just our parents and now our grandparents too, our whole family murdered and for what? So that yellow eyes could get in my nursery and bleed in my mouth?" Sam ranted. I guess we are more alike than I thought. No family. Just demons never ending fight with demons. I thought to myself as Sam talked. There was a long pause, I peeked open one eye.

"Sam I never said anything about demon blood." Dean said looking surprised. "You knew about that?"

"Yeah for about a year." Sam said softly.

"A whole year." Dean said sarcastically. I could tell another fight was about to kick off.

"I should of told you about that. I'm sorry." Sam added softly.

"You're saying that a lot lately Sam. But whatever, you don't wanna tell, you don't have to its fine." Dean said sarcastically.

"Dean," Sam said softly. "Whatever." The pair went silent again. I mumbled and pretended to wake up.

"Are we there yet?" I asked sitting up and looking at the pair which were looking in different directions.

"We shouldn't be much longer." Dean said sounding bitter and angry. I nodded and sat back into the seat and looked out of the window, it was going to be a very long ride no matter what Dean said.

We finally pulled up outside the house and watched the people inside. A man in his mid thirty's came into the kitchen and started to eat raw meat out of the packet. I thought I was going to be sick.

"I'd say that qualifies as weird." Sam said as we looked away. Dean started the car and we drove to a motel, they were full so we all had to share. We walked through the door and there was an older man sat drinking beer.

"Travis!" Dean said with a smile. "See Sam, told you we should of hid the beer." Dean joked and we all walked fully into the room.

"Smart ass, get over here." Travis said and hugged Dean and Sam. "Good to see you, good to see you." He said as they hugged. I just stood there and smiled. "And who might this lovely lady be?" Travis asked walking up to me.

"Megan." I said holding out my hand and we shook.

"Always a pleasure to meet a beauty." Travis said giving me a once over. He smiled and turned back to the guys."Man you got tall kid." He said to Sam. "How long has it been?"

"Gotta be ten years." Sam said smiling and laughing.

"You still um what was it mathlete?" Travis asked and I laughed. The guys looked and I just smiled sweetly.

"No..." Sam said.

"Yep sure is." Dean said patting his brother on the back. I laughed again and walked closer to them giving Sam a look.

"Been too long boys, I mean look at ya. Grown men, John would have been damn proud of you, sticking together like this." Travis said

"We're thick as thieves, nothing more important than family." Dean said and Sam looked to the ground then back to me. I gave him a sympathetic smile. Dean was being harsh on Sam and although I understood why, I felt it was still a little too hard.

"Its nice to see you with such a beautiful young woman as well." Travis said smiling at me.

"Well someone has to help them, they'd be damsels in distress otherwise." I joked and walked over to Sam's side.

"Sorry I'm late for the dance." Travis said walking over to a table where he and Dean sat down. "Thanks for helping out an old man," He raised his cast and Sam and I sat down. "I'm a little short handed. So you tracked down Montgomery?"

"Yeah, we found him at his home." Sam said smiling.

"And?" Travis said.

"He had hell of a case of the munches topped off with a burger he forgot to cook." Dean said simply.

"That's him all right." Travis said.

"What's him?" I asked looking confused.

"We got a rurguru on our hands." Travis said and we all looked confused.

"Rurguru?" Dean asked confused. "That made up? That sounds made up." Dean said looking at us.

"Their mean nasty little suckers, rotten teeth wormy skin, the works." Travis explained.

"Well that ain't this guy. I mean he was wearing a cell phone on his belt." Dean said looking at us.

"He'll turn ugly soon enough. They start out human for all intense and purposes." Travis said looking at all of us.

"So what, they go through some metamorphosis?" Sam asked.

"Yeah, like a maggot turning into a blow fly." Travis said and my skin crawled a little. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you."

"Oh you didn't, the rurguru thing, it freaks me out a little." I said with a soft smile.

"Most of all they're hungry." Travis said and glanced at me.

"Hungry for what?" Dean asked.

"First for everything, but then, for long pig." Travis said and Sam scoffed.

"Long pig?" Dean asked.

"Is this a metaphor for some weird animal?" I asked as clueless as Dean was.

"He means human flesh." Sam explained. I shook my head.

"Well... that's a new word." I said softly.

"And that is my word of the day!" Dean said nodding, I let a small laugh and Travis smiled to himself.

"Hunger grows in until the cant fight it. Till they gotta take themselves a big juicy chomp and that's when it happens." Travis said.

"What happens?" Sam asked.

"They transform, completely and fast." Travis said looking at me, I just nodded slowly. "one bites all it takes. Eyes teeth skin all turn, there's no going back either. They feed once, their a monster forever. And our man Jack's heading down the bullet train." I took a deep breath and held it while I thought what this man might of thought of me if he knew the truth. I let it out slowly and glanced at Dean who was enthralled in the convocation.

"How'd you find this guy if he's walking, talking human?" Dean asked.

"Let's just say it runs in his family."Travis answered.

"You mean um.." Sam said sounding slightly uneasy.

"Killed his daddy in 78 son of a bitch mangled eight bodies before I put him down." Travis paused. "Guy used to be a dentist, Cadillac, trophy wife, little did I know pregnant trophy wife. She put the boy up for adoption. By the time I found out he was long gone, lost to the system." Travis said shaking his head.

"You mean to tell me you couldn't find someone?" Sam asked jokingly and Travis smiled.

"I'm not sure I wanted to." Travis sighed losing the smile. "Idea of hunting down some poor kid, I don't think I had the heart. No I wanted to wait, make damn sure I had the right man, apparently I do." Travis said in a solemn tone grabbing his beer.

We were sat in the motel room and making mini flame throwers, I was sat happily working on them as the guys talked.

"So fire huh?" Dean said as he heated some metal.

"Only way I found to kill these bastards, deep fire them." Travis said attaching pieces together.

"Well that's going to be... horrible." Dean said looking at me, I simply nodded and went back to work. "Is that what you did to Jack's dad?" Before he could answer Sam walked in sighing.

"Not wasting any time are you?" Sam said walking over to the bed.

"None to waste, guy hulks out, we'll be finding bodies not just remains." Travis said still working on a flame thrower. I stopped and smiled to Sam.

"What if he doesn't hulk out?" Sam asked and I lost my smile. I had a feeling I knew where this road was heading. "I did a little homework, been checking out the lore on rurguru's."

"What my thirty years of experience not good enough for you?" Travis said and took a sip of coffee, I walked over to Sam and sat next to him spying on the paper he had in his hands. Dean glanced at me and looked peeved at Sam for questioning Travis.

"What? No. I... I... I just wanted to be prepared. I mean not that you didn't" Sam was struggling to get out of the hole he dug.

"Sam loves research," Dean butted in saving his little brother. "He does, he keeps it under his mattress next to his KY, it's a sickness," He turned to Sam and at this point me and Travis were laughing. "It is!" Dean said in the teacher knows best voice.

"Look everything you said checked out, of course. But um I found a couple of interesting stories about people who have this rurguru gene or whatever. See they start to turn, but they never take the final step." Sam said explaining himself. The look on Dean's face was screaming for Sam to shut up.

"Really?" Dean said.

"See if they never eat human flesh, they don't fully transform." Sam said.

"So what go vegan, stay human?" Dean dumbed it down.

"Basically." Sam agreed. "Or in this case eat a lot of raw meat, just not-"

"Long pig!" Dean chirped up and I had to laugh at how he smiled for using his word of the day.

"Right." Sam agreed.

"Good on you for the diligence Sam." Travis said standing up. "But those are fairy tales."
"Sorry, what?" I asked confused.

"Fact is, every rurguru I ever saw or herd of took that bite." Travis said pouring another cup of coffee. I shook my head and stood as Sam did.

"Well that doesn't mean that Jack will." Sam said.

"Look I kinda agree, this is a nature, vs nurture conversation we are having here, but come on, we should just stake out the guy and watch to see what he does." I said. Dean looked at me confused.

"No, we have to strike. We cant watch him forever." Travis said shaking his head and acting like we knew nothing. "What do we do, sit and hope and wait for a body count?"

"No we talk to him," Sam said "Explain what's happening, that way he can fight it." Travis shook his head.

"Fight it?You kidding me?" He laughed and something in my stomach got tighter, I was beginning to dislike this man. "You ever been really hungry?" Dean's head popped up. "I mean haven't eaten in days hungry?"

"Yeah." Dean said sounding that hungry now.

"Right then, so somebody slaps down a big juicy serlion in front of you, you walk away?" Travis asked and Dean turned to Sam knowing the answer. "Well that's what we are to him now. Meat on legs. I'm sorry, I'm sure he's a stand up guy, but its pure beast instinct," Travis said. Dean was still looking down at the paper Sam had and turned his head to me. I shook mine and looked away from Travis before I told him a few home truths. "Everything in nature's gotta eat. You think he can stop himself cause he's nice?"

"I don't know, but we're not going to kill him unless he does something to get killed for." Sam said and both dean and I turned to Sam. Sam walked out the door and Travis turned to Dean.

"What's up with your brother?" Travis asked looking as if Sam just started talking in tongues. I couldn't take it any more and shook my head.

"He's human, he doesn't want to take another humans life meaninglessly just because of what might happen." I said grabbing my coat and following Sam out.

Dean caught up with us and we decided to go talk to Jack. I was sat in the back again as we drove. "So we're off to go talk to this guy, and I'm down with that. But I just want to make sure, if push comes, you'll shove." Dean said driving.

"Meaning?" Sam asked sounding annoyed.

"Well odds are we are going to have to burn this guy alive." Dean said looking at Sam.

"This guy has a name. And a wife." Sam replied unimpressed.

"Who we're probably going to make a widow." Dean said starting to sound annoyed too. "You heard Travis, he's going to turn, they always turn."

"Well maybe he wont, maybe he'll fight it off." Sam said raising his voice a little.

"And maybe he can't!" Dean said also raising his voice. "That's all I'm saying."

"All right let's just see about it ok?" Sam asked.

"That's what I mean Sam. You sure your emotions aren't getting in the way here?" Dean asked and I sat back and watched the fireworks go.

"What are you talking about?" Sam asked shaking his head a little.

"Nice dude, but he's got something evil inside him. Something in his blood maybe you could relate." Dean said.

"I do!" I piped up from the back and Dean gave me a look. "What I do?" I asked.

"Look all I'm saying is, both you and Sam, you guys get him from the way you are. But we need to be realistic here." Dean said.

"Realistic how?" Sam asked and I sat up.

"Look. Travis knows about these things, he's hunted a few. Maybe we should listen to him." Dean said.

"Stop the car!" Sam said.

"What?" Dean asked confused.

"Stop the car or I will." Sam said fuming. Dean pulled over and I watched as Sam got out, quickly followed by me and Dean.

"You wanna know why I've been lying to you Dean? Because of crap like this!" Sam shouted.

"Like what?" Dean asked as the pair walked to the front of the Impala.

"The way you talk to me, the way you look at me, like I'm a freak!" Sam said pushing past Dean.

"I do not. I treat you and Megan the same!" Dean protested.

"Hey leave me out of it!" I said sitting on the hood.

"Or worse like I'm an idiot, who doesn't know the difference between right and wrong!" Sam said walking away from Dean. Dean didn't say anything. "What?" Sam asked turning around to see his brothers face.

"DO you know the difference Sam? You've kinda strolling a dark road lately." Dean said flinging out his arms.

"You've got no idea what's going on." Sam said bitterly.

"Then enlighten me!" Dean shouted.

"I've got demon blood in me Dean, this disease pumping through my veins and I cant ever rip it out or scrub it clean. I'm a whole new level of freak." Sam said defeated. "And I'm trying to take this curse and make something good out of it. Because I have to." Sam said and looked to the floor. Neither brother would look at each other.

"Let's just go talk to the guy." Dean said breaking the silence. Sam scoffed. "I mean Jack. Ok?" Sam nodded.

We sat in silence to Jack's house and honestly I felt like the tension was going to chock me. We pulled into the street and walked to Jack's house. He was in the garden watering plants.

"Jack Montgomery?" Sam said as we walked up to him. Jack seem to snap out of his day dream and turn to us. Dean was hanging back and I could kinds of understand why. "I'm Sam Winchester, this is my brother Dean and a our friend Megan." Sam said introducing us. Dean and I nodded to Jack. "We need to talk." Jack looked at Dean and he looked away. He looked at me, my body then my face, I gave him a polite smile.

"About?" He asked Sam.

"About you, about how you're changing." Sam said.

"Excuse me?" Jack asked looking a little spaced out.

"Probably feeling you're bones moving under your skin, and your appetite is reaching hungry, hungry hippo levels, how I'm doing so far?" Dean asked and Jack just looked blankly at us.

"Who the hell are you guys?" Jack asked.

"We are people who know a little something about something." Dean said putting his hands in his jeans.

"We want to help." I said and glared at Dean.

"We're people who can help, please just hear us out." Sam asked and we explained everything.

"All right so a what?" Jack asked as he paced up and down.

"A rurguru," Dean said. "Sounds made up I know, but believe me its not."

"All right I've noticed certain things, I mean some strange things, but I just, I dunno I'm sick or something." Jack said pacing around.

"Your father was one." I said softly and Jack turned around.

"Your real father," Sam added. "He passed it on to you." Jack looked bewildered.

"No," Jack said shaking his head. "Are you guys listening to yourselves?"

"Let's skip the whole, you guys sound crazy shall we?" Dean snapped at Jack. "You're hungry Jack, your only going to get hungrier."

"Hungry for?" Jack asked.

"Long pig." Dean replied. "A little man burger, may of crossed your mind already." Sam glared at Dean.

"No." Jack said.

"It doesn't have to be like this Jack. You can fight it." Sam said but Jack was freaking out, it looked like Dean had hit a nerve. "Others have."

"No!" Jack said walking off.

"We're not going to lie to you, it wont be easy." Dean added. I felt like kicking him myself. But it wouldn't help at this point. The guy was being to smell of fear. "You'll feel like an alcoholic swimming around in whiskey. But I'm telling you, you gotta say no. Or-"

"Or what?" Jack asked.

"You feed once and it's all over." I said and they all looked at me. "It will be with you forever, but you have to fight it, and you could. But if you don't, you bite and its going to be night night." I said coldly.

"Night night, my dad did die, someone killed him." Jack said.

"Yes." Sam said softly.

"Get off my property. Right now, I see you again and I'm calling the cops." Jack said. Dean shook his head like he knew this was going to happen all along.

"Jack your wife everyone you know, they're in danger." Sam said walking towards him.

"NOW!" Jack shouted catching a neighbours attention. We started to walk away.

"Good talk." Dean said sarcastically and I punched his arm.

We had followed Jack all day and finally he was doing something bad. He looked liked he was going after a young woman who happened to be undressing. We grabbed the make shift flame throwers and followed him as he started to climb the fire escape to her room. He was fast.

"I'll follow him up. Meet you in the room." I said jumping and climbing up the escape while the guys ran in and followed him. He was fast he was already at the window as I just got up the first level. I had nearly reached him when I herd him speak.

"No, no." He whispered to himself. He started to climb back down but met me.

"Jack, listen to me." I said calmly walking towards him. He looked at me then the flame thrower. "We can help you."

"No, no get away from me." Jack said and pushed me backwards off the fire escape. I fell to the ground with a thud and blacked out for a few seconds. The guys came running out of the building as I sat up.

"Whoa, you ok?" Dean asked as I stood up.

"Yeah, just hurt my pride." I said brushing myself off. "He is strong and crazy."

"Crazy for long pig!" Dean joked and I shook my head.

"What is it with you and that word?" I asked pushing him.
"It's my word of the day." He smiled like an idiot so I rolled my eyes and walked off.

We drove to the house and saw Travis's car out side. We all traded looks.

"Well I guess we know where Travis is." Dean said as we walked up the path.

"Stupid son of a bitch." Sam added. We walked in and the door was unlocked. We looked around and it looked like someone had been fighting. I covered my mouth for a second as a flash back of Alistair pouring human blood down my throat flashed in my head at the smell of more human blood.

"You ok?" Dean asked and I just nodded. There was a thick blood trail that lead to behind the sofa. I took a deep breath and followed it to the source. "Oh god." Dean said as we looked at what little was left of Travis. "Think that's Travis."

"What's left of him." I said and turned to look away from the blood.

"I guess you were right about Jack." Sam said to Dean. Jack came out of no where and tackled Dean onto a coffee table.

"DEAN!" Both Sam and I shouted at the same time. I cracked my neck as Sam tried to light the flame thrower. But Jack pounced on him smashing his head with it until he passed out. I jumped on Jack pushing him off Sam. We struggled and I managed to get the flame thrower out of his hands. Jack slammed me into a wall and then another. He was snarling and pushed me into a picture, the glass sliced into my back. He grabbed a chair and smashed it over my head and I blacked out.

I was the first to wake up. He was putting Sam in the cloak room. He looked at me and looked at my eyes.

"What... what are you?" He asked as he locked the door.

"Like you." I said pulling on the rope but finding it was pretty tight.

"What a guru thing. A monster." Jack asked.

"Yes." I said simply. "I'm a monster. A killer and a hunter." I said pulling on the ropes again. Sam was up and trying the door. Dean was still out of it on the table.

"Dean, Megan?" Sam shouted.

"Dean can't come to the phone right now." Jack said almost crying, he was hovering over Dean.

"Sam He's over Dean, I'm" Jack slapped my face with a lot of force. It bust my lip open.

"Jack, if you hurt him. I swear to God." Sam shouted hitting the door.

"Calm down, your brother's alive. So's your little girlfriend. But not if you don't calm down." Jack said I looked at him and spat out some blood.

"All right Jack listen, open the door and we can figure this out ok?" Sam pleaded.

"We'll have ourselves a little brain storm session." Jack said rocking back and forth.

"Jack please." Sam begged.

"I don't think so. After what you did." Jack said.

"What, what are you talking about?" Sam asked. He was muffled, it sounded like he was moving around a lot.

"You sent your friend here, he tried to burn my wife alive!" Jack said.

"What?" Sam asked sounding confused. "Why?" I pulled on the ropes and Jack's head snapped round to me.

"He didn't say." Jack said. "I guess psychopaths don't have to explain themselves." He started to look at Dean and crawl near to him.

"STOP!" I shouted. Jack's head spun round and he started to crawl near me.

"What? What's happening? Jack listen, you need to listen to me, me, my brother and our friend we would of never hurt her ok?" Sam said sounding panicked. Jack crawled up to my legs and stop looking up at me. I pulled on the ropes but nothing gave. I started to shake my head. He reached out and touched the blood on my lip then licked his fingers.

"Oh god, I'm so hungry." Jack said and moved back to sitting at my feet.

"Jack, don't do this." Sam pleaded, Jack turned his head towards Dean and started crawling back to him.

"Jack, Jack come back here, come sit by me." I said softly but Jack ignored me.

"I can't ever see my family again." Jack said "You three, your friend, you made me into this!" Jack said almost crying.

"No one's making you kill us." Sam said and Jack looked like he was about to loose it. Big time. "Listen to me, you've got this dark pit inside you, believe me I know. But it doesn't mean you have to fall into it. You don't have to be a monster." Sam said.

"Have you seen me lately?" Jack said laughing bitterly.

"It doesn't matter what you are, it only matters what you do." Sam said. "It's your choice." Jack kept looking between me and Dean like we were all you could eat buffets. Long pig Dean's voice echoed in my head. Jack grabbed his stomach and started to make a weird noise. Then he started to crawl towards Dean.

"Sam! Hurry up!" I shouted as Jack ignored me.

"JACK!" Sam shouted appearing at the sofa holding the flame thrower and lighter ready. Jack got up and started to run to Sam. Dean woke and looked just in time to see Sam set Jack on fire. Jack let out a horrible cry and fell to the floor screaming. It made me feel sick, I could smell the flesh burn and everything was too real for my senses. Sam walked out of the house and I was still tied up. Dean came over and cut the rope free.

"How'd it feel to be a man burger?" I asked as we walked out.

"Not good." Dean said sighing. I grabbed his arm and looked over at Sam. He was defeated, everything he thought about good and evil. The promise he told himself. It was all shattered in the house.

"Look Dean, your being a dick." I said softly so Sam wouldn't hear. Dean looked at me confused. "You're being way to hard on Sam. Give him a break. You know, you might of been in hell. But Sam, he had to fight everyday, try and find his own way. So just cut him some slack, he's your only family. Ok?" I said letting go of his arm as my eyes began to well up.

"Yeah, ok." Dean said looking at my face. "What's wrong?"

"Smoke in my eyes." I lied and walked to Sam and gave him a hug.

We were driving out of town. Sam wasn't talking much, Dean either. No one wanted to talk after that kill. I sat in the back day dreaming when Dean spoke.

"You did the right thing you know." He said to Sam. "Guy was a monster, no going back. Sam I wanna tell you I'm sorry, I've been kinda hard on you lately."

"Forget about it Dean." Sam said softly.

"It's just that your um psychic thing scares the crap out of me." Dean said not looking at his brother.

"If it's all the same, I'd really not talk about it." Sam said.

"Wait, what? You don't wanna talk?" Dean asked surprised. "You?"

"There's nothing more to say, I cant keep explaining myself to you, I cant make you understand." Sam said.

"Then why don't you try?" Dean asked getting angry.

"I cant, because this thing, this blood. Its not in you, the way its in me. It's just something I gotta deal with." Sam said also starting to get annoyed.

"Your not alone." Dean said softly. Sam looked out the window sighing.

"Anyway it doesn't matter, this power, its like playing with fire. I'm done with them, I'm done with everything." Sam said to the window.

"Really?" Dean asked. "Well that's a relief, Thank you." Dean sighed. Sam scoffed again.

"Don't thank me, I'm not doing it for you or for the angels or for anybody." Sam said. "This is my choice." Sam said.