Start Again
So I say I don't love you
Though it kills me
It's a lie that sets you free
During dismissal, I went to Hinata, Tenten and Ino immediately. I sighed, glancing his way who was talking to some girl in the hallways. "Damn that Ami bitch!" Ino cried. "Ami?" I asked.
"Yeah, the one the Uchiha boy is talking to" Tenten said with an eye roll. "Why do you have to go for him Ino? I mean, he's a playboy!" Tenten cried. Ino sighed, "You can never understand, Tenten. I want to be able to change him!"
"Change my ass" Tenten said and we went to a fit of laughter except for Ino who just ignored us and kept glaring at the girl Sasuke was talking to. Once we got downstairs, we talked about gossips and stuff, sitting on a bench beneath the cherry blossom tree. I looked up and closed my eyes, thinking about those wonderful memories with Sasuke. "Sakura!" Ino cried and I jumped. I looked at her and Ino cocked one eyebrow up. "You look so deep in thought, tell me what you were thinking!" Ino cried. Hinata, followed by Tenten looked at me. They looked like little kids excited for a bedtime story.
I giggled, "It's nothing really"
"Oh c'mon!" Tenten cried. "Please Sakura-chan?" Hinata asked innocently. "Sakura! You have to make up for not going with us in lunch!" Ino pouted. I sighed, "Alright fine" I said. They jumped in their seats and I had to laugh at that because they were like children except in a bigger version. I soon stopped laughing and began my story, "2 years ago, I met a man…he was wonderful. We got into each other immediately and we had fun—lots of fun"
"Lots of fun, eh?" Ino said, wriggling her eyebrows up and down. I blushed, "Not like that!"
They all laughed and soon stopped and urged me to continue with the story, "Well, we had so much fun and nothing seems so wrong. He gave up practically everything for me. For us to work out and be together forever but….I broke up with him" I looked down the ground, tears about to go down until I felt a hand on my shoulder and Ino and the others looked at me with some sadness. "Why did you?" Tenten asked.
I bit my lower lip and tried to smile but it failed, "It's a long story but I can tell you that right now, I decided to go after him" I said with determination.
They all had big smiles on their faces, "Really? Then this'll be an awesome adventure!" Ino cried. Hinata nodded and Tenten sighed, "We're not going to be in that adventure, Ino pig" Tenten said.
"Shut up, chocolate but we'll be there for her, no?" Ino said, standing up from the bench and twirling around. Tenten looked away, embarrassed for Ino and Hinata just laughed at her. "You're going to explain to him your undying love for him and he's going to fall for you again and and—"
"That's enough Ino" I laughed and Ino went back to her seat. When Ino went back to her seat, something caught my eye. Sasuke was with Ami, his arm over her and they're going to his motorcycle. Huh, he still has that motorcycle…
"Hey, isn't that Ami and Sasuke?" Hinata asked before I could. Ino darted her head to where they were and she immediately ran. Hinata ran afterwards, followed by Tenten. I didn't know if I should go to them but when I looked closer, Ino was already screaming at Ami who looked horrified and Sasuke didn't know what the hell was going on. Sasuke glanced my way and my heart skipped a beat but he only glared at me which made it break to pieces. I gulped and made my way to my friend who was screaming at Ami how much she was a slut. I bit my lower lip and glanced up at Sasuke. "What the hell is this about? Did you plan this?" he asked.
I shot him a look, "No, I didn't. I'm not trying to ruin your life"
He snickered, "Right, you should notice that ever since you got here and the moment I saw you—you were already starting to ruin it and do me a favour and try to get out of my business" he said and moved away and grabbed Ami by the arm and got her out from Ino. "Sasuke-kun! Can't you see that she's wrong for you?" Ino cried out. He ignored her and revived the engine of his motorcycle and sped off with Ami at his back.
A moment later, Tenten, Hinata and Ino got going and I followed after until my phone suddenly rang. "Hello?"
"Sakura" he said and my whole body relaxed through his familiar voice. "Itachi-kun"
2
Ami pushed me down in bed then she started her way through my body. Once she came face to face with me, we kissed roughly and I closed my eyes. "I don't love you anymore" she said…My eyes immediately opened and pushed Ami away. "What the hell, Sasuke-kun!" she cried out. I stood up from my bed and roughly slide my hand through my hair. "Get out" I said in an almost whisper. She didn't hear though and was still sitting on the bed. I turned my half naked to her, "Get out" I said more loudly. "What? B-but we just got here!" she cried.
"I'm not in the mood" I said but she still didn't get up and get her clothes. "I said get the fuck out god damn it!" I yelled at her and she immediately stood up and got her clothes. When she already changed back to her uniform, she slammed the door shut and I heard her slam the front door. I sighed and bounced on my bed. I looked up the ceiling and closed my eyes, "What the hell is going on?" I asked myself.
"I don't love you anymore" she said, looking down on the ground. My heart clenched and I looked away from her figure. "What did I do?" I asked through gritted teeth. I gave up everything for her and this is how she treats me? I love her so much…and I still do. "I'm not sure about my feelings anymore" she said. I bit my lower lip hard and turned my back at her, "How could you do this to me?" I asked her in an almost whisper, I doubted if she could hear me. I walked out into the rain and I think it was just me that I heard her say something, "Sorry"
I got into my motorcycle and sped off into the road. I didn't know where I was going, I don't give a shit where I'll go…I just want to get away from everything. The rain was blinding my eyesight until something caught my eye. It was a small bar and I stopped by there. I entered the bar and I didn't care if I was too young to drink but I just had to. I ordered myself some strong alcohol until I was tipsy and until I got drunk and then everything went into darkness.
"Sasuke!" I heard someone yelling my name.
"Sasuke!" I heard it again. I didn't turn back and all I could see were blinding lights of different colours and bodies rubbing each other. A girl was in front of me…she had…pink hair? When she looked at me, my heart felt light and I danced with her until someone held my shoulder and turned me back. "What the hell?" I said, looking at my brother's face. He looked at as if I was crazy and then he looked at my back then he asked, "Where is she?" I didn't need to ask him who 'she' is. I smiled at him, "What, she's just right—" I looked at my back but I didn't see a pinkette….instead it was a blond girl with big boobs and had a tan. She winked at me and I looked back at Itachi.
Realizing what happened a couple of hours ago, Itachi led me outside the club and he pushed me inside his sports car and for the first time in a long time, I cried into his arms.
Tears escaped from my eyes before I realized it and then immediately rubbed them away. When the phone from downstairs rang, I immediately went down and answered it, "Hello?" I asked.
"Sasuke?" my mother's voice said through the phone. A small smile appeared in my face, "Mom, how's the business trip?" I asked. "I'm just calling to tell you that me and your father will arrive there tomorrow" she said. "Alright, I'll tell Itachi when he's here"
"Thank you, and…take care before we arrive there" she said and I could tell that she was smiling. "Okay, bye" I said and she said bye in return before hanging up on the phone.
3
The following day, I got up quite late. I didn't eat breakfast though because I didn't feel like it and I had to forget to bring my money for lunch. I walked in the hallways of the school, looking for Ino and the others when a sudden hand twirled me around and I was met with blue eyes. "Sakura-chan!" Naruto cried. I smiled nervously at him, "Naruto-kun, good morning" I said. "You look alone, want to hang out with us?" he asked and pointed at his usual friends, Neji, Shikamaru…and Sasuke. He glared at me as if telling me to decline but I didn't. I needed to talk to him.
"Sure" I said and glanced at Sasuke. He was talking to Ami again. I sighed and got my attention back to Naruto. "So, Sakura-chan, how do ya like this school?" he asked. Shikamaru leaned on the wall next to me and sighed, "Troublesome isn't it?" I giggled, "Not so"
"It's always troublesome for you" Neji said to Shikamaru. Shikamaru glared at him, "And I'm still the smartest kid around"
"That's really unfair!" Naruto cried at him. I glanced at Sasuke who stayed silent and kept his eyes on the floor. "Oy! Sasuke-teme! Why are you so damn silent?" Naruto asked. Sasuke looked up and gave a cold stare at Naruto, "Dobe, what do you care?" he asked. I thought Naruto would get hurt but he just glared at him, "I don't even know why you're my best friend! You're always tryin' to act cool!"
I was about to say something when Ino called my name all of a sudden. "Sakura-chan! Why are you hanging out with these dweebs?" she asked. Neji, Shikamaru and Naruto glared at her. "Hey, watch what you say, Ino" Shikamaru said. Ino glared at him and looked at away. She turned to me and she smiled brightly at me. She took my hand and dragged me away from the group, "B-Bye Naruto!" I cried out before walked steadily with Ino and the others. "Seriously, why does Naruto keep on trying to hit with you?" Ino asked. "He's not hitting on me…we're just friends" I said.
"You should introduce Hinata" Tenten smirked at Hinata who was blushing furiously. "I-I c-c-can't!" Hinata cried out. I cocked one eyebrow up, "Oh c'mon Hinata!" I said and smiled at her which made her blush like a tomato even more if that was even possible. "H-He's g-g-going to t-think I'm w-weird!" she cried out, putting her palms in both her cheeks. We teased her until there were smokes coming out of her face and we laughed 'til then. She was just too adorable. I forgot about Sasuke in those few moments when Ami suddenly passed by us and Ino's anger flared. "Hey Ami, just because—"
"Whatever Ino, leave me alone" Ami said and was about to walk away until Ino grabbed her arm and yanked her in front of her. Ami looked at her with surprise, "What the hell is the matter with you?" she asked.
"Just because Sasuke picked you up, you were nothing more than just a one stand" Ino said and let go of her arm. Ami smirked at her, "Huh, I don't think so because Sasuke really enjoyed my company. He was just screaming my name all night long" then she walked away leaving a dumbfounded Ino. "I CAN'T BELIEVE HER!" Ino cried. I didn't say anything though while Ino continued to rant and Hinata had to calm her down. Tenten walked next to me, "So, Sakura" Tenten started and I looked up at her.
"Yesterday, whatever Sasuke meant…" she started and I looked at her wide eyed. She sighed, "I don't know what's going on between you and Sasuke but I sure hope it'll be over soon because Ino is just going to…well, erupt" Tenten said. I bit my lower lip and looked at her with pleading eyes, "Tenten, you have to not tell anybody what he told me! Okay?" I said in a whisper.
Tenten looked at me surprised and then nodded, "Promise me" I said. She nodded her head and muttered, "Promise"
We got inside our classrooms and sat on our respective places, 10 minutes after the bell, Kakashi got inside the classroom with a paper in his hand. "He's so late" I muttered. Hinata turned around to look at me and giggled, "No one's surprised. He's always like that" my mouth formed an O and I diverted my attention to Kakashi who was talking about the announcement. "—so here's the list of your new seats"
"WAH! I wish I could be seated next to Sasuke-kun" Ino giggled. Tenten sighed, "You're always Sasuke here Sasuke there"
"Oh shut up Tenten! It's not like you're not secretly wishing to be next to Neji!" Ino cried which the whole class heard and Tenten turned tomato red immediately. "What are you talking about, Ino pig!" she cried back. "Alright girls, settle down. I'll be telling you your seats" Kakashi said. Tenten and Ino stopped snapping each other comments and kept silent. I couldn't help but turn and take a glance at Neji who was smirking to himself.
Soon we were all separated from our seats. Ino was in the front row, near the door while Hinata was also in the front row which was on the other end. Tenten was in the last row where her line is with Hinata, near the window. I sat on the fourth row in the middle, second to the window seat however, the seat next to me was empty. "Uchiha Sasuke, over there near the window next to Sakura" he said and all the girls complained immediately.
"Why does she have to be next to him!"
"No way!"
"Unfair!"
"This can't be happening!"
"Shut up, will you? I'm the teacher and unless you want to sit outside, then complain all you want" Kakashi said and ended the girls and their complaints. I sighed and looked up to face Sasuke Uchiha himself. He didn't even look at me as he sat next to me and he faced outside the window. I sighed once again from disappointment and looked away from him instead. What am I suppose to tell him? I still love him? He's not probably going to believe me unless I tell him the truth…But…I can't. I promised Itachi-kun I wouldn't.
"So class, talking about prom that's coming next month—" Kakashi started but all the girls just suddenly go squealing. "Oy! Will you all shut up?" Ino stood up from her seat and the girls quieted down. Ino sighed and Kakashi thanked her. In the corner of my eye, I saw that Naruto was talking to Hinata who was blushing like crazy. They were seatmates. I glanced at Ino who was seatmates with Shikamaru and they were already fighting with whispers, I could tell—no, anyone could tell. Tenten was at the back of Neji and Neji seemed to always turn around and look at her and Tenten would glare at him.
Kakashi started talking about prom but I couldn't care less. I wouldn't even go anyway, I didn't have a dress and wouldn't be able to afford it. Besides, my birthday is going to come soon. "Sasuke…" I started but he looked at me and glared, "Don't talk to me" he said but I didn't give up. "I came here to talk to you—"
"I don't give a shit—"
"Shut up and meet me in the boulevard by night" I said and looked away. I didn't know if he would go, but I sure did hope so. Everything came by fast, lunch was alright, me, Ino, Hinata and Tenten ate lunch at the pool—no, more like they only ate during lunch. I didn't have money and I didn't want to owe anybody so I just told them a lie that I'd eaten a lot during breakfast and I don't feel the least bit hungry even though it's the other way around, after that other subjects came and soon it was already dismissal. I said to Ino and the others that I'd go home early and they agreed. I got home immediately, took a quick shower and changed into some pants and a shirt. I brushed my hair, putting it down and got out of the apartment already. I know I told him to meet me there by night, but I just wanted to be the first one to arrive there.
4
"See ya" I said to Naruto and the others and hopped in my bike. Once I got to the road, I started thinking about what Sakura said just a few hours ago. What does she mean 'meet me in the boulevard'? Che, it's not like I'm going to go there anyway. But my body was moving on its own as it went for a right turn, heading my way to the boulevard. It wasn't even night yet but I'm trying to figure out why she was here in the first place. Once I got to the boulevard, I parked my motorcycle in the corner and I sat on a bench.
"Why am I even doing this?" I whispered to myself. "Hey, good lookin'" I looked up and saw Karin with a smirk on her face. "Hey" I said. "What are you doing here?" she asked with a purr and sat next to me. I noticed her outfit was her usual. Some black short shorts, a plaid top that had 3 unbuttoned buttons that showed her cleavage. "Meeting up" I said shortly. "Well, I'm not busy tonight, maybe you want to have some bedroom fun?" she asked.
"Sure, why don't you go to my room and I'll catch you up there?" I said and she smiled at me. "Of course" she said and stood up. She walked away, swaying her butt as she walked and got in her car and drove off. "No wonder you're called a playboy" a familiar voice said behind me. I looked up to find the pinkette, dressed in a normal shirt and some jeans but it amazed me how she still looked….beautiful. I shook the thought off and glared at her, "Mind your own business"
She looked hurt at first but then she immediately placed her smiling happy-go-lucky expression and sat next to me. "I'm sorry" she said and my breath hitched. "I'm sorry about everything…about the past. I mean, how I said it and I know you gave up everything for me…It's just hard to explain. Many things went on, you know? In my life, and I couldn't tell you about it and—"
"Shut up" I said. I stood up and faced her with glaring eyes. "You think that saying I'm sorry is enough for me? Do you really think that shit? Do you know what the fuck you did to me, Sakura? You ruined my life! Now, I seem like some pathetic jerk and a playboy because I can't trust anybody! That's because of you! Everything that's happening to me right now, ALL BECAUSE OF YOU GOD DAMN IT! Did you know what happened to me when you walked away? Huh? Do you?" I was already yelling at her and she looked at me with tears in her eyes, speechless.
"I became a fucking soulless monster! I joined gangs, went to clubs, got drunk, picking up prostitutes, you know why? Because I can't forget about you and I'm doing everything. EVERYTHING. Every single god damn thing just to forget about you and for 2 years, I didn't. Until this year, I'm finally alright! Finally accepted the fact that you're gone and never coming back and bam! You just come back like that? What happened through all the going through this for 2 years? Do you really think I want to see you again? What? Are you going to confess that you still love me? BULLSHIT! YOU'RE BULLSHIT! PATHETIC! YOU SHOULD HAVE NEVER COME BACK HERE IN FIRST PLACE! I HATE YOU!" I ran out of breath and I was yelling at her and I felt my throat starting to hurt. I noticed the people were taking small glances at us and some were even whispering to themselves.
Sakura looked away from me and then closed her eyes. I shook my head and started to walk away when she said something that stopped me and made me wide eyed. "I had to!" she cried. "I fucking had to, Sasuke! What was I going to do, huh? You're telling me stories that you're parents and you are having a hard time! I can't stand in the way! I HAD TO! Did you know what I had to go through, huh? Do you? What threats and other shit that happened to me when we dated? It was shit, Sasuke! And the fact that I had to hide it from you is making it worse! And your brother—" she stopped and when I turned around she covered her mouth.
"What do you mean my brother?" I asked her and she stayed silent, still covering her mouth. "Sakura, you have to tell me. What does my brother have to do with this? And what threats? What have you not been telling me?" I asked more softly and she looked up at me and cried her heart out in my shirt and I couldn't help but caress her hair.
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