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Four months left... bugger eh? What's going to happen? Also on a side note, had to split this chaper in two, so i'm guessing this story line will be three, maybe four chapters
I know what you did last summer
I didn't want to stay in the hospital and I didn't want to rest. I needed to hunt to push out the thought's I kept having about Dean and some stupid dream of living a normal life. Seal breaking seem to have slowed down and Bobby and I were trying to figure out what was going on with my brother and Karl. Bobby had found number for Karl. I decided to call it.
"Hello?" The voice down the phone said, it sounded tired.
"Idiot? It's Megan." I said softly as I was in the next room to Dean and Sam.
"Pain! Are you ok? I'm so sorry I haven't called. Gethin has been riding my arse trying to find this demon guy." Karl said waking up.
"I'm ok, are you guys? Bobby told me you swung by looking for a lead." I said getting up from my bed and walking over to the window. Karl didn't need to know about me dying. Gethin wouldn't care.
"We've had a few fights with demons, nothing we can't handle." Karl said softly. "So what have you been up to? Word has it, the Winchesters are getting into big fights with both sides of the war." Karl said fishing for information.
"Ha! Yeah well when the angel's are just as douchy as the demons, what can you do?" I said laughing a little while brushing off the subject.
"True, true. So... have you um do you have a guy in your life at the moment?" Karl asked nervously.
"Oh..." I sighed. "Karl come on man. Look you are God knows where and I'm stuck baby sitting Dean. You know we can't-" I started to say before he cut me off.
"Gethin was saying how his dad had told him, if he went too long without changing things started to happen. Weird things... you know like lashing out at people or wanting to sleep with any person close to them... Well... um I know, you know, you haven't fully changed since you ..um.." Karl trailed off.
"Kill a man." I said plainly. Although in my defense, Ruby drugged me and she forced me to change. So I guess it wasn't all my fault. Damn I wish Sam would stop drinking her blood so I could rip her apart! I thought tapping the wall.
"Yeah... so Mm are you?" Karl asked and I blinked confused.
"Am I what?" I asked confused.
"Sleeping with Sam? You know because you haven't changed." Karl asked nervously and then it clicked in my head.
"Where is he?" I said firmly.
"Who?" Karl asked innocently. I sighed. Gethin had to be in the room, he hated the thought that I might be sleeping with Sam just because Gethin could sense he wasn't all human.
"Idiot, tell me now if he's in the room or if he's asked you to find out about me and Sam or I will come down their and kick your arse and then Gethin's." I said in a calm but firm threatening tone. Karl gave a nervous laugh and then sighed.
"That obvious?" He asked laughing.
"Yeah pretty much." I said plainly.
"He wants to know. He says Sam is not right, that you should keep an eye on him. I don't know, I didn't get much chance to talk to him. But Gethin can feel that he's wrong, and usually-" Karl said.
"Don't say it. I know. And I know about Sam. So you can tell Gethin that I'm a big girl and its my life." I sighed noticing Sam and Dean walking up to my room.
"Ok, ok. But you know he cares." Karl said as the guys knocked on the door. I walked over to the door.
"I know. Look I need to go, but keep in touch, I like knowing my best friend and brother are alive. I miss your voice too." I said softly before opening the door. Dean smiled and walked straight in followed by Sam who had his hands in his pockets and looked annoyed that Dean had walked in while I was on the phone.
"I miss yours too Kerrenda." Karl said softly.
"I told you don't to call me sweetheart." I said with a huff.
"I didn't I called you Kerrenda. Its Welsh so there. Bye." Karl said hanging up so I couldn't argue. I put my phone in my jacket and looked at the pair stood in my room blankly.
"We wanted to know if you wanted to go out for a drink with us." Sam said plainly with a small smile.
"Sure..." I sighed walking over to my jacket.
"You don't have to sound so enthusiastic." Dean said as I grabbed my jacket.
"Don't start on me Dean, please? I just want a drink and maybe hussle a few guys at darts." I said plainly. Sam and Dean traded looks and I slapped Dean because he was closest.
"What was that for?" He asked rubbing his chest.
"That look you just gave each other. I'm telling you both now, my business, stay out. I'm not a Winchester I don't have to open up to you." I said plainly and headed to the door.
We got into the bar and there was no darts board so I spent the night going drink for drink with Dean. That man can handle his drink. Sam decided to hussle a few guys at pool and it was working pretty well. I downed a shot and felt Dean looking at me.
"What is it?" I asked folding my arms over my chest.
"Nothing." Dean said as he downed his shot.
"Well quit staring will you?" I said ordering two more shots.
"But... damn!" Dean said smiling. "Your the first girl I've met who can match me." I looked at his smile and smiled back. Oh GOD! Stop being such a frigging fan girl! A voice in my head shouted. I turned and saw Sam give the sign.
"Looks like your up." I joked nodding to Sam who was hussling a guy at pool. Dean walked up to the guy.
"Excuse me," Dean said looking at the biker dude Sam was playing. "My brothers a little sourced to be making bets."
"Hey, he insisted." The guy said looking at Sam who was swaying on the spot.
"But, what you've already took two bills off him, I'm just saying." Dean said looking at the guy.
"Hey shut up man, I'm fine." Sam said to Dean still swaying. He is one good actor... must be to fool Dean. I thought watching it unfold.
"No your not fine, your drunk!" Dean pipped up as the dude set the balls up. Sam looked at the guy and squinted.
"Lets make it 500." Sam slurred. Dean's face was a picture. The pair was as good as each other for lying. Must be a Winchester trait. I laughed to myself.
"500?" Dean asked shocked. Sam held the money.
"Sure." The dude said as Sam placed the money down on the side. The dude lifted the tray. "You're break." He said smiling. I smiled to myself I knew what was coming. Sam potted a lot of balls and the dude realised he was being hustled. I giggled until I smelt Ruby near by. I looked around and saw her at the bar. I started to walk over when I herd Dean shouting at Sam. Great! Sam's seen her too, why oh why can't he just be a little more stupid so I can kill her without either of them finding out? I thought letting out a sigh. Some guys got in my way so I had to push past them to reach her. I reached her the same time as Sam and Dean.
"Hi." Sam said softly.
"Well you got a lot of nerve showing up anywhere near me." Dean said almost getting in her face. I smiled a little.
"I just have some information and then I'm gone." Ruby said plainly.
"What is it?" Sam asked lapping it up. I glared at Ruby praying I could at least punch the bitch. Dean was going to say something but glanced at Sam instead.
"I'm hear a few whispers." She said looking at Sam.
"Great, demon whispers, that reliable." Dean said sarcastically.
"Maybe they're like Chinese whispers." I said to Dean plainly. Ruby glared and I smiled back at her. Dean grabbed a beer.
"Girl named Ann Milton escaped from a lock ward yesterday, the demons seem pretty keen on finding her. Apparently some real heavy hitters appeared for the Easter egg hunt." She said looking at Sam.
"Why, who is she?" Sam asked.
"No idea." Ruby said shaking her head. "But I'm thinking she important, because the orders are to capture her alive." Sam looked surprised, I kept a neutral face. "I just figure, what ever the deal is, you might want to find this girl before the demons do." Sam sighed and nodded. If Ruby was right, this would make this Anna girl a real big fish in shark infested waters.
"Maybe we should check it out." He said looking at me then Dean. The pair exchanged looks and then Dean smiled.
"Actually we're working a case, but thanks." He said before taking another sip of his beer.
"What case?" Ruby asked raising an eyebrow.
"We got leads, big leads." Dean rambled.
"Sounds dangerous." Ruby said sarcastically.
"Yeah well it sure ain't goose chasing after some chick for all we know doesn't exist." Dean replied smiling. "Just because you say she's important."
"I'm just delivering the news, you can do whatever you want with it. Far as I'm concerned I told you, my job is done." Ruby said getting up to leave. Sam stopped her.
"Wait, wait wait. This hospital she escaped from got a name?" Sam asked. Ruby gave us the address and left. Dean grabbed my arm as I was about to follow her out. Sam went to get his jacket from the pool table.
"Can I help you?" I asked looking at my arm.
"I know what your thinking." Dean said sighing. "But you can't." I laughed.
"I can. Sam wont be happy, but technically I can." I said with a small smile. Dean laughed and let go of my arm.
"You.. your definitely persistent." Dean laughed.
"I try." I sighed as I saw Sam walk over to us. "So we really going to do this?"
"Looks like it." Dean sighed pulling out his car keys.
Sam was on the phone as soon as we climbed in the car. He was really gun hoe about it all, which to me made me a little uncomfortable. I was finding it hard to believe he trusted Ruby this much. Dean was driving faster than normal which meant he was angry and I just sat in the back trying not to think about Dean.
"Well Anna Milton is definitely real," Sam said getting off the phone.
"Don't mean the case is real, and the hospital is a three day drive." Dean said firmly.
"We've driven further for less Dean." Sam added. Dean shook his head. I knew he was about to kick off about Ruby. I really wished I could see her as the helpful whatever Sam saw her as but honestly to me she was a scheming no good... person. She had an ulterior motive... I knew it. Sam saw Dean's face. "You got something to say, say it." Sam snapped out.
"Oh I'm saying it. This sucks." Dean said driving.
"Your not pissed we are going after the girl, your pissed Ruby threw us the tip." Sam said shaking his head.
"Right." Dean said plainly. "Because as far as your concerned the hell bitch is practically family. Something major must of happened while I was downstairs, because I come back and your all BFF with a demon?" Dean spat out.
"I told you Dean, she helped me go after Lilith." Sam said in a mono tone, his head resting against the window.
"Well thanks for the thumb note, real vivid." Dean said sarcastically. I sat up as I felt like they were about to argue. Sam lifted his head off the window and looked pissed. "You want to fill in a little detail?"
"Sure Dean, let trade stories." Sam said sounding calm. "You first, how was hell? Don't spear the details." The pair traded looks and right there I knew it was going to be a very long night. The car fell silent and I moved back into my seat letting out a sigh.
"You know, I really don't understand you two." I said to Dean who grunted. "I mean, all you do is bicker over everything. Your like a couple of old washer women. Rant, rant, rant." I sighed again as Dean glared at me through the rear mirror. "Oh yeah, real scary." I said sarcastically and looked out of the window as the rain fell down it. All you do is argue, sound familiar to you? I bet Gethin is probably ripping some deserving demon a new one right now. I hope he's safe so when I can get my hands on him I can slap him round the back of the head for making Karl ask me about my...yeah well even if Sam is hitting my weird scale doesn't mean he is evil. Now I'd like to say look at Ruby for comparison, but I don't trust the bitch as far as I could throw her. Ha! I wonder how far I could throw her? I started to day dream about throwing Ruby around.
We got to the hospital in record time thanks to Dean's pissed off driving. We went looking for the person working with Anna before she left. A woman, her psychologist, I think was explaining it to us. She was a little taller than me with blond curly hair, a blue suit on and blue eyes.
"Of course I want to help any way I can." She said softly.
"The ordally has no recollection of Anna's escape?" Sam asked as we stood there in suits.
"Apparently not. Apparently she knocked him unconscious, the blow caused some amnesia." The woman explained. "He doesn't even remember coming into her room." Dean turned to Sam, me and then the woman.
"That's a hell of a right hook to knock out a guy that's got 80 pounds on her." He said plainly.
"We think she may have planned this," The woman walked over to the door. "Waited behind the door." She said walking out to the corridor, we fallowed like sheep.
"Right, um you mentioned Anna's illness was recent." Sam asked as we stood in the corridor.
"Two months ago, she was happy, well adjusted, journalism major. Lot's of friends, bright future." She explained.
"So what happened, she just flipped?" Dean asked with a small smile.
"Well, that's the tragedy of schizophrenia. Within weeks Anna was overtaken by delusions." She said softly.
"Delusions of what?" I asked speaking for the first time we had been there. She passed me a book.
"She thought demons were everywhere." I took the book and looked at it as Dean raised his head.
"Huh, interesting." He said and went to his note book. I passed the book to Sam to look at.
"It's not uncommon for our patients to believe monsters are real" She explained.
"Yeah, well that's just batty." Dean said then quickly looked at the book. The book had ever seal that had broken so far drawn in it. "That's revelations." Dean said.
"Since when has Revelations had jack-o-lanterns?" She asked.
"Well... its a little know translation." Dean answered.
"huh. Well Anna's father was a church deacon, when she became ill, her delusions took on religious overtones. She was convinced that the devil was about to rise up and end the world." She explained taking a deep breath. "I hope you find her, its dangerous for her to out there alone right now." She walked off down the corridor and I could of sworn I saw something at the end of the corridor. Four months.... The words echoed in my head.I stood looking for a glimpse of it again when Dean tapped my shoulder. I jumped a little and turned to Dean.
"You ok?" He asked looking at little worried , they both looked worried.
"Yeah, why?" I asked plainly.
"We were just talking to you." Sam said softly.
"Oh.. sorry. I was miles away." I lied and smiled. Sam nodded but Dean kept looking at me.
We drove to the address of Anna's parents to see if she had gone there. It seemed like the logical idea. Dean knocked on the door as we looked around.
"Maybe there not home?" Dean said peering in the window at the door.
"Both cars in the drive way." Sam said and Dean tried the door, it was unlocked. He walked in.
"Mr and Mrs Milton?" Dean shouted and I smelt the blood already.
"We're from the sheriffs department." Sam added.
"You don't need to shout. There is a lot of blood in this house." I said softly as we walked into the living room. We found Anna's parents on the floor with their throats slit. There was some sulphur beside one of the bodies and Sam went down and took a sniff.
"Demons beat us here, what do you thinks the deal with this Anna girl?" Sam asked.
"They want her, and they aren't screwing around. Alright I'm girl interrupted and I know the score on the apocalypse, I've just busted out of the crazy box, possibly using superpowers by the way," Dean said as he looked through some mail. Sam was walking over to a picture. "Where would I go?"
"Hey, you got those sketches from Anna's note book?" Sam asked and I passed him them. He searched through them. "Check this out." He flicked to the picture of the stain glass window, the same that was in the picture he was holding.
"She was drawing the window of her church?" Dean said.
"Over and over. If you were religious, scared and had demons on your ass, where would you go to feel safe?" Sam asked.
We found the address for the church and rushed over. It was a big white church, I'd only ever seen churches like it in movies. It was beautiful. We made our way up to the bell free, we all had our guns on us and was expecting trouble. We looked around.
"Dean." Sam said softly pointing to some glass plate, with what appeared to be someone behind it. I could hear sobbing. I lowered my gun.
"Anna? We're not going to hurt you. We're here to help." Sam said putting his gun away, Dean following suit. "My name is Sam, this is my brother Dean and our friend Megan." Sam said plainly.
"Sam?" The woman asked. "Not Sam Winchester?" She asked and we all looked at each other.
"Yeah..." Sam said and Anna stepped out from the window. She was taller than me with red hair and in all honestly she looked normal.
"And your Dean." She said looking at Dean. "The Dean." She said. I smiled a little.
"Well yeah, The Dean, I guess." Dean said sounding pleased with the name. I shook my head and smiled.
"Your Megan, the protector." She said to me. I just nodded. I got a lame ass name. I whined in my head.
"It's really you," She said looking at Dean. "Oh my God, the angels talk about you. You were in hell but Castiel pulled you out and some of them think you can help save us." She turned to Sam. "And some of them don't like you at all. They talk about you all the time lately. I feel like I know you."
"So you talk to angels?" Dean asked.
"Oh no..um no way. They probably don't even know I exist. I just kind of... over hear them." She said nervously.
"You over hear them?" Sam asked.
"Yeah they talk and um sometimes I just hear them um in my head." She said nearly in tears.
"Like, right now?" Dean asked.
"No right now this second. But a lot. And I can't shut them out, there's so many of them." Anna said still sounding nervous.
"So they locked you up with a case of the crazies, when really, your just tuning in to angel radio?" Dean asked making it all sound so simple.
"Yes. Thank you." Anna replied.
"Anna when did the voices start? Do you remember?" Sam asked.
"I can tell you exactly, September 18th." She replied instantly. Sam turned to Dean.
"Day I got out of hell." Dean said simply. I raised my eye brows and let out a small huff sound.
"First words I herd, clear as a bell. Dean Winchester is saved." Anna said looking at Dean.
"What do you think?" Dean asked us.
"Sounds real to me." I answered.
"It's above my pay grade man." Sam answered.
"Well least now we know why the demons want you so bad. They get a hold of you, and they can hear anything the other side is cooking. Your 1-900-Angel." Dean joked. I slapped his chest.
"Don't scare her." I said shaking my head. Dean pouted. Anna smiled.
"Hey, do you know are my parents ok? I... I didn't go home. I was afraid." She asked. We all looked at each other. Before we could speak Ruby burst through the door. The air had the smell of something else. Something evil... but familiar.
"You got the girl? Good. Let's go." Ruby said. Anna started to freak out.
"Oh! Her face!" She screamed.
"Whoa, it's ok she's here to help." Sam said.
"Don't be so sure." Dean added.
"We have to hurry." Ruby said and the smell hit me again.
"Why?" Dean asked.
"Because a demon is coming big time. And we can fight later Dean." Ruby said.
"Well that's pretty convenient, showing up right after we find the girl. We some big wig on your tail." Dean spouted.
"I didn't bring the demon here, you did."She said.
"What?!" Dean asked.
"He fallowed you from the girls house." Ruby explained. I was finding it hard to place the smell. "We gotta go now!"
"Dean." Sam said pointing to a statue that was bleeding.
"It's too late, he's here." Ruby said. We all walked over to the bleeding statue looking at it, like it would speak or something. Sam grabbed Ruby and hid her away as Dean just stared at statue.
"Ruby what's his name?" I asked cracking my neck. The power rush was a nice kick, and unlike Ruby Anna couldn't see my freaky side. She ignored me as Sam walked past us and pulled out a flask.
"No Sam you have to pull him right away." She said.
"Whoa hold on a sec." Dean said.
"Now's not the time to belly ache about Sam going Dark side, he does his thing, he exorcises that demon or we die." Ruby said actually sounding scared. We all looked at Sam and then the door as we herd footstep coming closer. The door flung open and a mid aged man was there. He walked up the steps wiping his finger along the rail and then looking at the dust on them. Sam raised his hand and the demon simply coughed.
"That tickles." He said smiling. "You don't have the juice to take me on Sam." He said and flung Sam the other side of the room and down the stairs. Dean pulled Ruby's knife and charged at him. "Hello again Dean." He said and threw Dean into a post holding him there. Ruby ran and grabbed the girl I turned back around to see Dean drop the knife. The guy was beating down on Dean. "Don't you recognise me? Oh I forgot, I'm wearing a pediotrition." He said and beat down on Dean some more. I charged at him but he just waved his hand and sent me crashing into some boxes. I stood up and shook it off. "We were so close... in hell." He said and I stopped in my tracks.
"Alistair!" Dean said and I froze. It's the demon... the one that killed everyone... I blinked a few times. I didn't see Sam rush past me and stab him with Ruby's knife. Alistair grabbed Sam by the neck and pushed him away pulling the knife out. I ran at Alistair and started to punch him while he was hurt. I got in a good few punches before he back handed me and I took a few steps back.
"Oh yes.. I forgot about you." Alistair said smiling at me. I saw out of the corner of my eye Sam reach Dean.
"Don't worry honey, when I'm threw with you, you'll be forgetting a lot of things." I growled screwing my hands up.
"Oh now now. I thought we were friends, your not holding that little thing with your family against me are you?" He asked laughing. I growled even lower and charged at him knocking him to the ground and beating him up.
"Megan!" Dean shouted as I punched I looked over to Dean and found myself being punched backwards. "Sam get out of here, keep the engine running, if we aren't there in five minutes, drive. Save Anna." Dean barked.
"But Dean!" Sam protested. Dean shook his head and picked up the knife.
"Go! Go Sammy!" Dean shouted and Sam jumped out of the window.
"Well isn't that sweet." Alistair said getting to his feet. "Little Dean Winchester is going to try and protect a monster."
"Screw you Alistair." Dean shouted swinging at him with his knife. I reached them as Alistair took the knife out of Dean's hands and threw it in the opposite direction. He grabbed both of us by the throats and started to squeeze.
"How easier my life will be without you too in it." He mocked as I teared at his fingers.
Suddenly a shot rang out and both Dean and I were on the floor grasping for breath. I looked up and saw Karl there holding a hand gun.
"NO!" I screamed as Alistair waved his hand and broke Karl's neck. I ran over to him catching him as he fell. His eyes were a cold blue, an empty hollow blue. He was already starting to feel cold. I shook my head fighting not to cry. Karl was my best friend, the first guy I kissed, the first guy I slept with, the first guy I hunted with and now he was dead in my arms. This was far from right. I dropped to the floor with his body as Gethin raced in the room. I looked from Gethin to Dean who was being held at knife point by Alistair. I placed Karl gently on the floor and got to my feet. I was going to make it right, once and for all.
"Move and I kill him." Alistair said slicing Dean's neck a little.
"Go ahead! I hate the prick!" Gethin shouted back with his shotgun aimed at both of them. Alistair let out a laugh. He was laughing seconds after killing my best friend. The son of a bitch was laughing, right after killing Karl in cold blood. A rage built in me, one I had never felt before. I started to walk over to Alistair and Dean slowly.
"Meg, what are you doing?!" Gethin called out to me but I just kept walking towards Alistair with a blank expression on my face.
"Yes, what are you doing?" Alistair asked holding the knife closer. "I will cut his throat."
"No you wont." I said in a cold voice. Alistair stared at me long and hard and then sighed.
"Your right, but I will stab your brother." He said smiling. "Or break Dean's neck." He said holding Dean once again in a choke hold.
"Megan, move, I have a clear shot from here." Gethin shouted. His clear shot meant shooting Alistair and Dean. I stood still.
"Gethin, get out of here. Take Karl." I said still in a cold tone with my back to Gethin.
"No I'm going to kill this bastard for everything he's done to our family!" Gethin shouted and cocked the gun. I looked deep into Alistair eyes, he was worried, not scared but definitely not as confident as he was acting.
"If you don't move I'll shoot you too!" Gethin called out to me. I walked closer to Alistair, so I was an arm reach away from him.
"Let Dean go and we'll finish this, just you and me." I spoked. Dean tried to shake his head but Alistair held it tighter, then laughed.
"Oh I see..." He laughed. "Your protecting Dean. How cute!"
"Megan move!" Gethin barked.
"Let Dean go. Now." I said now in a growl and felt bones starting to shift in my arms. Dean's eyes went to my arms and they widen.
"I'm going to shoot!" Gethin said and I herd him pull the trigger, quicker than even I could move Alistair had thrown Ruby's knife and hit my brother in the shoulder sending him down the stairs with great force. The bullet hit me in the leg but I didn't really feel it. I turned back to Alistair just in time for him to use his power and punch me into the wall. I blacked out for a second. When I woke up Dean was helping Gethin up the stairs. It looked like Gethin had broken his arm and had some nasty cuts. I got up and walked up to Karl's body, dropping to my knee's. I placed my hand over my mouth and wept silently. Tear's rolled down my cheeks as I reach out and touched his face. His hair was flopped over so I gently brushed it back. His skin was beginning to get cold. I shook my head and looked up to see Gethin glaring at me.
"This is all your fault!" He screamed at me. I stood up and he slapped my face, again I didn't feel it. "You killed him! Just like you killed our family!"
"I know." I said barely above a whisper and looked down to Karl's body again.
"Don't touch him again!" Gethin screamed and my big brother was crying, he was crying. He never cried. "You don't touch him again, you monster!" One word. One simple little word and that was it. I no longer had any family left, that one word told me more than a million things Gethin was thinking about me right then. I am a monster, and this was all my fault. I thought as Dean walked up to Gethin.
"Hey man, take it easy on her." Dean said and Gethin shook his head.
"She deserves worse!" He spat out. "The next time I see you, I'm going to kill you. Now get the hell out of here!" Gethin growled at me, his eyes burning with so much hate, it was unbearable even looking at his face. I bowed my head and limped out of the church. Dean tried to speak to me but I wasn't listening, I climbed into the back of the Impala and sat in silence.
We got to a motel room and I was 99.99% certain that the cops would be giving us a visit. Sam was stitching his arm up and Dean was rinsing his mouth out. I was sat on a chair digging the bullet out of my leg. The feeling had come back to me, but every time I dug in to grab fragments of the bullet I closed my eye's and saw Karl on the floor. We hadn't told I Sam what had happened up there, I hadn't said anything because I hadn't spoken, and I think Dean thought it was my business not Sam's.
"Are you almost done?" Dean asked as Sam finished sewing his arm up.
"I'm going as fast as I can." He said pulling the needle through.
"Good cos you know I got a dislocated shoulder over here." Dean said walking back up to us. He glanced at me, and opened his mouth to speak when I dug back into my leg, pulling the second piece of bullet out.
"I'll pop it back when I'm finished." Sam said as Dean took a swig of the booze we picked up on the way. "Gimmie that." Sam said to Dean as he passed the bottle. He pored some over the cut.
"So you lost the magic knife huh?" Dean asked sounding pissed. Truth was we had lost it when he stabbed Gethin with it.
"Yeah saving your ass. Who the hell was that demon?" Sam asked. I looked at Dean and we traded looks.
"No one good." Dean said simply. I pulled another piece of bullet out of my leg.
"What happened with you two up there?" Sam asked. I looked up again and stared at Dean. Sam noticed and looked between me and Dean like it was a tennis match.
"We um... we just took a pasting." Dean lied.
"Well how'd you get a bullet in your leg?" Sam asked. In that moment I cursed the fact Sam was intelligent. I placed a gaze pad over it and looked at Sam.
"Dean shot me. The demon had his hand and he had the gun out and it went off." I said softly looking to the floor. Sam turned to Dean and he raised his hand in defence.
"We need to find Anna." Dean said quickly changing the topic.
"Ruby has her." Sam said plainly. I looked at Dean and he looked at me. "I'm sure she's ok. Right." Sam said getting up and walking over to Dean to pop his shoulder back. "On 3. 1.." Sam popped his shoulder back. Dean whined and walked over to the sink. Sam placed a pad over his cut.
"You sure we can trust Ruby, cos I think it's just as likely, she used us to find radio girl and then brought that demon in to kill us." Dean said turning to Sam.
"No, she took Anna to keep her safe." Sam said in a matter of fact voice.
"Yeah," Dean huffed turning around and placing a ice pack on his shoulder. "The why hasn't she called to tell us where she is?"
"Because that demon is probably watching us right now." Sam snapped. I removed the gaze and the skin had started to knit back together. I covered it in a smaller bandage and got up, leaning on the table for support. "Waiting to follows right back to Anna again, that's why he let us go."
"You call this letting us go?" Dean asked
"Yeah I do. Killing us would have been no problem to that think." Sam said and I froze again. Reliving him snapping Karl's neck over and over in my head, trying to think of something I should of done, anything. Dean turned back round and caught my eye. I blinked and sighed softly.
"Why do you trust her so much?" Dean asked Sam, I presumed that they were talking about Ruby. Sam sighed and rolled his eyes.
"I told you." Sam sighed. Dean threw his ice pack on the side.
"You've gotta do better than that." He said walking over to Sam. "Ok, I'm not trying to pick a fight here, I really want to understand. But I need to know more, I deserve to know more." Dean said looking at Sam.
"Because she saved my life." Sam said. I hobbled over to the door and Dean looked at me.
"Where do you think you're hobbling to now?" Dean asked with a worried look in his eyes.
"I need some air." I sighed and Sam looked up at me worried and confused. "Plus it might make the demon go down the wrong track. Either way, I need to get out right now." I said feeling too cooped up. Sam nodded but Dean walked closer to me.
"Call if you see anything..." He said loud. "Be safe." He whispered and I nodded and walked out of there.
I limped out of the motel and down the road till I reached a small park. I hobbled over to a bench and sat down. I took a deep breath and tears began to roll down my cheeks, I wasn't crying, just my eyes were watering. I sat there as tear after tear rolled down my cheeks. The cold air brushed by and burnt my face. I wiped them away with my sleeve and sat there looking out into the park. Why? Why me God? I mean I know people ask this question all the time but seriously I need an answer here. Why did you choose to ruin my life? Why did you let my family die, Karl die? Why did you make me into... into this monster. Gethin is right about that. I am a monster. I'm driven by a blood lust to kill that mother fu- sorry I didn't mean to swear God. Look what I'm asking is, why me? Ok, just explain that one to me. Explain why I had to the castalist which got so many killed. I mean is that your plan? Am I going to get Dean killed too or Sam? I mean why not? Right. I got everyone else I love killed so why not Dean. I'm guessing that's why your letting me figure out what I'm feeling with only four months left on the clock right? Do you get some sick twisted kick out of people pain eh?
I'm ending it here as it's late and I need to do and essay for uni tomorrow. enjoy =)
