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Heaven And Hell

Well anyone want to give me an answer here? No one. Fine, screw you! I shook my head and got to my feet. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. If this is your great plan, you can shove it where the sun doesn't shine. I quit. I opened my eyes and saw Castiel sat on the bench. I looked at him waiting him to speak.

"God's plan should not be questioned." Cass said looking up at me.

"Maybe not by an angel, but honey, I ain't even human." I said bitterly.

"You are made in his image, just like every human in creation." Cass said standing up. I wanted to punch him in the face so much in that moment.

"Castiel, I quit this shit." I said plainly looking into his eyes.

"You can not quit your destiny." Cass said in his mono tone brilliance.

"How can it be my destiny to loose everyone I love?" I asked sounding quiet neutral. "How can it be destiny to fall in love when the words 'four months' echo in my head like a death sentence?" I asked as tears started to form in my eyes. "Castiel, how can this be a destiny, for anyone other than a monster? Is... is that what God thinks I am? A monster? A being created for nothing but death and misery? This isn't a destiny, its a wicked, cruel, son of a bitch death sentence." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. Castiel wiped it away and looked into my eyes.

"God does not see you as a Monster. You are a being of his creation, a perfect chaos wrapped in the image of himself." Castiel said stood close to me. I shook my head.

"You can see me, really see me Cass. Look into my soul, tell me what you see." I said looking into his eyes. Castiel looked uneasy. He took a step away from me. I nodded. "Thought so. You don't wanna look and see it. See the monster in me."

"Megan, Gods plan for you is just. Have faith." Castiel said. I sat on the bench.

"You just don't get it, do you Cass? God's plan isn't just, there is nothing just in this. Not being a monster, not loosing my family, not falling in love with Dean, not even knowing my expirary date. Nothing in this is just. So have faith, your asking? I don't have faith Castiel. I have four months, simple as. And once we are finished here... I'm leaving, find Dean a new protector, probably a dude if you can find one." I said sternly looking dead into Castiel's eyes.

"You can not leave." Cass said.

"Why not?! Who Said?!" I shouted back at him. "Your the reason I have four months left!"

"You can not leave." Castiel said a little more firmly.

"You give me one good solid reason not to leave or watch me walk." I said bitterly. Castiel looked at me and vanished. I shook my head. Knew it. I sat on the bench waiting for some kind of answer for hours. It was getting dark so I headed back towards the motel. I was certain no one was fallowing me. I walked into the room and Dean was sat at the table looking at Sam who was sat on the bed.
"You ok?" Sam asked almost like he knew.

"All healed." I lied and walked over to Dean and finished what was left in his glass. Sam gave Dean the look and I sighed.

"Sam, please." I said facing him. "I'm fine, I can fight, I can protect Dean from any big bad so I'm ok, got it?" I said snapping at little.

"If you say so." Sam said looking taken back by my attitude. I nodded and sat on the other seat at the table. There was a knock on the door.

"House keeping." The voice said.

"Not now." Dean shouted back.

"Sir, I've got clean towels." The woman replied. Dean looked confused got up and answered the door. A small round African-American woman pushed her way inside, handing him the towels and drawing the curtains on. She walked up to Sam and passed him some paper.

"I'm at this address." She said looking at him.

"I'm sorry what?" Sam asked looking confused.

"Go now. Go through the bathroom window, don't stop, don't take your car, don't pass go. There are demons in the hall way and in the parking lot."

"Ruby?" Sam said finally twigging to it.

"Ok, yes. So I'm possessing this made for a hot minute, sue me." She said.

"What about" Sam asked

"Coma girl? Slowly rotting on the floor back at the cabin with Anna, so I've got hurry back. See you when you get there." She said pointing a finger at Sam. "Go!" She said and left. Dean looked utterly confused and was stood there holding a bunch of towels.

We found the cabin and Ruby let us in, I walked in front of Dean and gave Anna a half smile which she returned.

"Anna are you ok?" Sam asked as we walked in.

"Yeah, I think so. Ruby's not like other demons, she saved my life." Anna said smiling at Ruby.

"Yeah, I hear she does that." Dean said smiling to himself. I lent against the wall and stayed out of the convocation. Dean turned to Ruby. "I guess I um..." He cleared his throat "You know."

"What?" Ruby asked folding her arms over her chest.

"Guess I owe you, for Sam." Dean said looking between Sam and Ruby. Ruby raised an eyebrow. "I just um.. you know..."

"Don't strain yourself." Ruby said after staring at Dean for a while.

"Ok then, is the moment over?" Dean asked. "Good cos that was awkward." Dean said turning to Sam who was smiling at his big brother.

"Hey Megan, do you think it would be safe to make a quick call, just to make sure my parents are ok? They must be completely freaked." I panicked and looked at everyone else pushing myself off the wall and walking over to them.

"Um..." Sam said.

"What?" Anna asked getting instantly worried. Sam went and sat down next to her.

"Anna..um...your parents..." Sam struggled for the words.

"What about them?" She asked.

"Anna, demons have killed them, I'm sorry." I said softly and then turned away and walked over to the wall again.

"No their not..." Anna said starting to cry.

"Anna I'm sorry." Sam said and she started to cry more. I balled my hands into fists so tight that they bled. Demons, ruining yet another life. All they do is kill the innocent.

"Why is this happening to me?" She cried. I took a deep breath in and held it. Suddenly she stopped crying, I turned as she sat up.

"Their coming." Anna said looking up. Soon the lights started to flash on and off.

"Back room!" Dean barked and Sam took Anna there. I walked into the middle of the room and waited for whoever it was to appear. Ruby locked the door and Dean got guns out. Ruby started to look through the bag.

"Where's the knife?" She asked I glanced at Dean.

"Um.. about that." Dean said.

"Your kidding?!" Ruby snapped.

"Hey don't look at me!" Dean said then glanced at me.

"Thanks a lot." Sam said drawing Ruby's attention.

"Great, just peachy! Impeccable timing guys really!" Ruby ranted. We all looked at the door as the wind picked up and it started to rattle. Dean and Sam raised their guns. A gust of wind blew in followed by Castiel and Uriel.

"Please tell me your here to help!" Dean said to Castiel. "We've been having demon issues all day."

"Well I can see that. Why don't you explain why you have that stain in the room." Uriel said glaring at Ruby.

"We're here for Anna." Castiel said looking at Dean.

"Here for her like her for her?" Dean asked.

"Stop talking." Uriel snapped. "Give her to us."

"Are you going to help her?" Sam asked Uriel.

"No, she has to die." Castiel said plainly and I looked confused.

"You want Anna?" Sam asked shocked. We were all feeling pretty shocked. "Why?"

"Out of the way." Uriel said walking closer to us. I glared at him.

"Whoa whoa wait I know she's wire taping your angel chats or whatever, but there's not reason to gank her." Dean said getting defensive.

"Don't worry," Uriel said leaning closer to Dean. "I'll kill her gentle."

"You some heartless son's of bitches you know that." Dean said glaring at Uriel.

"As a matter of fact we are, and?" Castiel said, sounding a hell of a lot less compassionate than he had been in the past.

"And? Anna's an innocent girl." Sam piped up.

"She is far from innocent." Castiel said shaking his head. Dean and Sam traded looks.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Sam asked looking back at the angels.

"It means worse than this abomination you've been screwing," Uriel said glancing at Ruby. "Now give us the girl." Uriel stated glaring at Dean. In response Dean glared back, then turned to us. In his eyes he was planning something, some way of getting away from the angels. Dean turned back to Uriel.

"Sorry get yourself another one, try j- date." He said with a small smile.

"Who's going to stop us? You two?" Uriel said glaring at the brothers. "Your half breed? Or this demon whore?" Uriel said grabbing Ruby and spinning her into a window with great power. He grabbed her throat and started to exorcise the demon out of her. Dean charged at Uriel with a butt of a gun. He tried to punch Uriel but instead he caught Dean's hand forcing him onto the ground and punching him in the face. Sam and I were trying to stop Castiel.

"Castiel stop." Sam said backing up. "Please." Castiel simple tapped Sam's head making him drop to the floor. I got in Castiel's way.

"Don't try your angel shit on me." I said blocking his path.

"Move out of the way." Castiel said in a mono tone.

"Hey, you still owe me an answer." I said standing my ground. Castiel reached for my arm and flung me behind him, with a little less force than Uriel had used. I bumped into the far wall and span around. To see the whole building flash and then the angels leaving.

"What the?" Dean asked getting to his feet and helping Ruby up. I walked over to Sam as Dean opened the door.

"Anna? Anna!" Dean asked and I rushed to his side. Anna was stood in front of a mirror with a strange blood spell written on it. Dean was wrapping Anna's wrists as I stared at the mirror. Her blood smelt wrong. I didn't know how to explain it, I just knew her blood wasn't human.

"Are they gone?" She asked sounding a little tired.

"Did you kill them?" Dean asked as he tired something round her wrist.

"No I sent them away." She said as Ruby and Sam walked into the room looking at the spell as well. "Far away."

"You wanna tell me how?" Dean asked and I looked at Anna. What is she? The blood doesn't smell demonic, but... it is not human. No way.

"That just popped in my head, I don't know how I did it. I just did." Anna said looking at the mirror.

We left Ruby with Anna because the blood was bugging me. Sam closed the door after I walked through it.

"What do you think?" Dean asked looking at both of us.

"I'm thinking Anna's getting more interesting by the second." Sam said walking past us.

"Yeah I agree. And what did they mean by she's not innocent." Dean said turning to face Sam.

"Seems like they want her bad, and not just because of the angel radio thing. I mean that blood spell was some serious crap man." Sam said shaking his head a little.

"Her blood smells... weird." I said softly and Dean turned to me.

"Weird how?" Sam asked.

"I don't know. Not evil... not demonic at any rate. Just weird. I can't explain it." I said softly.

"Something is going on with her. See what you can find out." Dean said

"What are you going to do?" Sam asked.

"Anna may have sent the angels to the outfield, but they'll be back sooner or later. We gotta get ourselves somewhere safe now." Dean said turning to go back to Anna.

We drove to Bobby's the only person who we could think of to help out. Dean had put Anna in the iron bunker and I was walking down the steps as he explained to her how safe it would be.

"Here." Ruby said as I reached them. She threw Dean two black pouches and passed me one.

"Hex bags?" Dean asked.

"Extra crunchy, hides us from angels, demons all comers." Ruby explained.

"Thanks Ruby." Dean said and both me and Ruby was taken back by it. I nodded and walked into the bunker. Dean passed Anna the bag.

"Don't lose this." He said and then walked up to a desk. "So what's playing on angel radio? Anything useful?" He asked.

"It's quiet, dead silence." Anna replied looking at Dean.

"Good. That's not troubling at all." Dean said sarcastically and Anna looked at him worried.

"We're in trouble huh? You guys are scared?" Anna asked Dean. He glance and me and then Ruby. We both looked worried.

"Nah." He lied with a smile.

"Hey, Dean!" Sam shouted and I walked out followed by Dean. He told Ruby to watch over her.

We walked up to the kitchen and met Sam as he was walking into it.
"Where's my car?" Dean asked.

"I got her, she's fine." Sam said plainly. "Where's Bobby?"

"The Dominican, he said we break anything, we buy it." Dean said smiling I shook my head.

"Is he working a job?" Sam asked.

"Oh god I hope so, cos if he's at Heathenism with a banana hammock and a trucker cap." Dean said as we walked through the house.

"That seared my brain." Sam said closing one eye and I laughed.

"Alright what did you find on Anna?" Dean asked ignoring his brother. Sam took a deep breath.

"Um...not much. Her parents were Rich and Amy Milton, a church deacon and a house wife." Sam explained placing a folder on the table.

"Riveting." Dean said sarcastically.

"Yeah, but there is something in the reports. It turns out this latest psych episode wasn't her first." Sam said.

"No?" Dean questioned.

"When she was 2 and a half, she got hysterical any time her dad got close, she was convinced that he wasn't her real daddy." Sam said.

"Who was the plumber? Huh? A little snake in the pipes?" Dean said smiling.

"Dude your confusing reality with porno again." Sam said plainly making Dean loose his smile. I smiled. "Look Anna didn't say. She just kept repeating that her real father was mad at her. Very mad, like wanted to kill her man." Sam said.

"Kinda heavy for a two year old." Dean said plainly.

"Well she saw a kids shrink, got better and grew up normal." Sam said. I smelt Ruby enter the room and herd Anna walk in.

"Until now. So what's she hiding?" Dean asked looking at the folder.

"Why don't you just ask me yourself?!" Anna said from the corner of the room.

"Nice job watching her." Dean said to Ruby.

"I'm watching her." Ruby whined.

"No your right Anna," Sam said softly. "Is there anything you want to tell us?"

"About what?" Anna asked.

"The angels said you were guilty of something." Sam explained. "Why would they say that?"

"You tell me. Tell me why my life has been levelled. Why my parents are dead?" Anna shouted and I looked at her fighting back tears. "I swear, I would give anything to know." Girl you don't know how many times I've asked the same thing. Why? Dean glanced at me and I stared back.

"Good, anything, then lets find out." Sam said.

"How?" Anna asked.

Dean went to pick up a psychic friend of theirs as we took it in turns to check out for demons and angels. I was stood on the porch when Dean's car pulled up. He walked to the passenger's side and helped a woman out. She was tall, black curly hair and shades on. I walked down the steps to meet them.

"Hey." Dean said as he locked the car.

"Hey, so you must be the psychic help." I said plainly to the woman.

"That be me sugar. Now let me guess you must be Megan." She said holding out her hand to shake. I smiled and shook her hand. She took a few minutes then spoke.

"I'm Pamela, nice to meet a werewolf. Especially such a... special one as you." She said still holding my hand.

"I don't know about special. Stupid is more like it." I joked and she laughed.

"You and me should talk later." She said in a whisper only I could hear. "Come on then Dean show me where to go."

We walked in the house and down the stairs. Pamela was in the middle and I was at the back as Dean led her down the stairs.

"We're here." Dean shouted.

"Pamela, Hey." Sam said appearing.

"Sam." Pamela said smiling.

"It's good to see you." Sam said hugging her.

"Sam? Sam is that you?" Pamela asked placing a hand on his cheek.

"Yeah its me." Sam said smiling.

"You know how I can tell its you?" Pamela asked then slapped Sam's back side. "That perky little ass of yours." She said smiling. I laughed and walked down the last of the stairs. "You could bounce a nickel of that thing. Course I know its you grumpy, Sam way I know, that's a demon and that poor girls Anna." Pamela said motioning her head to Ruby and Anna who had also walked out of the bunker. "And that you've been eyeing my rack."

"Um huh um... I...." Sam mumbled and everyone else chuckled a little.

"Don't sweat it kiddo, I still got more senses than most." Pamela said laughing.

"Got it." Sam said as she walked over to Anna.

"Hey, Anna how are you? I'm Pamela." She said holding Anna's hands.

"Hi." Anna said softly.

"Dean's told me what's been going on. I'm excited to help." Pamela said smiling.

"Oh that's nice of you." Anna replied.

"Oh well not really. Any chance I can take over an angel, I'm taking it." Pamela said and I looked confused.

"Why?" Anna asked.

"They stole something from me." Pamela said removing her sunglasses. Anna looked shocked. "Demony I know. But there just plastic. Good for business. Makes me look extra psychic don't ya think?" Pamela joked and Anna laughed a little. "Now about you tell me, what your deal is?" Pamela said putting her arm around Anna and walking back into the bunker.

Pamela set up shop with Anna laid on a fold up bed and she was regressing her. I stood the other side of the room watching silently. Sam was sat by the door near Ruby and Dean was sat at the desk near Anna. I was starting to think he and Anna were forming a crush on each other. Honestly, I was a little jealous.

"Nice and relaxed. Now I'm going to count down to zero, when I reach zero you will be in a deep state of hypnosis." Pamela said in a calming voice. "As I count down, just go deeper and deeper ok? 5...4...3...2...1...Deep sleep, deep sleep." She said softly stroking Anna's face. "Every muscle calm and relaxed. Can you hear me?"

"I can hear you." Anna said softly.

"Now Anna, tell me how can you hear the angels, how did you work that spell?" Pamela asked.

"I don't know. I just did." Anna replied.

"Your father, what's his name?" Pamela asked.

"Richmond." Anna replied.

"Alright, but I want you to look further back. When you were very young, just a couple of years old." Pamela asked again.

"I don't want to." Anna said starting to get agitated

"It'll be ok." Pamela said placing her hand on Anna. "Anna just one look, that's all we need."

"No." Anna said shaking her head.

"What's your dad's name? Your real dad. Why is he angry at you?" Pamela asked again.

"No." Anna said shaking more. "No No NO! He's going to kill me!" Anna screamed as the lights began to flicker and the door to the bunker shut and locked itself.

"Anna your going to be ok. Listen to me." Pamela said.

"NO! He's going to kill me!" Anna screamed sitting up as the bulbs smashed above our heads.

"Anna calm down, it's going to be ok." Pamela kept saying.

"Anna!" Dean shouted racing over to her. He touched her and she sent him flying over and crashing into a chair. Sam rushed over to him as I reached Pamela's side just in case she needed any help.

"Waking on three. 1...2...3 Anna? Anna are you alright?" Pamela asked as Anna's eyes opened. Anna stared at Pamela as she sat up and Pamela returned to her seat.

"Thank you Pamela. That helps a lot. I remember now." Anna said looking at Pamela.

"Remember what?" Sam asked looking confused.

"Who I am." Anna replied. The boys traded looks.

"I'll bite, who are you?" Dean asked confused as well.

"I'm an angel." Anna explained and Pamela moved back in her seat.

"Don't be afraid I'm not like the others." Anna said to Ruby who backed away from her.

"I don't find that reassuring." Ruby said leaning on the wall.

"Neither do I." Pamela said leaning on the desk between the two Winchesters. Anna sighed and walked up to them. I was stood facing both sides.

"So Castiel and Uriel came for me?" Anna asked.

"You know them?" Sam asked.

"We were kinds in the same fox hole." Anna explained.

"So what, were they your bosses or something?" Dean asked.

"Try the other way round." Anna explained.

"Look at you." Dean said with a small smile.

"But now they want to kill you?" Pamela asked.

"Orders are orders." Anna said walking over to me. "I'm sure I have a death sentence on my head."

"Why?" I asked as she reached me.

"I disobeyed which for us, is about the worst thing you can do." Anna explained. "I fell."

"Meaning?" Dean asked.

"She fell to earth, became human." Pamela explained.

"Wait I don't understand, angels can just become human?" Sam asked looking at Anna for a better explanation.

"Kinda hurts, try cutting your kidney out with a butter knife. That kind of hurt. I ripped out my grace." Anna explained. Walking over to Dean.

"Come again?" Dean asked.

"My grace, its energy. Hacked it out and fell. My mother Amy couldn't get pregnant, always called me her little miracle. She had no idea how right she was." Anna said walking back over to me.

"So you just forgot that you were God's little power ranger?" Dean asked.

"The older I got, the longer I was human, yeah." Anna answered.

"I don't think you all appreciate how completely screwed we are." Ruby piped up.

"Ruby's right, heaven wants me dead." Anna said.

"And hell just wants her." Ruby added. "Flesh and blood angel, that you can torture that bleeds. Sister, your the Stanley Cup and sooner or later heaven or hell is going to find you." Ruby said plainly to Anna.

"I know. And that's why I'm going to get it back." Anna said walking over to Dean again.

"What?" Sam asked confused.

"You can do that?" Dean asked.

"If I can find it." Anna replied.
"So what, your going to take some divine bong hit and sherzam your Robber Downy?" Dean asked.

"Something like that." Anna said.

"Alright, I like this plan." Dean said smiling. "So where's this grace of yours?"

"Lost track, I was falling at 10,000 miles per hour at the time." Anna said plainly.

"Wait, you mean falling, like literally? " Sam asked.

"Yes." Anna replied.

"Like the way a human eye could see maybe, like a comet or meteor?" Sam asked.

"Why do you ask?" Anna asked.

Pamela decided she didn't want to stick around and asked me to driver her home. When I told her I had no idea where home was, she laughed and said she would give me directions.

"Bye boys, take care of each other." Pamela said hugging the guys as I pulled out side of Bobby's in my Camero. She had a new coat of paint and was looking b-e-a-utiful if I did say so myself. Dean helped her into the car and then stared at me.

"Take it easy Pamela." Dean said smiling at her, then glancing at me again.

"You too. Come on girl, let's go." Pamela said smiling and switching on my music. I pulled out of the drive and onto the road. We got about five minutes away from the house when she spoke.

"So honey tell me, what's up?" She asked as I drove.

"Apocalypse can put a downer on a girls day." I joked as I drove.

"I may be blind but I ain't stupid. Now I can sense a lot of things going on with you. Firstly.. family. You've lost everyone... except your brother. He thinks your the monster?" Pamela said sounding confused.

"My best friend was killed yesterday by a demon. The demon killed my family a few months back." I said plainly still looking at the road.

"But.. you agree with your brother about being a monster." Pamela said still looking confused.

"Do we have to talk about this?" I asked tapping the stirring wheel. Pamela laughed.

"Fine. I also sensed that you are in love with Dean." I coughed and slammed on the breaks. I turned to Pamela with my mouth wide open.

"Excuse me?" I asked looking like a gold fish.

"Can't fool me honey. I know you know, that's how I know in the first place. You were in hospital... then... I can't see what happened but when you woke up you knew. You knew that you were in love with Dean." Pamela said and turned back to the road. "Keep going." She said pointing forward. I started the engine and drove forward.

"I.. I... I don't know..." I sighed as we drove on.

"Come on girl. You see like the kick ass type to me. Just tell him you love him!" Pamela said as we drove.

"Do you have to keep saying that I love him?" I asked sighing.

"You do though. What's holding you back? What's four months?" Pamela asked looking at me confused again.

"Its..." I sighed and slowed the car a little. "It's when I die. Four months. So I can't tell Dean how I feel because I'll be dead soon enough."

"Honey, I'm so sorry. I see you and he hooked up already... but that's a different story." Pamela said softly. The rest of the drive we chatted about random things until we reached her house. I parked and then helped her up to her front door.

"Was nice meeting you." I said with a smile.

"You too honey. And tell Dean you... how you feel. You never know... he might be thinking the same thing." She said with a wink before pulling up her sunglasses again and walking into the house.

On the drive back I thought about what Pamela said. Tell Dean? Tell Dean everything? Well he already knows everyone is either dead or hates my guts so really all I'd have to tell him was I... I... I.. I can't even say it in my head any more, let alone to his face. Come on who you kidding girl? You got four months left, just four, you really want to screw them up by messing up the friendship you and Dean has? Didn't think so. Plus look at him, you saw how Anna was looking at him, how he was looking at her. Let them be. I sighed and drove back to Bobby's just in time to be told to follow Dean's car. I didn't ask question's, I simply followed the car. Listen to the music and trying to figure out where I was going to go after this case was over. We drove most of the night until we reached a massive, beautiful tree.

"It's beautiful." Dean commented.

"It's where the grace touched down. I can feel it." Anna explained as we all looked at the tree.

"You ready to do this?" Dean asked.

"Not really." She said as we walked over to the tree.

"Anna what are we even looking for?" Sam asked as Anna got closer to the tree and touched it.

"It doesn't matter, its not here." She said still touching the tree. "Not any more, someone took it." We all looked at each other uncomfortable in the fact that we were screwed.

We drove to a abandoned farm house and set up shot. Anna was sat thinking, I think and I was trying to think of a solution too.

"We still got the hex bags, I say we head back to the panic room." Dean said as he and Ruby walked in.

"What forever?" Ruby snapped.

"I'm just thinking out loud." Dean said.

"Oh you call that thinking?" Ruby snipped.

"Watch it." I said glaring at her.

"Hey, hey hey. Stop it." Sam said as he walked in.

"Anna's grace has gone, do you understand? She can't angel up, she can't protect us, we can't fight heaven and hell. One side maybe but not both not at once." Ruby ranted.

"My god, you can rant." I said shaking my head. Ruby was about to reply when Anna spoke.

"Um.. guys the angels are talking again." Anna said.

"What are they saying?" Sam asked.

"It's weird, its like a recording...a loop. It says Dean Winchester gives us Anna by midnight or..." Anna cut off.

"Or what?" Dean asked. Anna turned to Dean.

"Or we hurl him back to damnation." Anna finished saying. My gut kicked in and I was as shocked as everyone else. No...no.... no....NO! You son's of bitches are not doing this to me! No way! I thought shaking my head.

"Anna do you know of any weapon that can hurt an angel?" Sam asked Anna.

"To what? To Kill them?" Anna asked and Sam nodded. "Nothing we could reach in time."

"Wait wait wait... I say we call Bobby get him back from Heathenism, see what he can tell us." Dean said panicking.

"Dean what is Bobby going to tell us that we don't already know?" Sam asked sounding annoyed at Dean.

"I don't know, but we gotta think of something." Dean snapped at Sam.

We decided to split up and think of a plan. I walked around the outside of the building thinking. Think about Dean. I never thought they would throw him back in the pit... they wouldn't... would they? I need to tell him. Any way you play it, something bad IS going to happen. I need to tell him what I'm thinking... how I feel about him. How I love him. I thought and headed over to his Impala. As I turned the corner I saw Dean and Anna kissing and Dean opening the door of the Impala. Last night on Earth... he wants an angel... who wouldn't? I thought and turned my back on them. I shook my head as a few tears rolled down my cheeks. I couldn't believe how stupid I had been thinking Dean might actually like me, love me. Who could love a monster like you? Who? I walked off and tried to bury the feelings I had for Dean, only, there was a lot already buried. I found a quiet place and closed my eyes. I took a few deep breaths and started to meditate.

I was sat by a gentle water fall, listening to the soft crashing of the water and feeling the soul aching peace it brought. It was the first time I had meditated and it worked. I saw my wolf side lay down at the side of me and just enjoy the calmness of the setting. I was set watching the water when my wolf growled I turned to see Castiel stood at the side of me. I got to my feet.

"Did you do this?" I asked patting my wolf on her head. She nuzzled closer to my leg, her eyes still set on Cass.

"I helped." He said plainly. "I can sense how much pain you are feeling."

"Thanks." I muttered and looked to the water. "Why are you really here though?" I asked still looking at the water.

"I wanted to check that you were ok. I felt your feelings towards Dean, and the confusion it brought you." Cass said looking to the water too.

"Does everyone know but Dean?!" I shouted waving my arms. "It doesn't matter." I sighed. "He's... he has someone." I ran a hand through my hair. Cass didn't say anything. I sighed again and turned to him. He was already facing me, watching my every breath. "Cass? What-cha doin?" I asked backing away a little.

"I need to find Anna. Please, Megan, for Dean's sake, tell me where you are." Castiel asked pleading almost with me. I looked into his eyes and saw something. A person. An angel. I saw Castiel as he was, an angel. I saw his grace/soul whatever you want to call it. I started fascinated at what I saw.

"I... I can see..." I reached my hand out and stroked his cheek. Castiel smiled and then pulled away making a neutral face and holding my hand.

"Where are you?" He asked and I looked at our hands. It felt strange seeing his soul. I pulled my hand away and rested it by my side.

"I can't let Anna die... she can't die because she doesn't have faith. You'll just have to kill me first Castiel... I'm sorry." I said plainly. My wolf jump in between us and Castiel backed away.

In the morning everyone was freaked. I walked into the barn and the guys looked at me like they were expecting someone else.

"What's up?" I asked closing the door behind me.

"Ruby's not here." Sam said pacing around.

"Oh," I said vague and walked to the side of the barn. I watched as Anna looked worried too.

"She's your hell buddy." Dean snipped at Sam. Anna walked over to Dean.

"Isn't it a little early for isn't it?" She said to Dean who was drinking.

"It's 2am. Somewhere." Dean said with a small cock of the head.

"You ok?" She asked.

"Yeah of course." Dean replied quicker than you would expect. The pair looked at each other until the barn door swung open and Castiel and Uriel walked into the room.

"Hello Anna. It's good to see you." Castiel said looking at her, all three of us were surrounding her, keeping her safe.

"How? How'd you find us?" Sam asked glaring at them. My stomach turned. Had Cass been playing me? Did he use me to find out where we were? I thought. Castiel looked at Dean and we all turned to him a little shocked. "Dean?" Sam asked. Dean was nearly in tears as he looked at Anna.

"I'm sorry." He whispered to her.

"Why?!" Sam asked getting mad.

"Because they gave him a choice. They either kill me, or kill you." Anna said looking at Sam. "I know how their minds work." She stared at Castiel and then turned and kissed Dean, I turned away as I felt bad for feeling for Dean. "You did the best you could I forgive you." She said to Dean and then turned back to face the angels. "Ok no more tricks, no more running. I'm ready." Anna said looking at Cass.

"I am sorry." Castiel said.

"No," Anna replied shaking her head. "Your not, not really. You don't know the feeling."

"Still we have history. It's just-" Cass said

"Orders are orders. I know." Anna butted in. "Just make it quick." We all said a silent pray for Anna.

"Don't you touch one hair on poor girls head." Alistair said as too goon's where holding Ruby up. It looked like her stomach had been ripped apart. Anna dragged us all to one side as Uriel walked up to Alistair.

"How dare you come in this room, pussing sore." Uriel said glaring at Alistair.

"Name calling, that hurt my feelings. You sanctimonious fanatical prick." Alistair said to Uriel.

"Turn around and walk away now." Castiel threatened.

"Sure, just give us the girl. We'll make sure she'll get punished good and proper." Alistair said winking.

"You know who we are and what we will do." Cass said glaring at Alistair he walked to Uriel's side. "I wont say it again, leave now. Or we will lay you to waste."

"I think I'll take my chances." Alistair said with his lisp. There was a few seconds of uneasy calm until Uriel charged at a demon and started to send it back to hell. Castiel punched Alistair a few times and then tried to remove his demon.

"Sorry kiddo why don't you go run to daddy?" Alistair said throwing Cass half way across the barn. He started to chant in Latin as he grabbed hold of Castiel's neck. We all got up and Dean cracked Alistair with an iron bar knocking him off Cass. I ran over to Castiel to help him up.

"Dean Dean Dean...I'm so disappointed, you had such promise!" Alistair started to choke the pair of them.

"Hey, jerk off!" I shouted and upper cut Alistair. Not that it did much good, I was still in human form.

"Oh Megan, we could of done great things together..." He said and held out his other hand and started to choke me. I cracked my neck and stood looking at him as he applied more power to me then Sam and Dean, easing the chocking they had. I started to loose breath and dropped to my knee's one knee at a time. Anna managed to grab her grace and smash it on the floor. A brilliant bright white light went into her, much like a demon goes into a human. She fell to her knees and started to shake all over.

"Shut you're eyes... shut you're eyes...shut you're eyes!" She shouted and we all covered our eyes as a blinding light covered the whole room. There was a massive gust of wind and then Anna had gone, so had Alistair. Everyone got to our feet and walked to the centre of the room. Dean picked up Ruby's knife which was laying on the ground.

"Well what are you guys waiting for? Why don't you go get Anna, unless of course your scared." Dean said looking at Uriel who was pissed.

"This isn't over." Uriel said getting in Dean's face, Cass held him back by his shoulder.

"This looks over to my junk-less." Dean said glaring at Uriel. Castiel looked sad and then they were gone. Ruby hobbled over to us. She looked bad.

"You ok?" Sam asked as she walked up to him.

"Not so much." She replied.

"What took you so long to get here?" Dean asked.

"Sorry I was late with the demon delivery. I was only being tortured." Ruby replied sarcastically.

"Well I gotta hand it to you Sammy, bringing them together all at once, angels and demons, its a damn good plan." Dean said looking at us.

"Yeah well when you've got Godzilla and Motherer on your ass, best to get out of their way and let them fight." Sam said and Ruby raised an eyebrow to him.

"Now your just bragging." Dean said.

"Well I guess she's some big time angel now huh?" Sam said looking at nothing in particular. Dean nodded. "She must be happy, wherever she is."

"I doubt it." Dean said after staring at Ruby and me.

I left the guys at the barn talking and arranged to meet them back at Bobby's. I pulled into his house, grabbed the spare key and let myself in. I ran up to the room I left my spare things in and grabbed my bags. I grabbed a bag and opened it and found my family knife. I took it out of the bag and looked at it. It represented my whole blood line right back to Liam O'Connor and his stupid deal with the devil. I flip the blade in my hand a few times. My dad had got it rebalanced for me when he found out about me. A tear rolled down my cheek and I wiped it away. The blade caught in the sun light and I looked at it. What if... what if I cut out my own heart? I could do it, I could do it with Bobby's silver knife downstairs or this one... I'd end it all now. No more guilt to carry over everyone dying, no more guilt for falling for Dean, no more threats from Angels and definitely no more apocalypse. It would hurt like hell... hell... Dean... I held the knife in my hands looking at it for a few hours. I herd the front door go and jumped.

"Megan?!" Sam shouted as the pair trampled into the room.

"Just about to get a shower!" I lied and stood up placing the knife back in the bag. No... taking my life wont fix anything for anyone. I know what I have to do now... I know where I need to go. Alistair. I need to kill him. I need to kill him if it kills me in the process. Four months, four months to find that bastard and kill him. I walked over to my dresser and grabbed some clothes. I carried them over to my bags and folded some until one bag was full. It had most of my weapons and some clean clothes in. I grabbed it, shut my bedroom door and walked out the house to put in the trunk of the Camero. I walked back in the house and saw Sam sat in the library messing on his laptop. I walked to the door frame and lent against it. He looked up and smiled at me.

"Nice shower?" He asked.

"Yeah... cleared my head." I said smiling. I walked up to his side. "Hey Sam, can you do me a favour?" I asked sounding sweet.

"Sure, what's up?" Sam asked. I sighed and smiled again.

"Listen to Dean sometimes, please. Even if you think he's being a complete dick and wrong, at least pretend to listen, please?" I begged with a little smile. "I could do without his bitching so much." I joked. Sam laughed and nodded.

"Sure.. I'll try." Sam said with a smile. I smelt Dean, I had no idea how long he had been stood in the room.

"Thanks, I need to go do something. Be back in a little bit." I said and walked back to my room. I could smell Dean fallowing me, trying his best to be silent. I walked through the door and grabbed a few t-shirts and folded them up and stuffed them into the bag. Dean shut the door behind him and cleared his throat.

"Can I help you?" I asked still with my back to him, folding t-shirts.

"Yeah," Dean said walking into eye shot. "What are doing?" He asked sitting on my bed, moving some of my stuff out of the way.

"Packing." I said plainly folding my clothes up.

"I can see that. Sammy got a hunt for us already?" Dean asked.

"Nope." I said not looking at Dean as I packed my final bag. I grabbed my laptop an cables and stuffed them into my backpack.

"So... why are you packing?" Dean asked passing me my plug.

"I'm leaving." I said looking at his face. "Thanks." I put the plug in the back pack and zipped it up. I put my backpack on my back and grabbed my other bag in my hand. I walked out the door and down the stairs. I got all the way to my boot before Dean raced out.

"Your leaving?!" Dean asked slamming my truck shut so I couldn't put my bags in them.

"It's what I said." I said going to lift up the trunk again and Dean slammed his hand on it. I turned to him dropping my bags on the floor. "Move the hand, or I break it."

"Not until you tell me why your leaving?" Dean said staring me down. I looked into his green eyes and my heart skipped a beat. His face was so innocent yet so cheeky. His freckles, his bug green eyes, his smile. I looked away, resting on the trunk.

"I need to leave. I can't stay here any more. I've lost too much and I can't loose anyone else." I said plainly as tears formed in my eyes. I bit my lip and pushed back the tears and stood up from the trunk. Dean moved his hand and looked down at me with the big ass puppy dog eyes. I popped the trunk and put the bags in.

"You don't have to leave. Me and Sammy, we aren't going any where." Dean said moving closer to me. I looked up again and sighed.

"Sam is on a one way path to hell, and you..." I looked away taking a step back.

"What about me?" Dean asked closing the gap again. My body screamed for me to kiss him. It was so hard to fight.

"I can't save you... you were right when you said I could hardly save myself." I said and turned to walk to the car door.

"So that's it?!" Dean shouted and Sam came to the top of the porch.

"That's it Dean!" I shouted back at him. He marched up to me blocking the door off. "Move." I said looking at the floor.

"Look at me." Dean snapped.

"Move." I replied still looking at the floor.

"Look at me." Dean said placing his hand under my chin and holding up my face so I looked at him in the eyes. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I looked up into his face.

"Dean... please don't do this...." I begged as another tear rolled down my cheek. Dean lent his face closer to my and pressed his lips against mine. I kissed back as he pulled me closer to him. His scent wrapped around me and it was like all my sense were full with Dean. I pulled out and smiled. Dean smiled back at me.

"And it's not even a full moon." Dean joked. I laughed and nodded.

"True." I said and then lost my smile. I can not loose him like I lost Karl....images of Karl's dead body flashed up in my head, followed by ones of Dean laying dead on the floor. I looked up at Dean and shook my head. "Sorry." I said pushing him out of the way. I started the engine and roared down the drive. Tears rolling down my cheeks. The only thing I had to focus on was finding Alistair before I died. Four Months... here we go....