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Misery Loves Company
I rested in the motel two weeks until I was almost all healed. Those two weeks I sat and I drank and I got all the grief over Karl out of me. All that was left was anger and revenge, the bitter feeling for revenge was all I had left. I called Bobby and asked him to pick me up. He informed me the guys had gone hunting and I was glad. I didn't want to explain to Dean or Sam why I looked like a truck had hit me. I was just finishing packing the last of my bags when Bobby knocked on the door. I hobbled over on crutches and answered the door. My feet and legs were taking longer to heal then my arms. I opened the door and Bobby stood there and just sighed.
"What did you get yourself into this time?" He asked as I moved so he could help me with my bags and car.
"A fight with an angel." I replied softly.
"Well I hope you took a chunk out of him too." Bobby said grabbing one of the bags. "We're going to have to tow your car behind. Ok?" He said walking back to the door.
"Sure..." I sighed grabbing a bag and walking through the door, locking it. Bobby was walking towards his car when I noticed Richard walking up to me. I sighed and hobbled over in his direction.
"You're looking better." He said with a smile.
"What do you want Richard?" I asked leaning on the crutches.
"I just wanted to make clear the deal. You know, so you don't screw it up." He said still smiling at me.
"I think I've got it clear... but feel free to patronise me more..." I said sarcastically pushing on my sunglasses.
"Fine I will," Richard said tilting his head to one side. "When the time comes and Sam and Dean fight over blood, you let Sam out. That's all you have to do... nothing else." Richard said sternly.
"Ok but when do I get my hands on Alistair?" I asked huffing at the crutches.
"You know... I could fix your legs...." Richard said looking at the crutches.
"I'm fine thank you. Look I'll let Sam out, but you better deliver me Alistair or I'll hunt you down and kill you, then hunt Lucifer to the grave." I growled leaning my face closer to Richard.
"Chill I will get Alistair to you. Just be patient. And keep the deal..." Richard said and turned and walked off. I turned and saw Bobby walking towards me. I started to hobble over to him and smiled.
"Ready to go?" I asked. Bobby screwed up his face and glanced behind me to Richard who was getting into an Astin Martin.
"Who was that?" He asked staring at the car driving away.
"Just a guy I met in town, he helped me to the hospital." I lied. Richard had stolen I guess the crutches and left me to heal in my own time.
We reached Bobby's and there was a 4x4 parked in his drive. I climbed out of Bobby's car and grabbed my crutches walking to the back of the car to grab my bag. Bobby climbed out and walked over to the 4x4 as a guy climbed out. He was as tall as Sam, which is pretty tall, with shaggy mucky blonde hair and I couldn't make out much more. I popped the trunk and grabbed one of my bags. I hobbled past the guys as they talked and dropped my bag on the top step and then returned to the car for another one. The guy Bobby was talking to walked over to me and coughed. I turned to him and he smiled. He had blue eyes and looked like a typical hunter.
"Yeah?" I asked plainly.
"Do you need a hand?" He asked pointing to the bags.
"Sure. I'm Megan by the way." I said passing him a bag and then picking the last up myself.
"I'm Payton, nice to meet you." He said walking with me back to the house. As we reached the step's Payton helped me up the stairs and into the house. "Here, I'll take them to a spare room." Payton said grabbing my bag. I didn't have the energy to argue. I hobbled over to the sofa and sat down. Bobby was talking on the phone to someone... to Dean. I ease dropped.
"So hows the hunting going?" Bobby asked pacing in the kitchen.
"Good. We've got a few leads..." Dean said sighing. "Have you herd from her? She wont answer my calls." Dean asked softer. Bobby hesitated.
"I... no sorry boy... I haven't herd from her in a while." Bobby lied, and badly.
"Bobby please," Dean took a deep breath. "I just need to know she's ok." I took a deep breath and let it out. Dean's voice had so much sadness in it, he cared and was really worried about me. I took another deep breath and sighed again.
"She's... she's ok." Bobby eventually said.
"Good. I should go before Sammy starts wondering where I've gone. I'll call later, thanks Bobby." Dean said and then hung up. I dropped my head into my hands and felt my heart sink a little. I herd footsteps and looked to see Bobby stood there.
"You hear all that?" He asked leaning on the door frame. I just nodded. "You need to go back to him if you ask me."
"Bobby I didn't ask." I said plainly.
"Just saying. Anyway looks like I'm putting Payton up for a while too so play nice with him. Just what are you planning on doing here by the way? I'm not going to let yourself get caught up tracking that damn demon just like your brother did." Bobby said sternly looking at me. I looked back into his eyes. Deal with standing and I shouldn't have to worry about it. I thought looking back at Bobby. Payton walked in and then raised his hands.
"Whoa! Bad time." He said looking at both of us.
"It's not." I said with a small smile to Payton. "I was just explaining to Bobby that I just need to heal and I'll be out of his hair." I said turning to Bobby, and he nodded at me and walked out of the room.
"So what happened to you?" Payton asked walking over and sitting down next to me.
"A fight." I replied plainly.
"Oh... sounds … yeah..." Payton said clapping his hands and getting up. "Want a beer?" He asked. I shook my head and he walked off.
I went to bed that night and Castiel was stood in my room. I looked at him confused as I walked in because he put his finger over his mouth. I nodded and he walked up to me and tapped me on the head. I woke up in the middle of no where. I looked around and I was alone.
"Chump." I said hobbling to my feet.
"I am sorry, but I needed to make sure Zachariah wasn't watching you." Castiel said appearing from no where.
"Oh... um.. why?" I asked looking confused at Cass.
"I need to talk to you... without other people hearing." Castiel said looking around.
"Super..." I sighed leaning on the crutches. "So what's up?"
"I am not sure." Castiel said turning and looking at me. I looked back at him confused.
"You're very helpful this evening, you know that." I said sarcastically and sighed again.
"I believe that Sam Winchester is heading down a dark path, one which will split the brothers in two. I do not believe that this is a good thing." Castiel said looking around again. He was really nervous.
"Cass? What's with the hawk eyes?" I asked as I started to feel uneasy.
"I am not meant to talk to you, let alone tell you I am questioning my orders." Castiel said looking dead in my eyes. I nodded.
"So you're questioning stupid Zachariah's orders, he's a douche anyway." I said flippantly. Castiel's head turned and his eye's widened.
"It is not Zachariah's orders I question, but God's." He said sternly.
"Well... Mm... I got nothing." I sighed trying to back track.
"I do not believe the Winchesters splitting is the best idea. Apart they are not as strong as they are together." Castiel explained.
"Ok, well-" I stopped as a thought popped into my head. Remember, let Sam out, Sam wants to leave. "Richard..." I said softly shaking my head. The demon's want them to split, so it's easier to take them out... no one gets hurt my arse! I shook my head and Castiel looked at me confused.
"Who is Richard?" He asked. Shit.
"A... Mm..um.. he's... mm... um.." I couldn't tell Castiel about the deal, he would kill me himself.
"Megan?" Castiel asked plainly.
"No one. He's no one." I replied not looking at him. Castiel opened his mouth to speak when he turned behind him.
"You must leave now!" Cass tapped my head and I was back in my room. I cursed Richard and punched the wall.
"Now there is no need for that." Richard said, I span round and punched him to the floor.
"What the hell?!" I said in a whisper/shouting. Richard stood up and brushed off his suit.
"Now, what was that for?" He asked brushing his tie.
"You lied to me." I growled.
"I did not." Richard said plainly.
"You said no one would get hurt!" I growled. "Just what is going to happen when I let Sam out? When he leaves. Which brother you going after?!" I growled hobbling up to Richard. He backed up and smiled.
"Your very smart." He said smiling. "But we are going after Sam... We need his help." Richards said and then found another patch of dirt on his suit. "This house is filthy."
"Why do you need Sam?" I asked holding back a total beat down on Richard.
"He's special... you know what I mean, I bet you've smelt it." Richard said brushing away the dirt and then looking at me. I took a deep breath.
"The demon blood Ruby's feeding him." I said letting out the breath.
"Well she didn't start him on this path, but yeah pretty much." Richard said as I sat on the bed and shook my head. "The boys got mad skills, as an America might say, he is gearing up to take on the Alistair and well I want him dead either way."
"What, so your edging your bets or something?" I asked shaking my head again.
"Something like that. Look I want Alistair out of the picture, I hand him to you, he dies, Sam is set free he will kill Alistair like I said before win-win. It's just with Dean by his side, Sam wont use those lovely powers on the jerk." Richard explained.
"Wait... how do I know your telling the truth? The angels don't want Sam using his powers anyway." I said folding my arms over my chest.
"I guess you'll just have to try and trust me, wont you?" Richard said with his small smile. I sighed and he had disappeared.
The next day I was hobbling down the stairs when I herd Bobby and Payton talking.
"So what's her deal?" Payton asked taking a sip of coffee.
"She's a good kid, just had a lot thrown at her recently." Bobby replied vaguely.
"What do you mean?" Payton asked sounding confused.
"She lost her family a few months back... it was a real shame her daddy was good man. A damn good man..." Bobby said softly.
"She's English, how's you know her father?" Payton asked.
"He hunted with me a few times, along time ago now. He saved my life. So I owe him, and I'm going to do my best to keep her safe." Bobby replied. I smiled and walked into the kitchen.
"How you feeling this morning?" Bobby asked passing me a cup of coffee.
"Better thanks Bobby." I said sitting down. Bobby smiled and answered his phone. I turned to Payton. "So how'd you know Bobby?" I asked and took a sip of coffee.
"My dad was a hunter, he knew loads of hunters like Bobby." Payton said and then lost his smile for a second. "But when you gamble your life in this type of job, you know one day your lucky streak will run out." He said and his smile returned. I nodded knowing all too well about losing your luck. Bobby sighed and turned to us.
"I need a favour." Bobby said looking at Payton.
"Sure name it." He replied putting his cup of coffee down on the counter.
"I need to get a spell ASAP and I also need to get the ingredients for a friend of mine down state. Will you get the ingredients from town while I get the spell ready for them?" Bobby asked looking tired.
"Sure. You coming with me?" Payton asked turning to me.
"Why not." I said getting up.
Bobby sent us off packing with the list of stuff he needed and just where to get them from. Payton parked in town and we got out of the car, my legs were getting better and I was actually walking with just one crutch.
"You heal fast." Payton said locking his car.
"I'm wolverine." I joked and he looked at me confused. "From x-men..." I said and he nodded but still looked confused. "Comic, TV show and films."
"Nope." Payton said.
"Loser!" I joked pushing him softly as we walked down the road.
"Whatever, least I haven't had my ass handed to me in years." He joked back as we walked.
"Well if you were fighting what I was, you'd of had your arse handed to you." I said sighing.
"What was you fighting?" He asked as me reached the first shop. It had steps up to it.
"I'll tell you when you come back out." I said and lent against the wall. Payton nodded and walked into the shop. I sat there when Zachariah appeared at the side of me.
"I see you survived... amazing." He said plainly looking out onto the street.
"That's me." I replied sarcastically.
"How's the legs, they look painful." He said still looking out to the people on the street.
"Fine." I replied and watched a family walk past us, the small boy smiled at me and waved.
"Since your still alive, will you return to protect Dean?" Zachariah asked turning to me. I looked into his face and thought hard about it.
"Can you promise me that Dean and Sam will not get killed?" I asked in a cold voice.
"Oh Megan..." Zachariah said shaking his head. "Dean will only be protected as long as your at his side. That's the whole reason we hider you to protect him. Now if you return, I can almost certainly see him getting to the apocalypse unharmed." Zachariah said smiling at me.
"What about Sam?" I asked staring at Zachariah.
"Well..." Zachariah said turning back to watch the people. "He's more of an unpredictable element to all this. He could live, if he plays along with the game, but the boys smart, might figure it all out and then we'll have to take care of him." Zachariah said sounding threatening but still had a smile on his face.
"What do you mean take care of him?!" I asked getting mad.
"Like this." Zachariah said clicking his fingers and a woman just dropped dead in front of us. I went to help her, when Zachariah pushed me back onto the wall. "Will you return to Dean?"
"Let me help the woman." I said growling. He clicked his fingers again and another person fell to the fall, just like a the woman did.
"Will he help Dean?" Zachariah asked again watching the small crowds gather around the people. Some screamed for an ambulance.
"You fucker!" I growled and he turned to me and smiled. "You let these people live, now!" I growled. I could feel my wolf side itching to be let free but there was too many people around.
"Will you return to Dean?" Zachariah asked again and clicked his finger two more times. More and more people were falling to the ground and I couldn't help any of them.
"You mother fucker, stop it! Stop killing people!" I growled.
"Return to Dean." Zachariah said simply.
"Fine! I'll go back!" I shouted and he clicked his fingers again and everyone got up and carried on as if nothing had happened.
"You heartless-" I started to speak but Zachariah cut me off.
"You go back on this and I will kill Bobby first and then every other human being you have even met until you return to his side." Zachariah said smiling and then just disappeared. Payton walked down the steps and looked at me confused.
"What's wrong?" He asked holding a brown bag full of things.
"Nothing. Come on we should finish getting Bobby's things." I said getting up.
We finished the shopping and was driving back to Bobby's house when my phone rang, it was Sam. I answered it.
"Hello?" I said softly. It was the first time I had talked to Sam since leaving.
"Hey, you ok?" Sam asked, there wasn't any other sound but his voice.
"Been better, how are you and Dean?" I asked sighing softly.
"Been better." Sam said and sighed. "So, I was calling because um.. I just wanted to check up on you." Sam said with a laugh.
"Thanks Sam. I'm good. Look... I um..." I wanted to tell Sam I wanted to come back but I didn't know how to put it.
"Oh hey Gerard, yeah I'm good thanks." Sam suddenly said and my heart sank a little.
"Dean's back then." I replied plainly.
"Oh yeah." Sam replied.
"He still mad with me for knocking him out?" I asked and noticed Payton looked at me surprised.
"No, no that's not the problem Gerard." Sam replied. I could hear Dean moving around in the background.
"Well is he mad at me at all?" I asked tapping my finger on my crutch.
"Kinda, I mean I'm not an expert on it, but I think it's something to do with the way you communicate." Sam replied.
"Super. Look I'll go, but is it ok to call later, I really need to talk to you." I said softly.
"Gerard you know you can call any time. But best leave it till after 9, I'm working a case with my brother." Sam said. I smiled.
"You are a star," I replied. "Be safe." I said and hung up. Payton glanced at me like he wanted to ask me a question. He did it three times but I sighed. "Just say it."
"Ok, who's Dean?" Payton asked plainly.
"A friend." I said looking out of the side window.
"And you knocked him out?" Payton asked.
"Yeah, he wouldn't move out of the way and I really wanted to leave." I said sighing and running my hands through my hair.
"How could you knock him out?" Payton asked.
"I'm very strong." I replied with a small laugh.
"Was he asking you a question you didn't want to answer?" Payton asked.
"Always." I replied without thinking.
"What was he asking you?" Payton asked.
"He wanted to know why I wouldn't stay with him when I'm in love with him." I replied and then as I herd the words leave my mouth I turned to Payton and pulled out my gun.
"Whoa! Whoa wait don't shoot me!" Payton said pulling over the car.
"What the hell just happened?" I asked holding the gun to Payton's chest.
"Nothing, we were talking." Payton said with a nervous smile.
"What are you?" I asked pulling the saftey off.
"Put the gun down." Payton said and suddenly I was putting the gun down.
"What the hell are you doing to me?!" I asked getting worried over the lack of control I had over my own body.
"Calm down and step out of the car with me." Payton said and I did. We walked round to the front and I stood there looking at him confused and angry.
"What the hell are you?!" I growled.
"Chill please," Payton said softly. "I told you I hadn't had my ass beat in years. It's because I can plant thoughts into peoples minds, make them tell me stuff, make them put guns down, I save people this way." Payton said softly.
"Why the hell are you using you power on me?!" I shouted.
"I didn't mean too... look I'm new at this and well I wasn't really paying much attention to my power, I was being nosey. You seem weird and interesting at the same time." Payton said raising his hands, he didn't smell like a lie which was a plus.
"Does Bobby know you do this stuff?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"Yeah, he was hooking me up with a dude who will be able to help me out with the control." Payton explained putting his hands in his pockets.
"Dude you need to be more careful, you could end up getting someone hurt... namely you if I got to mad!" I said poking his chest.
"No offence but you're just a girl, and your not even 100%." Payton said as we walked back to the car.
"I could still whoop your arse." I said as we climbed in.
"No way. I'm pretty awesome when I use my powers." Payton said smiling as he started the car.
"Whatever, I would so kick your arse." I said with a small smile.
We pulled up to Bobby's and unloaded the car, I didn't even need the crutch any more. We each grabbed a couple of bags and walked in as Bobby was hanging up the phone.
"We got everything your friend needs." Payton said as we put the bags down. Bobby looked at me worried.
"What's wrong?" I asked walking forward. Payton took my bags and walked into the kitchen.
"The boys are hunting a Siren." Bobby said still looking worried.
"Like Siren, come here to your death, siren?" I asked and Bobby nodded "Why are looking so worried?"
"They are boys and eijet's. I've never herd of anyone actually managing to hunt one of these." Bobby said twiddling a pen around in his hand. I walked over and looked at the book he was reading. I scanned it and looked at Bobby.
"We got a plan to save their arses then?" I asked plainly.
"I thought you didn't want to go round them again?" Bobby asked sitting up.
"Let's just say I've been presented with a much worse alternative." I said shaking my head. Bobby stared at me hard. "The angel that kicked my arse came back and started to kill innocent people, he said he wouldn't stop until I agreed to return to protect Dean." I sighed.
"Angel?" Payton said and I turned to him.
"Yeah, a really nasty bastard called Zachariah." I said softly.
"Great... so both sides are sons of bitches." Payton said walking up to Bobby and checking out the book on the table.
"Yeah..." I trailed off and looked at Bobby. "We need to do something. Payton you said you could plant thoughts in peoples minds, maybe it would work on the Siren?" I said looking at Payton. He shook his head.
"No offence but how the hell am I meant to get close enough without getting infected? I need to be stood next to the person to make the first connection." Payton explained.
"Plus I don't want to put Payton in this fight. I'll go alone and save the eijets. You and Payton take the spell and ingredients to this address." Bobby said getting to his feet and passing me some paper.
"Oh no!" I said pushing his hand away. "I'm going too."
"Why?" Bobby asked.
"Because I may be immune to the Siren's power. Plus its kinda my job..." I said folding my arms over my chest. Bobby huffed and turned to Payton.
"Take these and I'll meet you back here when we're done hunting, go now, he really needs this spell." Bobby said and Payton smiled at me and left. "Go pack your bag." Bobby said turning to me. I hobbled up the stairs and packed up my hunting bag and raced to Bobby's car.
We were driving most of the day to get to the guy's location. The whole trip we talked about a plan of attack or what we were planning on doing when we reached them. The drive was pleasant enough but we didn't really talk that much. We had been driving most of the day when Bobby started to talk to me again. I jumped because I had nearly fallen asleep.
"What? Sorry I was nearly asleep." I said stretching and turning to Bobby.
"I wanted to talk, about Dean." Bobby said with his eye's glued to the road.
"Dean... ok," I said shuffling in my seat. "Anything particular?"
"You and him." Bobby said still with his eyes locked on the road. I turned to Bobby and looked confused.
"There is no me and him Bobby." I said softly.
"Yeah well you don't need to be psychic to see that both of you want to be together. What's holding you back? I mean it's the apocalypse for crying out loud. Who knows we might all die at the end of this. Take the chance for a little happiness while you can." Bobby said turning to me for a second.
"I wish it was that simple." I huffed out.
"It is, just you two are too stubborn to let it happen!" Bobby said still watching the road.
"It's not me being stubborn, its me being practical." I replied looking out into the road.
"Practical? When has love ever been practical?" Bobby asked shaking his head. "Why are you being practical?"
"Because I'm going to die." I said softly.
"Christ we are all going to die Megan." Bobby said shaking his head.
"In four months, by Sam's hand." I said barely above a whisper. Bobby slammed on the breaks and looked at me with his mouth open.
"What?" Bobby asked blinking.
"Nothing. Forget I said anything." I sighed and looked back at the road. I was trying to back track but at the same time I was relieved that I had said it to another human being.
"No... no wait a minute. What did you just say?" Bobby asked putting his hand on my shoulder. I turned to him and sighed. He had herd everything. I sighed.
"I've got four months left to live. You are the only person who knows. Castiel did a deal with a reaper and now I've got four months left. I also got a peek at my death, it was Sam killing me. I don't know why or how, just he was stood over me. So you see Bobby I can't be all happy in love with Dean when I know... I know that in four months, his own brother, Sam, he's going to kill me. If I piss Dean off enough, maybe, I don't know maybe when the time comes, Sam and Dean will be able to work through it and fight the devil together. I don't want to be the reason they go separate ways." I said softly looking into Bobby's eyes. Bobby sat there for a few moments taking it all in.
"Megan..." Bobby said getting a sad expression crossing his face.
"Don't Bobby." I said sternly. "Don't act like that with me or I will give up right now. I need to keep fighting, I need to keep Dean safe and find the bastard who killed my family. I need to do these two things cos otherwise I'd give up on everything and just waste the last few months I have left." I said softly looking into his eyes. Bobby nodded slowly and turned to start the car.
"Are you going to tell Dean about this deal?" He asked starting the engine.
"Not planning too. So if you could keep it under your hat until I'm dead I'd be grateful." I said plainly as the car started to move.
"He has a right to know Megan." Bobby said as we drove down the road.
"Why? All it's gonna do is mess him up big style, just what he doesn't need just before the apocalypse." I said sighing.
"He loves you, hell we all do. You need to tell him. It's the right thing." Bobby said.
"Bobby it will screw him up to much, no way. I'm not dumping this on him, no way, no how. So let's just keep it our secret eh?" I asked turning to him.
"I'm not happy about this." Bobby said shaking his head.
"Thank you. I promise, you can deny all knowledge if it makes you feel any better." I said joking.
"Just, I don't know. Try and enjoy what time you have left, don't let it all be consumed by revenge. It just ain't good for the soul." Bobby replied as we drove off.
We drove nearly most of the night to reach the motel in which the guys where staying at. Bobby past me a bronze dagger and a shotgun. I put a few rounds in it and cocked it.
"We planning for trouble?" I asked placing the dagger in my boot.
"Could be." Bobby said cocking his gun. We walked towards guys room and herd fighting when suddenly someone was tackled through the door by something and a dude was stood watching, I could smell its scent and it wasn't human.
"I think we may have found the Siren." I said softly to Bobby as we walked around the corner.
"Do it. Do it for me Dean." The Siren said.
"Tell me again how weak I am Sam. How I hold you back." Dean said and swung for Sam with a fire axe. Bobby raced in time to stop him and stabbed Dean with the bronze knife. I aimed my shotgun at the Siren.
"Don't move!" I shouted but the damn thing started to run. "Bobby!" I shouted and he threw the knife as Sam cried for us not to kill him. The dagger hit in the centre of his back killing him. I lowered my gun and looked at the brothers, Sam was on the floor and Dean was holding his arm. The spell must of worn off because they started to look around confused.
No one really talked much about it and we all decided to have a beer instead. Bobby past them out.
"Soda?" Dean asked.
"Boys are driving ain't you?" Bobby asked. I smiled and opened mine.
"Thanks guys, if you hadn't shown up when you did..." Sam said.
"You've done the same for me, more than once." Bobby said plainly. "Course you could of picked up the phone. It only took one call to realise agent Nick Munroe wasn't real. You boys going to be ok?" Bobby asked watching them.
"Yeah fine yeah good." Sam and Dean said sheepishly.
"See ya." Bobby said and walked over to his car. "You know Siren's are nasty things, that it got to you, is no reason to feel bad." He said and got in his car.
"You not leaving?" Dean asked coldly.
"No. I'm staying." I replied and walked over to grab my bag out of Bobby's boot. I herd the boys talking and tapped Bobby's boot to tell him he could go. He drove off and I walked back over to them. Dean looked at me and then motioned to follow him. I looked at Sam and he looked upset. I gave him a small smile and fallowed Dean. He walked a good way from Sam before stopping and turning to me.
"Why the hell did you come back?" He asked bitterly. I was expecting him to act this way.
"Because I had my arms and legs broken and then watched people die in front me and was unable to save them." I said plainly.
"Excuse me?" Dean asked shaking his head.
"You heard, an angel did it. Forced me to protect you. Said he'd kill Bobby if I didn't." I said coldly.
"Well what the hell makes you think I want you on hunts with me?" Dean asked walking closer to me. I looked into his eyes and shook my head.
"Who says you get a frigging choice?" I said walking up to him so that there was nearly no gap between our bodies.
"I say." He said whispering.
"Tough." I replied and then smiled.
"You can't just walk out me after we kiss and then expect me to act like its' fine that your back." Dean said walking away from me.
"I'm not asking you to Dean, but if I leave you again, people will die. People we both care about will die!" I said following him. Dean turned to me and shook his head.
"No. Cass get your ass here now!" Dean shouted to the sky.
"What you gonna do? Ask for a new protector?" I said sarcastically.
"Yeah actually!" Dean said. "CASS!" He shouted.
"Dean your stuck with me. Deal." I said in a huff.
"Deal?" Dean said getting mad. "Deal? You want me to deal? Well I'm sorry I cant. I am in love you, and damn it I don't think I have felt this way about another person ever. But the moment I figure it out, you walk out! After we kiss! You still walk out on me. Then I track you down and you say something about four months! Something which you still haven't cleared up for me by the way! And then you knock me out and disappear again, you don't answer my calls or Sam's. And I start to think that you've gone after Alistair and gotten yourself killed! Then to top it all off you show up with Bobby and kill this Siren. So just how the hell am I meant to deal with any of this?!" Dean shouted.
"I don't know! But you really think that you are the only person finding it hard right now?! I mean come on! I fell for you back when I was in hospital, but because of what happened I don't want to tell you. So I see you getting it on with Anna and think fine... ok whatever. I see my best friend die and decide I need to get revenge. I try and leave you kiss me, making me so confused, because I had nice simple plan. Kill demon. End. But no! Dean frigging Winchester has to show up at motel room and try and be all dashing hero guy. Which only makes things ten times harder because I still really want to kill Alistair but god damn you are the only thing I can think about! So I try and ignore you best I can and the frigging angels get involved. I have my body go through so much pain, and have the shit beat out of three ways to force me to go back. But I can't because in the end you will the one getting hurt. So I sit through the pain, heal and then watch other people die all because I wont return. I can't watch anyone die. I meant it when I said it Dean. So have a paddy, shout and scream about it, but I'm not leaving and you and Sam and not dying while I'm around." I said holding back a few tears. Dean watched my face for a few moments, he looked almost puzzled. He walked towards me and pulled me into a hug. I really wasn't expecting it. I hugged back holding tightly onto his jacket as if his scent made all the evil just vanish.
"It's going to be ok." Dean said holding me close. He stroked my hair and I smiled.
"No its not. Nothing is ok, not now..." I said pulling away.
"Well your here, it's all I could ask for right now." Dean said leaning down and kissing me on the lips.
