Hope was slipping away, faster then I ever thought possible, Andy, Dr Knight started, "we have made Tommy comfortable but you need to understand, this is it, at best we may have a week with him", I spoke up , "but at worst", with sad eyes Dr Knight looked up and took a breathe , "the way he is Andy its lucky he lasted this longer but at worst we have a few hours Im sorry I know it not what you want to hear but it all depends on his body and when it wants to stop fighting". I thanked him and as he walked away I looked up to see Sam walking over to me, I couldn't do it , Im not strong enough , I looked passed him and saw the door, I did the only thing I was good at , the only thing I was best at , I ran, I ran passed him, calling my name, hell I ran passed everyone calling after me, when I didn't hear them anymore I kept going, my phone rang once, twice, three times it kept going I knew if I answered I would break , I couldn't I wouldn't not yet, there were only 2 places I could go, home , but it's the first place Sam would go, so I headed for the beach ,west point beach, dad took me there after he had a hard day or he was stress at work, and as a kid it was amazing it still is , Sam knew about this place, but I just hoped he didn't put his amazing policing skills to use just yet .

Time, it not like when we were kids and our parents would say it will take a hour to get there, or your birthday to one day away or Christmas is in a week, Time as a kid, that one hour or one day or one week felt like a lifetime, but when it all comes down to it, as an adult and being told at best you have a week, suddenly the thought of how long a week is, it not longer enough.

Suddenly you realise how temporary a life is.

On what seems like the millionth time my phone was making noise, I finally fished it out of my jean pocket and looked; it didn't surprise me at all at the screen

Sam 10 text 25 miss calls 5 voice mails

Traci 5 text 15 miss calls 3 voice mails

Jerry 2 texts 1 miss call

Frank 1 miss call

Noelle 1 text

Zoe 1 text

Lisa 2 text 1 miss call 1 voice mail

And even one miss call and voice mail from Luke

The most resent was from Sam, Babe where are you, are you ok, what happen, babe we are all worried sick please call anyone of us, or heck even just Im ok in a text to anyone please McNally I know this is hard but I need to know you are ok, please love you forever Andy text or call us please. Sam xxx

I texted back

Sam please, ill be fine just give me time, what Dr Knight said just got to me ill be back soon , just need fresh air, ill go home after I have had time to pick up the kids and be back I love you to and tell everyone Im fine , should have brought a jacket tho, love your McNally

I just hope he understood that I needed time and or he or someone else worked out where I was, my thought was answered just as a text came thought , from the person I least expected .

Andy are you at the beach, you need someone to talk to other then Sam text me back ill can be there in 5 mins if so, I can't say I understand but maybe its what you need right now, someone who doesn't understand what you are going tho, its hard yes but you kinder worrying everyone won't help you or them. Remember Im only a text away.

Oh so who do you think just texted Andy, I know I said they would be only one more chapter but as im breaking them up a little , im making it easier for me to write it hope you enjoyed reviews are amazing they keep me writing thanks again Erin