Anakin Skywalker's POV
I gasped and sat straight up, soaking myself and the blankets with my sweat. It's been four days since I've seen or heard of Ahsoka.
I flung the blankets aside and sat on the edge of the bed. I buried my face into my hands and began to weep. How can I be such an idiot to let this happen? I hate myself so much!
'Anakin...' Ahsoka's voice whispered in my head as I looked away at the ground.
I lost the love of my life again... And now I'm more impacted because I told her I would protect her.
("Forever"- Breaking Benjamin)
I tried to sleep again to calm myself but I knew that it would only get much worse If I did.
As I slept, memories of Ahsoka and I replayed in my head just like the past. Her beautiful face, her eyes...
She was gone now and it was my entire fault.
'Do you know that I could never leave you?'
My anger flared up as I remembered the bad things that I've almost done. However, I would never leave her.
'And you know that I could never beat you?'
Ahsoka once smacked me on the cheek, but I deserved it because I did something so idiotic that it almost killed me. It hurt me if I did that to her which I almost did but I couldn't. That movement would change me and make my heart bleed and suffocate slowly.
'And if I,
I could never find you.'
I squirmed in my bed as her image burned my mind. The scene replayed in my head as remembered when I searched for her after Death Watch was defeated.
'Never mind,
I would not forget you.'
I frowned as I slept. I will find her even if it kills me. She will be in my arms safe and sound.
My eyes flew open again; fear struck my face as I felt hopeless. "Can I stay alive forever?
Can I stay alive forever?
Can I stay alive forever?
Forever?" I breathed, turning to look up at the moon.
'Can I feel a chemical reaction?'
I trembled and eyed my hands as if they belong to someone else. I hungered for revenge once again.
'Cause I feel a hideous attraction.'
I got up again to look at myself. I made a disgusted noise as I saw my reflection.
'Could we share a poison apple?
Can it be manacle and awful?'
I could see Ahsoka in the mirror with the same color of eyes as mine... Tinted with the gold of the sith.
'Can I stay alive forever?
Can I stay alive forever?
Can I stay alive forever?
Forever?
Forever?'
I pushed myself off the marble counter. After that, I stripped my clothes off of me and stepped into the shower. Cool water damped my hair making it the color dark brown.
I began to shake again until I noticed red liquid flowing along with the clear soapy water. I gazed down at my hands and forgot that I had a razor in my left hand.
'Stay alive forever?
Forever?
Stay alive forever?
Stay alive forever?
Stay alive forever?
Stay alive forever?'
I flung the razor across the bathroom and got out, ignoring the warm blood streaming down my hand. I washed my hand carefully before wrapping it in bacta and gauze.
Again I glared up to see my eyes. I shivered in anger as I saw the same color before I got in the shower.
I changed into my Jedi clothes before racing outside, ignoring the shouts and questions of Obi-Wan.
I set the coordinates to head for Mustafar. R2 beeped with worry but I assured him that everything was fine.
Hours later...
I leaned against the railing that separated me from my death. Nothing could stop me, nothing will stop me.
Ahsoka Skywalker's POV
I unbuckled my seatbelt and raced down the ramp to Anakin as the extremely hot air of Mustafar's atmosphere blew against my face and body.
"Ani!" I cried out as he was about to climb up the railing. "Ani, don't!"
He froze and slowly turned his head towards me. Seconds later, he jumped off the railing to his feet and walked towards me at first before running.
Anakin laughed and sobbed as I just cried. He embraced me and spun us in circles. I shifted uncomfortably away from him, cringing.
"Ow, Anakin. You're hurting us." I breathed, trying to loosen his bear hug.
He set me down on my feet without hesitation, apologizing. "I'm so sorry, my love. I'm ...just so -" He paused and eyed me with confusion. "Wait... Us?" he couldn't speak anymore so I decided to tell him.
"Ani... Something wonderful has happened." I smiled as I saw his reaction. "Anakin... I'm pregnant."
He froze like a block of ice. "Pregnant?" he sneered which frightened me. "You're pregnant?"
I nodded before he observed my swelling stomach. I followed his gaze and held his hand so he could touch my torso.
He began to laugh, not in a creepy way but in a happy and excited way. "A baby? Holy crap!" he looked up to see me with the most beautiful smile. "That's... That's wonderful, my love." he whispered, embracing me more carefully.
I smiled before I remembered what I came here for. "Anakin... What are you doing here? What were you going to do to yourself?" I breathed; I trembled in fright as I thought of what he might have planned to do. "You... You weren't going to kill yourself were you?"
He hesitated, avoiding my eyes.
"Anakin," I gasped, shaking my head as my smile disappeared. "Please tell me you weren't going to kill yourself because you thought I was dead."
Anakin looked down at my small stomach. With a sigh, he looked at me again in apology. "Love..." he choked out, tears forming in his eyes. "I - I... I'm sorry, but you know that I cannot live without you."
I touched his cheek, brushing my thumb against his cheekbone. "Sweetheart, that's not an excuse! Didn't you think about Shmi when you were about to kill yourself? What if I didn't make it here in time? I would be heartbroken!"
He hesitated, finding the right words as he couldn't force them out of his mouth. "You... You would do the same thing." he told me.
Anakin was right... I actually would do the same thing. He knows that I can't live without him and I know that he can't live without me again.
"Anakin, let's go. Come away with me. Help me start a family, Ani..." I pleaded to him, holding our hands in front of us. "Leave everything else behind while we still can."
He shook his head. "Ahsoka, don't you see? We don't have to runaway anymore. I have brought peace to Mandalore and the Republic! I am more powerful than I ever was! I've defeated one of the most powerful and feared warriors in the entire galaxy, and Count Dooku. I can overthrow the Chancellor and together, you and I, can rule the galaxy. We can make things the way we want them to be." he smiled, holding my hands tighter in his.
I recoiled. "I don't believe what I'm hearing! Obi-Wan was right! You've changed..."
"I don't want to hear anymore about Obi-Wan!" Anakin's temper burst loose. My fear must have shown on my face because he made a visible effort to control himself. "The Jedi turned against me since the beginning. Don't you turn against me, Ahsoka!"
"What?" I breathed; my eyes began to get cloudy. "The Jedi helped you win the war between Mandalore and Death Watch! Obi-Wan also helped you by saving me..." I'm not against you, Ani. I'm only against of what you've done, and what you're planning to do. "I don't know you anymore," I told him. "Anakin, you're breaking my heart! I'll never stop loving you, - " I tried to reach for the connection through the force. I was trying to call back the Ani that I knew and loved. My lover, my Mentor, my husband and the father of our children. "Stop now," I begged. "Come back! I love you!"
For a moment - for the barest second - I thought I succeeded. Then, Anakin's expression changed. "Liar!" he cried.
He was staring right through me. I turned around and saw Obi-Wan standing on top of the ramp of the Shuttle. He tricked me! "No!" I said, knowing that this new Anakin would never listen to me now.
"You've betrayed me! You brought him here to kill me! He's been waiting for this moment, Ahsoka! I told you! But you ignored me!" Rage made Anakin's face unrecognizable. He lifted his hand and curled his fingers into a fist. I felt myself choking, unable to breathe.
Don't! Don't, please! But I had no air to cry out with. My last conscious thought was a feeling of relief. I would rather die here, now, than live and have to watch what my Anakin had become.
