Author's Note: I really don't know what to write up here. I used to apologize for how long it took me to upload new chapters...but seeing as how I'm posting it all at once... .
Disclaimer: Stillll don't own them.
Chapter Four
The next morning I woke up with James staring down at me. "Shit," I cursed and rolled away from him. "You know I hate that!"
James laughed, "it's already noon and we have to go to the studio at one! It's the only way I know how to get you up without…getting you up."
I rolled my eyes and moved to rub the sleep from my eyes. "You could've just said my name."
James smiled. "I could've." He rocked back and forth on his heels.
"Did you want to tell me something," I smiled, enjoying the look of pure joy that passed over his features.
"I got him!"
"Carlos?" I smiled. I knew the answer but James always liked telling good news if it involved him.
"Yeah, we're together now!"
"That's great James, I'm really-," I was cut off by a very annoyed Kendall in the doorway.
"You're just going to rub it in his face now," he growled softly, not wanting Carlos to hear.
James looked from Kendall to me and back. "What?"
"Logan really deserved better than just being your fuck buddy."
James's eyes widened and he stared at me.
"Kendall, it's okay really, I am happy for them," I stood and put my hand on his stomach, feeling his muscles relax at my touch. "I'm fine."
He looked at me, staring into my eyes to see if I was lying about this. He nodded and glared one more time at James before leaving.
I closed the door behind him and as soon as it clicked into place James let out a breath of relief.
"What the hell was that," he asked, watching me gently. "You weren't…like you didn't fall for me did you," he questioned, his voice getting soft and worried. I knew he never wanted to hurt me, I knew that he would never have rubbed it in my face if he thought I loved him.
"No," I smiled. "I mean, I love you just…not like that. I cared for you a lot in that way, but I'm fine. Kendall just…he demanded to know why I was so off yesterday. I couldn't exactly tell him it was because I got my heart crushed again when I saw Jo come out of his bedroom with sex hair and his shirt…so I told him we broke up."
James nodded. "But now he thinks I'm this heartless asshole that doesn't care about his friends."
I shook my head. "I told him we both knew it was for getting off and nothing more."
He smiled. "That doesn't change the fact that in his eyes he needs to protect you from big bad wolves like me." His smile suddenly fell as his gaze turned fearful. "He won't tell Carlos will he?"
"I told him not to…I'll make sure he doesn't."
James bit his lip and moved to the door. "I'm just…going to try and stay near him at all times so Kendall won't have a chance."
"Just don't suffocate him James."
He nodded and hurried out the door. I grabbed my towel and walked to the shower, but then detouring to sit next to Kendall on the couch. "Hey."
"Hey," he whispered.
"Look you can't tell Carlos ok? It'll just hurt him. Plus it's not like I didn't know what I was getting into. And it's not like James knew I had grown to care for him that way. But honestly, it was nothing compared to what I was bottling up. So, just don't worry ok? I'm fine, you don't have to protect me from James."
He turned to look at me and whispered, "what were you bottling up inside?"
I mentally cursed and shook my head. "It's secret."
"Come on Logie," he whispered. "Please tell me? I'm your best friend."
I moved my gaze to my lap. Katie wasn't the only Knight who knew how to pull off the puppy gaze. And there was no way I'd let myself be caught up in that. "I really can't Kendall."
He moved his hand to my thigh. "You can tell me anything."
I stood abruptly. "I have to go shower. We only have an hour before Gustavo expects us." Without waiting for his reply I ran to the bathroom, locking the door behind me.
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I survived yet another dance rehearsal without breaking any bones. Luckily they were beginning to catch on that I was better at acrobatics than dancing. Most of my choreography now required me to back flip, do cartwheels and spin in the air. I didn't mind it. I loved doing stunts like that, and having an excuse to touch Kendall's hand on stage made my heart surge.
"Do you guys want pizza again," Carlos asked as he looked in the empty fridge.
"Let's go out to dinner," James grinned, moving behind the shorter boy and wrapping his arms around his waist.
Carlos blushed and opened his mouth to respond but was cut off.
"That actually sounds like a good idea," Kendall smirked, knowing he hadn't been invited. "I'll ask Jo to join us." He moved past the rest of us and to his room, calling Jo.
I sighed and looked at James annoyed. "I think I'll just let you guys have your double date. I'll cook myself something here."
They both looked at me concern radiated off of them in waves. "You ok," Carlos asked confused.
I smiled and nodded. "Yeah, just you know…fifth wheel and all." I chuckled and moved past them to grab for the cake. James grabbed my hand.
"Kendall made us promise to make sure you didn't have that last piece of cake until tomorrow. He said something about you having too much sugar and having to look out for you like he does Katie."
I sighed and moved to grab eggs instead.
"She'll be here in an hour. I'm going to shower," Kendall grinned, moving past all of us to the shower. He paused as he watched me scramble the eggs. "You're not coming?"
"Nah, I'm exhausted," I smiled, pouring the eggs into the skillet and chopping up some vegetables.
He watched me for a few more seconds, before quietly moving to the shower, closing the door behind him.
James smirked and whispered something to Carlos. The shorter boy grinned and before I could say a word they vanished to the other bathroom in the apartment. I didn't have to be a genius to know what they were up to.
I had just finished flipping the omelet when Kendall emerged. He had a towel wrapped loosely around his waist and another one on his hair as he dried it. I stared in awe as one lone water droplet ran down his chest and underneath the towel. I licked my lips as I took the sight in.
He had a few scars on his skin, from back when we were younger. Like the one from that time he fell out of the tree because I couldn't hold my balance, causing us both to fall over. I don't know how he did it but he had flipped us, so that he'd get the worst of it. He had a thin line where the tree branch had cut him, it took seven stitches. I had cried because I knew it was all my fault and I thought he was dying. I was too young to understand that blood didn't always mean death. Too young to understand that when they took him to the hospital it wasn't so that he could die there and never return to me. But I wasn't too young to understand the sacrifice he had made to keep me safe.
That had been the moment I had fallen in love with Kendall Knight.
