Author's note: I think there's only a couple more chapters left? I don't remember .
Disclaimer: I OWN THEM! ...haha no. Still don't.
Chapter five
"Logan," Kendall asked, waving his hand in front of my face. "Are you in there? Your omelet is burning." He reached past me, turning the burner to a lower level.
I blinked and shook my head laughing nervously. "Sorry I just zoned out I guess."
Kendall smirked and watched me as I checked the food. "What were you thinking about?"
I shook my head and let out a small breath of embarrassment. "Nothing really."
He nodded and moved a bit closer to me. "Was it that seeing me like this made your brain stop?"
I blushed brightly and laughed. He could always read me so well, and he was very close. "I was thinking about your scar."
He tilted his head and looked down, seeing the thin line on his abs that was paler than the rest of his skin. "What about it?"
I shrugged and moved to put my food on a plate. "Just about how you got it and how I thought you were dying," I grinned softly.
He smiled softly and whispered. "When I came back from the hospital you told me something."
I blushed and swallowed keeping my eyes on the plate, hoping he didn't remember what it was.
"You said that you were sorry, and if I wanted to I could punch you and you wouldn't even tell on me." He paused and I felt his eyes boring into my side, seeing my scar through my clothes that had been extremely less serious than his, but had caused him the same amount of worry. "You thanked me and told me you loved me."
My heart stopped, my hands froze, my entire body just shut down. He remembered. And I couldn't tell if it was a fond memory, one that he cherished with all his heart like I did, or if he was about to mock me. I remained still, like a deer caught in the headlights of a moving truck.
"Do you remember," Kendall asked voice soft and unsure.
It startled me how easily he could restart my entire being. I nodded and whispered, "I remember. I'm just surprised you do." I smiled softly at the memory, remembering how back then, when Kendall didn't understand what love I had been speaking of; he had said he loved me too.
Kendall chuckled softly. "You know its funny how back then I was more h-," he began but was interrupted by the doorbell.
Carlos ran to the door, fully dressed and grinning. "Jo!" He opened the door fully, letting her in.
Kendall's eyes slowly trailed off of me as he turned to smile at her. "Hey, just let me finish getting dressed." He looked at me one last time, smiling apologetically for having to leave me guessing at what he was going to say, and then moved to his room.
I stared at the spot he had previously been occupying. What was he going to tell me? I sighed and moved to put the pan in the sink. I knew this would take over the rest of my thoughts for tonight. Maybe if I got lucky Kendall would finish his sentence before leaving.
I was a quarter through my omelet when Kendall suddenly pounced on me, his hands on my shoulders and his chest pressed into my back. "We'll be back later Logie. Do you want me to call if we go to the movies after dinner?"
My eyes were wide, my heart pounding at the feel of being so close to him, and by the look on James's face I knew I was blushing. "No," my voice shook slightly and I tried to cover it with a chuckle. "I was just going to study my medical books you know?"
"You're trying to be Dr. Sexy M.D., aren't you," he teased softly, whispering almost huskily in my ear so the others couldn't hear.
My blush deepened and I laughed a bit louder, my heart racing even more at the tone of his voice.
Kendall chuckled softly as he got off me, moving to the others. James was smirking, but at the same time he seemed worried. Carlos was just laughing his ass off at the entire thing, and Jo wrapped her arm around Kendall's waist and leaned up to pull him into a kiss. It was clear she was marking her property. My eyes traveled back to James. I nodded slightly and smiled, trying to let him know that I wasn't breaking. Trying to lie to him.
"We'll be back later," James whispered, not believing my lie. He took one last look at me before ushering the rest out, blocking Kendall and Jo from me as they left. I thought I saw him look back at me before James blocked me from his vision, but that was probably just my imagination.
I didn't know what had gotten into Kendall to flirt like this, but whatever it was, it was cruel.
I stood, putting the rest of my food in the fridge. I wasn't hungry anymore. Not after the crash and burn my heart had been put through. It was one thing to dangle him in front of me, it was another to do that and then snatch him away, make me watch as he kissed and loved someone else.
I moved to the couch, my studying idea all but forgotten. I pulled my knees up to my chest, hiding my face in my legs. I didn't think Kendall could be cruel, didn't think he'd go this far to make me squirm, but I could see no other reason besides his own amusement. I held my legs closer to myself, feeling tears build up and spill over.
For once I was thankful no one was here with me.
xoxo
"Logan," James whispered as he pet my hair gently. "Come on Logan, wake up."
I groaned softly and opened my eyes. "James," I whispered, looking around. I was still on the couch, my knees clutched to my chest. I stretched my legs out wincing at how sore my muscles were. "What time is it?"
"It's past midnight," Carlos whispered worried. "Have you been like this all night? You could've come with us really, we would've had fun together."
I smiled and shook my head. "I was too tired. I swear, I mean I didn't even get any studying done. I would've just fallen asleep there with you guys."
Carlos smiled and nodded, accepting what I told him without question. "In that case, I'm going to sleep!" He turned to James smirked and hurried off to his bedroom.
James smiled after him then turned back to me, his smile falling. "Look," he whispered. "Kendall and Jo were kind of grabby tonight. We split up after dinner, so if they're not here then I'm guessing they're either going to crawl in here together. I doubt you want to see that, so go to bed ok?"
I could tell he was worried about me. He wasn't trying to dominate me, just protect me from being broken again. "Alright," I whispered, moving to stand and ignoring the protest my muscles put out.
James smiled and turned to lead me away when the door flew open and Kendall landed on the floor, with Jo on top of him.
I could feel my heart shatter as my entire body tensed. James looked at me frantically and grabbed my wrist, pulling me from the scene that my eyes never left. He wasn't fast enough, Kendall was chuckling and he looked up into Jo's eyes and whispered, "I love you."
I gasped softly, but loud enough that Kendall heard, his head turned and our eyes met. I saw his eyes widen before he disappeared behind a wall as James pulled me into Carlos' room. Carlos jumped and quickly ran to put his pants back on. James put me on the bed and looked at me full of worry.
"What the hell James! I love you and all but I don't do three-," Carlos stopped, staring at me. "What happened," He whispered a stark difference from how he was before.
James began to explain everything to him in hushed words, leaving out how we'd help each other, focusing only on me. I couldn't hear exactly what he was saying. I was too busy focusing on how much power I had given Kendall, that three little words were able to destroy me.
