Author's note: And here is the inspiration for the ending. Thank you youtube, and of course Kendall and Logan for making this easier than it should've been.

Disclaimer: I don't own BTR or the song in this chapter or John Mayer.


Chapter six

I woke up the next day on Carlos's bed, with James on one side and Carlos on the other. I was the only one under the covers. Suddenly I felt like a child that ran to their parents' room to hide from a storm. I looked at them both, wondering if they had been able to sleep at all. I sighed and sat up, feeling two arms fall off of me. I smiled realizing that they loved me as much as I loved them. They were both like my brothers. Well, not James, James was a friend because I would not screw my brother.

"You're awake," James whispered softly, opening his eyes to look at me gently. "How do you feel?"

I smiled and looked down. "I guess I had more hope than I thought. I know it's never going to happen now. He loves her, and he'll never look at me twice."

"I'm sorry man," Carlos whispered, looking up at me as he continued to lay stomach down on the bed.

I shook my head smiling. "I didn't keep you guys up did I?"

"Not much," he whispered honestly.

"We got you to calm down at around three. Then we slept like this because it was the only way that you wouldn't whimper in your sleep," Carlos added gently, knowing I wanted details.

I blushed, embarrassed that I had been so broken in front of them. "I'm sorry I kept you awake like that."

James shook his head. "No big deal."

"You know, bleep blop bloop," Carlos grinned.

I laughed softly and shook my head. "You guys are the best." I smiled and looked at them both. "I'm so going to make you guys dinner one night, like an at home date thing for you two."

Carlos grinned, "really?" He looked at James who nodded. "Whenever you wanna cook is fine with us Logan!"

I smiled and nodded. "Alright."

"But for now how about we go out to breakfast," James smiled.

"IHOP," Carlos yelled.

James and I laughed as we watched Carlos jump out of bed to get dressed. I could almost feel the hole in my stomach fill, but I knew that just one good morning wasn't going to cure me of my problem.

xoxo

I had managed to avoid both Kendall and Jo for over half the day. But I couldn't hide from him in the studio. I sighed as I filed into the room between Carlos and James. They were trying their best to keep me as far from Kendall as possible. Once we got into the sound booth Carlos switched places with me on the pretense of wanting to be closer to James. I knew they only did this so that no matter where Kendall ended up, I could switch with one of them and be farther from him.

"Alright dogs," Gustavo half yelled through the speakers in the room. He was behind the thick glass with Kelly and the sound board guy. "We're going to cover a John Mayer song. It's a slow ballad which is exactly what Griffen wants. So, that's what we're going to give him!"

I clenched my jaw and looked down. I usually thought of Kendall during our ballads. I looked at Carlos and James, who were grinning wide at the news, then back at Gustavo.

"Shouldn't you have given us the lyrics before we got in here," Kendall asked, raising an eyebrow at the older man, seemingly unaffected by the fact that we had permission to cover a song by a famous artist.

Kelly leaned over him, pressing the button to speak. "Today is just a warm up. The song is on that board in front of you, we'll give you the beat and Gustavo will show you the harmony then we want to see where you take the song. Last time you guys did really well with that."

We all nodded and Gustavo played the song, humming the basic harmony. We looked at the board. Kendall was up first, which wasn't really surprising. His voice was enticing enough to make you want to continue listening.

Kendall smirked at the words as he waited for the short instrumental opening to pass. I knew this song well, I listen to it frequently now a days. I swallowed hard and looked at James and Carlos again. They shrugged helplessly. I turned my focus back to the song and Kendall's voice.

Young and full of running
Tell me where has that taken me?
Just a great figure eight or a tiny infinity?
Love is really nothing
But a dream that keeps waking me,
For all of my trying
We still end up dying, how can it be?

Then we all joined in on the chorus, our voices meshing together perfectly I thought.

Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me,
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see,
I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believed,
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me.

I sung the next part; it was surprising how easily it fit in with Kendall's. It was like our voices didn't even struggle to harmonize together.

So young and full of running, all the way to the edge of desire
Steady my breathing, silently screaming,
"I have to have you now"
Wired and I'm tired
Think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me on yours

We all sang the chorus again, hearing the song slowly come together. Kendall sounded amazing and it took all my willpower not to look over at him and pretend he was singing about me.

James and Carlos took over for the next part, each singing half the chorus. James was good at faking the emotion that the song called for without actually needing to go into his life to find inspiration. Though, this time I'd bet he just had to think about Carlos leaving him to get that emotion out of him.

Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me

And with that the song ended. We grinned and looked at Gustavo wondering if he had liked what he heard.

"That was…average," Gustavo mumbled.

"That was great for a first take," Kelly grinned happily.

"Why are we covering this though," I asked, tilting my head in confusion.

"Griffin said he wanted to hear what you guys did with it, and I think he'll like it!" She continued to smile like a proud sister.

"Wait but how will he hear it," Carlos asked, looking around for Griffin to just suddenly pop out.

"We were recording. The mp3 is being sent to his computer tonight," Gustavo turned looking at the man next to them. "Right?"

He nodded and Gustavo nodded in finalization.

"So," James began.

"Are we done for today," Kendall finished, grinning.

Gustavo nodded and waved his hand, signaling we could go. I grinned and looked at the others waiting to follow their lead.

xoxo

Turns out a free afternoon from Gustavo meant boyfriend/girlfriend time. Carlos and James had offered to stay with me, but I didn't want to keep them from having fun. Kendall had gone off with Jo, which was no real surprise.

I sighed as I moved to the couch, flipping through the television channels.

My eyes widened as a grin spread over my face. I was alone, in the house, with the last piece of cake. I hurried to the fridge, pulling out my treasure. Grabbing a spoon I moved back to the couch, putting my feet up on the coffee table as I dug in.

"Logan Mitchell," Kendall whispered, making me jump and almost drop the cake. "I thought I said you had to eat real food before cake." I could hear the amusement lacing his voice.

I swallowed and turned my gaze to him. "I ate this morning." I kept my gaze at his throat, knowing if I looked at his face I'd break again.

He sighed, "Logie you really do need to eat better. You're the doctor you should know this."

"I do but sometimes I like to indulge." I took another bite of cake.

Kendall chuckled and moved to sit next to me, taking the spoon from me and taking a bite of his own.

"Not that I don't like spending time with you and all, but I thought you were on a date with Jo." I took my fork back, taking another bite before holding the utensil to him.

He took it and copied my movement. "It wasn't a date this time. We had to talk."

I hated how my heart sprung at those words. I felt like a horrible friend finding joy in his possible heartbreak. "About what?"

We continued sharing the cake for a few moments, sitting in silence before he finally sighed and leaned his head back against the couch. "Last night, I said I love-,"

"I heard," I interrupted, not wanting to hear it again.

Kendall shook his head, not meeting my gaze. "I said I love you," he turned his gaze to me and whispered, "as in you Logan."