It was odd.
Getting in at the early hours of the morning and sleeping about two hours.
Only to get back up again and go to class.
But to be honest, I quite enjoyed patrolling.
Because it was time alone.
To think about things.
Well, two things.
Not really things...people...
I would sometimes bump into Zero when I was patrolling.
But that was rare.
But when it happened, it was always a good moment.
"Hi Zero!" I would chirp and wave happily at him.
A grunt of acknowledgment was usually all I got.
But sometimes...just sometimes...he'd smile at me.
And say "Hey Yuki." And that would be it.
But I would always love it.
Even rarer would be for me to bump into Kaname on my way between buildings.
He would usually see me first.
"Good evening Yuki..." I would hear his soft voice wash over me like beautiful music.
I would turn around and see him there, with a tiny smile on his face.
But even though he was smiling, he wouldn't really look happy.
He'd look so lonely.
Like usual.
"Oh! Hi Kaname!" I would reply and smile at him.
That would always make his smile spread just a little wider.
"Keep up the good work Yuki." He would tell me.
I would nod.
"Sure! Just helping out as much as I can really!"
"But please, don't work yourself too hard." Then he'd leave.
He'd usually be with the vice-president Ichijou.
But on the rare occasion that it was just him, before he'd leave, he'd run his long, slender fingers through my hair and stroke my cheek.
"It's always lovely to see you...Yuki." His quiet voice would reach me as he walked away.
And I would fidget a little, before going in the other direction.
Each time I heard their voices...
Zero's and Kaname's...
I would try to see which fitted the voice in my 'dream'.
But I was never sure.
I didn't mention it to anyone.
Not even Yori, who sat next to me in all my classes.
I was apparently failing all of them, due to lack of sleep and work.
I just couldn't bring myself to concentrate on things like that.
Why had I been in hospital anyway?
I was a little confused about that.
When I asked Kaien he would just sigh and mutter...
"Why would my darling Yuki want to know about such troublesome things as that? You should be concentrating on the way of the pacifist!"
It was times like that that I would get annoyed at his childish side.
Many questions still remained but Zero never wanted to answer them.
He was too busy sleeping in class or patrolling to listen to me.
I bet that Kaname would probably tell me.
But I never really saw him.
And when I did, he was in a rush so he couldn't talk to me.
I couldn't help but think they were hiding it from me on purpose.
That was when I started to get angry.
And confused.
Why would they hide it?
What was so bad about this 'accident'?
I then started to think that maybe it wasn't just an accident.
What had happened?
But to tell you the truth, I didn't really want to know.
I wanted to know about my dream more.
I wanted to learn about Zero and Kaname.
Why was Zero so hostile towards Kaname?
And why did Kaien always say such hurtful things to Zero?
Couldn't he see how much it hurt Zero?
I remembered that Zero despised himself.
So when Kaien would say things, I would watch Zero's reaction wordlessly.
Wishing I could comfort him.
But I never knew how.
Ah.
I forgot.
I had a dream.
About the time Zero met Kaname.
He had looked so angry.
His eyes were filled with a soundless rage.
Kaname had left.
Saying that it was best.
I had tried to comfort Zero then, but he had batted me away.
"Don't you dare touch me with that hand that you used to touch him." He had snapped at me.
I realised after I woke up.
That I really didn't understand Zero.
But I wanted to.
So much.
