A night.
Just one night.
But now that I remember it, I wished I hadn't been on my own.
I had a realisation that night, when I was patrolling the silent gardens.
I realised, much to my dismay, that I was alone.
So alone.
In this world.
Zero belonged.
To his side.
The hunters.
Kaname belonged.
Without a doubt.
To his side.
Everyone belonged.
But me...
I was alone.
I...was torn in the middle.
I was weak and no good to anyone.
To my surprise, this realisation calmed me a little.
To know my place.
Even if it was small and useless.
This was it.
I didn't care anymore.
If I was to be alone.
I wished to know why.
Why was I so distant and alone?
Why?
So I was going to make them answer my questions.
I didn't care if they wanted to or not.
I'd make them.
It wasn't hard to get Kaname, Zero and Kaien all together in one place.
Every now and then, they'd all meet in Kaien's office to discuss things.
Things I was never allowed to know.
Not this time.
I stood, waiting, just outside Kaien's office.
They'd notice that I was there sooner or later.
They'd have to ask me to come in.
Then...
I'd know.
I didn't have to wait long.
"Yuki. Come in." I heard Kaname's gentle voice call to me, and I instantly entered the room.
When Kaname saw my expression, which was one of sheer determination, he frowned.
"Yuki? What's wrong?" He stood up and tried to look me in the eye.
It took all my strength to walk right past him and up to the desk.
I slammed my hands down on the wood.
Releasing my anger and confusion that had built up so badly the last few nights.
"Tell me!" I demanded.
Kaien didn't say anything.
I was happy about that.
His expression stayed serious and he glanced over to Kaname, and then Zero.
"Tell me what happened!" I said again. "I need to know!"
"Sit down Yuki." Kaname told me and his tone instantly relaxed me.
I sat down in his chair.
Thankful for the support it gave me.
Kaien closed his eyes and sighed.
"I knew it would come to this." He muttered and when he reopened his eyes, the intensity shocked me.
"Do you remember anything Yuki? Anything at all?" He asked me.
His tone was quiet, but it held absolute sincerity.
I swallowed.
"No. I don't. That's what's making this so hard." I told him.
I tried to hold my voice together.
I was proud that it didn't break.
He sighed again.
"Maybe I should explain."
It was Zero.
I glanced over to him.
His voice sounded strange.
I hadn't heard him speak like that before.
An awkward silence fell over the four of us.
"Yes?" I asked.
Trying to break the silence that was threatening to break me.
"Well...Ugh...We went out. To...well to town really. You asked to go to the park, because you hadn't been there for so long..." Zero trailed off, recalling the event in his mind.
"It had started to get dark by the time we got there. You insisted it was alright. We'd only be there for a few minutes..." Zero continued.
A sense of dread began to rush over me.
It started in my stomach and spread slowly into my heart and through my limbs and he told me how he'd forgotten something at a shop.
I'd told him that I'd stay at the park.
It'd be fine.
Everything was always fine.
"I was only gone a few minutes." He was rushing now.
"But I had a feeling something was wrong...I began to run, I almost fell a few times..."
I...I could remember.
There had been snow.
Just a little.
Then...
"Then Yuki...I knew something was wrong..."
I glanced up at him.
"What? How?"
I had to hear this.
This was the important part.
"And then...
"That was when I heard you scream..."
