I was nervous.
More nervous than I should've been about something like this...
But...I was afraid of what they'd think.
They?
The night class.
My new classmates.
And...
My new followers.
I've always felt so below them...and now...to be announced to them as if I were a queen...
It's a little daunting.
As I made my way through the ornate corridors of the moon dorms, my heart rate multiplied.
Kaname had been leading me by my hand, but now he turned to me, his eyes spilling warmth and I instantly calmed down.
He pulled me briefly into his arms.
"It'll all be perfect...I promise." He murmured into my ear and withdrew from me.
I swallowed the fear and nodded, smiling warmly at him.
He retook my hand and once again, we began walking.
The sounds of their voices got louder and louder as we approached.
The butterflies were attacking me from the inside.
But all I had to do was glance at Kaname's reassuring smile and everything was fine.
Even if these people didn't accept me, he still would.
Wait...
What if...what if he was disappointed?
What if...when they failed to accept me, he'd feel ashamed and push me away.
My hand tightened on his as the thoughts began to escalate.
What if...
What if this happiness ends?
"Yuki..." His soft voice cut through my momentary reverie.
"Remember what I told you..."
I frowned.
"What did you tell me?"
His lips lifted slightly more than usual, amusement shone in his eyes.
He leant forward and I felt his lips against my ear.
A blush made its way across my cheeks.
"I'll always love you."
He pulled away and I wanted to growl at the loss of warmth, but resisted.
Kaname pulled me finally to the top of the long staircase that led down to the entrance of the moon dorms.
All the speaking hushed.
I felt so many eyes on me at once.
I stared solemnly at my shoes.
I felt Kaname squeeze my hand softly in reassurance and I raised my head to look at the night class.
What I saw shocked me more than if they held hatred in their eyes.
What I saw was...
Acceptance.
"Everyone...this is Yuki." I heard Kaname's soft voice and the tense atmosphere lifted considerably.
"From now, she will be staying with us here."
I saw everyone nod.
A strange cold fear began to take me over.
This...acceptance...what if...what if Kaname had already told them all to accept me?
Why else would their cold and aloof demeanour that I knew so well be suddenly gone?
What if they were all forcing this for Kaname's sake?
I looked at Kaname then, my eyes questioning.
He only smiled at me and led me down the stairs to meet them all.
My fear was eating me and I could tell that I wasn't doing a very good at hiding it.
"Yuki! I'm so glad you're here!" I heard a voice to my right and turned to face them.
It was Takuma.
I forced a smile.
I hoped he wouldn't notice how fake it was.
He seemed satisfied though and beamed back at me.
"I'm very glad to be here too..." I told him.
It took a while, but I was soon finished greeting everyone.
It was odd, because I couldn't feel any lies in their words and their smiles.
All the same, the fear stayed there.
It was soon mixed with confusion.
I was confused as to why I was thinking like this.
Perhaps...perhaps this is the natural paranoia of being a pureblood.
I glanced at Kaname as he talked to Takuma quietly.
Perhaps this fear and confusion as to who to trust were why Kaname seemed so guarded all the time.
I shook it off.
I wouldn't allow my stupid, ungrounded suspicions to ruin this new acceptance.
I watched as Takuma nodded silently to Kaname.
Kaname glanced quickly over to me, his eyes held something there.
A hidden feeling that I couldn't decipher.
It was gone so fast that I wasn't even sure if it was really there.
The paranoia escalated quickly.
Was Kaname planning something?
If so, then what was it?
I noticed him walking towards me.
"Yuki...May I speak with you in our room?"
Our room?
I brushed it off.
I didn't mind it.
I followed him swiftly up the staircase.
And into our room.
I had hardly entered the room before I was enveloped in his arms.
His lips were at my ear again.
"I'm sorry my love...I know that we've only been together for such a short time..."
My heart rate instantly rose.
What was wrong?
Was he really pushing me away?
Was he?
"But I..."
I felt him kiss my ear tentatively...
"But I have to leave you..."
