Worried.

I was desperately worried.

As we all went back to the moon dorms, I couldn't help but feel nervous.

I knew it had only been a short while...

But Kaname hadn't returned.

I was so used to him.

Used to him being constant.

Even if it was only for a few moments each day...

But he was always there.

I could rely on that...

Now, without him...I felt a coldness I hadn't felt for so long...

I sighed.

Thinking about it wasn't making it any better.

But...sitting here...

In mine and Kaname's room...

I really feel out of place...

When I'm alone.

I can imagine that none of this is real.

That I'm still just the old me.

I could be here because I fainted or something...and Kaname carried me here...

There are so many reasons I can think up.

I lay back on the bed.

I hadn't realised before just how soft the bedclothes were.

I bring them around me and breathe them in.

Even though they're new...

And have probably been washed about five times before being put on this bed...

They smell like him.

Only faintly...

But it's enough.

I pull them tighter around me and bury my face deep into the softness.

There is nothing else that could smell this good.

Nothing this comforting.

Darkness soon took me over.

I fell into a restful and dreamless sleep.

-----

I woke shortly afterwards.

I could tell because the light hadn't changed much.

But there is one thing that's different.

I can feel strong, gentle arms around me.

Holding me.

"Ka...name?" I murmur, hoping that if this is a dream, my voice won't shatter it.

I feel his arms tighten protectively.

"I'm sorry if I woke you..."

I smile and burrow into his chest.

Then I stop.

His voice.

He sounded...different.

I pulled away sharply and looked at him carefully.

He looked strained.

Guarded.

And once again...

Lonely.

I place my hands on both sides of his face.

"What's wrong? What happened?" I ask.

My voice sounds frail and weak.

I'm worried.

Very worried.

But he doesn't reply.

He simply takes my hands into his own and smiles at me.

But this time I can see that it's forced.

He shakes his head and pulls me back into his arms.

"Did something happen?" I mumble into his chest.

"No. Everything's fine." I hear him say.

"What did you do to the council?" I ask.

Surely, he wouldn't have killed them.

I know Kaname.

He's gentle and kind.

He wouldn't harm anything...

Surely...

"Nothing. I spoke with them. Everything's...everything's fine..." He pulled me in tighter when he got to the last word.

Although I couldn't detect a single lie.

Although I knew he wouldn't lie to me.

I could hear the defeat in his voice.

But I also knew that because of the sound of that defeat, I shouldn't press for more details.

Instead, I move my ear to where I can hear his heart beating.

I close my eyes.

I know now...

This is no dream.

And that makes me happier than words could ever describe.

"Yuki..."

I twist my head awkwardly to look at him.

"We're leaving the school."

My eyes widen with shock.

"What? Why?"

Wait...

I would be leaving...

Zero behind...

I couldn't...

"But Zero..." I mumble and trail off, not sure how to voice what I meant.

I wasn't sure if I really saw it, but I thought I saw Kaname's eyes look even lonelier.

"We need to leave Yuki. Because you've just awoken, we need you in a good environment."

I held his eyes for a moment before looking down.

"The night class will be coming with us."

So many emotions began to swirl around inside me.

Each one vying for my attention.

I shoved them away hastily, afraid that my confliction would show on my face.

I looked back at Kaname.

"I'll go." I say, not sure whether or not I was happy with my decision.

I could see his smile widen the tiniest bit.

But it was tainted with something else.

Worry?

Disappointment?

Fear?

I had no time to think about it before he slowly laid me back down onto the bed.

He began to stroke my hair softly.

The motion began to make me feel drowsy.

Before I knew it, I could feel my eyelids drooping.

But before I fell asleep, I heard Kaname's voice close by.

And I felt his lips against my ear.

"Remember...my precious Yuki...I'll always love you..."