Carters Pov:
i walked upstairs in my room and sat down on my bed.
What the fuck just happend?. He was shaking like crazy! I picked up my phone and called Pixie
``Hey´´ i heard her voice say and i just started talking about what hap pend and 10 minutes alter she finally said something
``i bet he was high and having the munchies´´ she said totally seriously and i started laughing...wait...could that happen
``he said he wasn't on drugs´´ i said and she sighed
``yes because drug addicts love to tell people when they are on something´´ she said sarcastically...could Paul really be on drugs?
``so plan is to stay away?´´ i asked her and she didnt respond...what the hell is going on with people today
``pixie?´´ i asked
``oh right sorry i was nodding´´ she said and giggled...weirdos the whole bunch! I bet i am like the only sane one in this entire town...what is that sound?
``there's like a pounding sound´´ i said matter of fact
``you mean someone is knocking on your door´´ she said...oh..OHHH
``right gotta go but thanks Pixie´´ i said and hung up while running down the stairs. I put the phone on the table by the door...its like really late i wonder who it could it be? I looked in the little hole in the door...crap...what do i do? think carter think...AGHHH THINK OF SOMETHING
``i know your there´´ he said through the door...shit he is gonna kill me
```this is a robot´´ i said in a robot tone...holy crap i am a genius..not that the last part was sarcasm
``Carter let me explain´´ he said sounding crushed...hell to the no! I am not listening to some druggie
``please´´ he said so softly i almost couldnt hear...well he did say please. I opened the door and he looked at me with a pained expression
``i scared you´´ he said not as a question but as a fact
``alot´´ i whispered looking down and i saw him hesitation but he took a step towards me and stood right in front of me
``i know we just met...but Carter...i care alot about you...it scares me how much i...i feel a constant need to make you happy´´ he said taking my hand in his. Holy crap that was deep...well kinda
``there's something else going on...i dont know what...but i can feel it´´ i said the last part looking up at him and his face looked pained
``i cant tell you´´ he whispered his eyes looking into mine
´´so what now?´´ i asked taking a step back feeling almost...hurt? That he didn't trust me.
``carter´´ he said taking a step forward but i stopped him with my hand and he stood still again
`` i want to be...whatever you need me to be´´ he said …..what the hell does that mean? Is he like looking for a job or something?
``are you high?´´ i asked looking down ashamed that i asked him that
``no carter its nothing like that...i want to tell you but he wont let me´´ he said taking a step forward holding my hand again...he? What his drug dealer or something
``who?´´ i asked and he looked down not answering...asshole
``please leave Paul´´ i said looking away from his eyes...if i looked there i would have begged him to not ever leave me. It scared me how much i wanted to be near him
``carter´´ he said sounding broken. I could feel tears welling up in my eyes...WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?
``please just go´´ i said my heart cracking. He looked at me like he wanted to hold me and never let go...if he did...i would never want him to let go
``i am begging you...i promise you i will explain when i can...but not now...while your...your not ready´´ he said looking like he was willing to go down on his knees if that's what i asked him
``i am not some stupid Blondie who wouldn't understand´´ i said through my teeth and he chuckled darkly
``i know´´ he said taking my other hand in his
``for gods sake Paul...i beg of you...i feel different when i am with you and it scares me...it freaks the fuck out of me...i feel complete when your with me..i dont know if i am becoming insane but i need you...but i cant if you dont trust me´´ i said a tear rolling down my cheek. Paul looked down
``you dont understand how much i want to...tell you but i literally cant´´ he said his voice breaking...i felt shattered..torn apart.
``then i cant either´´ i said letting go of his hands and shutting the door...i fell to the floor feeling like i killed my heart...i needed him and i didn't even know his last name...i picked myself up and walked up the stairs crying...i realised then...even though if Paul was someone i had almost just met...he had done things to me that no one else had done...he had made me cry, shout and felt like a nervous wreck but why? I dont understand why i need him so much?...i got into bed and hugged my pillow. I heard various howls of...pain? Someone seriously needed to take care of this wolf problem!...i thought for a while and decided i would pretend today never happened...i would forget Paul and just...go on
