Chapter 18
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"Meghan, we are going to get out of this too. Don't panic. He's not going to hurt your or the baby. He has a OBGYN coming to check US out to make sure OUR babies are ok. But he won't rape us or beat us up while WE carry OUR babies. So try to just do as he says as long as it isn't harmful. Hotch and the other will find us. So we have to hold out until they get here. Sound good to you?" Emily assures Meghan.
"Can't we just escape?" Meghan asks, not wanting to stay here with John as he is too unpredictable. She fears for her unborn child.
"When he took me to the house, I couldn't see the road. I can't tell how far from the road we are. So I think that would only be trouble for us. I know Hotch and the others are coming for us. I can feel him. It sounds weird, but it's almost like I can hear him telling us to hold on. Hopefully he'll be here before the doctor comes. I just think if this doctor is friends with John, he might not be as caring as we would hope. But that's just my own theory. And remember, I just had surgery. So I could be slightly off my game." Emily says, not sounding like herself. She checks her bandages on her thigh area where the fresh stitches are covered. She checks to see if there is blood or drainage coming through the thick bandage. Once her eyes adjusted to the darkness, she could see a couple of small, dark, roundish spots. She began to worry more.
"Hi, new mommy! Congrats! We are so happy for you sweetie. Sorry I wasn't here for you." Garcia says, as she walks into JJ's room and gently hugs her.
"Pen, it's not like you really could have done anything. It was a c-section. But thank you so much for getting the car seat. Did you see Billie?" JJ asks.
"No, we went to pick up some things for the baby. They are in your hotel room. We brought the car seat, some blankets, a few onesies and a gift from me." Garcia says, showing the car seat, car seat bumper, blankets, the onesies and then held up an outfit. It says, 'My Aunt Penny love bald, cute men'.
JJ laughs, "Oh, did you get one for Derek too?" Which made all of them laugh.
"I tried, but they didn't have his size. Don't think I didn't think about it." Garcia says, winking at Morgan.
"Thank you so much Pen. This is so wonderful. I just wanted Billie to at least have met his father. But part of me is a little glade he will never meet Will. Will was changing. Just before he died, he wasn't the same. He was more distracted and angry. I was starting to think that he was cheating and didn't want Billie and I. But Billie can never know. I want him to love his father. I think with my hormones I hurt more him after he was gone. Or maybe it was because I hurt more for Billie." JJ seemed sad. Rossi, Morgan and Garcia were all just shocked at JJ's confession. It just made you believe you never know what goes on behind closed doors.
"JJ, did he ever hit you?" Rossi asks. Morgan and Garcia were curious to hear the answer to that.
"No, but a few times he came close. But he left the house when he couldn't control himself. If he would have hurt me, I would have pressed charges." JJ stares at her hands while nervously wringing them.
"Why didn't you tell any of us before?" Rossi asks, trying to not want to re-kill Will.
"Because, I often thought I was just being overly sensitive. You all saw how one sentence could often be taken out of context. Then I also thought that maybe he was tired of hearing me ball like a baby out of the blue." JJ says, making excuses.
"JJ, honey, that is what pregnant women do." Garcia says.
"Yeah, my sisters all cried with ever pregnancy. A few more than the others. It's different with each woman and each pregnancy. My oldest sister hardly cried with her first baby, but the second one she cried non stop from 3 months to delivery. My other sisters cried with both babies. We as men have to understand. You body goes through the wringer. Ups and downs. Some women get cravings and others don't. Other have lot's of aches and pains all through the pregnancy when others don't. Some get morning sickness and others don't. If he couldn't have dealt with your crying, he could have talked to one of us and we could've helped. He was being a coward." Morgan explains and comforts.
"Thanks Derek. I just didn't know how to help him. But anyhow, did you see him? Dave, could you take them to see Billie please?" JJ asks, trying to get a few moments alone to cry and grieve for Will and Will Jr's losses.
"Sure Jen. Can I bring you back anything?" Dave can see the sadness in her baby blue eyes.
"Nope. I'm good, thanks. Tell Billie I will be there to see him soon." JJ had so many emotions going on that they were mixing together. Sadness, anger, fear, excitement, happiness and relief.
"Will do Jen. You rest. I'll be back soon. Penelope and Derek must get back to help find Emily and Meghan."
"Meghan, we might have a problem. My bandage is soaking with blood. So that means that my cut is open. Since I can't see well to find out what's going on with it, I can't risk taking the bandage off due to possible infection. So that means I might get weak. If that happens, just do as Logan asks. Don't give him reason to hurt you in any way. They will find us. We just have to hold it together. Did I ever tell you of the time that I was in a hostage situation and got the crap beat out of me?" Emily nervously laughs.
"No. Why?" Meghan asks lying on the bed rubbing her stomach.
"This bad man was brainwashing people into believing he was God. He was sleeping with young girls to get them pregnant. I had to go in as a social worker. But he figured out that I was FBI. So he took me to a small room and beat and kicked me. But I didn't crack. I knew my team would come and get me." Emily's eyes tear up.
"Wow. That must have been hard. And hurt a whole lot." Meghan says, imagining the scene as Emily told it.
"Well, it didn't feel great. But in my line of work you kind of have to expect getting hurt to some degree. We shoot guns. Deal with killers and psychos. It happens. But we get through it and move on. When you can't, you seek help. Nothing wrong with asking for help." Emily made sure that Meghan knew it wasn't a bad thing going to counseling. She knew Meghan would have to have major counseling after all this. Maybe it was time Emily sought counseling too. She hadn't had much time to let the fact that she had been raped more then once.
At this time all she could seem to really think about getting to Aaron. And Meghan back to her parents. It was going to be a long fight. So she had to FBI up and separate Emily from Agent Prentiss. She was determined to want this out and be in Aaron's arms.
"You think I should get counseling, right?" Meghan wanted to make sure she was understanding correctly.
"I would say go once or twice to see how it feels. If you feel somewhat better, continue. If not, wait a while and try again. Counseling helped me when I was younger. When I felt lonely. My parents were always busy. So counseling made me understand that they loved me, but also loved their jobs. It might work for you." Emily says positively.
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