*Hits head over keyboard* this story just doesn't seem to finish…I don't like that about it. XP. But see? I updated! I updated!
Chapter 10
Sick Stalker
Would you hurt me?
December, 31st, 2009
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
Today, my entire life tips upside down.
The scientists come back and tell me that they want to experiment on me. Oh whoa is me. I'm so damn happy that I get to be nothing more than a piece of flesh everyone is going to experiment on until the day I die.
The minute they come in, all they keep mentioning is the fact that they stabilized me. They brought me back to life.
I didn't want to be brought back to life anyways!
Why are they doing this to me…?
Randy sits beside me and protests while I bury my head into his shoulder and try not to let the tears fall rapidly from my eyes because of all this horror that keeps repeating itself in my head. I'm nothing more than an experiment to them and Randy—Randy's really trying to make something more out of me but is it worth it anymore…?
Is it worth anything anymore?
"He's human! You can't treat him like a puppy dog! Even animals aren't allowed to be experimented on."
"But we saved his life." A blue eyed scientist assures, 'and in that, he owes his entire life to us."
"No! You can't do that!" Randy's eyes are now bubbling with anger and desolation that I've never seen before, 'how would you feel if you know that your daughter or wife or someone you love as close as I love Ted becomes an experiment!?"
"That's unacceptable!" the same blue eyed scientist says, his mouth widened. "I will not let anyone hurt my family!"
"And Ted's my family…"
"What if we tell you that we're trying to make you a family?" the blue eyed scientist gets to a point that we don't understand but he knows that he's caught Randy and I's attention for now. "We want Theodore and your DNA to try and make a child of some sort. What if it comes to that? Then do you think it would be okay?"
Randy looks at me, 'they got me, Teddy."
I know I want to make Randy happy so it's come to that and I start nodding my head even if I don't want a family. I just want it to be me and Randy. Forever. Just me and him. Why do people want babies anyways? They just ruin anything. They need to be nurtured and they need to grow up and be fed and all that…
What if I can't do that?
I know I can't do that.
I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to hurt the ones I love either. Cody comes back and he's so bouncy with energy and I'm scared to tell him that everything won't be the same. I am now in the same room with the people who'd given away their careers for me, who aren't the same because of me, who had been broken too many times because of me…and yet, I didn't do anything to help them.
I don't know what to do to help them.
Cody's always so damn perky that it scares me sometimes when he gets sad, and Randy, Randy cares about all of us, we've always been this tight trio and I don't want anything to break us apart. Me, Randy and Cody. I just want us to always be together, is that too much to ask for…?
This baby will break everything.
But at the news, Cody's face brightens; the tan skin turns to pale tan as he bounces up and down excitedly and runs to me before hugging me and engulfing me into a tight embrace. We don't need a baby. If it's anything, Cody is like our little baby. He's our everything. He can keep us all together no matter what. Can't he?
This is going to ruin everything. I know it.
This is the worst start to our new year.
X Sam.
