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As I journeyed the familiar route from Evelyn to my chambers I pondered over what I could do to ensure Evie was safe. As long as she was within these walls she would never be safe. It would only take one of my kind to stumble upon her and it would all be over. I could barely consider Evie's cold, dead form without breaking down, plagued by powerful and foreign emotions. What hold did she have over me? I asked myself yet again, still no clearer about the answer. I could buy a place nearby for her to live in. I could sneak there in secret and we could be happy just being together. Deep down I knew something like that could never work. One day someone would follow me out of curiosity and my secret would be discovered. The secret I could scarcely believe to be true myself. Was I falling in love with a human? I don't even know if these feelings were love. What was love after all? It had been so long since I had even been in the presence of such affections. Some of the vampires had their mates but that was different. That was normal… accepted. Being in love with a human however, was not. The only way I could make our situation normal was to turn Evie. That was something I could not do. The thought of turning such a warm, kind person into a cold monster like me was inconceivable. She was so young, not older than seventeen, and I could not take the rest of her life away from her and replace it with an existence of bloodlust, brutality and death. If I truly loved her I had to do the one thing that would save her. I had to do the one thing that would allow her to have a normal, happy life… I had to let her go.

Deep in my thoughts I hadn't even realised that I had reached my chambers and that I was standing in the centre of the room. I looked down at my clothes and realised that the grime from the dungeon cell had soiled them and decided to change. I could not afford questions that may lead to Evie being discovered. I tried to find something that wasn't as dark as the life I led but it was futile. Everything in my wardrobe was a dark and cruel shade of black. I could not escape the monster I was and I had to accept that. Grabbing the first thing my hand came to rest on I shrugged another dark, nondescript jacket over my shoulders and left for the throne room knowing I would be needed… it was time for the Volturi to deliver their daily justice as they called it. However, I was beginning to see it for what it was… violent and inescapable tyranny.

As I reached the grand chamber I saw the first of the "criminals" being dragged through the door. His physical age was approximately 25 and his real age wasn't so much older. He was a newborn. I could see from the touchy movements in his limbs and from the way his eyes darted to every icy face in the room. He was petrified and he had reason to be. Aro rose from his seat and walked down to the stairs before him to stand over the newborn. The young vampire may have been near out of his mind with horror but he immediately sensed that he was in the presence of great power and became more subdued. He knew this was the end.

"What is your name?" Aro asked in his soft yet commanding tone, laced with subtle malice.

"Romano," the young one answered, the fear crystal clear in his voice.

"Ah, Romano," Aro muttered, "What is your crime Romano?"

A look of immense pain washed over the Romano's face and I had to check if Jane was not responsible but she was not even in the room.

"I…" Romano choked, "I killed..."

"Haven't we all!" Aro boomed in sickeningly jovial voice as Romano sunk impossibly lower to the floor. Aro was right though… we all were murderers. We were all monsters.

"I killed a woman in the town centre in front a family…" Romano trailed off. "I killed the woman who was once my wife."

I suddenly understood the pain in his face. He had obviously been one of us long enough for his human memories to begin filtering back in fragments. He would have seen the woman and recognised her. He would have felt this insane draw to her and mistaken it for bloodlust as so many had done before him. After he had killed her the memories would have taken on more clarity and he would have realised what he had done. The self hatred evident in his eyes affirmed my conclusion.

"Well you are very lucky," Aro said insincerely. I knew he was anything but lucky to be kneeling before Aro.

"The family has been… shall we say, taken care of." The cruel glint in his bright red irises was evident. I felt myself wince and I had to look away. An entire family had been killed for simply being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Because they had witnessed something they should not have. What if it had been Evelyn? I knew that if Evelyn was discovered her fate would be the same. I had to get her as far away as possible. I turned back to Aro as he delivered his usual "judgement".

"Unfortunately," Aro went on with a wicked smile, "you have still broken our most important law. You have exposed our kind to the humans and such a crime carries a certain punishment."

As Aro approached Romano eyes took on a glazed look.

"I shall join her then…" he said wistfully.

Aro suddenly let out a merciless laugh. It reverberated against every surface in the room and made it seem as if evil permeated the very air.

"No you won't, young Romano!" he boomed jovially. "You are one of us… soulless and damned. You will not see human her ever again. Enjoy your eternity without her."

With that Aro nodded to Felix and the started leading him out. This was different. He should be dead already.

"You are free to go young one," Aro said, not bothering to hide the malice anymore.

"NO!" Romano screamed realising he was being assigned a punishment far worse than death. He was being sentenced to live for an eternity with his guilt and without his beloved.

"No! Please kill me! Please don't make me live without her !" Romano screamed as he was dragged out of the chamber.

Aro turned and shot Marcus and Cauis a devilish smile and returned to his seat. As I watched him I saw a scene play out that would rival any painful visions Jane could cast upon me.

I kneeled beside the human body with warm blood still dripping from my lips. I looked down at the one I had just hungrily drained. Those blonde curls looked eerily familiar. I turned the human over to better inspect her face. The beauty I saw within sparked a far off recognition. I was still near mad with bloodlust. I was still regaining control over the monster I had happily unleashed. Suddenly the monster vanished from my consciousness and I was left with a crushing and overwhelming grief…

"Evie…" I muttered before I could stop myself. Aro turned to me with a quizzical look. I had spoken her name so softly but I knew Aro had heard me. I looked into his eyes and I knew if the situation in my waking nightmare was to become reality I would be in the same position as Romano… racked with guilt and unable to end it. I knew that I would beg Aro for death just as Romano did. To live without her and to know I was the reason the world was missing her beauty made my frozen insides twist in horror. I had to get her away. I had to save her from the inevitable. Turning on my heel I fled to the dungeon before anyone could realise I had left. I had to save Evie. I had to save myself.


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