Chapter 11 Lean on
After Tonks did a simple charm to heal the muggle's wounds, she wiped his memory away. They pushed his unconscious body to aside, knowing the man would wake up in a few moments confused and with a terrible headache.
"Let's go!" Tonks said as she grabbed Lupin's arm and pulled him out of the alley. Lupin wasn't sure how long they were running, but the two were running as fast as they could.
Finally Tonks stopped once they apparently reached an empty park. They were both out of breath and unable to speak. Remus looked at his hands to realize that they were covered in blood. He tried to wipe the blood on his coat. He couldn't believe he let his emotions take over him like that.
Due to long awkward silence between them, Lupin felt obligated to speak, "I, uh, I am so sorry. I don't know what came over me."
Tonks, however, was not saying anything and still had her back to him.
Remus walked closer to her, "Look, I didn't mean for it to get so out of control. Please, forgive me."
But unexpectedly Tonks turned around and hugged Remus tightly. "Remus, I was so scared." He was taken aback by this response. He noticed her heavy tears falling on his jacket and her hair changed a deep blue.
"I thought he was going to kill me." Tonks cried. Remus could feel the raw emotions emitting from Tonks, and he couldn't help but hold her tightly.
"It's okay." Remus whispered.
Tonks broke free from the hug, and said "It's so embarrassing." Tonks whipped the tears from her eyes and sat down on a nearby bench.
"That's rubbish. There's nothing to be embarrassed about." Lupin sat next to her.
"No, it is very embarrassing. I just gutted when I saw his knife. I just stood there and didn't do anything," Tonks tried to catch her breath, "With you-know-who on the rise, I shouldn't be frightened about a muggle… I guessed I never face death before, or at least I have never been that close to death. I guess it's becoming more real to me." Tears started to fall down her cheek.
Remus wiped the tears from her face. This was almost a completely different Tonks. He was used to seeing her so alive and bold; seeing her upset and vulnerable was unnatural.
She leaned in and Remus could tell that she was going to kiss him. There were a million thoughts filling his head telling him not to let her kiss him. However, on a quick whim, he decided to let her kiss him.
She hovered an inch from her face and it was as if the whole word stopped. Her lips lightly pressed against his lips. He could feel that she had put so much more passion into the kiss.
As Tonks started to move closer to him and leaned on top of him, she broke free from kiss and placed her hands around his neck. As she moved in for another kiss, Remus's was once again overwhelmed with fear. As she was inches away, he said "Tonks wait."
Tonks, a few inches away, didn't look mad but utterly disappointed. "Remus, please. I care about you so much. I know you do too. Please!"
She moved in closer to kiss him, but he stopped her and said, "I can't. I just…" He took a long deep breath and decided to be honest with her. "I'm scared, Tonks."
"Of what?" She said sympathetically.
Remus looked deep in her eyes and said, "…of everything. I'm afraid of everything."
Tonks did not say anything, but she could tell that he was genuinely afraid of getting hurt. She felt that words weren't necessary at that exact moment; she just grabbed his hand and held it tightly.
Chapter 12 Preview: How does Tonks thank Lupin?
