Toby Isaacs

Toby thinks he's had a pretty low-maintenance life. He believes never really had to go through all the drama other students at Degrassi have. He's suffered quietly as he watched the world around him grow. So when Toby dreams, it's more of a nightmare. He dreams that he's in someone else's shoes, going through what he never did. He would dream he had done things differently, that he had gotten his girlfriend pregnant, or caught an STD, or started cutting himself. Toby would completely forget about what he actually went through; getting caught looking at porn, not eating to get onto the wrestling team, even getting beat up on more than one occasion. He would just slink into the corners of his mind and deal with his imaginary problems.

When he has nightmares, they're easily confused with him being awake. He would live his life normally, because in his nightmares, Toby had no control. He would be back in Degrassi with Liberty, still watching her behind closed eyes or turned heads because Toby has loved Liberty since he met her. JT would be alive again, and Toby would have to live JT's death over and over again. He would have to stand still and watch as the people around him suffered; him unable to offer help because he has no idea what they were going through. He would try to help his friends deal with mistakes, losses, and lies; he would try to comfort the people he loved, but he couldn't because he was so in the dark.

Toby hates his dreams. They make him feel selfish.
Toby hates his nightmares. They keep coming true.

He really needs to see his life from someone else's eyes.

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