Chapter 18 Do you Trust me

Remus had never endured so much passion with another person. More importantly, he never actually thought he would allow himself to be this happy. Remus found their naked bodies underneath the sheets and both of them were lying down on their backs, completely out of breath.

Tonks turned over and grabbed Remus's hand. Remus was still catching his breath and trying not to erupt with emotion. It took him the longest time to realize that Tonks was innocently staring at him.

She started to smile and said, "That was great! Bloody brilliant!"

Remus didn't say anything; he was still trying to catch his breath.

"Remus, I just can't believe we did that? Blimely! I never thought that would happen." Tonks started to speak faster and faster, "I am glad it happen it though. I glad that you came out with me tonight. I… there's so much happening between us and we really allowed ourselves to open up to each other."

Remus still was keeping quiet making the moment slightly awkward.

"Did you not enjoy yourself?" Tonks said, noticing his silence.

"Of course I did." Remus said monotonously.

"Why aren't you saying anything?"

"I don't know. Why do find the need to talk?"

"I talk when I'm nervous. If you hadn't notice, you haven't said anything?"

Remus got up and unexpectedly starting to get dress rather quickly, "I think…I um, am going to get going."

"Where do you think you're going?" Tonks said quite disturbed.

"Home."

"What? Why are you acting this way?"

"Like what?" Remus said as he was putting on his undershirt.

"I think you should at least say something after you are with a girl… Why are you acting like it was mistake…"

"Maybe it was." Remus blurted, but immediately felt remorseful. He didn't know why he said that.

Tonks wrapped the blanket over her face and rolled over. Tonks started to cry softly as she moved as far across the bed as she could. How did the mood change so fast? Just a few minutes ago, they were both having the time of their life, but now Remus never felt so far away from her.

"I did enjoy myself Tonks. Very much so." Remus crept next to her, but this didn't seem to faze her. "I… I didn't mean to upset you, Tonks. I just didn't want to screw up by saying something stupid. But of course, by keeping quiet, I've mess everything else."

Tonks finally turned around trying to hide her tears, "But Remus, how many times do I have to say it, you don't have to hide yourself with me."

Remus put his head down self-consciously.

"Do you love me?" Tonks asked.

"Yes. I'm sure of it." He whispered.

"Then you should know that I wouldn't let anything bad happen to you, and you shouldn't let anything bad happening to me."

"I know." Remus muttered.

She pressed her lips against his and said "Then trust me Remus." She rested her head on his chest, hoping a night rest would provide an intimate closeness.

Morning finally arrived and Tonks' eyes were quickly blinded by the bright sun. She turned around to put her back away from the sun. It took a second but she realized that she should have been rolling over on Remus, but instead her head just fell against her mattress. She opened her eyes to find herself alone in her bed.

She opened her eyes widely and looked around her room to see no sign of him.

"Remus?" she called out, thinking he might be somewhere in the house. With no response, she grabbed her robe and headed downstairs and called, "Remus?" She sat on the first step. The long silence nearly broke her heart because she knew she could have gone downstairs and investigate, but didn't need to. Tonks knew she was all alone in her home.

Tonks had never felt more humiliated in her life. She had done whatever she could in her power to make Remus believe that she would never hurt him. Unfortunately, she had not prepared herself for the possibility that he would hurt her.