Holly J Sinclair
Holly J feels like a queen. Awake and asleep, things just seem to go the way they should for her. While asleep, Holly J's mind brings sorts of surprises. She sees herself a natural born winner, which is true enough, and in her mind, there's always meaningless competition. There's always someone there for her to crush, always an obstacle for her to overcome. All Holly J really wants to is have fun at what she does best. Of course, Declan is in her dreams, too. Declan has become the most important part of her life, the two of them embracing in the midst of her dreams is all she really wants. He is the only thing in Holly J's life - and in her mind - that can overcome the urge to win. So, tonight, when Holly J closes her eyes, she's going to dream of him, maybe save some time for winning, but mostly him.
But even Miss Degrassi has nightmares. It's not as though she can't control them, but she has them. Declan is never in her nightmares, which is something Holly J can almost never fathom. She almost had to go through that experience in life, but having an empty spot in her dreams where Declan should be eats away at her heart faster than any other relationship she's been through. In her nightmares, Holly J is a loser, a failure, an outcast, a ne'er do well; whatever you want to call it, she become the anti-herself. Pile this on top of being alone and you're in for a place so deep in Holly J's mind you may never want to venture in there again. Strangely enough, Blue lingers in her nightmares, floating around uselessly, unimportant, ineffective. She has no idea why he's there, but his presence adds to the creepy, unflattering mood.
Holly J uses her dreams to remind herself, "Keep it up and every day can be like that."
Holly J uses her nightmares to remind herself, "Keep it up, or every day will be like that."
Leave it to Holly J to take control of what she can't control.
Next: Peter Stone
(AN: Sorry, about the absence, but I plan to update until chapter 16 or so of this story. Gotta prep for season 10! Plus, maybe we'll be able to learn a little bit more about the characters so I can add chapters about some of the Degrassi enigmas. What do we really know about Connor?)
