Blah, I may have to work the next four nights in a row. If I have to work Saturday night I'll especially be blah, as I would have to work bar and I'm still a pretty inexperienced bartender and Saturdays are always pretty busy, ack. Talk about nerve-wracking, ne? I just dunno if I can handle it at all without another bartender. I'll see what happens tomorrow I guess.
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76. Pretence
It had started with a smile; after all, Rangiku had always been someone who smiled easily. It went a good ways to making her look normal again. In fact, the smile alone made most of her squad stop looking after her in worry.
It was because of the people who knew her well that Rangiku reminded her to laugh in the right places, and make her silly comments. That took care of a few more people.
Hitsugaya and Nanao were harder to convince; they spent far more time with her; knew her so much better. Rangiku almost would have wanted to work, but the second she picked up a piece of paper, she felt Hitsugaya's eyes on her.
Sometimes, she felt like her insides were twisting with the effort of acting normally when her thoughts raged with Gin. When her mind was consumed, she had no idea how she made the right comments or guffawed at jokes. The jokes were not even funny to her most of the time now.
It was a good thing that Rangiku had always overindulged in alcohol, because now she lost herself in the stuff more than ever. That was barely noticeable though with as many times as Rangiku had been hung-over in Hitsugaya's office.
There was one habit that helped above all others; napping. It was a normal sort of thing for her, very normal during the work day. It wiped away pain and passed time, it masked her so she would not have to worry at all about pretending. She wished some days that she could nap away the world.
Yeah, it's almost 4am, I'm really sleepy now, argh.
