Chapter Eight: feeling better…?
He sits there stroking my hair making sure that I'm ok. "Amu you can keep on crying I'm here for you."
"How can you say that Ikuto someone knows?" I whisper as low as I can, "someone is threatening both of us," I start balling and laugh a little, "well mostly me."
He stiffens pulling me out looking me straight in the eyes, "Amu never say that. I promise you this that I'll forever be by your side to make sure nothing bad happens."
I'm glad he kept his voice even and low. He pulls me into a hug and doesn't let go of me.
"Amu please don't cry."
I still think I was crying like a baby until I started to slip into sleep.
When he tried to leave when I was half asleep since my curtains were pulled I grabbed his hand, "Please don't leave me alone Ikuto I'm afraid."
He sits back down on the bed and pulls me into a strong hug, "If you say so."
(Toshiro)
I smile when I saw Ikuto out of bed but just in case I go to check on my sister.
I open the door enough to see my little crying into Ikuto's chest saying she was scared of someone.
I wanted to barge in and I listen to her talk about getting small presents and how getting calls started to day and being threatened.
They whispered a few things when I saw Ikuto make his way to the door I stick my head away from the door only to hear Amu, "Please don't leave me alone Ikuto I'm afraid."
I smile as Ikuto sits on the bed and hugs her soon they both fall asleep.
I smile and walk back to the room remembering to have everyone walk up late.
(Ikuto)
I didn't fall asleep very fast so I pulled her near me and played with her hair in her sleep she smiled and giggled.
It was odd to hear her giggle when she rarely laughs and chuckle. Unless she's being evil she doesn't laugh at all. The last time I heard her laugh was before I started to act more cold towards people I never wanted her to be hurt because of me, but without realizing it pulling away more than anyone the same day one of her friends had been killed.
I she snuggles closer to me, "Ikuto-kun…"
Amu is so adorable in her sleep I never thought I'd end up blushing.
She's so warm and she seems to be careful in the way she's holding onto my shirt.
"Ikuto-kun I'm sorry."
'What is she talking about?' maybe I can see if she does sleep talk.
"What do you mean you're sorry Amu?"
She sighs and hugs me tighter, "For you getting hurt all the time because of me."
What does she mean?
"You always had to hide your feelings. You always acted like there was nothing at the house that interests you. And I pretended you didn't exist just because I don't have the courage to tell you how I feel and I don't care what my brother thought of it. I sat there and brood all the time and when you walk by to make sure you wouldn't give me a second look or stop I'd glare at you. I'm sorry. All you ever gave me was warm hugs, smiles, happy eyes, cute smirks, make me laugh, and even at times give me presents.I have one that I'll give you in the morning Ikuto."
The way she told me she had a gift and she'd give it to me in the morning I blushed deeply.
Under my breathe I sung the lullaby that I wrote when I eight. I never let anyone hear it than one day when Toshiro was stuck dragging around his little sister to my house. She wouldn't fall asleep so I told him to get something for her to drink and as he did that I had set her in the rocking chair and softly singing her the song she was fast asleep by the time she was asleep Toshiro had just got back up the stairs from the kitchen. It was cute the way she curled up in a ball like a kitten that was when I start to feel something for my friends younger sister we were only nine. I smile down at her as she curled up in a ball again. She starts to hum in her sleep like she did all the other times I finished the lullaby. This happened the first time and her brother was absolutely confused, but shrugged he didn't have to worry about his younger sister complaining on how they had kept her up late at night.
When she did this every time I'd hum or sing the lullaby she'd fall asleep soon I would because she would start humming it herself. I'd fall into a blissful sleep.
(Amu)
When I woke up the sun was just coming up making me smile but I realized I saw it behind the form of Ikuto.
He was holding onto me as I slept and I smiled when I woke up and started to poke him in the face like when I was seven and I woke up well we went camping and we had to share a tent. I was young and scared that the big scary monsters were going to get me we had a tent that had a little window on the opposite side he had rolled over to my sleeping bag and I had woken up with him facing me so I started to poke him in the face and giggled from the faces he would make. I smile he must have fallen asleep well I hummed that lullaby that he had written. He tried to make different ones but no matter how he tried I still threw a fit. So he gave up and kept the lullaby singing to me every time I had asked when I was close to my brother. When I was in the hospital after the car accident and couldn't sleep when he visited before he left I asked for him to sing to me. Sometimes when he wouldn't sing I would huff so he'd hum and if he had his violin no matter what he'd play it softly until I was sound asleep.
I smile me memories are a really great thing. When I was in the hospital even after yelling at him and my brother that I hated them he still came to visit. After that I was nicer to him but I was still sometimes cold. I start poking his face again realizing I had stopped. He swatted at my hand and I poke his cheeks than I poke his lips. he still won't open his eyes even if he's faking it I lean over and kiss his lips. His eyes pop open and all I see after how many months complete surprise. I pull away and giggle seeing the way his face looks. I poke him when he tries to go back to sleep and point to the room across from mine. The game room go in there and turn on the TV it's one that doesn't overheat from being on for a night. He smiles and nods, "Ok I'll be in there and watch some. I shake my head and drag him in there and push him on the couch. I know you were up late because my throat feels like I was humming that lullaby and I know when you can't sleep on camping trips you would hum or sing the song and soon after you were done I would start humming smoothly and you'd fall asleep and sometime is could tell how long ago I hummed after so long. You should sleep I'll turn the volume down and you should sleep." He just nods and slips under the blankets that I had handed him.
When I left the room shortly after I got him to sleep I decided to go to the dance studio lucky for me and my brother is that our parents sound proofed it so that me and brother wanted to have loud music or just decide to dance. So I dance and practice for the entrance for the school of Arts in Tokyo. I practice and didn't notice that two hours had went by and my brother was sitting in the entrance with everyone else watching me since for the last hour. Ikuto came trudging into view…
(Ikuto)
I woke up to the sound of music man I'll sleep for hours when I get home if Utau is recording today. When I walk past the dance studio I spot everyone at the door gaping so I look to see Amu with a cute white sun dress with white shorts, a black cropped vest, stripped black and white long socks to her mid thighs, and a black choker with a beads going around it connecting in the middle at the cross…. Wait a second I got her that necklace two years ago, she said she liked it so for her birthday I bought it as a present and she never seemed to wear it. Yet when I look back whenever she dances she's wearing that necklace.
I smile when I realize she's practicing for the try-outs for Swan Lake.
It's cute that she was dressed like this since they are trying to make it more modern so is that close to the outfit that she'll be wearing for the dance.
When she does a pirouette I smile and clap with the others I guess she finally realized that she was being watched and glided over to the Cd player and popped out the cd.
She blushed and I laugh inside, "Oh god you guys were watching me that whole time."
She starts to laugh and her brother joins in, "No we've seen the last hour I had no idea that my sister had such expression you seemed to glide more today. You seem to be happy I hope that you were able to talk it out and have weight lifted."
I know what made her feel lighter on her feet but tits not like I'm going to tell everyone that I laid on her bed and talked to her and that we slept in the same bed they would get the wrong idea nothing happened between me and Amu.
She just laughs, "Of course brother I ran into Ikuto when I planned to stay in the game room because I was scared to be in my room so we played games for a while and he left me basically complain and he just sat there and I think he let me win all the rounds we played."
She seems to be able to lie better than most people and her brother believes every word she says so it's not like he would think he was lying to him. She stops laughing and swiping a few strands from her eyes smiling t us but the reminded of what has been happening makes there be a sad hint to her smile.
(Amu)
Everyone left and I was left alone in the dance studio ad I felt even lonelier than before. I sigh as I pick up my ballerina slippers only to turn around to see Ikuto sneaking into the room.
"Huh Ikuto what are you doing here?" he just shrugs walking over to me….
