Chapter 11: Where do you go.



Karen was lying on her bed because Andy was not letting her out, and she was getting sick of it. Andy enters the room with a tray of breakfast.

"Andy please, I'm getting sicker lying here, please take me to Haley," Karen pleaded her husband.

"Karen…I know you want to help her and trust me so do I, but you need some rest."

"I don't know why God did this," Karen sighed, "Why did he spared me and took that child's life!"

"Karen…" Andy held his wife's hand, "Don't say that, we all need you."

"We also needed Jamie!" Karen snapped, "Haley and Nathan are good people…they didn't deserve that!"

"No one deserves that, watching your child dying is the worst thing any parent can go through."

"I've always loved Haley like a daughter; she was so little when she began working for me, and with her I always felt like I have two children."

"I know…you don't have to tell me that," Andy said, "Did you talk to Lucas and Peyton."

"Yes, I was on a phone with Lucas, he and Peyton just told their kids."

"God….all these kids have to deal with the death!" Andy sighed, "Death of someone who was a child himself."

"That what's hurt me the most," Karen said and wiped the tears that came out from her eyes.

"I know, the older kids may understand after sometime, but younger kids like Anna and Shawn will have harder time."

"You are right; I'm really thinking about Maggie, she was so close to Jamie…I don't know how she will deal without her brother."

"In time she'll learn."

While they were talking, they heard a knock on the door.

"Come in," Karen said in high voice.

Door opened and she saw Lucas standing there, and he was holding Anna.

"Oh Lucas…please come inside," Karen wanted so much to see her son.

Lucas came inside with Jason and Sawyer fallowing him. Andy and Karen both watched the kids, their heads were down and they were silent. In any normal day, Andy and Karen would have to cover their ears, but today everything was opposite.

"Hi grandma," Sawyer said and sat beside her, "How are you?"

"I'm fine, but how are you?" Karen asked both Sawyer and Jason, but none of them answered her.

"I know it's hard for us, we all loved Jamie!" Karen said to Jason and Sawyer.

"Why they have to shoot him?" Jason said in anger, it was obvious that taking all this was hard for him.

Karen gave a look at Lucas, and she could see how desperate he was.

"If you all don't mind, can you give me a little time alone with your father?" Karen asked the kids.

"Ok I take them outside," Andy said and took Anna from Lucas, and Sawyer and Jason fallowed him. Lucas sat beside his mother.

"Mom, I don't know what to do!" Lucas exclaimed, "I just wish I can take this pain away from all of us."

"Lucas, this pain it will never go away…we have to live with this pain," Karen held her son hand, "Did you talk to Haley or Nathan?"

"No mom, I just can't."

"Lucas…" Karen got up, "Please you just can't ignore them, you have to face them."

"I'm still figuring it out how to face them."

"You need to figure it out quickly, please Lucas, they both need you."

"I know mom."

"How the kids doing?"

"They are devastated!" Lucas said, "My kids are not taking it so well…imagine Ashley, Adam and Maggie!"

"I know and it may sound harsh as I know Sawyer and Jason are also grieving, but your kids have to be there for their cousins."

"I know…but we all need some time."

"Where's Peyton and Brain?"

"She's at Red bedroom records, she has to wrap up some work, and she also took Brain with her."

"Lucas, will you talk to Lily?"

"I will how she's doing?"

"Not well, she's not dealing with it, and she's acting like she doesn't even care."

"Fine…I'll talk to her," Lucas said and left the room.


Peyton was sitting in her office. Red bedroom Records was a much bigger company with plenty of staff. Haley and Mia ran it when she left the Tree Hill, but Peyton took it back when she returned. Mia soon left but Haley still remained her partner.

She took the file and opened it, but it turned out to be a wrong one, and in frustration she threw it away.

"Wow that must have missed me by an inch!" Jake said coming inside.

"Jake…when did you come?" Peyton was surprised to see him.

"Just a moment ago, Lucas told me that you'll be here."

"So you got the news too."

"Yes, and trust me this has to be the worst news I ever heard in my life!"

"That's exactly what I'm thinking," Peyton stood up from her chair. "Facing death is not new to me, but this time it's too much!"

"I heard so many stories of people losing their children, but now after I've seen it…its lot more horrible than I think; if something like that ever happens to Jenny…oh God, I can't even think about it!"

Peyton came in front of him, "Yes, we can't even think about it and imagine Nathan and Haley, who are experiencing it!"

Jake sighed but then he looked at Brian, who was lying in the cradle

"So that's your baby boy Brian," Jake said looking at him.

"Yes, whenever I look at him, I see a future and so many dreams!"

"Yes we all see our future in our kids; they carry the part of us with them," Jake said still looking at Brain, "Do you remember when you and Lucas came to Savannah, and we accidentally bumped into each other?"

"I do remember that time, your wife Erin was holding your son John, and I was so amazed to see Jenny so big."

"You took John from Erin and Sawyer who was just three months old got so jealous," Jack said remembering that time, "She looked so cute!"

Peyton also smiled but still it couldn't take away the sadness.

"Did you meet Lucas?" asked Peyton.

"Yes I met him, and he looked pretty messed up."

"Yes, he's a mess and so are my kids."

"Yeah, Jenny is also pretty much overwhelmed too, you know years ago I brought her here to meet my parents, but she also became good friend with Jamie and Lily in no time."

"So when do you plan to meet Nathan and Haley?" Peyton asked.

"I have to meet them today, and I want to help them as much as I can."

"I know they need all the help, but truth is they'll never go back to the lives, they once had."

"I know…getting over the death of such a gifted child is never going to be easy, but trust me in time they'll learn to live with it."

"That's what I hate, Nathan and Haley are good people; Nathan once risked his own life to protect me and my kids from Derek," Peyton voice was full of sorrow.

"What can we say about the God's plans!"

"That's one God's plan, I sure do hate!" Peyton said bitterly.

"Ok I think I shall leave."

"I'm glad you came, it was so good talking to you."

Jack stood and held Peyton's hand as a friend, "I'm still your friend, and I'll always be there for you and your family, whenever you need me."

"Thanks Jake," Peyton was now feeling lot better to share her feelings with someone.


Copper and Deb were standing under the pavement, it was still raining heavily.

"Sky is also crying with us!" Deb said looking at the sky.

"Yeah it seems like so," Copper added.

"Did you call Nina?" Deb said.

"Yes I told her," Copper said, "She'll be here soon."

While they were talking, a car parked in front of them and a young couple in the company of seven years old boy came out. Deb at once came to them.

"Quinn, Clay so you are here."

"Yes we got the news," Quinn said holding back her tears, "Where Haley is and how's she doing?"

"She's now a little better…"

"Trust me when we got the news it was like a lightning struck us," Clay said, "I'm finding it so hard to believe that the child I saw grew up before my own eyes is gone."

"Can I see Haley?" Quinn wanted so bad to see how her sister was doing.

"I don't see any reason why you can't," Deb knew Haley really needs her sister right now.

Door opened and Nathan came out, both Clay and Quinn came to him.

"Hey Nathan, I'm so sorry," Clay said, "Trust me whole team is with you on your loss."

"Thanks," Nathan said but Clay and Quinn could feel that how shallow his voice was.

"Ok I'm going inside, Eddie please come with me," Quinn grabbed the hand of her and Clay's seven years old son, Eddie has blonde hair and was good looking boy with green eyes.

"Are you alright?" Clay asked.

"Well Clay eighteen years of our lives Haley and I gave to raise our son and then just one bullet…one bullet took it all away!"

Clay didn't speak, he could relate to his pain; after all he also lost someone her loved so much and so soon.


Haley was sitting quietly on the couch sipping on her coffee slowly; she couldn't even feel its taste. Quinn entered the room, and watched her sister. Haley was her younger sister, but she felt so old to her at that moment.

"Haley…" Quinn called her name.

Haley turned towards her, "Hi Quinn."

Quinn could feel the pain in her voice; she came and sat beside her.

"I'm here for you," Quinn grabbed her sister shoulders, "I know what you and Nathan are going through, and I'll do everything to help."

"Thanks Quinn."

"Don't thank me, It's my job; I'm your big sister."

"Did you talk to Taylor?"

"Yes, I called her, she be here soon." Quinn said, "How you doing?"

"I just wish that someone put one bullet in me too!"

"Haley!!!" Quinn at once grabbed her hand, "Don't say that!"

"It's just few hours and I'm finding it so hard to carry on, how about the rest of my life!"

"Haley…I know there is no pain bigger than yours, but in time you'll heal." Quinn said holding her sister hand.

"I don't know if I'll ever heal!" Tears began falling again from her eyes again.

While Quinn and Haley we're talking, Eddie slowly walked towards Adam's room. He and Adam were close friends. He opened the door and saw Adam sitting quietly on his bed holding basketball and looking at it.

"Hi Adam," Eddie greeted his cousin.

Adam raised his face and looked at Eddie.

"Get out!" Adam shouted and Eddie was surprised.

"I just want to talk," Eddie said.

"DON'T YOU HEAR ME, GET THE HELL OUT," Adam yelled again and Eddie ran away.

Quinn also heard Adam yelling at son, and she couldn't blame him. Eddie came to her and she could see that he was about to cry.

"Mommy, why did Adam yelled at me?" Eddie asked his mother.

Quinn sat in front of him, "He's sad, he didn't mean to and please stay with me."

Haley was watching them and looking at them is reminding her so much of the old times and with every memory her heart was breaking even more.


Julian and Brook entered the dinner where kids were waiting for them. Millie prepared them breakfast a moment ago and then she left. Shawn, Rebecca and Davis were not eating anything.

"Just look at them," Brook said to Julian with desperation.

"I'm here; we will go through with this as a family."

Julian sat in front of his kids.

"I know all of you are sad, and it's ok to be sad, Jamie was your friend."

"Why he died?" Davis said in a low voice.

"Listen son, no one us know why people die, one day we all have to die."

"But we die when we grow old, Jamie was not old." Rebecca said this time.

"Some people have very short lives," Julian said but himself felt sadness inside him saying those words and Brook turned around, her tears were falling again

"I and your mom are going to Aunt Haley and Uncle Nathan soon," Julian continued.

"Dad I don't want to go there, I can't face Ashley, Adam and Maggie!" Davis said and from watching Rebecca's eyes he knew she also wanted the same.

"Don't worry; we are going to drop you all at Karen's." Julian said, "Please eat your breakfast."

"Dad, we're not hungry," Rebecca said.

Julian looked at Brook and without even saying she knew what Julian wants, so she sat on the table.

"Please eat," Brook handed them the pancakes, "I'm also eating with you."

Her words were enough and they began eating.


Andre was walking on the road. He was all wet, but he didn't care. Soon he was at the river court. Everything that he and his friends wrote two days ago was washed away by the rain.

"That's what our lives are!" Andre said bitterly looking at washed away floor.

While he was looking at the floor someone came to him. He was very tall and thin with short blonde hairs. Andre raised his head and looked at him.

"So Chuck, you're back in town."

"Yes, I'm and I knew you'll be here so I came to check on you."

"Thanks but no thanks," Andre turned his back, "I don't need you."

"Andre, Jamie was my friend too, and I'm also mad at what happened to him, but as his friends it our job to help his family."

"Don't you tell me what to do," Andre was still bitter, "Go to your girl; I can take care of myself."

Chuck watched Andre leaving, he couldn't stop him.


Lucas came to Lily's room. She was sitting alone buried in her thoughts.

"Hi…" Lucas said and Lily almost jumped, "Sorry I didn't want to scare you."

"It's ok."

"How long you been sitting here."

"Why are you asking me that question?"

"I'm your brother and I'm worried about you."

"Thanks but I'm fine."

Lucas sat with her, "Do you want to talk?"

"Please don't give me any lecture."

"I won't, trust me, I'm also not in a mood.""

"You know Jamie would have hated this!" Lily said, "Everyone crying, having their heads down…"

"We are all missing him Lily…" Lucas's voice was full of sorrow, "Don't you?"

"Yes I do but what can we do, he's gone."

Lucas knew Lily didn't want to face the reality. All of a sudden door opened and Karen entered the room.

"There's someone here to see you." Karen said to Lily and looked outside the door.

They both heard footsteps and then saw Chuck entered the room. Lily at once stood up and ran to her boyfriend and hugged him.

"Lucas please give them some time alone, I want to ask you something." Karen said to Lucas and he left the room with Karen leaving Chuck and Lily alone.

"I'm so glad that you're here."

"Where else I should be."

"Chuck please can we go outside?"

"Lily you can see how wet I am and it's still raining heavily."

"I don't care; I just want to get out."

"Ok, if that's what you want." Chuck knew he had no choice but to play along with her.


Lucas was in the living room.

"Lucas I'm going to Haley, and I'm also taking you with me," Karen said coming in front of her son.

"Mom, I'm still not ready to see them."

"Hell you are!" Karen raised her voice, "I'm getting sick of it, you are coming with me, and I'm not taking no for an answer."

"Mom…" Lucas pleaded.

"LUCAS EUGINE SCOTT!!!" Karen was now officially mad, "You are not a child… you're a father of four children, and I want to see you act like it…we all lost Jamie and we are all mourning, Haley and Nathan need you and you should be there."

"Fine mom…" Lucas surrendered.

Karen calmed a little and came to Lucas, "Listen Lucas, I'm your mother and no one but I can feel that how hurt you are, but you have to take some responsibility."

"Yeah mom you're right, I can't ignore them forever."

"That's exactly my point."

While they were talking, they saw Lily coming outside wearing her raincoat.

"Lily, where are you going?"

"I'm taking a walk with Chuck, I'm getting tired of all this."

Karen was about to speak but stopped by Lucas,

"Mom let her go," Lucas turned to Lily, "We trust you and Chuck."

Lily walked outside fallowed by Chuck.

"I'm worried about her!" Karen said with a concern.

"Mom Chuck is a good boy, and he deeply cares for Lily, I think he can help her."

"Yes you are right, I'm glad that Lily has someone in her life that cares so much for her."

All of a sudden the doorbell rang.

"Mom, I'll get it," Lucas said and opened the door, but then he was totally frozen.

Brook was standing in front of him and her reaction wasn't any different from his, they both weren't expecting to see each other like this. Lucas saw Julian behind Brook and broke out of his trance.

"Brook, Julian, I wasn't expecting you." Lucas said looking at Brook, and shook his hand with Julian.

"We are going to Haley and Nathan's, I already talked to Karen, we're here to drop the kids, and I think it's better that our kids should talk and spend some time together," Julian said and watched his kids getting out.

"Yes, I also think it's a good idea," Lucas said watching Brook and Julian kids entering the house.

"Ok Brook I'm gonna talk to Karen, and then we'll go to Nathan's and Haley," Julian said and went inside leaving Brook with Lucas.

Brook looked at Lucas, wanting him to say something but Lucas remained silent; he didn't have the words to say.

"Hi…" Brook finally spoke.

Lucas looked at her, he knew that just like him Brook also loved Jamie like a son and losing him wasn't easy for her too, Jamie was at least one thing they still shared together as their Godson, but now they had nothing together.

"Brook how you doing?"

"Not good!" Brook sighed, "This whole reality of Jamie gone forever…its killing me!"

"I can relate to that!"

"Seems like yesterday when I and Haley found out that she was pregnant," Brook said remembering the time, "She was scared that Nathan won't accept that child and leave her."

"I also had same kinds of doubts."

"But Haley took courage and told him, but guess what, Nathan not only accepted that but stood by her."

"I know, Nathan was so excited to be a father and I was so happy that my nephew's mother was going to be Haley."

"You know when I saw Jamie for first time in his crib, so little and so innocent, I couldn't describe the feeling I had." Brook's eyes were filled with tears, "For the first time in my life I knew kids are miracles and how precious they are."

"He was precious, I also held my sister moments ago but when I held Jamie, for the first time in my life, I felt like a parent and feeling was so great!"

"Why he has to die so soon!" Brook came to Lucas and buried her face in his chest.

Lucas was silent; all he can do was to hold Brook. Julian came out and saw them both, but he wasn't mad or jealous at all, he was happy that they're sharing their feelings together as a friend.


Nathan was sitting with Clay and Copper in the living room while Haley was in the kitchen with her sister trying to her best to get herself busy. Doorbell rang and Nathan opened the door. In front of him was Skillz. Nathan could see that how torn down Skillz was.

"Skillz…please come inside."

Skillz entered the house. He was walking slowly and his head was down, like other he really took the courage to come. Haley saw him coming inside and she at once came to him.

"Skillz, I'm so glad that you're here." Haley said and hugged Skillz.

"I'm so sorry…I broke my promise!" Skillz began crying, "I promised you that I'll have your kid's back."

"It wasn't your fault," Haley said in a low voice.

The doorbell rang once again and this time Haley opened the door, and when she opened the door, Brook and Peyton were standing in front of her… her two best friends.

"Brook…Peyton…" Haley all of sudden hugged her friends and then saw Julian standing behind.

Brook and Peyton held their friend, sharing her deepest pain.

"Thanks for coming," Nathan said coming outside, "I'm so glad that you all came."

"Where would we be?" Julian said coming in front.

"Where's Lucas?" Haley asked as she really needed her friend at this time.

"He, Karen and Andy were right behind us," Brook said and then they saw Karen and Andy's car fallowed by Lucas's.

They all got out of the cars. Haley ran towards Lucas and hugged him.

"I am so glad that you're here, I needed my best friend."

"Don't worry I'm here…and I'll be with you and Nathan in this one," Lucas said holding Haley.


Now everyone was sitting in the living room. They were together like that once when Jamie was abducted, but this time it was different…this time they knew that Jamie was never coming back.

Lucas came to Haley, "How the kids doing."

"Not good…" Haley answered, "How your kids doing?"

"Same with mine, you know Jamie was also close to my kids too."

"I just don't know what to do…my child is gone, and I'm still here…I don't want to live with this reality."

"I know, but as mom said to me…we have to live with it." Lucas held Haley, that's all he could do.

Nathan was sitting with his friends; all of a sudden he gets a call. Everyone got silent and watched change in Nathan's expressions, after a minute the call was over.

"Who was that?" Haley asked.

"Call was from the hospital, autopsy has been done and police has released Jamie's body, we can collect it."

Everyone looked at Nathan and Haley; they knew that now they have the most daunting thing to do…bury their son.

Doorbell rang again and Nathan opened the door. In front of him was Dan.

"I know I'm the last person you want to see…"

"No you can come inside," Lucas said looking at Dan and everyone was shocked, even the Dan himself.

"Lucas, are you alright, do you need some help," Peyton said fearing that Lucas has lost his mind; no chance in hell Lucas can have a soft spot for Dan.

"I know all of you are surprised by this 360 turn, but I'm not doing it for Dan, I'm doing it for Jamie."

"What do you mean?" Nathan asked, he was also very confused, so were the others.

"Jamie asked me and Lily to forgive Dan, and he wanted that for Keith, now Jamie is gone to, and I want to respect his last wish." Lucas told everyone, "But still it's Nathan and Haley's decision to let Dan be here."

Nathan looked at Haley and she nodded.

"Ok you can come inside, my son cared for you, and I think you should be here," Nathan said and Dan came inside, never in a million years would he have thought that his family will welcome him.

Dan sat on the couch, and Lucas came to him.

"I'm only giving you this chance because Jamie wanted that."

"I know what I did to you, Karen and especially Keith and I can't blame you for hating me, but I also lost Jamie, he was the only person in this whole world who cared for me and gave me a second chance."

"You will only get this chance."

"That's all I need."

"Ok, Jamie was with you before he was killed."

"Yes I was the last person he talked to."

"What happened there?"

"Nothing much, he just left and rest of it, I don't know" Dan lied.

"Ok, that's all I wanted to know." Lucas said and left Dan.

Dan was lying once again. He was with Jamie when it all happened to him and if he had shown any responsibility, his grandson would have been alive, but again he was getting what he wanted, so he can't let them know the truth.

His grandson has finally done it for him. He just got him the second chance that he always wanted and Dan couldn't help it…he couldn't help the smile that just came on his face.


So everyone, do you think I forgot about Dan...hell no. You can all see now where I'm taking all this.

As I told you before I haven't seen season 7. Clay and Quinn were never planned but I decide to bring them in, but still they'll have very little part as I haven't seen them yet and I might never see season 7 as for me show ended on season 6. Next chapter will be Jamie's funeral and I'll try to put it soon as possible.

Also I read my earlier chapters and realized that even with my best effort, many errors still remains, especially in chapter 2, when I get the time I'll re-edit them as now my English is a little bit better then before.

Please guys review. I'm really feeling that they are drying on me…