A/N hey guys! I've indefinitely decided to update every other day. Now I'm not sure if this will be permanent so don't get upset just yet. But for now please enjoy chapter 23 of save me!
Chapter 23
Kendall sat up straight in a cold sweat. His eyes blazed with fear as he wiped off the sweat on his brow. He looked at Logan and felt bad. He didn't want to wake him up over a silly nightmare but when the intensity became too much he shakily reached over and shook Logan awake.
Logan mumbled before sitting up in bed. He tiredly rubbed his eyes before looking over at the digital clock. The red numbers that flashed hurt his eyes but the time was three thirty seven in the morning. He looked over at Kendall before wrapping and arm around him.
"What happened, baby? Did you have a bad dream?" Logan asked softly. Kendall nodded against his chest.
"Logie, I want warm milk." Kendall whimpered softly. It's become a routine ever since Kendall saw the thugs. He'd wake up in the middle of the night crying and/or panting and asking Logan for some warm milk. It was the only thing that got him back to sleep along with Logan's soft singing.
Logan nodded before sliding out of bed with Kendall. Kendall clung onto his arm.
"Kendall go change your shirt, you're sweating." Logan gently commanded. Kendall whimpered again.
"I don't wanna go alone, Logie." He said.
"Kendall don't worry, I'm right next door. Just scream if you feel threatened." Logan said gently unlatching Kendall's arm from his. Kendall nodded and slowly and hesitantly walked toward the bedroom door.
Logan started on the warm milk and made a cup for himself too. He sighed and wondered when Kendall would forget. He ran a hand through his short spiky hair and waited for the milk to warm up. Meanwhile he heard shuffling and a small 'Ow' from Kendall. Logan chuckled. Kendall could be such a klutz sometimes.
Once he came out, Logan smiled. Kendall was wearing one of those really over sized white shirts. His hair was mussed and he was in his boxer shorts. He nervously sat down across from Logan and scratched his arms, something he always did when he was anxious.
Logan saw that he had been scratching his arms so much the skin had started to raise up from how hard he was doing it. Logan gently stopped Kendall from clawing at his arm. Kendall looked up, his green eyes penetrating Logan's soft ones.
"Kendall, please don't do that." Logan begged softly.
"Why not?" Kendall asked. He looked as if he would die if he couldn't tear up his arms anymore.
"You're hurting yourself." Logan said reaching over to softly stroke Kendall's hair. Kendall ceased and Logan got up to check on the milk. It was just about getting past warm but Logan poured it into two cups anyway.
He handed Kendall one after putting a little sugar in it.
"I want more sugar." Kendall whined.
"Sugar gives you more vivid dreams." Logan warned. Kendall nodded softly sipping his milk.
"Thank you for being nice with me even though I wake you up a lot." Kendall said smiling. Logan grinned he longed for seeing Kendall's smile.
"Kendall, I would do anything for you, you should know that." Logan said gently. Kendall nodded.
"Kendall?" Logan asked.
"Yes, Logie?" Kendall replied.
"Do you want to tell me what happened in your dream?" Logan asked. Kendall swallowed hard and slowly nodded.
"I trust you, Logie." Kendall said softly. Logan felt a bit hurt that Kendall had to confirm it to himself but he didn't let it show.
"I was in a dark room; it had nothing in it not even a door…" Kendall began before hesitating.
"Then part of the wall slide open and the two guys came in and they had…they had you." Kendall said. Logan saw the tears spring in his eyes.
"They said if I wasn't a good boy, they would kill you…so I let them do horrible awful stuff to me, Logie…but I was willing to do it to keep you alive and with me." A stray tear fell into Kendall's milk and Logan pulled Kendall's chin up and wiped the tear with his thumb.
"I let them do it to me Logie!" Kendall shrieked. He began to scratch at his arms again.
"No you didn't Kendall…" Logan began.
"Yes I did! I could've fought them though but I didn't. I was stupid and now all I think about is that I let them." Kendall said. "And I'm talking about the real part, not the dream."
"Kendall you were so young…" Logan said softly. Kendall shook his head.
"You're never too young to survive, Logie." Kendall said fiercely. Logan shut his mouth. He couldn't argue with that.
"Kendall, stop…you're stressing yourself out and you're going to get sick." Logan said taking Kendall's milk and putting the mug up to his lips.
"Drink." He commanded. Kendall nodded and drunk the milk, still hesitating at times. Logan pushed him on. Once Kendall finished, Logan lightly smiled and got up, kissing Kendall on the lips before washing the cups.
He lifted Kendall up by the under arm and brought him to the room. He got a wet, cold towel and put them on Kendall's arm to soothe them a little. Kendall sighed.
"I want Uncle Carlos." Kendall mumbled. "I miss him." Kendall said.
"I know Uncle Carlos can be a nut ball sometimes but if he says anything about sex give him a smack." Logan said.
Kendall faintly giggled. "That means I'll be smacking him all the time, Logie." He said. Logan laughed.
"You're right." He said.
"Logie, where's your daddy?" Kendall asked softly after Logan had removed the towels from his arms.
"My dad…we don't really talk." Logan said.
"Why not?" Kendall asked.
"He wouldn't accept me for the way I was." Logan said. Kendall nodded, reaching his arms out for Logan to take him into his arms.
"I love the way you are." Kendall said. Logan smiled. "I love the way you are too." Logan said kissing Kendall softly but as he was about to pull away, Kendall grabbed his chin and they kissed a little longer.
"I wanna play the game!" Kendall shrieked smiling once they pulled apart.
"No, Kendall." Logan said. "When you're twenty one and that's final."
Kendall pouted. "Uncle Carlos said it felt really good and I wanna feel good." Kendall whined.
"Well that kind of 'good' is highly inappropriate." Logan said pulling Kendall to his chest, shutting off the lights.
"Fine I guess kissing will do." Kendall said tiredly. Logan nodded.
"It better."Logan said. Kendall giggled.
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When Kendall woke up, it was really early and he started to hop on the bed. Logan groaned.
"Please Kendall…I wanna sleep." Logan begged.
"I wanna go to get bubbles!" Kendall screeched. Logan groaned. Kendall was always switching mood swings but the other feeling would be back.
"Kendall not now." Logan mumbled tiredly.
"Please it would make me happy." Kendall stopped. Logan tiredly sat up. It was already noon and Logan wanted Carlos to come over and watch Kendall while he ran some errands.
"I'll call Carlos to pick you up some." Logan said pressing the buttons on the dial. Kendall nodded.
"Hello?" Carlos' bright voice chirped over the phone.
"Hi Carlos." Logan said. "Are you still coming over to watch Kendall?" Logan asked.
"Hell yeah! I wouldn't miss a chance to spend a day with my boo number 2." Carlos cooed as if Kendall could hear him.
"Could you pick him up some bubbles? He's been bouncing on the bed for the last half hour begging for them." Logan said feeling the tiredness he'd previously possessed slipping away.
Carlos laughed. "My baby…" he said. "Tell him, I'll get them for him and give him a kiss and an I love you." Carlos said. Logan heard a ruffle and an annoyed sigh.
"James I'm on the phone!" Logan heard Carlos hiss. "N-no! I don't care if you're horn…" Carlos said pausing.
"Ooh you nasty little bastard." Logan heard Carlos say. "What are you gonna do?" he paused again.
"Oh my god…" Carlos whispered.
"Logan…." he said.
"Go, you horny asshole." Logan laughed. Carlos laughed before hanging up. Logan shook his head as Kendall lay on his back, looking at his feet.
"I gotta go pee." He suddenly said. Logan motioned him to go and Kendall sprinted out of the room.
Logan got up and fixed the bed while Kendall flushed and washed his hands.
Kendall and Logan simultaneously fell on the bed at the same time. They looked at each other weirdly then burst out laughing.
"I could lay with you all day, Logie." Kendall said.
"I could lay with you forever." Logan said smiling. Kendall laughed.
A/N I'm sorry you guys for being late again. It's like a routine. Anyway I've had a really bad day today and people pissed me the fuck off. I have like ten people I wanna beat the shit out of but I wanna be the type of person who is slow to anger. I love updating I really do but I'm in like a family of like a thousand people so I barely get the computer. The one or two hours are precious to me so I try hard to update. Please reward me with your reviews! I don't know what I'll update tomorrow so bye for now! Review! Lol. The next chapter will be cute :)
