(Winter Term, end of May/ start of June)
I feel strange during winter. I mean, I just can't explain it really. I feel fine until i feel the first snowflake fall on me in the first snow. As the Great Tree turns into a snow littered beauty, icicles and snow cover the bare branches of the tree, seeing as the snow replaces the fallen leaves. My head, my gizzard and heart act differently. I don't know what to listen to anymore, seeing as I am getting mixed messages. They are just telling me things and… I don't know. Also, I just feel like something is pulling me to the North also.
Why does every winter since I had turned 13 been like this?
In the Day, my mind wanders as I sleep. When I am just asleep, I just have the same dream, over and over again, every day. I can catch a break most of the time and I seriously want to catch a break. I have strange visions of an ancient mirror and a snowy owl who is wearing a lace scarf around her as her silver necklace shines in the moonlight. She has what looks like eyeliner that is the colour blue over her eyes. I think she is a goddess, seeing as all the portraits of the goddesses have those eyes, but in different colours. One night, I saw the beautiful snowy owl next to the mirror when an evil force comes in and tries to throw a rock at the mirror. She catches it as it flies into the mirror and she is adsorbed into the mirror. Then I see her with tears in her eyes and the dark owl approaching it and doing an evil laugh.
I don't know what these strange dreams mean or how it is connected with winter, but someday it will make sense. I need to figure out what all of this means.
It is the start of Winter Term and the snow interferes with everything. Flying to school in winter is just… brr! Even with our feathers insulating us, it is still freaking cold. Many students get the cold and have days off from school. In the middle of the Term, lower MMC has the cold. Wow, that is bad.
When the weather gets worse, then it is always referred to as the "bothersome blizzard" by Queen Barran when the weather becomes this bad. When we go to school, the icy winds are cold and annoying. Traveling to school in the evenings is just so cold and annoying and I have to wear several scarves. The "bothersome blizzard" blows us in all different directions when the wind picks up. Sometimes I have this strange feeling when I feel the icy winds brush against my body, it reminds me of the Northern Kingdom that just feels like it is home to me.
My mother tells me I was born in Ga'Hoole, but I originally come from the Northern Kingdom, as I am a Snowy. I think this is wack sometimes as I often wonder why my mother is a Tyto and I am a Snowy. She never gives me the answer and calls me naive. I mean, I never had a dad I guess and I wonder who he was. I had stopped asking ages ago as I hate being called naive. She would always tell me not to poke around. When she was away, she would always lock and hide things away so I wouldn't see anything.
I have often wondered how I have known Josh. I just have this hunch that we have known each other from somewhere and I think we were in primary or even owlet school together. I just admire him as he has been in master classes when he had entered the GTA. When he was younger, he tells me that his teacher in owlet school told his parents that he had a gift. They had him tested and he turned out to have the gift of intellect. Josh is in the classes Not because his status as a prince, but for his intellect that was turned out to be a gift.
Josh spends most of his time studying and he is as smart as his mother when it comes to facts, legends, history and also of the advanced vocab. He always reads his mother's books and his gift always is just so cool. When it comes to his vocab, He hardly uses it, as he is smart and everything, but he wants to blend in.
He is a role model, like me and the other upper Moon Master Class students for the juniors and primary schools students. He has fun with the kids and likes to spend time with them, like how his mum does sometimes. Besides, she and Ezylrib read to the kids in the library. The kids love it and Josh joins in the fun and reads those stories and legends from other kingdoms. Of course the violence and gore is toned down so they don't run around and scream until they pass out.
I do love my life in Ga'Hoole, but there is something pulling me toward the Northern Kingdom.
When I am near the snow or I feel the icy winds against me, it is like the snow and my dreams have a connection with the North. I just think I will have to go there someday for something and yet I don't know what. I seem to see a cave and there are lots of caves in the North, seeing as they live in them.
The snow makes me feel something and I don't know how it is connected to the North.
Oh bother… Will I ever stop my melodramatic dreaming? Sometimes I think there is someone watching me, even when no one is around. What is going on with that? Do I not feel safe anymore in The Great Tree? Is it this season that makes me so? Why is it that since I was 13 this has been happening. I would tell mum or probably Josh about it, but I don't know what to say. I just have a strange thing going on and I may never work out why I am acting this way.
My mind won't be at ease until this wretched season is over.
