Lucky You Have Me
Chapter Seven
Jason came home one night and found Carly on the couch, dressed in jeans and a silk blouse that was low cut, eating junk food and watching Lifetime Movie Network.
"Hey," he said
"Hi, Jase. Good day at work?"
He let out a tired sigh. "Long. What did you do?"
She had stopped working at the hotel because she refused to interact with Jax. She had tried it for a few weeks and it just got her upset. She didn't want to live in a war zone so she was having him buy her out of the hotel.
"Shopped."
He raised an eyebrow. His Penthouse was slowly starting to look like Carly everywhere he turned. A painting would show up one day. Throw pillows another. New pictures and picture frames on the mantel. Jason would always ask "What's this?" as if it was an alien but he didn't complain.
It was her home too after all.
He sat down next to her on the couch. She handed him her orange soda. He made a face. "Uh...no."
"What? Its good!"
"You and Spinelli can have that. I'll stick to my juice, beer, milk and water. I'm covered. I have enough to drink."
She tried to make him take a sip. "Just try it. You might like this brand."
"Stop. I mean it. No." He finally took a sip.
"See? It is good."
"If you say so. So what did you go shopping for today and is it gonna end up in this room?"
"How did you guess? A new couch."
"I like this couch."
"How can you like it? Its so uncomfortable. When you fall asleep on it you get a crick in your neck the next day. Besides, its gross. The boys sit on here."
He gave her a warning look but she barreled on anyway. "How many women have you had sex with on this couch?"
"Carly!"
"What? It's a valid question."
"That is none of your business. Besides Maxie redecorated not that long ago."
"Oh. Well the new couch will be here in three days."
"It better not have flowers on it."
She gave him a look that said it did. He gave her a look that said it was going back. She pushed his shoulder. "Kidding, Jase. You'll love it. I have amazing taste. Didn't I pick you?"
He shook his head at that. "You were bored."
"I knew quality when I saw it. Best pick I ever made."
He grinned a little at that and then took one of her cheese snacks. "How do you eat this?"
"Hey! I'm not having sex these days so I need something to make me happy. Leave my junk food alone. Its vital to me getting through this divorce."
"Then I'll have Graciella get a few extra bags this week."
Carly smiled at him. She looked so beautiful that he found himself pulling his eyes away and looking at the TV. "Can I ever again watch the news in here?"
"Why would you want to? That's filled with depressing crap every night. This is actually something to cheer a person up."
"This?"
"Give it a chance."
Jason got up and headed for the kitchen. Carly pouted. He said "What? I would give it a chance but I'm hungry. I haven't eaten since this morning."
"Fine. I'll pause it for you."
He gave her a look that said Don't bother but she just smiled at him and he knew he'd be watching that chick flick once he got some dinner.
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The days went on and Jason started to love his life again. One afternoon Carly walked into his office.
He threw up a hand. "You don't knock?"
She looked upset.
He bounded to his feet and asked "What's wrong?"
She pulled some papers out of her purse. "Diane just gave me these to sign." She sat them down and he saw they were about the divorce.
He let out a long breath. "You don't have to do anything till you're ready."
Her face crumbled. "How do I do this, Jase?"
He walked around the desk and took her in his arms. For a long minute he held her. Finally she moved away.
He asked "You want to get back with Jax?"
"No! I'll never trust him again."
"Then what's the problem?"
"Signing those papers say I failed again. I don't think I can stand that another time."
"So you'll stay married so you don't gotta admit you failed?!"
"You don't get it! When I married him that was supposed to be it! Never before did I really give up every other fantasy in my head like I did on that day you helped me to get ready to marry Jax. When you gave me away that was supposed to be the last time but here I am right back where I started again and what does that say about me? I always screw it all up. You know it and I know it. Why divorce Jax? Just to go screw it up with another man? I might as well just give up on love altogether."
Jason said nothing.
Carly cried "What? You think I should give up on love?!"
"I didn't say that. I didn't say anything. You have to make this decision yourself but..." he held her arms "I don't think you screw everything up. I think Jax put himself before you and before Michael. You can forgive him for that or you can not but this is not your fault. Not this time."
She hugged him. "Why am I still so scared to end up alone?"
"You can't end up alone cause I'm right here."
"And that's why I can't ever lose you. If you gave up on me I'd fall to pieces."
"Never gonna happen."
She moved away from him, grabbed a pen and signed the papers. "There! Its over." Tears fell from her eyes. Her hands covered her face. Jason hugged her again.
(When you try your best
but you don't succeed.
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When you get what you want
but not what you need.
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When you feel so tired but you can't sleep.
Stuck in reverse.
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And the tears coming streaming
down your face.
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When you lose something
you can't replace.
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When you love someone
but it goes to waste.
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Could it be worse?
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Light will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try
to fix you. ) (Cold play)
