I cry. My heart is crushed and i just cry. I don't know when i will stop this. Josh tries his hardest to try and stop me from crying, but I just can't. I had lost the one person who cared for me after my real family, especially my real mother who had sacrificed her life to save me, had died. Josh won't let go of me, no matter what happens. I guess he is the one that will protect me from now on, seeing as he promised that he would.
In my dreams, I have constant reminders of my past and I am waking up at bad hours of the afternoon and this is driving me crazy. I hope I can get some sleep tonight.
(In vision, Lydea is 14 years old and she is starting school at the GTA)
"My precious snowflake is going to her first day of the Guardian Training Academy. I am so proud of you." Alina says
"I am going to show them what I've got and I want to be a Guardian someday, mum." I reply
"Go on, Lydea. School is starting and I have to go now." She says
"You are going already? But I want to tell you how my first day is like when I get home." I whine
"Lydea, I have to go now. I know you have being by yourself, but I have to go on a mission." She replies
"I understand." I reply "Goodbye, mum." I then say
(End of vision)
I wake up and Josh is standing beside me. He is seeing if I am ok and I burry my head into chest feathers and start to cry. He consoles me and he says by the way I was sleep-talking I had remembered my first day of the GTA. He then puts me to sleep again as I could hear his strong heartbeat as I had leant against him. He stays with me, to see if I would have another daymare of memories.
The day of Alina's final ceremony comes and I am in the worst part of the grief cycle and i just can't stop this crying as the bones burn. My mind isn't at ease as I cannot get out of my head all of the happy memories I had when I was growing up. I never knew that my identity could cause the people who care about me to die or get hurt. Why do the Pure Ones want to kill me when I mean them no harm? I just want to be a normal girl again and I wish that this was all just a dream.
Queen Barran thinks that she can get me out of this state and I admire the fact that she cares about my problem (possibly as she hopes for me to take my kingdom back As soon as possible and to seek out the mirror. Before i get grief related depression and go nuts). She had given me a pep talk. Barran cares that my parents are dead and she somehow understands the crushing sadness and loneliness I feel. She tells me that her parents died when she was an owlet also. Wow… She is an orphan also. She tells me not to tell Josh and I promise.
Because of my condition, I can miss exams and can catch them up at a later date. Josh is in the middle of exams and i am bored out of my mind and crying is the only thing my mind can think about. I am practically alone all night with nothing to do and things are getting better as I have time to think and attend physio therapy for my wings.
Yet again, it gets worse and worse as a scroll is delivered in the middle of the day. I noticed it there when I woke up and It reads:
"Be prepared, Lydea Schana. All hell will break loose and when I am done with you."
The death threat comes at a bad time; a mega weather storm hits the tree. The storm is that bad that class are cancelled and people are avoiding going outside or near the base of the tree. Waves crash against the rocks at the base of the tree and they are very high. The rain falls rapidly as storm clouds line the sky lightning flashes all around us. I hope that the Shrine of Cheyenne won't be flooded. It is at the base of the tree and the waves are high enough to flood it if it happens. The winds are why classes were cancelled as they blow and force people in different directions and it is too strong to fight. The storm has been classed as a tropical cyclone and we all have to stay inside, no matter what, unless we have to go outside.
I stay inside and am reading books by candlelight. Josh is also reading books as we are just having a time when we are just reading I guess. Then I move onto studying my subjects for the exams I will have to do soon.
My studies are impacted by flashback after flashback of my happy life and it shows me every happy moment in my life. I even remember something that was forgotten years and years ago, the first few hours of my life. I see my mother's smile and the rest of my family. Then the Pure Ones attack and they all take evasive action. Then i remember my mother clutching to me and me burrowing my head into her. That is all i remember before i just stop and start silently crying to myself. Josh sees that I am crying and he asks if I am ok and I just tell him of what is going on.
I realise that i am destined to try and fight for my kingdom. I have to find the mirror as i was born to protect it. The secret and the mirror legend is what my family bloodline have been a part of for many generations. I have to save my kingdom and myself. Then i stop crying and get the note when josh leaves the room. I hold it in my hand as i use the fire of the candle to burn it. I take it over to the window and throw it out as it flies off into the wind and turns to dust. Then close the window before Josh comes back.
Then the storm stops, the moon appears and the water calms down. I wonder how that happened and why the storm stopped. Maybe my emotions caused this? Maybe that i have found my inner strength and conquered my sadness and fears it stopped. The weather was probably caused by my emotions. They find it peculiar as the Weather Chaw tracks the storm as it moves away. Josh comes back i tell him only one thing when enters.
"I think it is time to see the scrolls"
