Sixth Letter
May 22th 1998, Grimmauld Place
Dearest Draco,
I've just received a letter from my parents today. They have quit their jobs but it's going to be awhile before they can sell the house. They don't know how long but they probably won't be home for the next couple of months. I've written them a reply where I've told them that I'll probably be staying with Harry even though they are coming home. I hope they won't take it too bad, but I just can't leave Harry alone with Teddy and the big house. Granted, he has Kreacher and Molly has been visiting a lot lately. But the house is still enormous and it gets really quiet very fast. And we love living together just as we both love Teddy.
I've also decided to go back to Hogwarts to finish my last year. Harry and Ron aren't going back. Ron is working with George at Weasley's Wizard Wheezes, Fred and George joke-shop. But if you remember I told you in a former letter that Fred had been killed during the Battle of Hogwarts (strange name isn't it? I mean, we weren't fighting for Hogwarts we were fighting for our freedom and Muggle-rights), and Ron offered George his help. Harry isn't going back foremost because of Teddy but he has also received an offer from the Auror Office. They want him to go through Auror training even if he doesn't have his Hogwarts diploma. They figured that with all the things he has been through he could still be useful to them. If he makes it he'll be the youngest Auror ever. But I won't be going back alone. Ginny still needs to finish her last year and so does Dean Thomas. There are probably many others but these two I know that you know. I don't know if you will be returning as well, I mean you were drawn out of school during Easter if I heard correctly, so you also didn't get to finish your last year. I hope that you know that if you decide to go back you'll have at least one friend there. If you'll have me.
Your room at St. Mungo's has been quite abandoned lately. I've gone to see you twice and both times your mother wasn't there. I think this whole thing might be taking a toll on her. I know I would feel that way if I was her. I didn't stay longer either of the times I saw you. The first time I just dropped by to give you the last letter and the second time I just checked up on you. I talked to one of the healers and they are still optimistic. They have ruled out several possibilities in order to find the right antidote for you. But even so there are still many other possibilities to go through. However we are all still keeping our fingers crossed.
And God, did I have crossed fingers during our fourth year? I have never in my life been as anxious as when Harry was in the Triwizard Tournament. We all knew that Harry's name was put in the Goblet of Fire because someone wished for him to die during the Tournament. He could have used your loyal support as a friend then. And we could all have used your brain to solve the riddles. In my girly fantasies that are so unlike me I have imagined how you would have asked me to the Yule Ball. And I would have been happy to accept you. Neither Ron nor Harry realised that I was just as much a girl as Fleur Delacour or Cho Chang. But I'm sure that you would know. You wouldn't just see me as 'one of the guys', and therefore you would ask me as soon as the Yule Ball was proclaimed. And then I wouldn't have to go with Viktor. Not that I object to that, I still had a wonderful evening and me and Viktor are still friends, but I would have preferred to be with you. We would have danced all night. I'm certain that you are a very skilful and graceful dancer. Perhaps you would even have kissed me under the mistletoe before we said goodnight and went to bed. Oh, here I go again with silly fantasies. I can't turn back time. I once could, did you know that? in our third year I had to many classes that Professor McGonagall gave me a Time-Turner so I could get to all my classes. But after that year I had to return the Time-Turner and during our fifth year Harry, Ron, Neville, Luna, Ginny and I destroyed the Ministry's supply of Time-Turner's. So there is now no way for me to go back in time and change this. And even if I had a Time-Turner I wouldn't use it. Time is a complicated thing so there is no way of knowing how one, tiny little change could possibly affect the present and the future.
The second time I visited you in the Hospital Harry came with me. He has been a true friend. Not only has he let me stay in his house with him but he has also supported me beyond anything I would have imagined. Ron would never have done such a thing as visiting you. It's not because he isn't a good friend. He is just so stubborn sometimes. And I'm afraid he is very stubborn in his views and opinions of you. It will be a very long time before he accepts the change in you, I tell you. I've seen it building for the last two years but Ron doesn't want to see it. Right now I understand him. His life is so turbulent after Fred's death that he doesn't need another disturbance. But sooner or later he has to face the truth; that you are no longer the evil bastard you once were, sorry for the language. You truly have changed. I don't know what has caused this change but it warms my heart and gives me hope. Hope that there is still some good in this world. And hope that not all things are certain and carved in stone.
I will end this letter now with a final plea. A plea for you to wake up and start living again. that is all I ask of you and this magical world. For now at least.
Yours truly
Hermione
I really want to thank all the reviewers that got me to write this chapter. As I said in the fifth chapter I was losing touch with the story and didn't feel it anymore. That was mostly because the reviews had stopped coming, and you don't realize how much you have been depending on the reviews as you write. How much you actually use them.
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