Twelfth Letter
June 20th 1998, Grimmauld Place
Dear Draco,
I am so sorry that it has taken me so long to finally write this letter. I should have written you earlier but I've just been so busy.
Harry and I decided to work on his house. Sure, there have been a lot of improvements on it, but those were made to make it work as the Headquarter for the Order. Now we both have to live in it and it's still not fit for living. So we started in the entrance hall and worked our way through the house. It's so big that I have my own floor and Harry has his. We share a kitchen which we have decorated Scandinavian style. The curtains are blue and white patterned, the walls are painted white but all the furniture is dark wood. We even have a bench with our rustic table. We have started spending a lot of time after the kitchen was remodelled, since it's just so charming and cosy. Even Teddy seems to love it.
Well, Harry decorated his floor with all the new technology available. Not that he needs any of it, since he's a wizard and all, but both he and I were brought up as Muggles and therefore there just are some things we can't do without. The TV for example. Your probably don't even know what a TV is. It's most likely the hardest Muggle thing to explain. Hmm, where to begin? Well, imagine that you can save a situation and then watch it over and over again. it's more complicated than that is just Muggle technology. So just imagine that something happens in real life and someone saves it for everyone to see. Normally we watch movies on TV, you have probably been to a play one time or another and a movie is just a play on TV. I hope this makes some sort of sense to you. No matter what I would love it if we could watch a movie together. You get to pick it.
My floor is the total opposite of Harry's. I don't think my rooms could be more old-fashion and romantic. I have four rooms: a bedroom, a library/office, a living room and a bathroom. All the rooms are painted white with hardwood floors, and the furniture are mainly made of cherry wood and green or yellow fabrics. I can't really describe it, you have to see. If you want to, of course.
Besides decorating and renovating I've also been busy with working on the antidote. We have come miles since I last wrote to you. We've come so far that I've been working with the healers almost fulltime. We just tested our newest antidote today, and the respond we got was amazing. You were so close to being conscious. You sat up in the bed but then fell backwards again. The healers are all very optimistic and many of them are talking about the possibility of you waking up before the end of this month. I have all my fingers crossed. And so does your mother.
We've been spending a lot of time together lately and we've really gotten to know each other. She also gets along nicely with Harry, but I really didn't think there would be a problem there since Narcissa saved Harry's life and Harry saved yours. They owe each other. But the one person your mother really loves is Teddy. She simply can't get enough of that little boy. She dotes on him every time she visits us. Last time she brought him one of your old toys, an extremely cute teddy (!) bear that can speak. I wanted to introduce your mother to Mrs. Weasley but she didn't think it would be a good idea. So they still haven't met each other. I think your mother was right, since Molly doesn't even know about my feelings for you. Well, at least I haven't told her about them and I don't think that Ron or Ginny would do that to me. God, she would be so shocked if I told her. But she is still a reasonable woman who just wants what's best for me. She wants to see me happy.
So as you can imagine, there hasn't been a lot of time for letter writing in between renovating, antidote-making, being with your mother and sitting by your bed for countless hours each day. I have been so crazed that I haven't even had time to miss my parents. They sent me another letter saying that there wasn't really any change since the last time and that the house was still for sale without any real buyers. I just really hope that they'll be home soon. Like I hope that the healers are right that you will wake up before the end of this month.
The prospect of you waking up soon has made me think a lot about the future. I have absolutely no idea how I should act around you when you come around. I don't know if I should keep visiting you like I do now, or if I should just stay away. Perhaps the latter is the best then you can decide if you want to see me. It's really hard for me to think about this. It's very likely that I'll be there when you wake up and that's another thing that worries me. When you wake up I'll most likely want to hug you or maybe even kiss you. But since you won't have any idea about my feelings before you read these letters I can't very well do that. For all I know you'll still hate me and possibly even be repulsed by me. Merlin, I can't stand to think of this! It makes me so depressed and confused that I don't know what to do with myself. Usually I always have a solution to my problems but this one I simply can't solve! I'll just have to wait and see what happens when you wake up.
Draco, it's really important to me that you know that I don't expect you to just read these letters and fall madly in love with me. I just hope that you'll at least give me a chance without laughing at me or something like that. Well, I'll have to go now. Harry is waiting in the kitchen with a fresh pot of tea.
Your
Hermione
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